Wednesday, August 2, 2006

   This is hard to put
My site now screwed up so i made a new one Shinichi Okazaki. So you'll have to go there to visit my site.
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*Sigh* *take deep breath* Hello
Last night Nobu stayed the night, and my cousin Kadaj was going to be taken off life support. and Masao was just about to commit suicide when he called me and talked to me about, Nobu and I were sitting there both talking to him adn in the abkground we heard Zaruk shouting "No you can't kill yourself! give me the damn butcher knife!" he was almost about to kill himslef and i was so scared i had no clue waht to do. but thank God he didn't kill himself.
Then later that night Jenna wanted Nobu and I to take her and her friend Brooklyn out side, we were running around playing vampires. when we saw someone sitting on a bench, then he stood up and crawled around on the sidewalk. dragging a knife! then he started running around, we hid by some trees and then he started crawling again with the knife, we didn't know how we were going to get back in the house, then he just dissapeared. we ran to the hosue and hid in our bedroom. my mom and Rai went out and looked around to find him but he was gone. it scared us all so bad.
then Nobu and I stayed up all night talking about Nana and when i get my movies and we talked about my um coming birthday. Masao and Zaruk are coming out but sadly Kadaj can't. The worst parta bout when the guy was following us when we got in the house Kai wasn't home he was at his friend's house so i had no one to cling to. I don't go to Rai cause he had his friend over, it seems that guy only shows up when my mom isn't home and when Kai isn't home or when their both gone. Please comment and or sign my gb.
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Tuesday, August 1, 2006

   Heh heh! I'm psycho today!
Today i nicked named Nobu Pumpkin cause she once dyed her hair orange. and she nicked named me Bumpkin cause i don't act smart all the time. i have rights to be weird! Jenna woke me up at 2:00AM then woke me up every ten minutes. around six Masao called and we talked about everything. then we had no clue what we were talking about. Nobu wants me to stop calling her Pumkin, never!!! She was asleep when she nick named me Bumpkin, i have no clue how she did. Nobu closed my bedroom door, Oh thank god! i can't stand my door being opened. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I CAN'T THINK! MY BRAIN WON'T WORK!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOO! Back to normal. last week i got my new issue of Shojo Beat, only three days after i got August issue. Strange, but I'm starnge. if ya don't believe me, ask the doctor. no seriously my doctor told my mom when i was born i would be a strange person and i am. please sign my gb or comment and if ya please do both.
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Monday, July 31, 2006

Oodgay orningmay (That's pig latin for good morning)
Last night i couldn't sleep, then at six am i finally got to sleep. and woke up at 9 am! I'm reading Nana on the internet (again) and in 11 more days it'll be my birthday! and my movies will be here the same day, i'm getting Nana the movie, Kamikaze Girls, and Nana the anime. sweet! Rai has had friends over all week, one has been here for five days! and their favorite game is annoy Shin. Masao called a little bit ago. he just wanted to talk. he said that Kadaj won't be able to make out here for my birthday but he and Zaruk sure will. Masao made me feel so happy. we talked about his band he started, he can play bass like a real rock star. He told me that when he came out again he'd teach me how to play. He also thanked me for helping him. I just love helping people. Please comment or sign my gb.
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Sunday, July 30, 2006

   Hmmm, Hi
Hello. Today is going good (only cause I've just woken up) Masao and I talked all night, Masao was so sad, Kadaj was one of his only friends he has one other but Zaruk's an idiot. Masao's mother was killed after he was born, his father killed his mother, and at seven he ran away from the orphanage, and Kadaj took him under his wing, Masao is fifteen now, and Kadaj is eighteen. Almost every night now he calls me telling me he wants to kill himself. But luckily he listens to me and doesn't. I feel really sorry for him. Masao is such a wonderful guy, when i call him his and Kadaj's friend Zaruk answers saying "Hey babe what'd up?" then Kadaj and or Masao pushes him away from the phone. They are the coolest. Not to mention Masao can kick Kai's butt. Kai is seventeen and Masao is fifteen so i laugh at that. Masao and I have the same dream: we want to be an animator and a manga artist. I wish there was something i could do for him, he is so sad all the time, he's a punk goth. i hope he continues to lsiten to me and doesn't kill himslef. Please comment or sign my gb.
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Saturday, July 29, 2006

   Opps. Sorry not posting in awhile.
Nobu stayed the night two nights in a row and we pulled an all nighter, we were talking bout vampires. Friday I slipped in my kitchen and got knocked out. Nobu, Jenna, and Zak carried me to my bed. Today kinda suked, my cousin Kadaj went back into a coma. and last night Masao was thinking about commiting suicide, i sat on the phone and talked him through it. Thank God he listened to me. Jenna is having a friend stay the night and I'm loenly. I wish i knew my friend Mathew's phone number but i forgot it. He was so nice, no one liked him cause he's gay. I thought he was the coolest guy i ever met, Kai, Rai and my boyfriend hurt his feelings once (they didn't even know they hurt his feelings) he began crying and I helped him through it. He always told me I was his best friend cause i was the only person who treated him normaly. please comment or sign my gb.
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Thursday, July 27, 2006

   Nobu is here!!
Yay Nobu is here! i'm so happy! I cried on the way to Grand Jct. today there were all these diseals, Sushi died because of one! it broke my heart. Masao called saying that Kadaj woke up and this is what Kadaj had Masao tell me "The only reason I woke up, is because Shin needs me more then anyone else in this family." that made me so happy. Masao only had a twenty four hour flu. I'm reading Nana the manga in Japanese (good thing they translete)heh heh. I'm made Nobu upset. Bad me. Please comment or sign my gb.
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Wednesday, July 26, 2006

   Sad day for me
Today is so frickin sad! Masao called me last night, it was an emergency about my cousin Kadaj: Kadaj is sick and went into a coma and Masao has the flu! My heart hurts from this and how much i miss Sushi, we sepnt every single minute at school by each other side. and to everyone who reads this yes Sushi and I were in love. I can't help but cry at this, it took alot of guts to type up that poem. I cried my self to sleep last thinking about Sushi. I wish he was alive so i could hold him in my amrs and never let him go. please sign my gb or comment.
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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

   Uh Aloha I think
We had to cancel my Kamikaze Girls dvd, Nana manga, and Nana cd. So i'll be getting Nana the movie. I just saw a very insulting picture of Shin from Nana! He was dressed as a girl!!!!! Oh here's poem I'd like everyone who visit my site to read my dear Friend Sushi wrote it:

This poem was originally wrote by a dear friend of mine, he gave me this poem and told me to never loose it and I’ve kept till this day and I want to share it with all, as one of his wishes was for the world to know his gift. I’m dedicating this poem to my friend who died six years ago, who’s father abused him, who was shot in the head twice and lived, who fell down the stairs and broke his ribs, who’s mother was never home because she had to work four jobs and left him to watch over his little sister, he was hit by a car and lived and ended having broken knees and couldn’t walk for sometime. He grew up never knowing love except the love I gave him. He knew I was one of the only few people that loved him and wished him well.

I’m the child in my house
Who’s father treats my like a mouse
I feel so small
I feel so lost
My mother never home
My little sister born with a tumor in her lungs
I was left alone to watch over her
When she’d have trouble breathing
I didn’t know what to do
I was only four and she was only one
And sometimes I thought she’d be done
But thankfully I had an angel in my life
She gave me courage to call my mom
And tell her my sister was dieing
When she got home she slapped me on my pale face
She took my sister to the hospital
And I was left home alone crying
Sometime later I was in the car with my father
When a gang began to fight
I was shot in the head twice and thought I saw the light
When I awoke I saw my mother standing there with my sister in her arms
She sat my sister down and scooped me in her arms
I felt so bad
I worried her mad
A year later my sister and I were playing in our yard
When our ball rolled into the street
I ran to get it but I slipped in the road
A truck came up the road
Not seeing me lying in the street
It ran over me breaking my knees
I wasn’t able to walk for about a year
But my angel kept me trying
I soon began walking
I came down my stairs to eat my cereal one winter morning
I slipped over my little sister’s glove
I went tumbling down
My mom gave my sister a frown
I had broken my ribs
I thought I’d die
No just a lie
My angel held me tight
And kept away from the heavenly light
If not for her I’d die
After winter break
I went back to school
Waiting at the gate was my angel Shin
She helped me walk around
She loved me so
On Christmas night
Driving home from my grandma’s
A drunk driver driving a diesel truck hit us
Out car went flying off the road
My sister surely would’ve died
But in exchange for her life I put myself in her place
My broken ribs squeezed my lungs
I couldn’t breathe
I lay in the hospital having my ribs taken out of my lungs
While my mother and sister waited grieving I might die
When I awoke knowing I’d die soon I asked to see my love my angel one last time
I asked if I could call her and hear her soft voice
But the doctors said no
I cried and begged
And they still said no
Oh I wished to hear her soft voice or see her beautiful face
Then soon I died

He finished this poem right before he died, his little sister gave it to me before I moved away, she never said he died all she said was he was sick in bed.

that was very sad and it killed me to type it and put up on this. I wish he was alive, Masao and me were talking yesterday about vampires, one of hsi friends claim they got attcaked by one, and school already started there and in his school there's a supernatural class where kids can learn about ghost, vampires, spirits, ect... and the only reason he's taking it is becuase his friend claims they got attacked by a vampire. I put that poem up on here for a few reasons and one was in honor of his birthday, his birtday falls on the same day as mine, and if was still alive we'd be the same age on the same day. please comment and/or sign my gb.
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Monday, July 24, 2006

   Aloha peoples!
Hello! Kai and his friend Robbie woke me up at like 5am or 6am, rough housing in the living room! (Note: my room is right next to the living room)and yesterday morning they woke me up at 12:00am. rough housing in the living room. Today is going wonderfully! yesterday morning i had a nightmare and that nightmare keeps haunting me! I found two good costumes of Shin, beside Masao's one. I'm bored and we might be going to Wal-Mart today. NOOOOOOOOOO! Please sign my gb or comment.
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