Monday, May 26, 2008

so
We got a one at state.
yay. i guess.



am entirely too tired to be excited about anything.
it's about 3:30 in the morning.


i'll post something fun and exciting tomorrow or something.
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Friday, May 23, 2008

I has a flavor!
Check out the picture on my profile.
Isn't it Boss?
My friend took it and edited it.
It's me.
=]


This Saturday is State Solo and Ensemble contest. It's sort of the higher level of Solo Ensemble that people who make the highest grade on their solo or ensemble earlier on in the year go to. For the first year in a long time, an orchestra ensemble made a one and we're going to State.
Wish us luck =D they're pretty strict there.



I officially have five real days left of school. Then three days of finals. Yay =D



I started doing Pilates on Wednesday. If you don't know what they are, it involves a lot of breathing and concentration. You stretch out the muscles in the stomach, hip, and thigh area with exercises. Let me tell you something: It is fucking HARD! I'm so sore x.x But I am trying really hard to get into shape. I'm thinking about adding some Taibo into the mix. Taibo's basically a bunch of punching and kicking. Pretty Fun.



Yeah.
That's my life right now.



And I have lots of homework and projects that are due in the next week or so, so I won't be on much.
=]
peace
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Thursday, May 15, 2008

how are things on the west coast?
Things are alright.


But it sort of feels like 'the calm before the storm.'


Something big is going to happen this summer.




=]
alalalala life is pretty good at the moment, though.

The sky is full of bright new stars, just waiting for me to name them.
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Tuesday, May 6, 2008

wow
life is a-okay.
not much better than that though.
just super busy crap.
ugh.


Queer as Folk is my new obsession =D
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Thursday, April 24, 2008

Anybody out there...
who is still in high school and lives in the states...
Tomorrow is the national Day of Silence.

It's a day dedicated to the protest against anti-LGBT bullying, harassment, and name calling.
This year is held partially in memory of Lawrence King, a fifteen year old boy who was shot and killed by a fellow classmate on Febuary 12 because of his sexual orientation and gender preference.

The whole day is spent in silence to represent the silence that lgbt kids have to go through every day.


(lgbt = lesbian gay bisexual transsexual)



So other than that.
life's pretty alright right now.
=]
i'll let you know how the dos goes =D
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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

I'm so happy
I can't believe this.

This is the most wonderful thing that's happened to me in a long time.
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Wednesday, April 9, 2008

lalala
there's a fun movie coming out the day before our prom called Prom Night. I think I'm going to see it, then go to prom. =] has anyone else heard of it? i don't feel like describing it.


i'm so proud of myself. i got a progress report in pre-calculus that was less than satisfactory (70 is passing, 100 is perfect, and I have a 58). I had the choice (not really a choice, actually) to either show it to my mom and get it signed (takes a lot of courage to show a groddy grade to my mother) or have my teacher call her himself tomorrow. ahaha.
so i showed it to her.

=] i'm growing up!! ! !



=D i have nothing else to talk bout. i'll probably post something forreals funs tomorrow but right now i can't think too good.well. can't thin ktoo well. eww.
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Sunday, April 6, 2008

epic
friday night was EPIC.
holy cow.


started off at Dynasty with Jennifer, Sydney, Anthony, and Annie. Wow. We stuffed ourselves and laughed until we almost pissed ourselves. While Anthony was in the bathroom (he was in there for about 20 minutes), we told the waiters that it was his birthday (of course it wasn't really). You should've seen his face when he came out. They even brought out their humongous birthday gong. We laughed so hard, I thought I was going to throw up.

Cue the crazy car ride to the mall, where we blew tons of money at Tilt, the game place. Then we drove to Starbucks, where we had a coffee cake fight and my friends cussed really really loudly in front of some kids that go to my church. They're probably going to talk about it and pray for me tomorrow. lol.

After Starbucks, we were in two cars and were yelling at each other. Driving down that road with four of my best friends with the window down, making faces at the two people in the other car...It was so amazing. I felt infinite =]

Then I went to Annie's house and stayed the night. We watched Dude Where's My Car and made crepes for brekkie.



wow that was a blast. I'm pretty sure it's going to happen again next weekend. Prom is next Saturday, so that's probably going to be part of it. Def.going to that now. =]




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Friday, April 4, 2008

two months to the day
since Christian dumped me.



Actually, it's not really bothering me.
It probably will when I actually see him later. But not now.



But today is going to be full of funsies.
I'm going to Dynasty(chinesebuffet) after school with some amazing people
and I'm going to try to get to know them better.
Because I want friends who I can feel infinite with, too.
Yeah?



Life is super busy and ridiculous. School is pretty much dominating everything right now.


but =] it's almost the weekend. That's exciting.

Funny Pics and Myspace Layouts at pYzam.com

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Wednesday, April 2, 2008

   i'm getting better at things.
So I definitely have been having an interesting week.

(copied and pasted directly from my lj)
My mom thinks that I should see a therapist.
According to her, I have some very deep feelings that she can't even begin to understand. I think she's a little afraid of them. But we've always been very close, so I've been trying to explain what's going on inside of my head.


I don't like to open up to people. Especially people that I don't know well or at all. I'm incredibly open with people that know me well for just that reason. I want to be open with people and to have that effortless social grace that I see other people have. I want it so badly.

But I'm afraid. More often than not, whenever I come out and actually talk to people that I don't know, I say something or do something stupid, and they laugh at me. That cuts so deeply. By now, it's gotten to the point where I don't talk to people very much at all, because being ignored is slightlybutstillbetter than being laughed at.


Sometimes I go back to conversations in my head and I think about a comment that I've said and I think "what if they took that a different way? what if they don't like me anymore? what if they hate me?" i go through all sorts of ridiculous scenarios in my head and blow up a stupid little moment until I hate myself.



But I'm trying to overcome this. I really am. I hope you can believe me.


On a slightly less depressing note, it's nice to see you again, rabidpinmin =] I missed seeing you 'round here =] your site looks pretty stinking awesome


that little animated thing up there...that's not me =] that's my friend Annie. That was to go with the part where it says "I love my friends". *nod*



<3 i'm in physics so i can't stay for long bai 8D
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