Thursday, April 12, 2007

Pain
Another night, Another heart gained. (or so I think so.) I'm not sure what the deal is, but I've been noticing that ever since I became "happy" with who I am, EVERYONE wanted to be with me. (especially the ladies, -_-). This one guy added me "by mistake" and started talking to me, and I swear to god he has a crush on me. Check it out...

NOTE: I AM NOT BI OR STRAIGHT. IM PURE GAY. I CANT LET HIM KNOW THAT THOUGH, EVEN IF HE GOES TO A DIFFERENT SCHOOL.

jayxwtf (8:45:42 PM): hi its me j.
thetruthofyouth (8:46:28 PM): yeah.
thetruthofyouth (8:46:29 PM): hi
jayxwtf (8:46:15 PM): whats goingon
thetruthofyouth (8:46:44 PM): nothing much.
thetruthofyouth (8:46:55 PM): really bored. making my dad a CD. so my computer is like...really slow. lmao
jayxwtf (8:46:51 PM): well thats not good
jayxwtf (8:46:56 PM): so hey can i ask you something
thetruthofyouth (8:47:26 PM): uh...sure.
jayxwtf (8:47:09 PM): whats your sexual orientation
thetruthofyouth (8:47:42 PM): bi.
thetruthofyouth (8:47:45 PM): why?
jayxwtf (8:47:33 PM): just asking
thetruthofyouth (8:48:02 PM): what's yours?jayxwtf (8:48:05 PM): same but more straight some days but more gay some others
thetruthofyouth (8:48:44 PM): yeah. I tend to hang out with the girls, then I would with the guys...
thetruthofyouth (8:48:53 PM): mostly because I would get awkward glances from people.
thetruthofyouth (8:48:55 PM): I hate that.
jayxwtf (8:48:51 PM): oh
jayxwtf (8:48:56 PM): so are you open abou tit
thetruthofyouth (8:49:43 PM): no, not at all.
thetruthofyouth (8:49:51 PM): I'm just telling you because you go to a different school than me.
jayxwtf (8:49:37 PM): haha
thetruthofyouth (8:50:00 PM): If you went to the same, I would of said "straight" in a heartbeat.
thetruthofyouth (8:50:22 PM): lol. yeah. It's not likely that you'll spread rumors and it reaches to my school.
thetruthofyouth (8:50:33 PM): not that I don't trust you or anything. Not even my best friends know about it.
jayxwtf (8:50:21 PM): oh gosh
jayxwtf (8:50:26 PM): i see
thetruthofyouth (8:50:52 PM): yeah. thetruthofyouth (8:51:01 PM): most them wouldnt understand.
thetruthofyouth (8:51:08 PM): Some of them know though...lol
thetruthofyouth (8:51:14 PM): do any of your friends know?
jayxwtf (8:51:14 PM): haha
jayxwtf (8:51:18 PM): well
jayxwtf (8:51:33 PM): alot of people know but im cool with the guys and girls
jayxwtf (8:51:37 PM): no one talks shit
jayxwtf (8:51:46 PM): if they do ill kick there ass
thetruthofyouth (8:52:23 PM): ohh...lol.
thetruthofyouth (8:52:44 PM): I wish I have courage like you do. =/
thetruthofyouth (8:52:49 PM): ...and the strength...
jayxwtf (8:52:55 PM): haha
thetruthofyouth (8:53:50 PM): can I ask you a weird question?
jayxwtf (8:53:33 PM): yeah sure
thetruthofyouth (8:54:24 PM): how did you konw about me? I mean I have a feeling that it wasn't just an accident...
thetruthofyouth (8:54:29 PM): forgive me if it is...
jayxwtf (8:54:46 PM): on some guys profeil
jayxwtf (8:54:50 PM): profile
thetruthofyouth (8:55:21 PM): ohhh.
thetruthofyouth (8:55:39 PM): was it michael's? 'cuz you added me right after I started talking to him...
thetruthofyouth (8:55:50 PM): and I noticed he's talking to you...
jayxwtf (8:55:28 PM): yeah
thetruthofyouth (8:55:55 PM): yeah. he's cool.
jayxwtf (8:55:39 PM): i knew him from middle schol
jayxwtf (8:55:42 PM): and he added me
jayxwtf (8:55:49 PM): havent seen him since
thetruthofyouth (8:56:21 PM): ohhh
jayxwtf (8:56:01 PM): i dont even know what he looks like now
jayxwtf (8:56:06 PM): do you??
thetruthofyouth (8:56:38 PM): yeah, he sits like right next to me during lunch.
thetruthofyouth (8:56:44 PM): People say that we're twins.
thetruthofyouth (8:56:53 PM): But he's shorter, skinner, and has blonde hair.
jayxwtf (8:56:43 PM): but hows does he look
jayxwtf (8:56:49 PM): like i wanna know
thetruthofyouth (8:57:17 PM): What do you wanna know?
thetruthofyouth (8:57:25 PM): He has...blueish gray eyes...
jayxwtf (8:57:03 PM): how he looks
thetruthofyouth (8:57:37 PM): Blond hair right above shoulder...
jayxwtf (8:57:23 PM): he has long hia
thetruthofyouth (8:57:45 PM): Real slim...
thetruthofyouth (8:57:55 PM): well he got it cut, appearently.
jayxwtf (8:57:52 PM): oh
jayxwtf (8:58:10 PM): do you think hes cute
thetruthofyouth (8:58:38 PM): well...
thetruthofyouth (8:58:50 PM): honestly, I used to despise him...
thetruthofyouth (8:58:56 PM): Because he was so...femine...
thetruthofyouth (8:59:05 PM): but he's...sweet.
jayxwtf (8:59:06 PM): oh
thetruthofyouth (8:59:43 PM): yeah, maybe I'll give him a chance...
thetruthofyouth (9:00:12 PM): and who knows? Maybe we should get together. I mean people say that we look like twins or something, so that proves that we would be a cute couple...
jayxwtf (9:00:08 PM): omg
thetruthofyouth (9:00:43 PM): something wrong?jayxwtf (9:00:25 PM): no
thetruthofyouth (9:00:57 PM): ...no really. You're making me nervous...
thetruthofyouth (9:01:00 PM): what was that omg for?
jayxwtf (9:00:54 PM): oh like you saying your gonna get with him,
thetruthofyouth (9:01:26 PM): im saying maybe.
thetruthofyouth (9:01:33 PM): I still dont know if he's someone I really like.
jayxwtf (9:01:31 PM): oh
thetruthofyouth (9:02:06 PM): do you have like a crush on him or something?
jayxwtf (9:01:51 PM): no
thetruthofyouth (9:02:32 PM): you seem to be asking me weird questions about him...
jayxwtf (9:02:31 PM): no because in middel school no one liked him
jayxwtf (9:02:38 PM): he was so annyoing
thetruthofyouth (9:03:19 PM): where was he in middle school?
jayxwtf (9:03:05 PM): wynn seale
thetruthofyouth (9:03:28 PM): he said he was in grant, but I would've seen you there...
thetruthofyouth (9:03:37 PM): wynn seale? never heard of that...
jayxwtf (9:03:28 PM): he told me he had a boyfriend
thetruthofyouth (9:04:06 PM): it doesn't really look it to me.
thetruthofyouth (9:04:15 PM): He goes up to random people asking what their ori is...
thetruthofyouth (9:04:25 PM): ...and the fact that his best friend is a french porn star.
jayxwtf (9:04:41 PM): so are you with anyone
thetruthofyouth (9:05:07 PM): no
thetruthofyouth (9:05:13 PM): are you?
jayxwtf (9:04:58 PM): no
jayxwtf (9:05:04 PM): wish i was
thetruthofyouth (9:05:32 PM): oh...why's that?jayxwtf (9:05:34 PM): because i want to be with someone not all alone
thetruthofyouth (9:06:15 PM): you dont have to get in a realationship to not be lonely.
thetruthofyouth (9:06:25 PM): Look at me, I'm not with anyone, but I'm as happy as ever...
jayxwtf (9:06:27 PM): dude no i am freakin happy jayxwtf (9:06:30 PM): i love my life
jayxwtf (9:06:42 PM): but its just i would rather be with someone
thetruthofyouth (9:07:18 PM): oh... okay.
thetruthofyouth (9:07:30 PM): I dont mind being with someone myself.
jayxwtf (9:07:37 PM): but idk i guess im so ugly that i cant find anyone to be with
thetruthofyouth (9:08:16 PM): dude...
thetruthofyouth (9:08:28 PM): I broke five or six hears in the past month and you're hotter than I am.
thetruthofyouth (9:08:32 PM): *hearts
jayxwtf (9:09:24 PM): well i havent
thetruthofyouth (9:10:02 PM): has anyone ever told you that they liked you?
jayxwtf (9:09:57 PM): no
thetruthofyouth (9:10:20 PM): Or have you ever caught someone like, stalking you, or doing something nice "for no appearent reason"?thetruthofyouth (9:11:42 PM): maybe it's just me, but I used to think like that too.
jayxwtf (9:11:35 PM): oh
thetruthofyouth (9:12:22 PM): I used to think that I was the ugliest creature ever, and it turned out no one DID like me. But I just decided to be happy with who I am, and I don't know why but that's how people started liking me.
thetruthofyouth (9:12:50 PM): it might be hard, but try to be happy with who you are and everything will set right in place.
jayxwtf (9:12:42 PM): yeah truw
jayxwtf (9:12:44 PM): tue
thetruthofyouth (9:13:15 PM): are you...happy with who you are?
jayxwtf (9:13:00 PM): yes
thetruthofyouth (9:13:29 PM): do you show it?jayxwtf (9:13:19 PM): yup
thetruthofyouth (9:14:13 PM): well then someone should like you.
thetruthofyouth (9:14:22 PM): maybe not now, but soon they will.
thetruthofyouth (9:14:23 PM): Trust me.
thetruthofyouth (9:14:25 PM): =D
jayxwtf (9:14:12 PM): well maybe they do but i just dont know
jayxwtf (9:14:19 PM): or there scared of telling me
thetruthofyouth (9:14:54 PM): most people will be too scared to tell you.
thetruthofyouth (9:15:10 PM): Those are called SHY PEOPLE. I'm an extremelly shy person...
jayxwtf (9:14:56 PM): im not
thetruthofyouth (9:15:27 PM): 98% of them are stalkers.
thetruthofyouth (9:15:44 PM): ohh. well i am.
thetruthofyouth (9:17:31 PM): so who are the people you usually look for?
jayxwtf (9:17:23 PM): im not really picky
thetruthofyouth (9:17:59 PM): seriously? not anything?
thetruthofyouth (9:18:08 PM): Not even somehting that like...gets you excited?
jayxwtf (9:18:01 PM): well what do you mean
thetruthofyouth (9:18:33 PM): what turns you on.
jayxwtf (9:18:19 PM): dude
jayxwtf (9:18:25 PM): well i can go on and on
jayxwtf (9:18:27 PM): lol
jayxwtf (9:18:27 PM): jk
thetruthofyouth (9:19:13 PM): well that's just the simpliest way to put it. I didnt mean to make it sound perverted. lmao.
thetruthofyouth (9:19:20 PM): Like okay, I'll go first to set an example.
jayxwtf (9:19:13 PM): ok
thetruthofyouth (9:19:59 PM): I tend to go more for personality than for looks (just as long as they are not like completely butt ugly or something like that! lmao)
jayxwtf (9:19:52 PM): me to
thetruthofyouth (9:20:20 PM): They, ofcourse, have to be really sweet and humble...intrested more in giving than receiving...
thetruthofyouth (9:20:48 PM): I would perfere them a little bit shy so they dont mess around with other people, but it doesn't really matter...
thetruthofyouth (9:21:26 PM): and if I HAD to choose appearence...for the girls, I look for brunnettes with a pony-tial, but for the guys, I tend to look for body-builders who are blonde...
jayxwtf (9:21:19 PM): cool
jayxwtf (9:21:20 PM): cool
jayxwtf (9:21:27 PM): nice chocies
thetruthofyouth (9:21:56 PM): thanks...
thetruthofyouth (9:22:04 PM): now do you get the idea?
jayxwtf (9:21:49 PM): yeah
jayxwtf (9:22:17 PM): hey sorry but i have to go jayxwtf (9:22:21 PM): so ill talk to you laterjayxwtf (9:22:23 PM): ok
thetruthofyouth (9:22:46 PM): you too.
thetruthofyouth (9:22:48 PM): peace.
jayxwtf (9:22:29 PM): bye
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