Friday, September 7, 2007

No day but today
Once in a while you meet someone and soon you discover the two of you are truly something to each other, you share your thoughts and feelings so relaxed, so openly, and right away you know your friendship is truly meant to be.



¢¾




my gosh.

I really do have people like that.

Isn't life grand?
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Thursday, September 6, 2007

10-9-8-and i'm breaking away
i'm all dressedup and ready toplay



I don't know if I'm going to survive Physics. It took me absolutely forever to do the homework last night, and I only had three problems left at that point.




I know that.. I haveto consider just how lucky I really am. I have a roof over my head, enough money for good clothes and school supplies, more than enough food lying around, and parents who, although they piss me off on a regular basis, actually want me to succeed.
*shrugs*

So who am I to feel sad? Who am I to feel alone and depressed and wanting to withdraw into a shell but afraid that everyone will forget about me if I do?

It's just silly.






I hate the darkness
I hate the storms
I hate the shit times
I hate it all
I hate it most of all because
It's what drove us apart
So forcefully we went into shock
And I reeled backwards into the darkness
You found people to catch you
But not me.





I know, right?
Same old tune.
It's only been a week
since my epiphany.
Give me a break.
if it were anybody else..
i wouldn't feel this way.
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Wednesday, September 5, 2007

watched you walk away
www.myspace.com/lilithofbucharest.
go there and listen to my song.
it describes me so well, it's scary.
it's like...
my anthem.
yeah.



I don't care if it's unhealthy
I don't want people to have to worry about me
I don't want people to see that depressed, unhappy side to me.
So I'll pretend.











Like I said.
I don't care if it's unhealthy.




I just.don't.care.
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Tuesday, September 4, 2007

i think...
I might be able to do this.
I might be able to pull through.

You want to know why I was really so emo(tional) about all of the shit early last week?
P-M-S
I'm sure of it.

And my blue nail polish will help things immensely, I think.




I wanted everything to stay the same…But feelings fade and people change.

And I'm going to win him back.
I swear to god.



On a happy note.
Yesterday was my four month anniversary.
So there.
I'm not in love with him.
I'm in love with Christian James Hess.
I can tell by the fluttery feeling I get in my stomach
And the way my heart sighs when he offers me his letter jacket when I shiver
And the way he'll put his arm around me or pull my hand into his and everything will seem alright.
It's just...
perfect.

I'm saying this because the only two people who come here know exactly how I feel.
Don't you?

And whenever the pain comes
and I feel the loss of best friends
And the loneliness
I call him.
And then everything is a little better.
If only just a little bit.

^_^
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Sunday, September 2, 2007

bweeee
The Dresden Dolls are a B-A-N-D XDDDDD by the way.




Saturday was just dreadful, I'll tell you. I spent all day in bed due to a miserable migraine that encompassed my whole being. By evening I was feeling better but I think it's back.



I miss Waffleee-chinny-minny =(





here's to hoping today's better
*toasts*







watch that and giggle at the silly faces Brian makes
:DDDDD


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Saturday, September 1, 2007

as you can see
The Dresden Dolls = new obsession.
loveeeeeee
Observe wallpaper and picture.
Brian and Amanda.

Brian in his hat and makeup makes me incredibly excited <333333 He has the greenest eyes...
*spazz*


I have a three day weekend. THREE DAYS. THREE DAYS
=DDDD sososo exciting.
i don't have to see the nuts people at school.

Oh. I'm taking Physics. It's so ridiculous. The homework assignments are sososo hard. ugh.

so uhm. yeah.
:(
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Friday, August 31, 2007

hehe
absolutely the ONLY wrong thing in my life
is you
not being in it.
*nods*
everything else is perfect
but i don't want you to leave
and you don't need me.




hmhmhm.
the only thing i can listen to is dresden dolls
and la vie boheme.
everything else reminds me of you.
so.
=)

to days of inspiration
*toasts to no one*


















not with my coin-operated boy
this bridge was written to make you feel smittener
with my sad picture
of girl getting bitter-er
can you extract me
from my plastic fantasy
i didn't think so
but i'm still convincible

will you persist even after i bet you
a billion dollars that i'll never love you

and will you persist even after i kiss you
goodbye for the last time



will you keep on trying?
to prove it




i'm dying
to loose it



i'm losing
my confidence

i want it




i want it









i want it


























i want it
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Thursday, August 30, 2007

   it's.not.the.way.i'm.meant.to.be. it's just the way the operation made me.
Today really really really sucked.

1st period-Physics.
2nd period-Dual Credit US History.
3rd period-Statistics.
4th period-Choir
>lunch<
5th period-Dual Credit English III
6th period-German III AP
7th period-Computer basics.

now changed to:

1st period-Orchestra
2nd period-US History dual credit
3rd period-Physics
4th period-Choir
5th period-English III dual credit
6th period-German III ap
7th period-Pre-calculus.

I had to bend over backwards to get into orchestra. I FINALLY found a math class for seventh period so that's where i jumped to. mhm.
Today sucked except for just after school. I actually started crying during sixth period.

Boo.
so the end of all things..took place last night. i finally lost the close friendship that i had been striving to get back.
faiakitsune3105-me
chkenhrtvickers-the friend.

Faiakitsune3105 (11:26:40 PM): i think you might be thinking too much
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:27:06 PM): i know. i do it all the time
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:27:08 PM): but i cant help it..
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:27:17 PM): every time i look at the clock its like HEY!!
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:27:19 PM): or a song
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:27:26 PM): i know i did this part to myself. and i cant fix it..
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:27:29 PM): so im basically screwd
Faiakitsune3105 (11:27:40 PM): it'll fade though
Faiakitsune3105 (11:27:43 PM): won't it?
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:28:00 PM): it didn't over the summer.. apparently i waited till school started to FINALLY break down..
Faiakitsune3105 (11:28:21 PM): boyo..
Faiakitsune3105 (11:28:23 PM): i wish i could help
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:29:10 PM): its cool.. dont worry about it =]
Faiakitsune3105 (11:29:31 PM): i'm not so conceited to say..that i know how you feel
Faiakitsune3105 (11:29:44 PM): but it's like..
Faiakitsune3105 (11:30:00 PM): even though you know you should get over it
Faiakitsune3105 (11:30:05 PM): and even if you don't care about it
Faiakitsune3105 (11:30:12 PM): you still think about it all the time
Faiakitsune3105 (11:30:18 PM): and then it starts to consume everything
Faiakitsune3105 (11:30:42 PM): and then all you can think about is that thing, whether it's good or bad
Faiakitsune3105 (11:30:44 PM): v.v
Faiakitsune3105 (11:30:49 PM): *pats head*
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:31:17 PM): mhmm
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:31:44 PM): i think i can say. i knew that you where going through that... but. i THOUGHT i had dealt with it. and i had to do it on myown. so i thought its what you needed too
Faiakitsune3105 (11:34:37 PM): to deal with it on my own?
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:34:44 PM): mhmm
Faiakitsune3105 (11:35:17 PM): i don't know if i can do it alone
Faiakitsune3105 (11:35:23 PM): but just..
Faiakitsune3105 (11:35:27 PM): don't forget about me?
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:36:04 PM): i wont.. psh..
Faiakitsune3105 (11:36:24 PM): i don't ever want to
Faiakitsune3105 (11:36:30 PM): i won't ever understand
Faiakitsune3105 (11:36:35 PM): but i'll live
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:37:49 PM): yeah..
Faiakitsune3105 (11:37:58 PM): i'm sorry
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:39:50 PM): dont be.... well idk.. ive been saying that alot today..
Faiakitsune3105 (11:40:36 PM): so what is it now
Faiakitsune3105 (11:40:39 PM): we friends?
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:40:59 PM): where we not friends?
Faiakitsune3105 (11:41:04 PM): of course we were
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:41:08 PM): i thought i was just kinda being an ass
Faiakitsune3105 (11:41:12 PM): well..
Faiakitsune3105 (11:41:13 PM): yeah
Faiakitsune3105 (11:41:16 PM): sort of
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:41:52 PM): well that thing.. on the bulletin. was brutal. and bitchy. but it was meant for like 3 or 4 people.. and i couldnt' be as nice to them. so i made it mean
Faiakitsune3105 (11:42:10 PM): the most recent one?
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:42:16 PM): yeah
Faiakitsune3105 (11:42:33 PM): 3 or 4 people as in a few people and me..or 3 or 4 other people..?
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:43:11 PM): and you.
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:43:17 PM): but wha ti would have said to you wouldn' thave been as mean
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:43:19 PM): because..
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:43:36 PM): i know that its hard.. and.. im not saying "yeah move on" even though thatswhat came out..
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:43:46 PM): because. it hurt me. buti had to deal with it and move on..
ChKenHrTVickeRs (11:43:58 PM): and i just meant find some comfort. somewhere and use that as a cruch
Faiakitsune3105 (11:45:23 PM): okay


so basically he had posted a bulletin a few days ago and there was a part where he could say anything he wanted to three unnamed people. one of them was 'get over it and move on.' that was for me. mhm.

but other than that. i'm just peachy.
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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

i am the girl anachronism
So the Dresden Dolls have made an appearance.
Girl Anachronism makes me giggle sososo much.

School sucked.
I'd say more about it but I'm having a deep conversation with a friend.
I'll talk more on the weekend

<3
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Tuesday, August 28, 2007

starting school tomorrow
wish me luck.
i'm a little nervous, yo.

but uhm.
yeah.



i has teh magnic shoez.
they is amazingggggg
:D




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