Saturday, December 3, 2005

To Rachael.
I don't really have anything to say. I'm talking on the phone with Jena-chan and hoping she'll come home soon from Ohio so we can RP on Blue Bliss/ Your Otaku. Which, by the way, are really cool anime RPG sites.

I found Dashara, Sarah Duda, and Sam Huston's Xanga. It was kinda easy, once I figured out what clicking the 'metro' does. Now I wanna find Brittany and Bola's. Which shouldn't be too hard, you know what I mean? (At least. . .I hope not too hard. . . )

I dunno what Rachael's problem is lately. But eversince. . . she met Michelle (which of whom, I'm pretty OKAY with now. . .) she's been all 'roar' at me.

Which is partly my fault. Because I wouldn't talk to her for almost three days about something that may seem stupid to you, but is like a big deal for me.

I've known Rachael since 5th grade. (she claims I didn't like her. But. . .thing is. . .I don't like anyone, really.) And in 7th grade we became really good friends. Rachael is really into DNAngel and she wont let ANYONE borrow them (overnight, I mean. Like if you don't finish reading them). Then one day I'm in Social Studies and I saw the DNAngel on Michelle's desk.

"Hey, is that Rachael's?" I asked.

"Oh. Yeah."

I looked at her, you know, really hard. And nodded my head.

Then after Choir I looked over at Rachael's stuff and there was no DNAngel manga. I had one of Rachael's manga (Full Moon: wo sagashite) in my hand and she came up to take it. As a joke I pulled away and was like, "Can I borrow it?"

"No, Ahlon." She said. "Give me back my manga."

So I dunno whether it was jealousy or what but I pulled away from her and walked away. I wouldn't talk to her and she was all. "Give me back my manga!" She tried to snatch it. I moved. "Ahlon! Give me back my manga!"

I gave her the book and walked off. She was all. "What's wrong?"

I didn't answer her.

"Fine. Be a bitch." And walked away. Then she was trying to joke with me. "Well, that was what you were going for, hunh?"

I just walked away, to my locker. And she called like a billion times. I wouldn't talk to her.

At COSI I wouldn't talk to her at all. I snapped at her a couple times and wouldn't talk to anyone, really. Especially not Rachael.

So, I got over it and I thought she had too. But ever since Aviva and Jena and I went and saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. She's been a complete and total bitch. She says I was bragging about the Harry Potter movie, but really, I saw it as soon as it came out.

Jena and I went to see RENT and didn't invite Rachael, (A: because I'm not allowed to call Rachael and B: because Its not my place to ask.) I didn't want to invite Rachael because it really wasn't my place to invite Rachael. Jena called me and asked me if I wanted to go with her. And I wasn't exactly going to say, "oh. No I can't go because Rachael wasn't invited."

No, I don't think so.

So Jena seemed to let it slip in conversation that we'd gone to the movie theatre. Jena was like, "Wow. I'm surprised Ahlon let you borrow that, she was clinging onto the book (Memoirs of a Geisha) like crazy at the movie theatre."

I guess Rachael got jealous or something because it seems like eversince she's been acting like a . . . a string of ***!@$/. She, evidently, told her mother who thinks I've been acting like and ass and is going to yell at me.

And I'm like, Okay. . .

She says that both Jena and me have been being. . . I dunno . . . asses lately (What have we done?!).

So, yesterday, she gave me this note:

Ahlon

No, really how does it feel to have someone mad at you? Right now I really think that both you AND Jena are dense, but if I had to label us, your Shigure, I am Hatori, and Jena is Aayame. Not in the good way, though. Your both hard headed and have to be right . You don't always have to be right adn neither does Jena. So you can both just knock it off! (Don't you DARE think bad of that!) When I'm mad, my mom is mad, so you might wanna watch out for her. And just like in Fruits Basket, Kyo and Yuki, don't know how Hatori put up with Shigure and Aayame all those years. For some reason no one knows why I put up with you two lately. And don't try to blame it all on Jena. You don't have to act like a braggart about the Harry Potter movie. And don't say that doesn't count because, in my book it did. What I seem to notic, is nothing seems to be your fault. And you are the one who broke one of your mom's glasses when I spent the night over your house. Your fault. Oh, there is something that's your fault. And Closet Kitty* agrees with me. You know, I'm sorry if this notre upsets you, but its the Truth.

Rachael.

First off, I don't care if she's mad at me. Because everyone is always mad about something I've done or said or whatever. And Second, I don't even get why she's sooo pissed off. I mean its completely rude for Jena to call me and ask if I wanna go to the movies, then for me to turn around and call Rachael and ask if she wants to come. Jena bought MY ticket. And half of my snacks! So, that would've been total shit for me to invite her when, basically, Jena paid for me.

How does she put up with me? How do I put up with her! I mean, really! My goodness! We left her out of one thing (Two, really. . .) and she gets all mad. Jealous.

Rachael should know we're friends. I mean last year she broke up my friendship with Brooke because we were (Are) friends. Now Brooke wont return my phone calls or anything.

And Rachael brought up when I stop talking to her to talk to Aviva and Lizzie when they call. Well, damn it, I do that beacuse Aviva calls once in a blue moon and sometimes I wanna talk to Lizzie. Rachael calls all the time!

I never said the glass wasn't my fault! If I did I was joking around. Because alot of things are my fault. But she wouldn't know. Would she?

Okay, I bragged about the Harry Potter movie. I've never seen a movie that close to when it opened! I've always gone to the dollar movie theatre. So she can deal with that one.

And her mom! Omg! Do you know what her mom accused me of? Having Jena on three way when I was talking to Rachael.

1. Rachael called after 8:30 when I'm supposed to be off the phone.

2. Jena was mad at me. She wasn't going to call.

3. My phone wont even work three way anymore. My mom found out it costed money.

I'm not scared of her mother. Really, I'm not. If she going to yell at me, she'll yell, but why? I mean Rachael's making everything I do bigger than it is.

And, subject: Michelle. I'm getting to be really good friends with Michelle. I like her. She's cool to talk to and everything (See! I was willing to meet Rachael halfway). And so Michelle wants to get me a chistmas present. Rachael told me (thinking I still didn't like Michelle) adn I was like. "Cool."

I'm getting Michelle a present too! I was the one who asked HER what SHE wanted.

I had a reason to be upset with Rachael. A GOOD reason. Because I'd been her friend for God knows how long by then and she'd JUST met Michelle. I never asked anymore whether I could borrow DNAngel because I knew the answer. Then, she lets Michelle borrow it. Overnight.

I was mad she didn't trust me! God, I've been nice as can be to her. Took TOO MUCH shit from her and I'm mad!

*Closet Kitty is someone we know. Don't ask. Its not important.

So, Rachael, if your reading this. I'm sorry if this upsets you. But its the truth.