Saturday, June 14, 2008

   through out the day post 6/14
0:29
Stupid Buzzsaw moved back to my window!

2:58
Tried to sleep, it failed. Nothing to do but keep trying I guess. I have a meeting with my college at 13:00. I need to be refreshed. Hm, I think I'm going to call it an institute instead. Or establishment. Nah, institute. ...Stupid insomnia.

3:41
I remember the good old days when I would crawl into bed and sleep. Yeah, I really miss those right now. I only seem to have insomnia when I'm not coastal. I guess now I can say my trip east will be for health reasons as well as business/recreation. These old glasses I'm having to wear are making me dizzy. Maybe it'll get me so dizzy I'll pass out. Then I can sleep for a change instead of doing that horrible daze thing I've been doing the last two and a half years. That would be so pleasent. With the rain stopped all the crickets are singing. All of them put together don't sound as loud as Buzzsaw. I've been on the computer too much lately. My fingers are starting to ache. I guess I should try to get to sleep...again. -sigh- I left a note to be woken up just incase I get so dazy I don't want to move.

9:37
The last time I checked the clock before refusing to move from bed it was 4:01. I've had my eyes open since the sun came up but this is the first time I'm out of the bed. I had no choice, my cat kept jumping on me and running off like a maniac. I better go upstairs and get coffee before it's all gone. I think I heard a goose outside my window. I guess it's been a week already.

10:38
They're back! Which reminds me that I'm a few weeks backed up for pictures now. So, the Fire goslings are two months old and the Tabasco goslings are a month old. I don't know what happened during the week when they weren't here, but Fennel and Ember are the new big bad geese. They're still nice but they're the dominate pair over Lilith and Attila now. And Scorch is much sweeter. He's more careful about fingers then his nephew, Arson. Arson's big enough to hurt now, and he got my fingers every single time. There is one gander for sure among the Tabasco goslings, Fenugreek. When Fennel was guarding and charging the Fire Group, Fenugreek was right there. He doesn't have his face coloring yet, but you know from that he's a gander. The two were sticking close the whole time. I guess Fennel gave up on Arson. Fenugreek was the first gosling named but he was always just kind of in the background. Very low-key thing. Showing that he wants to help Fennel protect the family at his age means he'll make some goose a great mate. He reminds me a lot of his grandfather, Faust. He was very low-key but protected the family.

11:44
I was thinking about my insomnia when I was trying to get to sleep. I wast thinking about a lot of things. I don't think the insomnia kicked in until after I had this horrible dream over two years ago. It only seems to go away when I'm coastal, which I find strange. I think the dream was the trigger though. I just tried typing it up here and couldn't finish it. I got everything but the end. It was a very very vivid and very very bad dream. And then not even a full twenty four hours after the dream, the VA Tech shooting happened. I've had trouble sleeping since then. maybe admitting that's the source will end my insomnia.

13:32
The meeting went well. I only understood the key points but one of those was that I quailfy for aid to help pay for school.I got a huge mountian of paperwork to do now.

14:00
Oh god, I'm so tired! I think I'm going to try for a nap or something. I'll have to do all that paper work later. The good news is that I'm definately in the school. Hollywood, get ready to meet Regnavi! I'm actually getting attached to that as a surname. Maybe it'll be my professional name or something. If not then it'll just be my internet surname. My real surname is so unique that if I said it you could easily find me. I'm the only person in the whole world with my name (first, middle, last/first, last). There's an interesting fact about me. Another is my childhood fear. You know, a lot of little kids are afraid of mythical monsters and stuff they see on TV. My biggest fear was that I wouldn't be able to see. I would have these nightmares that I would put my glasses/contacts on and my vision wouldn't change. I'd be at school and not able to read the books so then people would wonder what was up. It was terrifying at that age. Now I don't care so much. I'd rather be able to see because I really enjoy it, but if I go blind it's not the end of my life. My eyes don't always work but I now how to navigate and find things without them. And this is probably the most personal thing I'll ever tell you guys. Well, at least until I get out to California. I'm sure the stress and work load will make me completely snap at some point. Shower, food, nap, paper work.

18:22
No nap. I got out of the shower and was informed we were driving down towards the capitol city for crabs. I hadn't had crab in forever so it was fine with me. I'm still tired though. I don't think it'll take too long to do all that paperwork so I'll see check in with HQ.

19:09
There are a whole bunch of hot air balloons! They're so pretty!

19:21
Well, I'm going to end this post. I think it's getting ridiculously long.
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