Wednesday, September 8, 2021

   Blast From The Past
It's been over a decade and I'm updating this thing. My last update was technically in 2009 but I deleted that post.

My boyfriend decided to search on the web using my old usernames as a way to fuck with me and found this old blog. It's embarrassing, but luckily he didn't really go through it. Thank god.

I deleted a lot of the old posts. There's not much to look at, but it's a mere reflection on who I was a child. And that's just it, I was a child. This website was an escape from the trauma and abuse I was enduring in school and at home, so this was one of the few outlets I had. So, looking back on some of the shit I posted here, it's astounding how people just dealt with reading these nauseating posts when I was using poor grammar and didn't make much sense of myself. I don't mind starting over on here, but there's not much of a community on these blogs anymore. I'm aware of the new set up called TheOtaku, but it's confusing to use. I ended up deleting just about everybody on my friends list that haven't updated in almost 20 years. It's crazy how I used to call these people my friends despite how childish I was. I was notorious on here for my grammar that's for sure.

The reason why I made this blog to begin with was because an old "friend" of mine (we will call her CCorn) had a blog herself and shared it with me. Her account was deleted and I honestly don't even remember what her username was. Either way, I was 14 at the time and she was 16.

Actually, let's start a series reflecting on some old posts explaining myself in greater detail. This is gonna be quite therapeutic for me. Let's begin:
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So, CCorn and I used to be friends and lived a couple of houses away from each other. She was also big into anime and manga like I was, and I really looked up to her. She is an amazing artist as well. There were countless days where I would watch her play Kingdom Hearts and admire her gaming tactics. She introduced me to so many things and I'm still grateful for that.

However, I can imagine that being 'friends' with a '14' year old is not really the norm especially if you're in high school, so I can imagine she was probably annoyed by me. Here is the post I will be reflecting on today:




"Thursday, April 14, 2005

i feel horrible.....
yesterday, at night, i turned on my cell to call my bro. i soon realize i got there mesages. i listen to them. it said it was my friend calling to see if we could hang out...then she said bye....the next message was "hey, its me agian-we're watching fruits baskets, we're getting kinda worried- bye." and the last one was jus sumthin 2 do about seeing me.......i suddunly realize..............................................................................................................it wasnt my friend.....it was her sister. and she's 18. i got scared. so i calkl them and asked if they eva called.....my friend says no. so then i paused....i asked if i could speak to her mom...(she picked ^ the phone).....and she said she was asleep.....i suddenly got kinda angry. i told her that she jus picked up the phone...she avoided the situation and suddenly the 18 year old sis got on the phone w/ me and then said"STOP TRYING TO WAKE MY MOM UP!"...after that....my parent barged in and ripped her a new one....theni explain the whole situation.......they're not satisfied. they then called my friends house and left a nasty message....and then soon they was talking to the 18 year old.......but..i guesss SHE ripped my parent a new one...........i was frozen....sitten there......crying my head off......then i suddenly lost my friends who i thought thery were in the 1st place...... so.....plese be good to ur friends-FRIENDS DONT DO THAT!-TRUE FRIENDS ARE NOT LIKE THAT!!!!!! plese, make a choice of who ur bfs are-like foods...CHOOSE UR FOODS! ;_"





Ok, it's cringy to read. Thank you for getting through that.

This was about how CCorn's oldest sister (who was a legal adult) prank called and verbally harassed me. It's one thing if a 16 year old doesn't want to be around middle school children, I get that, but to have an 'adult' harass a child in the way she did was completely disgusting. What adult prank calls a child? My parent, on the other hand, grabbed the phone from me when I didn't want them to know I was being harassed; considering I was already abused at home to begin with. I didn't need extra shit on my plate. So there was this feud between CCorn's family and my family and they were bullying each other, like fucking children. It's pathetic all around, and I got the brunt of their bullshit. Even at one point CCorn's sister went to my house and popped one of the tires of our cars. And one of my siblings literally stayed up all night just to keep guard of the driveway. That's when cameras were installed.

Nobody in this situation acted appropriately. And from then on I stopped interacting with CCorn and her family.

Even after cameras were installed, there was another time CCorn's sister tried to prank call me again. Both of them tag teaming this time. I kept hanging up quickly every time they called. Eventually they stopped calling. Back then, there was no way for me to block their number; I also didn't know how.

It wasn't until about 2012 CCorn added me on Facebook, and essentially 'apologized' for what happened. I don't even remember if it was sincere or not, but either way we are on good terms now and have considered meeting up again as adults. We are still friendly online till this day. She moved to NC and expressed she missed our home town and would like us to hang out when she moves back.


And that's that. I guess there is some good karma in the world. Maybe I'll do another one of these posts again soon!
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