Saturday, June 9, 2007

Town of a wind and ruins
Well. I just now had a talk with Stephanie again (Former best friend of Sean, incase you forgot). and she said some stuff that just makes it sooo much easier for me to move. Oh yeah, which reminds me, I had dinner with my mom and it...didn't really go as planed. She said that she doesn't know where I'll be going if I move in with her, but she said that it leans on a totally different school. So...I figured if I'm going to a different school in Texas, might as well in Arazona...Damn it...

anyway, here it is.


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thetruthofyouth (3:45:40 PM): ...an important person to me already has his own car, and I'm older than he is...I'm not sure if I'm happy for him or jealous. It seems a little of both.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:45:56 PM): sean?thetruthofyouth (3:46:45 PM): /// yeah...I can't think of him anymore though. It only brings me into distress.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:46:39 PM): i honestly dont know why u like him
thetruthofyouth (3:47:03 PM): I don't know either.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:46:54 PM): hhes mean
thetruthofyouth (3:47:22 PM): Probably the same reason why I like Sarra. He was sooooo nice when I first met him but then he just...changed.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:47:24 PM): yeahh tahts what happened in me and his friendship
thetruthofyouth (3:48:11 PM): That's why ella hurts me everytime I think of him. She wants me to forget about him. But I'm not sure if that's even possible. She even know of Sean's meanness.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:48:25 PM): u should
thetruthofyouth (3:49:01 PM): I always think that he's just thinking about other stuff. He told me that he's not the person I think he is. He told me that he puts up fronts and he's tired of doing that.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:49:11 PM): look waht he did to me
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:49:15 PM): hes a pathological liar
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:49:30 PM): he took me out of his lifee, and told me our 9 months of freindship was a waste
thetruthofyouth (3:50:17 PM): I figured something was up whenever he took you off your friends list.
thetruthofyouth (3:51:32 PM): ...I try to forget about him...I really do but it's impossible. if I don't think about him. He shows up in my dreams.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:51:27 PM): WOW.
thetruthofyouth (3:52:22 PM): I remember them all so well. One of them was a terrible one though. It was a nightmare.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:52:15 PM): soorrryyyl
thetruthofyouth (3:53:08 PM): It's not your fault. My friend said that the reason why I'm having these nightmares is because I secretely know of his true personality yet I accept him.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:53:11 PM): yeah thatd make sence
thetruthofyouth (3:55:11 PM): This might be sort of evil. But I feel like the only way for me to not have these nightmares is to hate him. But I've never hated anyone before so I don't know how to do that.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:55:44 PM): welll hes mean to you
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:55:55 PM): so you should try not caring about him
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:56:18 PM): ud ont need that
thetruthofyouth (3:57:23 PM): I keep thinking that he's mean to me for a reason though. Like I'm...hurting him or something. I cant help but think that it's my problem. I mean this is the exact same thing that Sarra's doing.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:57:31 PM): see look how he makes you thinkl
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:57:35 PM): dont take this out on urself
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:57:40 PM): this is his personality
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:57:48 PM): he has no reason to be mean to you
thetruthofyouth (3:58:42 PM): well it's just...I see how he treats others with the same respect that he used to treat me. So it makes me feel that he treats me the way he does because of...me.
thetruthofyouth (3:58:55 PM): Because if it's his true personality, it's likely he does that to everyone.
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:58:47 PM): he did it to me dale
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:58:58 PM): he dosent know what friendship he should value,and which ones he dosent
xRoseyRedLipsx (3:59:10 PM): and most of the people who are his friends dont really like him because hes always bragging and stuff.
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Well atleast I know that I'm not alone in this situation...of course Steph never really...well had a crush on him, but she atleast loved him....

New Song this week: Town of Wind and Ruins by Tales of Symphonia
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