Wednesday, May 12, 2004

i just wanna strangle her!
uhhhyaaaa! (<- scream) i am really mad today and at the same time really happy i just don't know why im so happy i know perfectly well why im mad! and im really REALLY mad at my friend yuri (find her on friend's list) how dare she! i can't belive her! okay for you to follow i guess i should start at the begining thing is i don't know where that is so i guess i'll just start

today our school had something called "fun day" and it was surprisingly fun we were split up into groups and i had absolutly no friends in mine (we couldn't pick our own) and to make matters worse i had shane (a guy i really don't like) in my group oh i was soooo looking forward ta that! when we left school ta walk ta the football feild (wasn't too far, so we still had lots of energy left) and as you probably could guess all the calsses got mixed up and when we got there i could find my group (let alone that i oly knew 2 people and THEY were nowhere in sight!) so finaly i found them and would shane let me live down that i was the last one ta get there and they had ta wait before they could start? of course not! so when we did start we played kick ball which is kinda fun most of the time but when you are playing with mostly 8th graders and other sporty people its not cuz they yell at you if you don't get ta frist fast enough or catch that popfly or chase after that ball and throw it 'fore the kid can get ta second! *sigh* so that was fun and then we moved on to softball, which is equally bad, and finaly we moved onto a variation of capture the flag called the egale's nest (if you don't know, i'll explain l8er) and for the 3rd time that day i was on shane's team *sigh* which normaly would spell disaster but once in a while shane can be.... i don't know; barable, cool, almost even *shuders* even NICE ta be around??? and thanks be to God, he was taday i remember that he got frozen during one of th games and i was standing right there on our side and he reached his hand out calling my name not in his usual teasing way but in a way like we had always been close friends it kinda creeped me out but i grabed on and pulled him over i know if i was younger or less mature and he was acting like he usualy did then i would usualy ignor his plead and just go on my way making some smart come-back and sticking out my tongue but if the guys just realized "if im nicer to kate then she'll be nicer to me" our lives would be a whole lot more pleasant oh and on a lighter note i scored for my team cuz when one of my teammates made a run for it with their flag and got taged i said i would take it back and the girls around thinking i was on their team agreed and i started walking back towards their nest and then i turned and made a breack for it and we won that round ^_^ then we moved on to flicker or flika ball or what ever it is and that was fun but after that is when my anger came in, see we went ta have a snack before we went on ta the next area thing and i saw yuri and thought "oh i better avode her" (cuz she's not my favorite friend and cuz i just wanted to) anyways on our way back ta school yuri started talking about her friend in california whose name happens ta be the same as my boyfriend who lives down there so i was thinking she was talking about him so i started say all this stuff and evenutaly "he hasn't talked to me much l8ly but i don't blaim him-" *yuri starts to make an oh my gosh laugh* "what?"
"i think i know why"
*raises eyebrow*
"cuz of what i said"
"what did you really saw to him anyway?"
*raises eyebrow*
"like word for word"
"uhh that if he ever hurts you phisicaly or emotionaly then i'll track him down and kill him with my own 2 hands" *says sheepishly*
"WHAT!!!!! how could you do that?!!!! (i alread knew she treatened him and was upset enough but when i heard she treatened murder i was absolutly furious!)"
"im jsut trying to protect my friends"
"i can take care of myself!!!!!" what made her think i wanted her to!?
"oh? so why you let people walk all over you?"
*gets ready ta yell*
"im just trying ta be a good friend" a good friend! a good friend?!??!! i couldn't belive it! this was the only act of friendship i ever had from her let only kindness (she barrows with out even telling me and then doesn't say thank you when she gives it back, IF she gives it back!) and i hated it!
"well if i were being a good friend right now," <-uzali "then i would tell you to dunp jarred" (he's 17 and has been dating 13 year olds all year)
"what! why?!"
"cuz he's a pervert!" <-uzali
*uzali explains why, while i stare off into space thinking about yuri and jarred's realatonship comparred ta mine and my boyfiend's*
'well at least she's HEARD his voice (she's never seen him) i haven't even done that, it has just been over the net talk'

so that's one reason im so mad, the other is cuz of my big mouth, cuz of it i may have lost a firend over something i don't even think:

well in the lunch line i was commenting my friend cassi on her black hat and out slipped the sentece "my mom thinks you're a goth cuz of how you dress" *starts hitting self* how could i have been so stupid!? i really needed a filter right then so as the conversation dragged on she forced out of me that my mom doesn't trust cuz she thinks she is goth and she believes the typical sterotype of goths, she said she is not gonna wear black anymore it's all gonna be pink and green! LIGHT green! ta make her "dress in smiles" i tried telling her that i don't care that my mom doesn't like, like, any of my firends and i don't care what she thinks anyway and that she is one of the nicest most no goth person i know but she wont listen! what should i do?
~Taleybo (sorry how it's so long, i just had a lot on my mind)
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