Sunday, November 23, 2008

   kdkt
Looky, a happy face at last!

Thanks for the comments Kelsey and Ezel. To be in the big shows on TV the dog usually needs to be a champion already. One of the dogs, Star, is just starting out. They have to be six months to be shown and I think she just passed that age. The other, Abba, has a coat color that's considered "faulty" so it's harder to show her. She's already got quite a few points towards her championship though since everything else about her is correct. Maybe she'll be on TV someday. As far as show dogs, I've been around a few who have been on TV. Before the poms my grandmother did German Shepards, so I've met Dallas (very famous a few years back) and Jimmy Moses (the handler). And my area is terrier, so I have had Allen sit in my lap (he's a Kerry Blue Terrier, his father is Mick who was the first dog to win the triple crown of the dog world).

Thanks for the advice, Ezel. I understand being busy. I'm always busy now and I don't have a paying job nor have I started school again.

Well, a happy face. Happy because no big family Christmas this year. (If this post makes little sense it's because I'm watching the game. My dad is talking about when he met Trent Cole -insert rolling eyes-)

Yes, no big family Christmas though. Fighting started early so we're not going to Florida. I found out I wasn't going to Baltimore the day before I had to leave. Going to Baltimore was apperently separate from Christmas plans. my parents talked for a few days about how they'd get me from Florida wen they weren't going. But, the problem solved itself when they found out I had no ride from the airport. My grandmother decided to show one of the dogs in Philly instead of Baltimore. My cousin got sick. And you can't rent a car from the airport until you're 24. I haven't been to Baltimore in 16 years so I can't exactly rent a cab. I just don't know the area well enough. Not like Philly. It's been a couple years but I have that city memorized. I could catch a train or something if I got stranded.

It's not all good news though. No traveling for Christmas means my aunt, the one with the *u** husband, is coming to my house for the holidays. I really don't want to put up with someone moping around. Remember, this woman is going to want help from my mother...meaning help from me. She doesn't exactly like me but I do have a responciblity to the family.

Honestly though, what am I supposed to do about this? The damage is done. I can't exactly protect my family when the damage as already happened. Well, there is still all the legal stuff to work out but I'm not getting invovled in legalities. My aunt probably considered all this and will end up whining to my mom. My advice to her is to get angry. Really really angry. She needs to slug him. It'll make everyone feel better.

Oh, and news on her huband and his mistress (because I know everything even though they live way up in Maine), he moved out and they're getting a condo together. It's down the street from my aunt. But wait, it gets better! She ditched her two kids to move in with him. They're perfect for each other.

Life used to be so much easier. I don't remember all this drama, let's say, six months-a year ago. It seems like it took a huge jump after I took off five months ago. You leave for four months and things get weird. But hopefully everything will fall back into place soon. Of course, things won't go back completely, but I rather if they don't. Get some growth going on or something.

Such a drama filled post. Um, my sister turned 18 yesterday. We did lunch. No tattoo for her though. She chickened out but not completely. She's going next weekend. Then it'll be two and a half tattooed people. My dad has an Eagles tattoo (he got it when I was away) and my sister wants a flower on her toe and a smily face on her wrist.

I sort of have one but it was accidental. I went to a party when I was out in California that was "thug" themed. So I drew a spade on my stomach/hip with a normal black pen (only place I could really draw something well upside-down). Well, I didn't realise that I carved most of the outline into my skin. I spent the next three days scrubbing that spot really hard thinking I could remove a layer of skin and thus remove the ink. Been a bit over a month and I still have the outline of a partial upside-down heart. I think it'll fade in another month or so.

And I since I'm going to be busy again with upcoming holidays, not to mention all the work I have backed up from my two month leave, who knows the next time I'll post. Good luck to everyone on any upcoming events, getting over illnesses/injuries, and in the holiday season generally.
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Monday, November 17, 2008

   ksk
I haven't done a happy face in a while. I'll have to post when I'm happy sometime. Not to say I'm not, but I'm tired and stuff too.

Thanks Ezel and Kelsey for the comments.

I have two dogs right now. One is a bulldog, named Angel. She's built a little slighter than she should be so people usually think she's a large, ugly French bulldog. The other is a mutt. His name is Rocks. I had to put his sister down in June so he's been a little depressed. I have a cat too. She's convinced she's a dog. She's even howled and barked. Sounded like a pomerianian. It was odd.

I've never seen betta spelled with only one 't' before. But, yeah, that's the kind I got. I have guppies and swordtails too. I used to breed them but my lines got really in-bred when I was gone. No one bothered to keep up my work when I was away. It was just six years of work. I guess it's no big deal (I could've strangled them).

And I'm not nearly as underweight as your mom. I was about 10-15 lbs. but I think I'm getting better. Haven't checked but I've been eating a lot. Then again my metabolism is really high lately....

Anyway, how is everyone? Well? Busy? Mix of emotions? I'm busy and tired. Tired but insomnia is kicking in again. I don't know what it is about this state but I don't sleep in it. Hopefully it's just this house and things will get sleepy when I move out...again. Been moving out a lot lately.

Christmas is coming up. Joy. No, it's all family getting together. It's great, well, unless you're my family. Last year wasn't so bad. It was actually fun for the first time in memory. It probably looked really awful from an outsiders view though. Last year was supposed to be my last Christmas with the family. They didn't know that, but that was my plan. I was going to stay in California, alone in my apartment. But, California shot my brain and I had to leave. When someone asks if Cherokee is a Native tribe then you're in the wrong place.

Well, enough about that. I'm tired of talking about that state. I'll go back to Christmas. I guess the two somewhat tie together.

Because of my sudden move away from that state, now I am being roped up in the family...again. Little fact about me and the two families around me; they both had/have a lot of dislike for me. My mom's family, I'll call them the V family, never liked me. I look like them, but I guess I didn't act like them. I was always freewilled and wildfire. Yeah, they weren't fans of that. They still don't like me, but an uncle, who married into the family, is now having an open affair with some woman. So my aunt is devestated. I have to hear all about it because they tell my mom and she relays it to me. That's how it always is. So, now I have to figure something out about that just to get everyone to shut up. If it were me, I'd be so angry that he did something that low I wouldn't be having her issues. She's blaming herself because she couldn't have kids (his fault actually, they were weak and I'll tell him that if I ever see him again since no one else will). She's willing to take him back if he stops and gets help. Oh no, he's not allowed back in. The V family has always been extra nice and open to him. He made everyone feel sorry for him because his parents were jerks and he was the only Jewish guy in the family. He got the house when my grandparents died. We owe him nothing. I haven't seen the V family in many years, but I will personally make sure he never gets back in. The man thinks I'm a demon. well, if he tries to worm his way back in only to do this again, then he'll see how much of a demon I really am.

And now my dad's family, the Z family. They didn't like me at all when I was growing up. Now that I'm older my aunt and her husband are coming around. They might be ticked about my sudden departure from film school, but after I talk to them about it I'm sure they'll understand that I would've died. My brain would've either rotted out my ears or I would've crashed my car drag racing. That was sort of my escape. Better than drugs, higher risk of death though. My uncle, well, we had a disagreement a few years back and he's just starting to come around. I perfer him hating me and since it doesn't take him much to hate someone I'm sure he'll be right back on track with me again. Honestly, I think he brought the film school thing and was trying to worm his way into the success I could've had. I'm more active among the Z family since I have to see them for Christmas every year. I always have to fix everything though. It's stressful. Which is why my surname is Regnavi. Nothing but fragments of me attached to that one.

Now, I'm leaving for Baltimore friday. I have to fly there. I hate flying. But I haven't been to Baltimore since I was like four or something. I think I'm there for a day, then a really long (because I'm not the one driving) drive to Florida. Then I drive back to Indiana two months later, after Christmas.

Why am I leaving for Christmas this soon? I have to train dogs. My grandmother has two show pomerianians. I have to fly to Baltimore because she's driving there from Philly to show them. I have to help. My cousin also lives in Baltimore right now with her fiance (yes, finally after 5/6 years). They have two dogs. One is a lab and he only listens to the fiance. Well, he'll be in California visiting his family so the dog is coming to Florida. I have to train him too. And then my aunt's husband got a puppy for his sixtith birthday. I have to train that one too because my aunt doesn't know how. I should be charging money for this.

Good news about Christmas at my aunt's house, other than the house being a mansion and full of dogs, it's off the channels near the Gulf. So there are manatee, sharks, dolphins, boar, eagles, egrets, ibis, osprey, and stuff like that. Last year I went jet skiing with the dolphins. They like to jump in the surf. Kind of freaky when you don't expect it, them jumping up behind you. And I got to watch the osprey hunt. I love those birds. I love raptors in general, but osprey I always had a soft spot for. Well, the Australian osprey when I was really really little. Now all in general.

Well, even though Christmas will be trying as ever, the wildlife will be worth the trip. Hope these idiots don't expect miricles with their dogs though. I can't make another like my Milleficent. Great dog. Sad to see her go.

Take care everyone! Sorry this is so long. I might not get around to posting for a long time.
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Thursday, November 13, 2008

   kjdf
Thanks for the comment, Kelsey. I don't really care if I get comments or not. I only post when I'm bored, or avoiding some kind of work. Right now it's writing and coloring. That's funny your friend is going to Syracuse. I lived an hour south-east when I lived in New York. A tiny little village near Cortland.

Well, another question mark. Mostly tired, but really starving. I just can't get enough food lately. Must come from being a tad underweight still. I get full quick, on not a lot, but then I'm starving the second I walk down the stairs (I live in an "in-law" suite downstairs).

Se la ve.

I just remember I was supposed to call HQ again today. Oops.

Um, so I didn't call. What did I do? Spent over 100$ on dog food. I only have two dogs now but it still cost the same to feed them as when I had three. I bought algae waffers too for Franco, my algae eater. He was very hungry and ate all the algae in the tank.

Oh, and I bought a betta. His name is Mikhail. Now I have two. Mikhail and Forsa. I drove Forsa over from California. She's been a long way indeed. The joke was my roommates and others in California would miss Forsa more than me. I was probably right. They were always trying to play with her. Dragging their fingers over the bowl every time they got near her.



New picture. I already did the background today. And tonight I'm scanning in the traditional line art. It's finally dry enough to erase the pencil marks.

Yay! Dinner! I get food!
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Friday, November 7, 2008

   diytd
Question mark mood. What does that mean?

Well, I'm not sure that's why I put it. I'm tired, restless, hungry, and bored. They don't have a face for that.

And hello to Angel. Thank you for the comments. Yes, I don't get comments. I think I rant too much. And it'll never get old. World Champions -shiver-. My sports heart lies in Philly, as well as my birth records. I don't live there anymore and haven't for years, but I'm hoping for a pent house there someday. Now, to get the cash.

So, I've been off for a couple days...I think. Or a day. Something. I really need to get over to my dA account. I've been off over there for nearly a week, I think. Well, I haven't been on theOtaku either.

I just do that. I randomly don't go on. When I was living out west I was on the internet every single day pretty much all day. So I'm a little sick of it.

Cali detox update: I'm still not at 100% as far as my thinking ability goes. but I was a freak with that anyway. I'd say I'm 99.7%. I'm still underweight. I should be 115-120lbs. Still 105lbs. Chocolate, ice cream, soda, all useless when your metabolism is so high.

And after reading Angel's post I just had to mention the rebellion-conforming switch.

I'm a college student, not currently but I was a couple weeks ago and will be in Jan. So, as a college student I see a lot of people trying to be rebels and badass. I live with someone trying to be that. Funny how they all do it the same way? Drugs, sex, drinking, parties, wreakless driving. They brag and compare to see who is the bigger rebel. Um, yeah, that's what we call a norm. Now that that is seen as the norm, doing it doesn't make you a rebel. Not doing it does.

I really shouldn't talk though. When badass still meant what these kids think it means the word was too weak to describe me. I stayed away from the norms, but fighting those who called themselves gangsters, gambling, racing, jumping in front of cars, yeah, I was just a little self-destructive. I woke up, but it really was a double life while this was going on. My friends, my family, they didn't know. They still don't. I never bothered to tell them because I grew out of it so fast. It was two years of me being angry. Why I was angry I don't know.

And as far as rebels go, well, I won't go into that. I think knowing about my angry issue from when I was 11-13 is enough. If I wasn't smart I'd probably be six feet under.

I admit that I did do some drag racing a few weeks back. I hit 90mph. All I accomplished by doing this was getting the poor guy I was racing falling even more head-over-heels. Last post I mentioned my wariness of people. Yeah, he was sort of why. I thought he was just being nice, but then I realised that he was calling me pretty and cute, and mentioned marriage so much because of what he felt. And, yeah, it freaked me out. Especially the marriage thing because he actually talked about that a lot and then asked for a way to contact me. Thankfully, I had no way. But yeah, then he also got all the other guys in the room calling me pretty and cute. So, that was just really awkward. People don't ever do that to me.

Well, on to things that I'm not burying in the past. Yesterday I went and met with a college. I'm scrambling around trying to get into a Biology program before Jan. Film school was supposed to be the next three years. I stayed for two months. So, yeah, kind of a mis-fire there. I did well on all my shoots, I just like science a hundred times more. Probably should've thought that through better. I just got too restless and had to leave.

So, met with the college but now I'm torn. I want to do Genetics so bad. It would be a lot of really hard work but really fun. Or, I could do Wildlife Biology where I work with wolves, tigers, and stuff like that. I could probably even go work with wolves in Romania for a semester or something. So, currently I have Wildlife Biology listed as my first choice, even though Genetics has been my choice since I was a kid.

And I also finished some backstory. 47,102 words. 121 pages. I'm pretty sure it's done but you never know.

Well, this is probably needlessly long and my fingers are sore from texting an old roommate.
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Monday, November 3, 2008

   dmkhkt
I just don't want to sleep right now. I don't have anything to really say, but when has that ever stopped me?

I talked a little with HQ. Nothing really business related, just asking them about Halloween. It's so nice to be in the same time zone again.

I got a call from the Obama people in New York. I, um, don't live in New York. I haven't lived in New York for three years. Currently my address is California, even though I don't live there either.

Anyway, the call came fairly late. Just some kid, but he seemed nice. Asked if I was voting Obama, said something else. I wasn't paying much attention because I'm dead tired and I was watching a movie. Just said no. What I loved was how he didn't try to convince me otherwise. Said thank you and good night.

I'm still slightly wary of people who talk to me. It's aftermath from my final week out in film school. That shoot messed everything up. I was happy being ignorant of what the people thought of me. -sigh- It was a little weird and complicated so I don't really want to go into detail. Let's just say looking back on it the next morning I freaked out. Oh no, it wasn't that. Not close.

There is something about my character. What it is I don't know. Before I left I got a spiritual reading thing, because the boy wanted to try it and I was never going to see him again so what the heck. Got some stuff dead on. Concerning my character...I was referred to as a warrior several times. Told this to my mother, she agreed.

About my character...I don't stop. I'm always moving. I just don't know how to explain it. I guess the best example would be the recent situation. I never had the desire to go to California, but I did it. I picked up all my stuff and took off. Two months later I took my stuff and came back. Out west I was so bored and restless that I would take off at random and odd hours. I would just call out that I was going to the post office, and leave. Then I'd be home anywhere from five minutes to over an hour later. I probably scared my poor roommates with my odd behavior.

When I was young, really young, I'm talking single digits, I was called the wind, or windy. I thought this was due to my speed as I was fast back then. But it could've been due to my nature. I'm the wind, but I was also fire.

Thankfully I'm a bit more mello now. But that urge to leave, to just get out, that's coming back. I like to rationalize. I'm a Scientist by nature. I can only assume that this urge is some primal thing, some primal need. What is it though? I have to be looking for something, but what? Truth? Extremely likely. I've taken beliefs from the old alchemical texts. Freedom? Definately. Freedom is what I know I want. I'm just not really sure what that means. As an American, born and raised, what freedom am I looking for?

Sorry for the weird post. I'm tired and still in "Cali detox".
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Friday, October 31, 2008

   jyd
Happy Halloween!

Can't stay.

Hope you have a good one.

~Sinny
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Sunday, October 26, 2008

   kdky
I'm back in my time. I'm in my current state. I'm tired so I'll go to bed soon.

It was kind of horrible. The second I crossed into Nevada I felt better. My head got clearer. I didn't know why at first since the welcome sign is a mile or two after the state borader.

Well, I'd go into my last day and the drive but my laptop doesn't seem very happy right now.

Good night/week.
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Friday, October 17, 2008

   dktyd
They don't have a 'being-stabbed-in-the-gut-repeatedly' face on here.

Well, that's fine. But, yeah, I'm in pain. It happens. Happens maybe nine times a year, for the passed seven years. I already took two hot showers and a nap. It'll be better tomorrow. I'm just dizzy and nausious today.

My apartment is empty. One roommate moved out this weekend, two went home for the weekend, and I don't know where the other is. She's probably working on a shoot. So, I have the place to myself. There's nothing to do in it, but it does mean no parties or people trying to get me to parties all weekend. Really good news for me because of how I'm feeling. And because I still didn't write my papers. I didn't shoot either, but I can't do that with everyone gone. People leave so no actors.

I don't really want to shoot. It doesn't matter at all since I'm leaving Friday. Obviously not this Friday. The 24th. I'm missing the last two classes. They're just the ones you get all your stuff back in and see if you passed. Since it doesn't matter if I pass or not, I don't have to be there.

No, but seriously, film school was an experiance. I just don't belong here. That's all. I'll miss it only a little. I think it's more like Stockholm's than actually missing it though.

How about some honesty now? When I got the first phone call I was completely surprised. I never actaully wanted to come. It was spur of the moment that I didn't put a fake name on that form or put a fake number. I was so surprised that I said I wanted more information, you know, when you say that to someone hoping they'll speak and then just leave you alone. They didn't leave me alone. More calls, and more calls. I felt it was rude to say no. Then, for about two months, I got caught up in the idea because I was so sure I wouldn't get in. I got in but was still pretty pleased. Then came freak outs at what I have done. Then came the car trip. At that point I just embraces the thought, but then I crossed the boarder and the inital instint saying something was wrong went off like crazy. Ignore it and kept going. Talked to people. Introduced myself as a director. Did my work and got good marks on it. But it was still wrong. I meantioned The Unsaid Works once when I first got here. People were naturally curious about it, but I couldn't speak. It was wrong. I tried meantioning it again later, I didn't even get the name out.

It was almost like a privet war between me, California, the industry, and myself. The first two weeks I would wake up and remind myself I was here for Epic. That thought left shortly after. This place was not getting their stained hands on it. California, the industry, they'd have to pry Epic from my cold dead hands.

Part of me kept saying that this was for Epic. The part that was right, the instinct, wanted to protect it from this. In the end, that part is what won.

So, I will leave here the 24th. Parts of this was fun. Shooting until 6:00 was actually really fun. Setting up for a premiere was pretty fun. Ghost hunting, watching people make fools of themselves at parties, driving over 80mph singing the song playing on this site, all very fun. But Epic cannot be here. Mirror Image, in all of its depravory, cannot be here. I cannot be here.

Have a great weekend, week everyone! Thing may be the last post until I'm in a hotel.
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Wednesday, October 15, 2008

   jfgsxh
I'm avoiding writing my two papers and working on my two shoot. I need an idea for one and I have to clean my room for the other.

I just feel so lazy today. I do have, what I feel is, a valid excuse.

I crawled into bed at 6:00. Just a quick reminder, in my posts I use Military time. When I say 6:00 I'm speaking AM.

Yep, I was up and out all night. And, great thing, I woke up at 8:00. I groaned, turned over and stayed still until 10:26. Then I rolled in place a few more times before getting in the shower at 11:48.

Got coffee and breakfast at about 12:30, but then got a phone call from a college. Talked on the phone for a bit, then got to eat. Done pretty much nothing and it is now 15:08.

I'll write at least one paper and do some packing. If I do a paper and pack a little then at least I did something the other half of the day.

So, why the heck did I not crawl into my tiny cramped bed until 6:00? I was "acting" in a shoot. I felt kind of bad because I really can't act but I was sort of the only person avalible. I hope it comes out.

My pocketbook (purse) has now been used as a prop in two different shoots, by two different people. I guess it is a pretty good prop. It's textured and a neutral color. If it wasn't a gift and didn't cost over 100$ (I didn't buy or even ask for it, it's a Coach) then I'd donate it to the Prop House. But, I like it and it holds a lot for being small.

Weird thing is, last night, I was asked to do this shoot. So I agree. A few minutes later I get a phone call and I'm asked to do another shoot. Everyone had projects due today so but everyone else is also doing their project so I was sort of the only one around. Since I'm leaving the school and nothing transfers I'm not really on any deadlines like everyone else is. I'm still trying to make the deadlines given by the professors, but nothing is going to happen to me if I don't. This was like a two month long really costly really boring vacation.

Little bits were fun. If being an actress wasn't slightly awkward for me it would be awesome. It was still pretty fun. I'll never get used to light meters suddenly being in my face, but that was the reason I was going behind the scenes.
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Sunday, October 12, 2008

   rjdtyk
To Ezel:

Let's see if I can word this right.... The Worlds on theO are pretty much like myO. You can put up a picture from the files in your computer so it doesn't have to be a drawing. You can put up YouTube videos there too. But there is no HTML.

And subcribing to someone just means you'll see when they update any of their stuff.

And how you create a World is by going to your backroom. You click the tab in the darker blue line that says World Editor. Then you just take it from there.

You subscribe by going to a member's backroom and clicking the little heart with the +.

I hope I helped. And thanks for the comment.
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Now, why am I posting? Because yesterday I managed to have fun in this place without watching drunkard make fools of themselves.

I went ghost hunting.

Yeah, no lie. I actually went to a graveyard at 1:00 with four other people to look for ghost. We found some people so talked to them for a bit before leaving.

Here's a fact about me: I am not afraid of ghosts in the very least. I am not afraid of graveyards no matter the time or day.

So, I kept trying to walk around to look around and stay warm. I couldn't get two feet away without one of the people yelling at me. Poor kid, he was pretty shaken up. It was funny. I accidently scared him a few times just because I walk really quiet. I would be in one place and then walk two steps to his other side or something. It scared him.

It was a very full night. I got back at 3:00 and didn't go to bed until 3:25. I still woke up at 8:30 but I didn't get out of bed until 11:00. it was really cold in my room for some reason.

Tonight will be awful. I have to go to a screening. I hate going to those. I really have to write a couple papers and a treatment for my classes. And I have to shoot two projects. But then I'm finished. It's all packing after that.

Have a good one.

-Regnavi
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