so earlier
i was looking at comment conversations on my myspace from end of last school year (march-april-may) and marveling at the happiness. me and michael were best friends. I mean best friends. i almost started crying. where did all that go?
this kid...I don't even know. i know i talk about him all the time. i talk about him more than i talk about my own boyfriend. i can't even describe it. am i in love with him? in some form of the word...yes, i guess. but he's just one of the most special people i've ever met. there's just something about him that makes me want to stick around.
it fills me with such anger pain rage sadness loneliness loss fear i can't even think straight
i feel like the hobbits
watching frodo sail away from them
never to be seen again
except i didn't even get a goodbye hug.
with love from me to you
Anthony Rapp
is my hero.
everyone bow down to his greatness
:D
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Monday, August 20, 2007
why do you only pay attention to me
when i'm in pain
or i'm feeling blue?
why can't you just stop by sometime and say hi
just to say hi?
what's wrong with me?
can anybody tell me?
please help me understand
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Friday, August 17, 2007
i just came to say goodbye love
Patchy: Hands off my bitch, bitch.
I'm posting that everywhere because I'm amused easily. so if you saw it on myspace, lj, and/or vampirefreaks, get over it =)
I've started writing again. It's helping with a lot of things :)
Sorry about yesterday. It was a moment of weakness. Though that moment helped some friends see some things that I've been hiding, it was a moment of weakness nonetheless.
I have grown to despise the word 'isolation'. it speaks of too many nights home alone.
No wait..
I take that back.
Nobody's online that will talk to me.
I imed a friend, who ignored me.
So I'm feeling abandoned and pissed off right now.
But it'll probably go away in a few minutes after I remember how much I'm in love with him.
But for now I'm going to be a complete whiney butt and hate myself for being such and such over something so stupid.
yay.
But I finally rented Newsies.
And a few seasons of Scrubs
so I can live with being alone for a few days.
Hell, I've lived with it for weeks.
Yep.
I don't want to tell anybody I'm scared of what people are going to think I'm a stupid selfish little surburbian girl who thinks that she has problems I hurt myself because when I was doing it I stopped crying Why do I feel so abandoned and alone What the fuck is wrong with me Oh My God Somebody help me please I don't know how to fix this Nobody knows the trouble I've seen Nobody's here Nobody cares.
i didn't recognize you without the handcuffs
My friend came over today. You know...that kid. :) We watched Rent and cried a bit, and ate hamburgers and pie. It was fun. He's coming over again on Wednesday (mebe).
So I think that Nick @ Nite should put Doogie Howser, M.D. on sometime. They've got the Cosby Show, Roseanne, and a few other shows. Why not add in ole Doog, huh? And then I can moon over mister Vinnie. Anybody with me? :D
oh boy. I think I'm in for yet another sleepless night. I really, really need to write something. Gr.
i feel so carefree
Second uneventful day in a row. I don't even know why I come here anymore.
I suppose I should make an effort to start communicating with you guys again, but it's sort of hard when the only people updating are TalimSoul and Roiben :P
So my mom and I got moved up to the two year olds in the nursery today. I have to say, it has its perks. Only one kid cried, and she stopped after about two minutes. They could actually talk to me, which is more than I can say for the one year olds. I spent about ten minutes pulling plastic food out of the food box and asking them what each one was, and drinking 'milk' out of a pink plastic cup. Ah, the good old days.
But I think I want to stay with the one year olds. Even after only a month or two with them, I've grown attached to some of them. Plus, the cuddling factor definitely adds in there. It's just all the damn crying. No peace x.x
ch.
I have nothing to talk about.
*twirls*
i want to be a leaf
and fly away
that's the song that's stuck in my head right now
beeeeeaaautiful song
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