Saturday, March 25, 2006

   ...Worried
hey everybody, hos was everyone's spring break? Mine was.....interesting, to say the least. Don't get me wrong, great things happended, i have a job, hung out wit my friends, and my girl. but with that being said....i made a mistake...a huge one. A mistake that could have sigle handely runined my life and hers. if anyone knows what i'm talkin about, then you've been through something similar. anyway the shit is scaring the hell out of me, and i've never been more worried in my life.

There's is a chance that the entited mistake is completely irrelevant, but that chance that its not worries both of us.and then there's the solution to the problem if the mistake is actually a problem, worries me even more. we know that thats ouir only option, but it still scary as hell . that solution is somethin that i never even contemplated. but its our only option, and i understand it, because i don't want her to go through what she would have to if it didn't happen. but then again its not like she won't be going through alot either way, more than i ever wanted her to. i hate it, becuase its my fault that our lives have just gotten more complictaed, WAY more contemplated than it needs to be. its my fault, and even though she donsn't want me to feel that way, i cant help it, becuase i know i could've avoided it.

Well, i don't wanna depressed anyone more so than i probably have, so whats been up with everyone else. feel freee to tell me, i could use some cheering up, see ya. PEace

-Terra Zero
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Friday, March 17, 2006

   Good Morning World
hey, how is everybody? what have you guys been up to? besides finally getting all my exams out of the way, i haven't been doing to much. I did audition for a talent show, and i got in, but i've decided not to do it, simply because i don't feel like doing it anymore. most of my time has been devoted to spending time with my girl, who, besides certain occasions, has really been a blast to be around. if i'm lucky, i'll be around her forever....if i'm lucky.

I say this because, even though i care about her more than anything in the world, so much that i postponed my dream of being in LA, i also understand that we're still young (both of us are 17) and that stuff happens, people change, and emotions get lost in the process. God forbid that ever happen to us, but i kinda see the neede for me to not throw myself into the deep end just yet, (though i have gotten pretty deep already).We are moving incredibly fast, and though i really have no problem with it, i think we need to slow it down a little, just until our maturity level catches up with our incredible infatuation with each other.

Anyway thats whats been up with me. Anybody wanna tell what they've been doing? i'd love to hear it. Till next time, Peace

-Terra Zero

P.S. As you can see from my new layout, Kingdom Hearts II is almost here, and i can't be more excited. Just felt like i had to say that. :P
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Thursday, March 2, 2006

   Hey...
How is everybody today? I'm really kinda bored, cuz we have a free day at school today, but there isn't much to do. So i'm just chillin, waitin for 3:35 to hit, but anyway. What's been up lately with everyone. I know i haven't been on in a while, but i had some stuff i needed to deal wit, that got dealt with. So i'm doing pretty good. I've just had to start the whole college application process over, considering i am no longer attending the Art Institute of CA. I'm going to the one in Atlanta, so i have to start all of that crap again; admission essays, transcript request, ya know. Then added on to that i still have scholarship work to do, and an album to finish, so i'm pretty swamped with stuff. but yeah, thats all thats been up with me, so what about you guys, anybody got any stories to tell about what they've been up to? I'd be glad to hear em. but anyway, i gotta go. see ya later. Peace

-Terra Zero
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Monday, February 13, 2006

   Valentine's Day!!!
Yes, tommorrow is Valentine's Day, my new favorite day of the year. Why? because i now have a reason to love it, my girl of course. Yeah this will be the first time I actually like Valentine's day since before that horrible situation i had on V-Day 2002, and its the first one where i sincerly cared about the girl that i was with. yeah i can't wait until tomorrow, its gonna be a great GREAT day, and i'll love every moment of it, then my girl's gonna go home and my high is gonna go down with it but, i don't care.

Since we have a 4-day weekend this week, i'm thinking about taking her out, but i don't have a car, and neither does she so we inherntly have a problem there. i may just hang out at her house or something, i don't know. I just wanna be around her, i love her so much that just her presence makes me happy. She's my world and i'll do anything for her. I just wish everybody on the planet could feel how wonderfully beautiful i feel right now. but thats not possible, so i'm content with this.

Anyway, what are you guys doing for V-Day? anybody got they're significant others anything or plan to do something special for them? i'd love to hear about it. well i gotta go, talk to you guys later. Peace

-Terra Zero
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Thursday, February 2, 2006

   High off Life....
Today, I was posed with a very serious question: Why is life so....beautiful? Mind yo that my isn't anywhere near the easiest. Being a young black male, the middle of 5 children born to a single mother who is a gang memeber has its challenges inherently. Not only that, but my life is particularly hard for reasons i don't wanna state right now. The point is, life is hard, as hell. But if my life is so bad....why do I love every single moment of it? that is the question of the day, and i think i came up with an answer.

I believe that the reason I love being alive so much, regardless of how horrible it gets somedays, is that I make it worth living. I do everything that i possibly can so that my life can be better someday. Because i am so focused on this goal, i try to acheive as much as possible so that i could make it better, and sometimes i succeed, sometimes i don't. but that only is a thrill that i enjoy to the fullest. That's one reason, but there is another.

I've found that if you associate yourself with people who share your desire for a better life, they will encourage you in everyway, that is if these are good people, mind you. it isn't a good idea to be around people that don't want to go anywhere. Its apart of the crab syndrome. It there are a bunch of crabs in a barrel, eventually one is going to try to get out. And when that one crab attempts this, the others will try to pull him down. You see what i mean?

With that being said, being around a bunch of positive people makes life all the more enjoyable. And when these people are ones that you love (as friends or more), it creates a high of positvity that can't be described. The people i associate with, my friends and my girl more accurately, make my life the great experience it is. My girl, who has recently become such a big part of my life this december, has really made it something special. Being around her is just a joy, and i cherish every second of it.

No matter how bad life gets, the fact that you are alive makes it wonderful by itself. I don't understand people who say there's nothing to live for. I think thats bullshit, life can always get better, if you want it to. Like i say every day....
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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

   Hmm...
Hey guys, long time no see. Happy Late New Year to everybody. Hope everyone had a nice break, if they had one. I know everyone has problem around this time of year, and i'm no different. It may not even be a problem to some ppl, but just hear me out:

Lets see, recently (well not too recently) i met a girl. at first i thought she was a pain in the ass...that lasted for like 2 days. I started to like her, then really like her. Now....she's the single most important thing in my life. I love her more than anything in the world. I'd give my right arm (which is basically my future) for this girl. Like i said she is the single most important thing in my life...and that fact alone... SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME.

Lets see if i can explain why. 1st of all, i don't get attached to girls. lets just say, when you first example of a woman is a woman who is that great...you tend to have problems gettin close to them. So females were just friends, and even the girls that i did date, i didn't care a great deal about. it was just something to do (those of you with dirty minds will pick up on the innuendo). and the girls that i did get close to kinda hurt me in more than one.

i think the main reason is that about 4 months ago, my future was the single most important thing in my life. and if something got in the way of me getting there, was something i didn't need in my life. then she comes around...now there is something that makes me regret the future i planned out. I'd give my entire future up for her...and the scares me senseless. maybe i'm lookin at this the wrong way, but it is something thats eating at me. what do you guys think?

-Terra Zero
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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

   About me...
hey guys. alotta ppl have been signin my gb and messaging me, asking to learn more about me. i can't even begin to explain how many ppl have done so, so it easy to see y i haven't been able to answer everyone. so i plan to do so now.

Lets see, i am 17 years old, about 6"2 or 6"3 ( i honestly don't know) and i'm black. contrary to popular belief, i'm actually a really cool normal guy. i'm really into music (mostly rap) and i rap alot myself. whether or not i will try to make it big, i really can't say.

I'm an artist, i draw alot, and my art teacher's trying to get me to paont, but i suck at it. i write alot too, basically, if it can be written, i wrote. plays, scripts, poems, short stories, novels, songs whatever. i just won the Martin Luther King essay too. i got 100 dollars for it, and i'm goin for 1500.

and as u can tell, i love anime and video games. my favorite anies are on the site, and as far as games go...you can probably guess if you've been here long enough to keep track of my layouts. if you haven't, i'll post them later. but thats not all i'm into. i love cars, i love to go to parties, i just do whatever. i'm a fun loving guy.

anyway my plans for the future, well i've been accepted to college already, and i'm majorin in media arts and animation. if all goes right i'll be making 6 figures by the time i'm 30. after that i don't know, the sky's the limit. as far as all my hobbies go, i'll pursue them to, basically because i want to be filthy, filthy rich :).


well that about covers everything, that i can tell you now at least, you wanna know more, just message me

-Terra zero
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Friday, October 28, 2005

   Harvest Week
well, next week is harvest week at my school (its basically homecoming week for a school with no football team). basically, each day has a theme, and we have to dress according to the theme of the day, which is a welcome respite for a school that wears uniforms. monday is costume day, on which i want to be Jimmy Bones from that movie, but probably won't be able to; tuesday is spirit day, on which each class has to wear a certain school color, as a senior, i have to wear red, my favorite color. wednesday, is celebrity day, which is self-explanatory. thursday is back in the day...day and friday is pajama, the day on which we have the biggest dance of the year. i'm probably not gonna go, cuz i plan on doin something else. but i might go, if certain conditions are met. i just felt as though i should inform everyone on what goin on in this uneventful life of mine. peace

-Terra Zero

P.S. i'm also goin out for the Bill Gates Scholarship, which i'm am so gonna win. just some more insight.
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

   Bored
Well, my b-day was 2 days ago, didn't do much really, but it did surprise me as to who actually REMEMBERED my birthday and who didn't. ppl that have only known me for 9 weeks remembered it even when my friends for 4 years didn't. (yeah i'm talkin about u GoldenKnight:P) but no biggie, i just wanted ppl to acknowledge the fact that it was my b-day and that i'm (finnaly) 17.



on a lighter note, i feel that its finally time for me to answer the age-old question, what is the best game I've played played this year. 2005 gave me a lot of great games, Tekken 5, Xenosaga 2(Minus the gameplay), Midnight CLub 3, Metroid Prime 2, Devil May Cry 3, But the best one to me is hands down...Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater. Everything about this game is great. graphics, gameplay, story, music, replay value. it has it all. it leaves you wantin for nothing, and completely satisfied and fulfilled by the time you reach the end. and when you realize that your playing with Big Boss and not Snake, it makes the entire experience even more eerie, especially if you played MGS 1&2. this is the best game ri've played this year, and one of the best games ever made. I give this game a 10 out of 10, and i implore everyone who owns a PS2 to buy it

-Terra Zero
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

   Not much to say really
well, i'm in tha library, writing college admission essays and readin rap reviews. guess what? i'm goin to The Art Institute of California- Los Angeles! yeah i'm gonna travel across the country to go to school, in the 2nd largest city in the U.S. i am SO excited, i can't wait. but i won't leave until about this time next year. College.......i can't believe its here already.

On another note...my birthday is a less than a week away, i'll be 17...finally. do u guys know that i'll be 20 when i get out of college? i'll have a Bachelor of Science Degree and still won't be able to drink....legally. its kinda messed up really. also tha day after my birthday i'm gonna release a cd. it probably won't make it out of birmingham alabama, but its worth a shot anyway, besides, i need some money fast since i'm currently unemployed...but if i wasn't so focused on the album, i might have a job by now......

Anyway gotta go, i just felt like checkin in today. see ya later Peace

-Terra Zero
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