Haiiiii (-.-o)
(You don’t have to read this whole thing if you don’t want to, it’s fairly long! Got carried away x3 My bad!)
Wow I’m really stickin to this huh lol
Just don’t neglect me! No I’m kiddin lol. I make a pretty good bash of friends on here (^v^)
I’d written a long like 8 paragraph vent page, but you guys don’t need to read my bitching all the time (0.0).Ahhh…. maybe I shouldn’t have cussed (x3)
But no…I’m always angry, I swear I’m 17 and it’s like I’m going through my midlife crisis (O_o)
I’ll be 18 in march so yayyyy (xDDD)
I still don’t have a job so I’m broke as lord knows what (xD) That’s the gud o’l recession kickin in, and boy it ain’t pretty D= I really do hope I can find one and soon! Aurgh! If only I could’ve found me one sooner when I was like what 15 >:[
But nooooo (=o) It’s not like I’m stressed or depressed. I’m just not happy, family issues. Like some serious family issues, I think it’d be best if my mum and us left my dad, but with her being sick and having it hard to work, not to mention her only choice would be to work in a work house. That’s a literal sweat shop. I can’t let her go back to that all over again T^T
Other than money issues and being annoyed for no reason alllll the time.(Especially at school >:[]
Che! Man I tell you about high school, its really a trip, especially now. Not all, but the majority, as me and my good o’l friend Terri(I got to recommend her this site, she’d be all over it lol, sucks I didn’t know her before high school. The kid is so awsume =D)
Now back on topic 0v0. We have nothing but posers for the majority, kids who are rotten spoiled rather they work or not. And just some wanna be thugs. I mean really, I didn’t exactly grow up around it, but c’mon a thug, a real thug that’ll steal and all that good stuff is everywhere,even in the nicest of places.
So for a kid that has a real opportunity, and a actual chance to do something and be something still wants to be something they’re not. Of course it’s to please the other crowd. But these kids, the dudes in particular are smart; I’m talkin S.M.A.R.T. here, pretend to be dumb just to impress and fit in, and for what, they get nothing out of it. They don’t challenge themselves so they have no idea just how much potential they actually have.
Anyway, the point I’m trying to make here is…Kids should be kids. They shouldn’t always worry about what someone else is thinking or how they would accept them. Sure it’s nice to be accepted, feels good. I’m always accepted and all I do is keep to myself. So how can it be so hard for the next person to be accepted for just being who they are. Sure it’s difficult, but really how can someone take the time and energy out of their day pretending to be something their not when they could be putting all of that into something they really enjoy. I sure wouldn’t lol.
I can tell you right now. I’m young but I don’t act my age. By the way I act you would swear I’m about 50. I’m ain’t ashamed of anything. Including the way I talk, or that I’m really poor. We have no money. It’s not like I’ll lie and tell you I have a job when I actually don’t, what so the person can spot me out. Nooo xD
Madaria has no time for the faking business *nods*:3
As you can see from my 5 page essay, if you’ve made it this far, I talk a lot. Like more than I should, but I don’t care really xD I’m upset allll the time, but overall I’m a pretty happy person and I like to make others happy as well, or atleast put someee kinnda smile on their face (>.o) xD
Um lets see what else….I’m goofy, straight forward, not afraid to say what’s on my mind. I’m not exactly as open at first. Especially around new people or anyone I’m not used to. I’m hostile, not timid. People seem to mix that up a lot. Because I’m cautious due to some things that made me develop this kind of anxiety, and it somehow changed into attitude. I dunno, really I just lost myself.
But yeah, these are only a few of the things that make up my 1 crazy ass personaility. I’m just spillin it all I know lol. Sorry I tried to keep it sweet and short but it was soooo tempting to just type away xD
Ah Yeah! It’s about that time for me to get my way around MyO and the Otaku ,A.Zakuro, still waiting on some good o’l requests xD No pressure lol jking <3
Welp!This about does it for today, again sorry for this longgg as post. It feels good to type this much every once in a while. And I’m lazy as crap.( yes everything tires me -.-)
Buh bye now ~
:D