Jump to User:

myOtaku.com: The Sundowner


Saturday, October 29, 2005


More about me
I'm not violent like most people think, I'm more careless. I have a tendancy to forget that most people don'ts feel pain the same way I do. The thing is that when I was younger, I took a fastball to the head in Little League and it completely screwed up the sensory center in my brain. Basically, my sense of sight and touch were dramatically hieghtened while other senses (like sensitivity to sound, smell taste, and temperature) were dramatically lessened (this is also the reason I have a tendancy to be slow and why my startle reflex doesn't work very well). Additionaly, my pain receptors can't properly communicate with my brain. The upshot of this is that I feel pain differently than everyone else. For example, when I'm burned, instead of feeling fire and heat, I feel pressure and tearing on my skin. And because my nerves can't properly communicate with my brain, the signals they send can't be interpreted as easily as they should be. But because it happened later in life, I understand the concept of pain and still recoil at things my body manages to interpret as painful. So, pain for me isn't painful, but is instead an interesting thing to be analyzed and experienced fully. And because I have a nasty tendancy to forget that other people don't work the way I do, I accidently hurt them. Especially guys, who I'm not anywhere near as careful with as I am with girls. Case in point: When I was in class with Boris, we were studing the heart and were playing with stethescopes. While Boris was wearing it, I smacked the sound part and it hurt his ears, he then did the same to me and I felt nothing, didn't even blink. So, in summation, I'm not mean, (at least, not on purpose) I just can't understand that I can hurt other people because I don't consider myself very strong and also because other people can't easily hurt me.
Comments (1)

« Home