Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Put yourself in my shoes, and see that I do what I do because the old guard still offends
Go without,
Till the need seeps in
You low animal,
Collect your novel petals for the stem,

And glow,
Glow,
Melt and flow,
Eviscerate your fragile frame,
And spill it out in the ragged floor,
A thousand different versions of yourself//



I don't think I can give you up, myO. I think this might end up becoming a personal journal, of sorts. No one's going to read it, so why not? I haven't had a guestbook entry in almost two years. No one comes here, anymore.

Why do the abandoned, decrepit buildings make us the most sad? Is it because they used to be so full of life and vitality?
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Saturday, September 5, 2009

   This place is DED.

I've got some great memories of this place. But I suppose that's all they'll be.

♥
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Sunday, October 26, 2008

rings of flowers round your eyes, and I love you for the rest of your life (when you're ready)
Hm...
being a senior.



made it into the all region choir AND the all region orchestra


saw nick and nora's infinite playlist twice



wished on 11:11

discovered new music
The Thrills
Neutral Milk Hotel
Bishop Allen
Arcade Fire
Le Tigre


felt infinite
infinitely infinite












~~
Lately I've been feeling finite.
I'm not happy.
I hate myself.
I think I'm going to start seeing a counselor.
=/


But my best friends, however few, are the greatest.

The Greatest
<33333
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Monday, August 18, 2008

Ohmahgod
I'm not dead!

I don't expect anyone to read this.



School's starting in about a week. I'm going to be a senior. I'm sort of excited *shrug*




Earlier on in the summer I made a post about how something Big was going to go down this summer.
Well...not really.
I didn't do much, lol.

I'm best friends again with people that I never thought I'd hear from again.
I've got great friends in places that I didn't even think would want me.

And I don't have a silly boy to call my own yet, but I will.
I promise.

I like silly boys.
They make me happy.



Lalalala ¢¾
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Saturday, June 14, 2008

   I have officially
found my niche in the world of music.



New Wave

<3333


=]
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Thursday, June 12, 2008

   Summer's here
And I'm pretty horribly busy.

I'm volunteering Mondays and Wednesdays in the Pharmacy at the VA, but that's probably going to change after next week. I found out that I have to take PE in summer school for two weeks. *gag* So I'm going to be taking summer school PE Monday thru Thursday and volunteering on Fridays for two weeks, and then the next week I'm going to Minnesota for about three weeks.

That's one thing that I absolutely can NOT wait for. I'm so excited.


Anyone heard of the Depeche Mode?
They're fucking amazing 8D


Uhm. I don't really have anything else to talk about. I'm incredibly tired. It's weird because I'm tired a lot more than usual lately. And my eyes are really dry, even without my contacts in. Ugh.

I need an energy drink.


Trying to write again. Can't think of anything to write. Ehhhh.
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Sunday, June 8, 2008

boo
No more school?
got summer vacation.
niiice.


i'm now addicted to Rockstars.
it's nice.




but my mom wouldn't let me get one
"maybe not today"
so i'm about to crash
and crash hard.






graduation was yesterday.
had a lot of friends who graduated.
it made me sad/happy.

yeah.




and i don't have any other news.
boy oh boy.



this place has gone all to hell, hasn't it?
hell in a handbasket.

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Sunday, June 1, 2008

To get rid of that last post
Things are going both better and worse.


I'm learning things about myself.
Things I need to change.


My grandpa is dying in the hospital.




My mom is miles away.
My dad is being an ass face.












I'm doing alright, though.
I guess.
eh.
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Friday, May 30, 2008

I do not cut myself
Trust me.


But sometimes I get so angry,
generally at myself,
and I have to take my frustration out on something.

Generally it's in the form of flicking a pony tail holder against my wrist.
It doesn't hurt very much.


I was so mad earlier, I started scratching my arm very hard.

and it hurts really really really really bad.
Holy crap.



Please don't be angry with me
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

obnoxious
my history teacher decided to give us a huge project a week prior to finals. yay.
it's due today. it's been a really obnoxiously huge undertaking. I just spent about two hours with one of my group members who decided to inform me on how my essay was wrong in every tiny little insignificant way. needless to say, it was pretty annoying.
but anyway. essay's done, and all we need to do now is present it.


went to starbucks last night with some cool kids. me n my friend pooled some money together and i got one of those neat cds that they have sitting there. it's basically a cd of 80's punk and New Wave stuffs. A bit of it's on my playlist at the bottom, below the affliction song by afi. the ramones and such.
yaya.

not to mention I got my drink totally free. the guy just gave it to me. eh.

life is all right. not good, not bad.
just EH.
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