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Birthday
• 1992-06-13
Gender
• Female
Location
• I am where I am. Where that is, is none of your concern. Thank you.
Member Since
• 2006-08-29
Occupation
• Philosopher of sorts.
Real Name
• Raine Sage if u may so kindly call me.

Personal

Achievements
• Achievements acknowledged by others countless, yet meaningless. Achievements my most cherished and I acknowledge are few, yet meaningful.
Anime Fan Since
• Who knows when I began.
Favorite Anime
• Loveless, Inuyasha, DNAngel, FLCL, Tsubasa, xxxHolic, Kamichama Karin, Chrono Crusade, Fullmetal Alchemist, Cardcaptor Sakura, etc.
Goals
• To become a doctor and to live my life fully, get married, have at least one child, and die in a honourable way rather than death by cowardice. Probably while protecting someone.
Hobbies
• play guitar, paint, draw, write, listen
Talents
• painting, drawing, writing stories, poetry, play guitar, and to listen

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Saturday, October 7, 2006

Hello All!!

Just woke up about an hour ago. I think. Yeah that sounds right. I luv my weekly 14 hours sleep. ^^ Well I am pumped and ready for wutever comes my way! I'm stuck at home all day so nothing really is going to happen. *sigh* I wish I could drive. Then I would be.... in Mexico probably. o_O I'm not good with directions or a map hehe. well let's see. nothing to say right now so..... I'll probably post again later. Maybe.. I need a butterfinger. *opens secret butterfinger box* Yay!!! *looks into box* Oh CRAP NO!!! It's empty. First that stupid machine ate my dollar and left my butterfinger hanging yesterday!! And now my secret stash is all gone!!!! NOOOOO!!!

And that concludes the events of the morning. ^^

~Drama from the Mamster

Poem of the Day:
Your Voice

I lie in bed,
await your call.
Your sweet voice,
keeps me calm.
In pain I lie,
hardly breathing.
Hurry and come,
the pain's seething.
The voices in my head,
all haunt me lik a ghost.
Only your voice can keep them at bay,
And keep my heart from going cold.
Come for me,
Don't leave me behind.
Save me from my fears,
and these voices of mine.

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Friday, October 6, 2006

Hello All

It's finally over!!!! The end of the week. The fat lady has sung. No homework.......... til Sunday. eheh ^_^' I'm at my grandparents house right now and I'm trying to get my mom to take me home. T-T It's not fair. I'm tired. I even tried slamming my head against the wall before but I'm still so tired. I'm barely awake. I need a butterfinger.... next to anime, a butterfinger is my drug, my meds, my .... addiction!!! Anyody got a buck.Mine won't go in the vending machine. Dangit!! Someone save me from my wrinkled dollar bill!!! Ok... it went in.... B8... I said B8!! ok it's going... come on... drop.....NOOOOO!!! It'stuck!!!Why? Why me? oh well.

I'll post the poem later. I don't have my poem book with me. Well adios.

~ mourning the butterfinger from the Mamster

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Wednesday, October 4, 2006

WAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!

*sobbing* I just saw the FMA movie. It made me cry. The movie itself didn't make me cry.... sort of.... but that's not why I'm crying. Just to let some of you who are a little dense (no offense) my username isn't true. I cry just like everyoneelse. Didn't mean to offend anyone just wanted to get that out of the way. (tho I do wish I was tearless.) Anyway. I get this feeling everytime I finish a good book. They leave you with a craving for what happens after the guy dies, they fall in love, they beat the monster, they solve the mystery, etc. Well, the FMA series did that to me. I cried forever. (until my mom came in and slapped me silly saying it's just a cartoon but then I'm like "no it's not. It's my therapy. I stay sane because of this!!")Well the movie did that to me. You think you'll be satisfied because the series left ya hangin' and then it turns out the movie did it too. Same with videogames. except it's a little easir cause you can play it over and over. Same with books. But anime... No!!! I can't go on. What the hell happened to them afterwards? I need help. Seriously...... *starts crying again*

Anyhoo, I'll give all of you Edward fangirls a little hint on what happens in the movie. *looks side to side shiftily* In the movie Ed gets...*whispers* completely nude.
*falls down laughing* gotcha!! Just kidding. He's still hot like before. This time around you don't see him take off his shirt or anything like he did in the series (a lot o_O) And guess what? Another chick falls in love with him... that's like.... *counts on fingers* Winry (I think), Rose (I think). I dunno. But there's a lot you can be sure. Too many for my taste. *devilish grin* hehe *flashes gun* JK

And that's all she wrote folks. *in singsong voice waving finger* And no one trying to get spoilers out of me. My secrets are mine and mine alone. That is unless there's an upfront fee. So That's about it. And.... *I'm going to go find a corner and cry until they make another FMA movie. Or someone buys me the DVD. (I rented it from Netflix) *sobs*

~ SOBS FROM THE MAMSTER

Poem of the Day:
My Last Love Song

You tore me up, and yet I never cared,
You destroyed me and yet I never cried.
Everytime you said you loved me,
Was a pain, I nearly died.
Crying in my sleep for every pain,
That I wrote this down so distraughtly.
My last love song sings forever,
I wrote that was ought to me.
The song sings of pain and sorrow,
Of love and despair true.
I never should have wrote it down,
But I wrote it just for you.
My song singsof love and insanity,
My last love songs sings for an eternity.

I still haven't gotten over that thing with the hamsters. So hilarious. I wanna be a hamster..... not really but it would be cool. ^^ Anyhoo. Nothing happened. I pretty much didn't get homework...but between you and me i really did but i don't want to do it. don't tell my mom. let's see racist creep made fun of me, teachers going on a teaching rampage, attacked by crazed cheerleaders, best friend slept thru P.E., and..... that about wraps it up. That racist creep gets on my nerves. Like he can make fun of how i look. He should look in the mirror (or rather a weight scale) hmph. *pouts* aw well. he'll get his just desserts! *evil smile* heeheehee! Anyhoo. That's about it.

PEACE FROM THE MAMSTER!!

Poem of the Day:
Beneath the Mask

You ask me why I wear this mask,
I wear it to hide from all my fears.
I mask my identity and my sight,
May they never see my tears.
I cannot cry when I don my mask,
To cry would prove no point.
You cannot cry when a mask blocks your eyes,
Tearless is a title I do coin.

You ask me if I'll ever take off my mask,
I only do when I'm alone,
Where nothing hurts and pains me so,
Whenever I am at my lonesome home.
To reveal the face that hides within,
Would be my demise.
No one shall see the face beneath,
'Tis would be most unwise.

You asked me to show you,
What I am beneath the mask.
I cannot for fear of pain,
I cannot complete that task.
Although my fears are still in wake,
I trust you with my fate.
I take down my mask, await the pain,
But you said, "What a beautiful face."

*I dreamt this one too and it reminded me of an avatar.*

Delirium has taken over once again. In class I had to read two stories. The first was all right with the irony thing going on and then the next story was SOOOOOOOOOOOo boring. For 4 pages it described how rainy a place was, and I was screaming in my head "I GET IT!!! EVERYTHING WET!!!" Well, when the story got to where SOMETHING happened, the bell rang. And then *squeaky crying voice* a little part of me died. *cries*
Well anyhoo!! Later I found out I had no friends. I saw one of my friends early in the day but I never saw her again. Spooky I know. Well, I was lonely. In P.E. I did talk to this girl who is kind of a friend but I don't talk to her much cuz it's just kind of hard. She has a conversation for 30 sec. and then something new pops up. Well, we ended up talking about how I wake up like a hamster. (wake up, poke head out of sheets, look around sleepily, burrow back in) Then we talked about if I turned into a hamster, my crying on the phone with my friend on the other end, she asks for my mom to put the phone to the hamster, and then she'll ask "Sqeak twice if you are my friend" Squeak Squeak, and then She could understand me, I can understand her and hamsters, and we would rule the world with the power of all hamsters. We would be hamster Queens. She'd be Hamster Queen Lauren, And I would be THE ALL PWERFUL EMPEROR OF ALL HAMSTERDOM. Mamster for short. My name begins with a "M" and then "amster" from "hamster". cool huh?
Well that concludes my day. And if ya'll want you can call me from now on wither Raine like always or....THE ALL POWERFUL EMPEROR OF ALL HAMSTERDOM.....or just Mamster.......

Poem of the Day:
Tell Me A Lie

She asked him with hysteria in her eyes,
"Please. Tell me a lie."
"I love you."
Was his only reply.
Those three last words were all she heard,
For the next moment she died.
She knew what he would say,
With a pocket ready for his reply.
He saw her plunge it deep in her heart,
and instantly knew why.
He thought it a joke to ask for a lie,
but he told her the truth and then she died.
He grabbed the knife and slid it in his own heart.
And whispered, "'I hate you' is my lie."
Therefore the two died,
Of one truth and one lie.

I dreamed this last night. I woke up crying. It's sooooo sad. *sniffle*

i finished that drawing. I was talking about before. It looks decent enough. Here it is:

acidentally cyt the tail off hehe...

I am fully rested!! 14 hours of sleep does wonders!! Well today. . . has just started so nothing really happened yet. I have homework but I don't really want to do it. *mom comes in yelling to do homework* NO! YOU CAN'T MAKE ME!!!!!! *cries uncontrollably* I'm exaggerating. It's just a couple worksheets. XD But Procrastination is my middle name! or was it Renee? or Elizabeth? I forgot. Oh well. I'm dilirious. ^^ (no duh.)

I recently got a poem that was so beautiful I nearly cried (Literally!!) I don't know if that person wants to be known or not and I really want to post it. (I hope you don't get mad, my friend) I'll just name them anonymous unless they say otherwise. I just thought it was so touching I had to post it (also cause I ran out of poems myself, but that's beside the point) Well, here it is.

Poem of the Day:
Black Bleeding Heart

Fighting with terror,
Fighting with pain.
No matter the distance,
It makes me insane.

I want you to know,
I want you to feel.
The pain deep inside me,
Is just way too real.

The roads that I've taken,
The words that I've said.
You knew this way too late,
And deep inside me, I felt it bled.

My heart is dark and full of hate,
My eyes are full of tears.
You didn't know my beings,
But I know your chilish fears.

Though love is frail,
It never dies.
But hate is consuming,
And hate never lies.

Long ago,
A painful start.
Deep inside me,
A black, bleeding heart.

~Anonymous (unless they say otherwise)

Hello Again.
I had a couple friends over last night and they wore me out. Up till 5:30 A.M. then my mom woke us up 4 hours later. We watched a lot of movies and played videogames. Right now I feel like my head is about to pop. @_@ I would go to bed now, but I washed my bed sheets and they haven't dried yet. On Saturdays I'm also supposed to clean for my parents so I am super wiped!!! Even though I'm tired I still think it's worth having friends over. (even though they did trash my room and break my favorite ornament -_-' ) Oh look laundry's done! ^_^ Bye!

I'm so bored. I need a life other than this. I'm trying to help my friend with an art project for school. She says it has to be a horror kind of creature like in movies. So far we decided on demon dog from hell pretty much. Any ideas for the pic will be appreciated. ^_^ If you guys want to help that is. . . . . . .

No clue what to talk about so I'll just talk about anime. You would think I would sooner this being Otaku and everything. >_< Let's see. . . Inuyasha is cool. Yesterday I watched the 4th movie. I do that netflix thing cause it's kind of cheaper. AND THE ANIME! THE GLORIOUS ANIME!!! ENDLESS ANIME!! It's awesome. I have over a hundred coming to my house. (1 at a time of course) Well, that inuyasha movie was awesome. The next movie I get from netflix will be the FMA movie. I heard it's the best sequel to a series ever. (no wait the commercial said it) ^_^ And then after that It's either DNAngel or Chobits. I can't remember which. My dad set it up for me and let me loose on the anime section of netflix and in about an hour (including all the disks of each series) I got over 150 discs coming to my house. YAY!!! I ran out of ideas of which anime I should reserve so any ideas?
Well, I gotta go do homework . . . in 3 hours!!! I just can't think of anything else. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . BYE!!!

Poem of the Day:
Dying

Why do I feel as if I'm dying?
My heart is cold, my mind numb.
I feel as if my next breath may be my last.
Please don't tell me life is done.
I haven't finished searching myself.
I don't know anything about me.
I'm not afraid of death although,
But I am afraid of what I be.
Let me find myself,
And I'll go quietly.
I do not fear death.
But I do fear my mind dying.

*a little less quality than normal. I'm running out of poems!!! I gotta get to work. -_-'*