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Hmm reading a really good book, the name of it is the subject of this post.... It's nice, it makes me not feel like such a total outcast for being a loner, for being reclusive. Sure i have my impulsive moments, but a majority of my time is at home, in my room, reading, listening to music, on the computer, playing games, drawing, whatever. Most of the time of my life is spent in my own familiar four walls. Often i feel bound to this small area, not bound restrained into it, but that no other rooms in this house are mine, they are not my property. I feel limited... This is why i cant wait to move out.
I've been thinking of alot of things lately. Ive been dealing with alot of things lately, and i have just been trying to get things sorted out in my head. I have noticed that whenver someone wants to rid me in there lives, for whatever reason, they do not go, i cant do this, they disappear, they ignore. It bothers me.
-sigh- heh would really like a girlfriend.. i contradict myself, but as ive said many a times be fore "I like to be alone, but everyonce in a while the lonliness gets to me" It's hard to become good solid friends with someone, when you have a hell of a time being open, or for the fact that a majority of my time i like to be alone, i prefer to be alone. People misunderstand me for wanting to be alone, many people thing that im pushing them away because i want to be alone. When all it really is, is me wanting to be alone, like a smoker who leaves his family for a ciggerate at a resteraunt.
Nothing really has been going on in my life. Still playign Kingdom hearts two, i dont play more than an hour and a half a day, im level 89 though, trying to push for 100% completion, see if anything nifty happens.. Waiting for May 21 (graudation) because it will be a nice temporarily relief, then its off to finding a job and an appartement. Im currently looking for both right now... how i would love a 1 bed eficiency appartment in the middle of fargo...
This has been my rant... check out my friends website, im the (co admin) www.metamudcreations.com im currently workign on Bass Ackwords the comic strip that appears there, not much now, but we are still getting things pounded out. This website is all hosted from my friends basement, server and everything. It's awsome. But im am drowsy. I am in need of sleep.
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Party of One (The Loners Manifesto)