Friday, April 13, 2007

E-102
A happy feeling was with me during second period. Unfortuantly, it went away in third period, (the subsitute was a bitch, even in MY opinion. so yeah..). I was really tired in second, so I naturally thought about (you guessed it) Sean.

And I just then remembered something...I'm not sure why or what made me remember, but I remember this extremelly rude person that made Ryan from French class (archives if you dont remember) seem as nice as Mariah. His name is Braxton, and He would point at some really random (usually ugly) pictures while I'm reading manga and say in a loud voice "Hey, that's what your MOM looks like". I remember that after that I buried my head in it to avoid my face being red. It wasn't so much that he said it that bothered me, it was just that well Sean was litterly my neighbor at that time, and my crush with him was just starting, and I felt that it was ruined when he said that...

but the day after that, I overheard him and Sean "convernsing" (Sean usually ignores and gives him one word anwsers). And sooner or later, He asked him if he wanted to go to the carnival on friday or something. I remember that my blood ran cold, but fast. But Sean just cooly said "What, your gay?" and Braxton kinda stutter and said "No I was Just..." And then Sean just interupt him calling him a freak, and that was the end of the conversation. (he wasn't serious, though I really really wish that he was...I mean calling him a freak anyway.) I was grinning sooooooo much...

ANYWAY, this makes me feel happy because it makes me feel like Sean saw how rude he was to me just the day before, and he figured that he didnt want to be with anyone like that... I talked to him on AIM after that asking him if he was friends with Braxton and he said "Lmaoo. No."

A LONNNNNG time after that, I asked him why he was avoiding/ignoring me (polietly and non-threatning, of coruse.) and he told me "It wasn't that you were rude or strange or anything like that. It's just that everytime that I go on aim, I get bombarded with messeges and I don't mean ANYTHING when I say this, but it just got a little annoying."

Sooo...this makes me feel that Sean doesn't really think of me as a freak...just annoying.

I'm going to have to fix that, somehow...
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