Monday, January 5, 2009

   jsdr
Thanks for the comments, Kelsey and Jace. Kelsey, did you watch the game Sunday? If we beat the Giants we have a good chance. Eli, I like you but please choke on vomit. Quail Man! Haha, I remember Doug. I loved that show. My father and brother are named Doug so it was a big joke to me and my sister.

I'm hoping to wrap up this post with a wrap up of 2008. I did one last New Year's eve for 2007. 2007 was a dark year for me I noticed. But we can't all be bubbly and happy all the time. We'd probably exhaust ourselves.

Today is going to be annoyingly busy. Well, half the day is over. I woke up late. I have to call my college for a meeting. And I have to pick out my classes during this meeting. And I have to pick them out before this Friday. I start on Monday. I really am not looking forward to college again. I'm so sick of it. This is an actual big top name college, but I still don't want to go. I need my degree but I still think it's stupid that I need a degree for something I've done my whole life. Se la ve. (I honestly don't know why I type it that way.)

Today is my friends 21st birthday. I actually remembered the date. We've only been best friends for nine years, that's not long enough to remember things like birthdates (being really sarcastic). Truthfully the reason I forgot it was because I confused it with another date. I always thought her birthdate was Jan. 4th because (and believe me I know how stupid this sounds) one of my character's birthdate is Jan. 4th. He's 21 too. He was around before I was friends with her so that's why the confusement. I'm told my grandmother's birthdate is tomorrow. Interesting that I confuse my friend's birthdate with a ficional person's and not a real person's.

Anyway, happy belated birthday to Denim, happy birthday to Cass, and happy early birthday to my grandmother.

Now, what can I say about 2008? It was the year of the big birthdays. My friend's daughter turned a year old. Me and my friend (the one with the birthday today) turned 20. No longer kids. My sister and my best friend's sister both turned 18. My best friend's brother turned 16.

2008 was the year of deaths. My old faithful dog, Milleficent died after eleven years. My grandparents' dog died. A three/four people I know through art had dogs who died. My dad lost two friends and his friends' lost a son. A day before my aunt arrived I killed my betta, Mikhail. Literally. I was so sad.

2008 was the year of scum. It's no secret on here about my aunt's husband. I heard other stories of scum but they do not effect me so I choose to ignore them.

2008 was the year of hunger. I have always had a big food drive, but this year I've topped it. I am also hungry in ther ways though. I'm hungry to get things going. I'm hungry for my freedom. Right now I'm just hungry for a bowl of Thai garlic soup.

2008 was the year of travel. The day after my dog died I left home. I drove east to New York. Except for the week I was in the Outer Banks, I was in New York for two months. I went back to Indiana for 2/3 days, before driving out to California. I saw the St. Louis Arch. The Painted Desert. The Grand Canyon. The Petrifed Forrest. I read and (tried) spoke Navajo, Zuni, and other Native languages.

2008 was a year of realization. I had traveled out to California to study direction. I want Epic so badly that I thought going to film school was the logical choice. I soon realized it wasn't. After living in California on my own for two months, I went back to Indiana and back to my Science roots.

2008 was the year of endangerment. California frusterated and infurianted me like no place ever did. I was surrounded by morons. Film and camera geeks who didn't understand how a fish drank water, or know what Cherokee was, or know how long a woman was pregnant for (they said 2 months). Me, being an outsider, was just trying to be nice the whole time. I am not nice. To get out frusration I let go my natural care of my own life and drag raced. Lots and lots of speeding. Lots of really close shaves. The seond I crossed the Nevada boarder I was free and my head cleared. I like visiting California, but I couldn't live there. At least not around film people.

2008 was the year of detox. After I left California I was seriously in a detox. It took two weeks before I had my vocabulary back. Never dumb yourself down to fit in.

2008 was the year of people coming out. I had a friend out west who was going to come out to his parents at the winter break. I don't know if that happened, but I wish him luck. I have another friend who came out. I somewhat saw it coming, somewhat. I heard 2 other people I know through art had friends that came out. They were girls too. One of those years. Good luck to you girls. As a Scientist I genuinly don't get it, boys have XY so there can be defect, girls are XX so not that chance, but good luck with that anyway.

2008 was a year of awkwardness. I was a model/actress when I lived out west. I absolutely hate getting my picture taken. I don't exactly like how I look, I'm not unhappy about it, but my foundation was a neighborhood where I was one of two girls. So, early on I was just teased for being a girl. On my last shoot I was constantly told how beautiful and cute I was. It was just really awkward because I'm not used to hearding that. My guy friends never said that to me, and my girl friends never said that to me. Just awkward. I was wary of anyone talking to me for a couple months after that.

2008 was the year of backstory. I wrote so much backstory for Epic I thought I'd be sick. I'm still writing backstory for it, and I'm nowhere near finished. I started working on some old solo projects too, but backstory is the main thing to focus on. Got to get it all done.

2008 was the year of boys. When in the Outer Banks, me and my best friend ust decided to go over and invite the boy next door to go hot tubbing with us. Well, she decided and I wasn't about to back away from it. Blonds aren't my taste, but I still thought it would've been a fun story. Thankfully he declined. He wasn't the pretty surfer boy he appeared to be from a distance. Wow, that sounded shallow. Out in California I was hit with a wave of good looking guys. Most were younger so I didn't pay much attention. One wasn't too bad looking but he was moving too fast for me. Do not talk to me about marriage and children the first time you meet me. I'll freak and bolt. I drag raced him. My way of flirting. I caught the attention of the school's biggest catch. A Brit. He was horrible to his whore and treated a lot of the other girls like objects, not me. Always so polite to me. And asking about me. And inviting me to play poker. We had a lot in common, but I left. -shrug- I am the fiery wind.

In 2009 I'll move out, again. I'll be going to a real big accreditted college, well known for Biology. I hope to end 2009 with a YouTube commercial for Epic. We have one, we just can't figure out how to get it to work. I hope to get my degree by the end of the year. I think that's jumping it a little. I hope to finish all, or most of the backstories we have. I want to start working on episodes. We have a couple we need to finish typing.

That'll be that. This is really long. Sorry about that. Lots of random little info. I hope I didn't make myself sound like a monster.
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Saturday, January 3, 2009

   ilykt
Question mark mood= so so so tired, really wore, ragged, dizzy, blurry, ill, kind of sad.

I'm having some trouble reading right now so I'll get around to commenting later. :/ If my spelling is really bad in this (more than usual) that would be why. I'd like to hope I know my keyboard.

What's going on with everyone? How was the holidays? Presents? Family visits? Insanely huge arguements? Tell so I can catch up when I can read again.

As I said a long time ago, my aunt came to visit for Christmas. My aunt the one with that husband who lives in a condo with his mistress who ditched her two kids to live with him. That aunt. I think they're back together now. He still has the condo and mistress. If they aren't back together they will be soon. And he'll still have the condo and mistress. You know, it's no wonder I carry a hatred for my gender. I have never had strong female to look up to. Sure, I guess my mother is okay, but I still see her a weak to be honest. Weak might be too harsh a word, but I don't know one at the moment that would be weak in a more flattering light.

Maybe I'm not sad. My head is really foggy. I don't get sick so I'm probably confusing a symptom for an unearthed emotion.

What did everyone do for New Year's? Resolutions?

I got sick Sunday. I lost my voice a few times (inclueding this morning) so I forgot about 2009 until I realised how weird it was for my mother to be in the same room as me. ...That sounds a lot worse than it is. I won't go into it right now since my arm is now violently shaking. We watched a couple daredevil stunts.

I have resolutions, I'm just having a heck of a time trying to remember them and type at the same time. I'm sure they are college and Epic related.

Speaking of Epic, I haven't updated the WORLD. I'm sick.

Random fact about me time!
I do not get sick. I have my times when I'm in so much physical pain that I feel nausious, but that's different. That comes with the XX and some messed of genes. Besides the eight/nine times of pain, I do not get sick. Drinking a chocolate milkshake so fast you send your stomach into shock and need to barf it up isn't sick. That's just stupid. No, I do not get sick. I do not catch colds. I do not catch the flu. So, when I say now that I have a cold, I'm saying it's 2/3 years of backed up colds come to light. I don't get sick, but when I do I get it really really really bad. Example: Last time I got a cold was Christmas many years back. In the early 2000s. I can't remember it exactly but I think it was 2001. The reason I can't remember it, I repressed it. I threw up acid for day(s). I didn't move for days. When I did move it was to be moved into a hospital. I don't remember much after that but I did have the bracelet from there.

Yeah, that's it. It took me an hour and a half to type that. That's pathetic. See you guys when I'm better. Hopefully that'll be soon. I have stupid meetings later.

[look up Superintendent Chalmers to find my college]
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Wednesday, December 24, 2008

   sorry!
I'm so sorry that I haven't been around everyone. I'm sooo busy right now.

Before I run to Mass for the first time in 4yrs. I want to say:

Happy Chanuka!
Merry Christmas!
Happy Kwanza!
Happy Winter Solstice!

(I do the Christmas/Winter Solstice incase you were wondering.)

Oh and since other than the PicturEPIC updates who knows when I'll be on:

Happy New Year!
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Thursday, December 18, 2008

   ktdx
Question mark mood= really really hungry, little tired, slightly spacy

Thanks for the comments Kelsey and Jace. Yeah, I use the question mark one almost all the time because for me hungry is an emotion^^;. Darn this super high metabolism. I never saw that Bra-man thing, sorry. I could call you The Dragon Prince Damanex, but with me as a Dragon Gemini that would make me a subject. I bow to no one, mwahaha.

Everything is iced over here in Indiana (gasp, you know the state I'm in). I think it's cool but unfortunately it means the passed two days school has been cancled. Younger sister and kid brother. My sister hasn't been home much and she doesn't bother me. In fact she rarely speaks to me and I rarely see her. Very odd. My brother is hanging out upstairs with my dad. If they keep each other busy I don't have to put up with either until we shoot pool.

Shooting pool is always fun. I use it as a stress thing so I just smash the balls as hard as I can. If I ever get into my zone though the boys can't beat me. I played pool once in California. I lost really bad because according to my internal clock it was 4:00. I only went to the party because I just moved there and thought I should meet the people I'd be working with. Turned out they were all morons except for maybe three of them. So, I packed up and left two months later.

I have a low intolerance for stupidity. It really isn't fair to everyone though since I'm.... What word do I want at the end of that? I think I'll just leave it blank and let you guys fill it in. I met a really religious kid when I was out west. He said my power of observation and decution were gifts of God. I guess that's a really accurate way to sum those up. For crying out loud, I only need to shake hands with a person to know whether or not they've lost their "innocence". Something changes after that. I don't know exactly what since for the most part a person's personality and mannerisms stay the same. But something changes enough for me to tell the differance. It's creepy.

Enough about my freakishness. To get prepared for classes in January, I started setting my alarm. I still don't fall asleep until after 1:00. So, I was just so tired the first half of this week. When my alarm sounded this morning I just turned it off and stayed in bed. I still got up before noon, which is always good. I keep the clock on the floor under the bed so I can't smash it like I did last semester. I am really just not a morning person.

But, yes, last semester I grabbed the cord and just started swinging the clock against the bedside table until it stopped. It's all lopsided now. A few buttons are hard to push. I bougt a new one that plays CDs when I was out west. Every morning I would get up to "Heat of the Moment" by Asia. I blasted it. My roommates kept saying this song was stuck in their head whenever they woke up. My fault. They liked the song so it was all good. It was my revenge against that squeaky matrice. Whenever my roommate's boyfriend was over, squeaky matrice that night. The walls were way too thin in that place.

I believe I have effectively wasted my time, and everyone else's. I have to start on my typing. Yikes, already passed 14:00. I better get going.
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Tuesday, December 16, 2008

   udtresh
Question mark mood= little bit tired, little bit poisoned (some foods don't mix), regular/happy

Thanks for the comment, Kelsey. And welcome, Jace. Nice to meet you.

I'm posting pretty early for me so my shotty arm is alright...for the moment. I'm so far behind on all my typing. I think it's a week and a half since I've written anything. That's a long long time if you're me, which you're not. Lucky you.

Just kidding, but it is a long time. I used to type 10-15 pages a day every day. It's the whole reason my median nerve is shotty. But, yeah, I don't like sounding like I'm complaining so that's enough of that.

It's taking a while to type this. I keep stopping and listening to the music (two windows up). The only song that I could possibly hear outside this playlist is the Lou Gramm song. My radio is on the classic rock. Classic rock is awesome, but I do like other songs.

Speaking of awesome, E-A-G-L-E-S. EAGLES! I was proud of our boys in midnight green, despite the endzone interceptions. We won so I'll over look those...this week. I was listening to Tony and, man I forgot his name, but I was listening to them argueing about our rookie, Jackson. They were saying the exact same thing but in different words. -shakes head- Sports' announcers can be such children. I love it.

And I thought I'd add this little bit about me and my family at the end of this. My family has Military background on both sides. My dad's side, even the step-siblings and step-others, are mostly Air Force. My mom's side was Army, Marines, and Coast Guard. My dad's side when it was in Poland (oh no, you know part of my bloodline now) well, I'm trying to figure out if saying this reveiles my family name. See, I'm the only person in the USA with my first and last name. I'm the only one in the world with my first, middle, and last. My first and middle names are ordinary names too. Well, the point I'll make is that my clan (yes, clan) has a weird genetic tick. It was the whole reason I got into Science. We're warriors, it's like encoded. Kind of freaky.

I almost joined the Military. Believe me, there is a story with that but if I type something for fanwords it'll be in there. I went with Science in the end.

Well, I'm starving and stomach aches never keep me from food. I'll be around.
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Friday, December 12, 2008

   jitsrj
Question mark mood= really tired, hungry, annoyed.

First thing first, I'm going to be a Cardinal. Yes, that's right, I got into college...again. But this time it's for real. Well, the other one was real but I'm graduating from this one. So, yes, at least that is decided.

My insomnia got really really bad at the start of this week, so I've been setting an alarm to keep me up in the morning. The last two nights it was still crawl into bed and lay there until 3:00 at the very least. With my alarm going off at 9:15 I'm not getting a lot of sleep. I got up before 9:00 yesterday for two reasons. One, I hate the sound of an alarm more than anything and didn't want to hear it. Two, bad dream. I'm drop dead tired right now so I think I'll be getting some sleep tonight. Viva le sleep!

I'm so annoyed right now though. Every Friday my parents invite a friend for my kid brother. My younger sister goes out, they go out, so I get stuck with these brats. These stupid, stupid brats. They are the strongest reason I have for not letting babies watch television. I just had to hold down my brother for ten minutes because he's so off the wall. The whole time he's shouting the dumbest stuff to get his friends to laugh. I told him I'd prop open his mouth and have the bulldog lick peanut butter from it if he didn't stay quiet until our parents got back. They're so stupid though. One rule I have is no baseball in the house. So they took that to mean they could still be loud as long as they didn't play baseball. I just went back up and told them to be quiet again. I think they sort of get it now. They're making prank calls on one of their cell phones. As long as it's not mine or the land line go for it.

Another reason I'm annoued is this whole cheating thing going on with my aunt. Apparently her husband isn't just a cheater, he's a totally insane. He came back once, announced he was home. She told him to go get help. He left all mad. He came back again and said they had to spend the holidays together. She locked him out so he sat there trying to break into the house shouting all sorts of things like he 'will own this house no matter what' and stuff. My aunt called her oldest sister and told her to call the cops because she was terrified of him. She called the cops, he ran off before they got there. My mom is worried he's going to hurt her, or worse. This guy is so crazy. Thier little brother was a Marine. He'll beat him senseless if he hurts his big sister. Hell, I'll get him within an inch of his life if he kills her. My aunt hates me, but she did reach out to me and the rest of us for help when things started going south. No one out of the blue says they'll co-sign a loan with you or be a contact. Whatever it was.

A friend of mine is also having a hard time with her parents' getting a divorce. She sounds like she's hurting bad from it. There isn't anything I can do. Not being able to do anything is the worst. She'll get better, but it'll have to be on her own.

Okay, that's enough of that. PicturEPIC has a new update. We'll update it on Fridays. I suggest taking a look. Duh, of course I do. I own a one fifth of everything in there.

That's it for now. I'm kind of in pain. Stupid shotty wrist. I can't put weight on that hand or this nerve goes haywire. The other isn't doing so great since that pinched nerve a couple weeks back. So, I guess I'll see you when I see you. Updates and stuff, I'll read and hug but comments may need to be put on hold.
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Tuesday, December 9, 2008

   kxchj
Yes, the angry face is back! My stupid Gimp broke. The colors are stuck on a messed up grayscale and none of the buttons work. If I can't fix it I'll have to delete and start over.

So, I'm about to hit 1000 page views on dA. 998. I saw this and thought I should draw a picture for the occasion. I drew one for 100, 200, 300, 400, and 500. So I should definately do 1000. Since I've been working on Odds and Trio lately I wanted a character from there instead of Epic. I went with Trio because I've had those boys for two years and just got around to giving them attention now. I picked one of my blonds. Out of the hundreds of characters I've created I have manybe six blonds. I'm a brunette and I like brunettes. Most easy to say most of my characters would be brunette.

I have two blonds in Trio which for a story with only thirteen characters that's saying something. I decided to break right into the trio and drew Innit Llewellyn. Now, I absolutely hate this picture. I'm 90% he doesn't look anything like how he looks in the drawing. But it was a really quick job and I still drew it. So, scanned it in to make a digital line art (tradional takes a couple days). My Gimp doesn't work.

Which is the whole purpose of this post. I'm trying to get it out of my system before trying to fix it. Otherwise I could end up just getting horribly angry and my hand hurts enough right now without me hitting something.

Well, this was a completely pointless post. It's as bad as the last one. Um, I'll end with something on my trio just so I have it saved somewhere.

The trio is Dice Rebels, Innit Llewellyn, and Magpie Foxcroft-Saentes. All are seventeen because the dice said so. My method of using dice is how Dice got his name. And as far as looks go Magpie is the best looking hands down. Goodlooking and clueless about it. If you like blonds then Innit would be the second best of the group. He's supposed to be a little cat-like in appearance. If you like brunettes then Dice would be the second best looking. He's supposed to have that boyish charm.

And that's all I have to say. I'm going to go post my treatments from my film school days over on dA. I just never wanted to post reading material on Otaku.

EDIT: Apparently I destroyed both digital and hard copies of my treatments. I hated how I wrote them but they did get rave reviews from my film prof. who is a professional screen writer. -shrug-
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Friday, December 5, 2008

   kfsd
Thanks for the comments, Ezel and Kelsey.

Well, it's been quite some time since I posted on here. I was trying to give my personal WORLD, Fas et Nefas a little attention. I haven't posted there in a while either. And I'm going to try to make this short due to pain. Explained below.

I'm a writer, unfortunately. I don't get paid, but that's what I do. When I first started typing my left wrist was broken. So, because of that I only type with my write hand. It has carpol tunnel so bad that I should've gotten surgery years ago. I didn't so it spread from my wrist to my elbow to my shoulder. Now my fingers have it (and most likely arthritis). So, the first few weeks of the cold season my wrists (both) are in bad shape. Right now they're pretty good, but my fingers kill. But, yeah, if I don't comment or commemts are really short, that's why. I do still read and hug on stuff.

Ugh, my fingers are cramping and hurty. I've got to do some typing today so I'm going to just finish this post out.

Our new WORLD, PicturEPIC had a good start. It jumped to the 300s without any posts in it. We haven't updated in a while (finals, work, fingers) but I'm going to call for a meeting later. It slipped into the 800s ithout us updating. It's right next to it's associate WORLD, EPIC Awareness.

I lost my train of thought. I stopped this to finish a picture. Those stupid wings took 14 hours. Now I have two versions of the same picture. One that took way less time, and one with 14 hours on the wings alone.



There, that picture. I don't even like it. I only drew it and colored it so I wouldn't type. But, not typing leads to a heavier case of insomnia. So, typing it is.

I'm starving again. Have a great weekend!
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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

   kxf
Thanks for the comment fellow insomnia sufferer!

The new WORLD is up!

PicturEPIC -An Unsaid World

The first post will be up tomorrow. Just a photo gallery for all the little visual concepts we have. The main WORLD is EPIC Awareness.

EPIC Awareness

That's for the facts. The two are linked so if you get to one you can just click onto the other.

Yes, so, that was a long meeting to get the name and everything. We have another to decide which picture will be first.

The gallery will be hosted by The Unsaid Works, like the formal WORLD. Unlike the formal EPIC Awareness WORLD, PicturEPIC will also be hosted by random characters. So, a chance for us to exercize our characters and a chance for people to know them better.

And we welcome people to draw the characters. I'm not really an artist so I'd like to see other takes. As long as the company (The Unsaid Works) is noted as the owner and I get a PM or something so I can see the picture, anyone can draw them.

That's pretty much it. I got a lot of stuff to do before the meeting tomorrow. PicturEPIC will be updated often starting tomorrow.
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   I envy everyone asleep!
It's 2:11! I want to sleep. Why don't I sleep? Why doesn't my stupid brain shut off?

Thank you for the comment, Kelsey. I don't believe I'm good with pain either, but I wouldn't really know since my tolerance seems to be really high. If it ever wasn't I'd be in trouble.

Well, I was up trying to finish a bit of backstory. I just called it quits for the time i am at my laptop. I can't say day since in a couple hours I'll start it up again. Can't say night since it's technically the next morning.

That's what a lot of my work is that keeps me tied up, writing. Mostly backstories. I might have left film school but the television show is still top priority. Or top five. Eatting is a big one. Sleeping. Other things that I can't exactly think of at this second. Probably something about college or banks.

But, yes, writing out all the backstory is very time consuming. Creating a functioning world is time consuming. But that's enough about that. This isn't for that. EPIC Awareness is for that.

Speaking on that term though, busy again. We've thinking about starting up another WORLD. EPIC Awareness was for the hard core stuff, like info on countries, and were in production we are. not stuff that really interests people.

People want plot and characters. Unfortunately, plot is a big no-no this early. So is most of the character information. You can't run around all blabby when you're trying to create a television show. You'll die.

And with me being so...spratic, and the others working/schooling and 700 miles away, it's not easy to get updates for EPIC Awareness. The last one was a surprise update by me when I was traveling out to film school. It was giving people the chance to name one of our two un-named countries. Plenty of views, no suggestions. Common for EPIC Awareness.

Not really the point. The point is I pretty much only draw Epic characters. Since they're company owned I can't say a lot, just names and races. The other WORLD would be for pictures.

I'm not the only person that draws in our company. In fact, I'm not anywhere near top artist. (Epic is CG so don't worry about the artwork anyway) One member does digi-dolls but can't post them. She's getting into realism, just posted her first a couple days ago. Another has a great manga style but thinks she doesn't so won't post. I don't see the work of another member. She does a lot of coloring though. And our token male member says he can't do anything. But he's the one who knows the computer graphics.

With a picture WORLD we can post concept drawings, scribbles, digi-dolls, and stuff like that. We'd probably "slip" and say a few things about characters other than name and race.

Well, that is my insomnia post. Meetings and such to get up stuff. Going to be getting busy again. But first, sleep!
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