Friday, December 7, 2007

bwee =]
I finally got Eleanor Rigby on my Ipod. If you don't know that song, go listen to it on my playlist just below. I've been trying to get it. It's a beatifully tragic song =]

I reread The Perks of Being a Wallflower again yesterday. I got some of the songs mentioned in the book on my playlist, like Landslide and Dear Prudence and Blackbird(which was already on my playlist). I would recommend going to listen to Landslide by Fleetwood Mac.
In fact, just go listen to everything. I'm pretty positive you won't be disappointed.

I'm afraid to say that nothing in my life is of that great of importance at the moment. Life goes on just as it always has. Booh. I'm in love, I'm getting over past feelings, I'm dealing with school, I'm dealing with suicidal friends.
You know. The usual.


Oh yeah. Speaking of which.
So I'm a little worried about my friend.

He seems like a really nice, happy guy. I've known him since middle school. Last week, I saw him pulling at his rubber band that was around his wrist and letting go so that it would slap him. I asked him, "Why are you doing that? Doesn't it hurt?"
He said, "Yeah, that's the point."

I feel really bad for him, because he obviously has some self worth issues to go through.

He sent me one of those forwarding text messages that says:
FREE PASS to ask me anything u want and i have to answer with the truth! send this to everyone in ur phone and see what they ask u!!!

So I asked him, "Why did you want to hurt yourself?"

He said, "I value the life of my friends more than mine."

It made me want to cry. Seriously. I tried to help him understand that whatever is in your past doesn't affect what goes on in your daily life unless you let it. And that's what he's doing. I gave him the best advice I could have gotten when Michael was, in essence, "breaking up" with me: find someone who can be your crutch in times of trouble and would do anything for you. Only when you know that you are loved can you truly love yourself.


I wish I could do more, but I don't know what else to do...
Did I do the right thing? Should I just not get involved?

Buuuuh. I know too many people in need of help and understanding. Some of them need love. Some of them need HELP, like counselor help.

The world is so broken and bleak. Is there any way to fix everything?

We'll carry on, I suppose.

All the lonely people *sigh* Where do they all come from?


The holidays are approaching. They give people a sense of hope, yes? I'm certainly excited. I'm going to have a Christmas party. We're going to have a Secret Santa and White Elephant gifts, and we might make cookies =]


So I guess there is a lot going on in my life after all =] Hm.

As if this post wasn't long enough...
I don't have a picture today. I have a video, which is twice as amazing. The quality isn't the best, but remember that this was in the 60's. This is one of my favorite songs: A Hard Day's Night.
(my favorite is the one that starts singing second XD)

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