Sunday, August 12, 2007

life is short, play your viola naked
Well well well.

Life keeps throwing me curve balls.

I fell in love with this boy a few months ago at school. We were just friends. Everything fell apart and we fell through the cracks. But now I think our friendship is reviving, and I'm falling for him again.

But it's one of those unnattainable things. I have a wonderful beau whom I would do anything for (and vice versa, I'm sure).

But this boy... Oh, this boy is so spectacular.
I suppose it shall only be a love from afar.

I would post a picture of him, but some of you here know him, so I'll refrain.


I'm returning to my roots, and listening to New Age again. My parents listened to it all the time when I was younger. The Narada cd's were a particular favorite. My favorite song was always Desert Rain, which is in my playlist.

I'm also listening to Alison Krauss, who my mother loves. She has the most beautiful voice, never mind if she's a country singer.

My current favorite musical artists, however, are Joshua Radin and David Lanz. I have two songs by Josh up above (star mile and Winter), and David Lanz is a pianist. I learned to play Cristofori's Dream on the piano, and am learning one of his other songs. If you like classical music and haven't heard Cristofori's Dream before, I would highly recommend listening right now.



And now I am off to write another great work of art (pffffttttshhh :P)

*flees*
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

mkay i'm leaving today
around two. i won't be online until friday, i think, and such and such. i'm going to be at my grandma's house for a few days, and then i'm going to my cousins' on friday night. on saturday we're going up north to the cabin, so i won't have any internet there.
i think we might end up visiting my uncle, who does have internet, during the second week. i'm not sure yet, but i know that i won't have much internet at all.
sorry kids, that's the way it is :( i'll be back on august 8th.

byeeeeee
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Thursday, July 19, 2007

Oi!!
i finally watched rent on tuesday.
and i gotta say one thing:
what the hell took me so long?
i loved it so much
cried bunches
and just...
wow.
:D

i love that song
will i?
and also
la vie boheme
if you could tell by my playlist.
i think the reason why i love will i so much
is cos the first guy who sings...
is a guy from newsies too
which is my favorite movie in the world.

anyways.
i'm leaving for minnesota next tuesday
but i'll try to get back on here up there sometime.
i'll have internet access at times during the first week, but for most of the second week we'll be staying at a cabin.
i'm so excited.

so this weekend is going to be a harry potter palooza.
i'm planning on going to see the movie with two of my friends
and the seventh book is coming out on saturday.
*twirls*

XDDD
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Tuesday, July 3, 2007

aaah...Newsies songs
I got a few of 'em.
i found once and for all last night
and i got all excited XP

did anybody see the Lion King on broadway?
i heard about it, but i never saw it..
my new favorite actor was in the orginal cast.
my search led to it :)
i want to see it
i watched some videos on youtube and it looks AMAZING
is it still playing?
O_o...



so once again
i find myself itching to write
but having nothing to write about
i need some abstract topic
something angsty..
anybody have ideas for me?
pleaseee help me
or my hand will rip my hair out by itself.
:P



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Sunday, July 1, 2007

although i'm trying to pretend
am i really that good at hiding what's wrong?
because my parents don't seem to notice a thing.
my mom was going on and on about how there's something wrong with my sister
(her doctor told her she's suffering from depression, but she has a perfect life, no one can figure it out)

and i felt bad, i really did
because i love my sister
and i felt bad for my sister
but i'm sitting here
wondering why they don't notice there's something wrong with me.
i must be good at hiding things
or they don't care.

it seems like there's only one or two people who notice, and are trying to help.

someone told me that it's because they see me everyday and they don't see her everyday. that doesn't make sense to me.
but i guess i'm just being selfish and thinking about myself too much again.





yay for rambling -_-'
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Friday, June 29, 2007

i feel like the kids in the pichure above
my tummy hurts like woah.
like that really...not good kind of hurt.
it's the..um...
that kind.
:/

michael and michael are coming over today.
it's pretty exciting.



i wish you wouldn't leave, waffie
it makes me ever so sad

and it makes mooos sad too +(
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Thursday, June 28, 2007

so i'm definitely posting daily
just because.

letting y'all know: this kid that i've been talkign about...it's NOT a love interest. he's my best friend, but he is NOT my boyfriend, or anywhere near. my boyfriend is someone else, who's out of town :, but they're different people :)

i'm so happy. yesterday i talked to all three of my favorite people in the world XDDDDD
i came to realize that i have three personalities. i'm nuts, i know
but happy shelbie is Queen of the Bees
normal shelbie is King of New York
and sad shelbie...doesn't have a nickname..
give her one, and make the cyclops happy?

+) like pie!!!

...
yeh. my name is shelby, actually. but dunna call me that. call me pancake, or shel... or um.. bogugug
XD

*flies away*
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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

i think my playlist is absolutely perfect :)
and i'm in love with it
i could listen to it all day, everyday.

but the anniversary is Next tuesday, not yesterday. the beau confirmed that he is, in fact, coming home then, and not thursday, which i was led to believe by his sister :)

I am SO obsessed with the newsies right now. i'm fangirling to the extreme over one particular newsie...and they all look extremely fabulous in their newsie hats. :D

i'm just...i don't know. i guess i'm content with the situation of life, but i'm not sure yet. it's just hard to tell someone that you can't live without them when you know that they can...

it's storming lots here. the thunder is really really loud, but it's really cool. we don't get this much rain usually in late june, so it's pretty cool.

i have to go to work today -_-' i dunna want to.

but um. bwee :)
*wriggle*
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

i'm too sore...
to be sad.
but i did talk to him today.
i didn't get all of the things in that i wanted to say.
actually, i didn't get anything in that i wanted to say.
i'm still scared.
so we just talked about random things.

but before you go making assumptions, he is not, nor will he ever be more than a best friend. i think that, in many ways, it goes deeper than a boyfriend...besides, he's a boy lover.

speaking of the beau, he is in fact out of town...overseas, actually. he'll be back next thursday...buh...i thought it would've been tuesday, which is our two month anniversary...but no.

sank joo to ts, minnipinni, and roi-roi for commenting and making me feel worthwhile. especially waffle *snuggle*
yeah... i like making nicknames.. deal with it :P



*mrow*
*wriggles*

*purr*
pancake is content..
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Monday, June 25, 2007

>none
i'm not going to rant and complain on here anymore. i'm trying to change things, but i don't want to let him know how much i need him. i'm so afraid of rejection that i can't tell him. so..






yeah.
*le sigh*



but i have to work today,
so it'll take my mind off of it.
hopefully.




it rained yesterday.
i had to go out in it and pick up branches.


i rented newsies again.


other than that...
life sucks.
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