Sunday, March 26, 2006

   Mizu loves her new source of heat!!!!
Heh, Mizu is a very happy person right now!!!! Someone at her church is very nice to her!!!

Today, I got a corn bag, (two pieces of very pretty flannel sewed together with corn inside it, with another two pieces as a cover.) From a lady at my church. I told her how it gets REALLY cold in my room, and she offered to get me one from a lady at her work, and I said if she wouldn't mind, I would love it if she did that for me. And she did!!! So now I have this corn bag on my lap, and it's keeping me VERY warm!!!!! And when I'm warm, I'm happy as can be!!!!

Well, that's all that really happened, other than girl scouts and Confirmation class. How was everyone elses day? I'd love to hear about them!!!!

Well, that's all for now!!!

Yours,
~Angelic Alchemist~
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   Long Day.....
Whew.....I thought today would never get over!

Well, my day started at eight thirty this morning, because I had a vestry training class to go to. (Vestry is my church government. I'm Episcopalian.) I'm the absoulute youngest memeber there, and the only person under Twenty five, so sometimes it's hard for me to be there, even if I am only serving a one year term as the Youth memeber. (It's a new position, and I'm the first one to hold it. Aren't I lucky!^^ Just kidding.)

But yeah. So I got up, and went to this training that started at ten and got over at about one in the afternoon. Normally, I would've done pretty well, but I stayed up till One in the morning reading manga, (I'm such a bad girl....) and the fact that my deppression, which while it's still getting better, is currently giving me insomnia, didn't help too much. So I was half asleep during the entire thing. Luckily, my dad, who's also on Vestry, had to go out and buy milk for the coffee, and he came back with two one liter bottles of Coke for me. I don't like Coke to much, but I was glad he was giving me something with sugar in it.

I got home, and after I ate some chips, I hopped on the computer. My mom came home shortly after that, and said that I had to go sell Girl Scout Cookies with my sister and the rest of my troop. I was half dead, and I was Role Playing with Ed on Msn Messenger, and I really, really didn't want to go sell cookies. But my mom was in a really bad mood, so I after she yelled and said that I didn't have to go, I decided I better go.

When we got there, I was only there for about half an hour before we packed all the cookies up to take to another troop who was going to finish selling them for us.(As much as I hate Pakita's troop, I love them for taking the cookies from us.) But, it's been really windy all day, (And it's storming as I type this, lol!) And in just that half an hour I was out there, I managed to get wind burn on my cheeks. (Sometimes I really hate my fair skin. Grrr!!!><') But, since it's not to bad, they should be better tommorrow.

After that, I came home, used the computer a little more, and then we went out for Mexican. I didn't eat much though. My appitite has been really screwed up lately, and I really can't figure that out, but I think it also has something to do with my deppression.

And just a while ago, I watched the very first episode of "FullMetal Alchemist"!!!!! I was really happy!

Well, that's my day in a nutshell. I won't be on for a long while tommorrow, because I have Confermation class after church tommorrow and Girl Scouts. I want to get on early though because I want to talk to my friends. I didn't get to talk to one yesterday because she logged on to Msn right as I was getting ready to shut down my computer.>< I hope the same thing doesn't happen again tonight!

I hope every one had a great day!!!!!

Yours,
~Angelic Alchemist~

Ps: Oh, I almost forgot!!!! Heres a poem I wrote for english!!!! I ahd to use ten different word that were on the board, so that's why it seems kinda weird. I'm thinking alternate diamension or something....

~Leaf Green Eyes~

Monkeys watching quietly,
The trees never telling her secret,
Leaves, green as her eye’s,
Her favorite plant is the rose.
Bugs, her biggest fear,
Grasshoppers were the worst.
Green grass twisted in her hair,
In fear of the hulk before her,
Upon her shaky feet she stood,
A glint of fear in her eyes.
She saw a plant, that had a
Name that sounded like Brant.
It gave her courage,
And so she stood her ground.
She stood it ‘til the end,
When the end came,
And she fell upon the ground,
The tree’s sighed, and
The monkey’s, acting like swift,
Silent messengers,
Told the disaster silently to her love.
He found her, beaten and defeated,
Brown hair fanned beneath her,
Her leaf green eye’s,
Closed,
never to open again.

Yours again,
~Angelic Alchemist~
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

   I feel a lot better now....But with more problems.
Well, I actually got to talk to my friends!!! *smiles* So I'm feeling happier than I have been.

But now I have something that could be considered a new problem. And it's kind of complicated too.

There's this person at my school, and this person thinks I'm hot, and I can tell that they've been hinting at me to hook up with them.....

Problem #1: I don't date. Period.

Yes my parents said that I had to wait until I'm sixteen, but it didn't bug me much because I wasn't really all that interested when they said that. And now that I am sixteen, I'm still not interested. I don't really have the need to have a signifacant other.

Problem #2(This ones the one that's buggin' me): The person is a girl.

I'm not a lesbian, and I have nothing against them, but I don't think I'm bisexual either. I'm pretty sure that I'm straight. But part of me is also kinda curious about it.

This girl has made it painfully obvious that she wants me. I mean PAINFULLY. And I don't know what to do becasue of this wierd curiousity. We're friends, but she's told me straight out that when we first met at all girls party/sleepover that I went to over at Gwen's, and we were all talking about boys and kissing and stuff like that, she was being what she called "Shy". She said that she wanted to go over and kiss me, and that, with me being me, made me turn bright red, but part of me wondered what would of happened if she would've.

Gwad.....Why does High School have to be so confusing. I really want my first kiss to be with a boy....but part of me, (And this is the horomones talking) really just wants to kiss someone, just so I can know what it's like......

If you guys don't mind, could you give me some advice on this dilemma too? I love the advice you guys give me!!!!!

Other than that....I watched the final episode of FMA on Saturday....It was a tear jerker. But I won't ruin it for those of you who haven't seen it yet.

Well, that's all for now! Hope y'all are having a great day!!!

Yours,
~Angelic Alchemist~
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Sunday, March 19, 2006

   I'm too god damn insecure......
Well....I know that I've been in a good mood lately....but the good mood never seems to last long anymore......

I'm worried about what's going to happen to me after next school year. Most of my friends are juniors, going to be seniors next year, and I'm only a sophmore, going to be a junior next year.

I'm afraid of losing them all. They're some of the best things that ever happened to me. I love them all so dearly that it hurts to think about what's going to happen after they graduate. I'm pretty much going to be on my own after that. I have Courtney and Sammie.....but that's it....

I had a hard enough time after I left Northridge. I miss my friends from there every day, and I haven't heard from any of them in a few days, so now I'm worried about them.

I also can't help but wondering if I'm slowly being forgotten by them too.....I know that I don't always have to be with them, but a little phone call to ask how I'm doing would be nice if they can't get ahold of me on msn messanger.

Am I just being selfish, or are all of my feelings justified? Can someone help me? Maybe give me some advice or just some words of comfort? I'd really, really appreciate it if you could.

~Angelic Alchemist, your less than happy friend~

Ps. Here's a really good FMA Video for you....probably one of the causes of my sad mood.....

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Monday, March 13, 2006

..................
Well, not a lot to say. I'll just post some quizzies and then be on my way.


You are the Goddess of Ice.

-You have a hardened heart, and rarely show

emotion. You are cold, and, though you are

not necessarily a loner, you enjoy being

isolated from others. You do not think highly

of most people, and consider them weak and

ignorant, so you do not hesitate to strike

them down. You can be quite cruel, and do not

regret your actions. You are a very rational

person, and often find yourself deep in

thought.


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You are an animal lover <33
This is what you look like ^^
Randum Quote 4 you~
Rate and Message-
ooIMADOKIoo


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~Angelic Alchemist~
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Friday, March 10, 2006

Hi!
Well....Nothing much really happened today. I'm bored 'cause I got no one to talk to on messanger right now. I'm hoping someone might get on soon though....

Really, I should be upstairs watching "Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire," but....I'd rather be right here at my computer for now.

Well, I don't really have anything else to say, So I'll post some quizzes and be on my way for the day!


You are the Spirit of Love. You think around

romance and are extremely compassionate.

Whenever you want something you can get it

due to your fiery passion. You can make

friends quite easily, because peopole are

attracted to your obvious good nature. You

will have no trouble in finding a life

partner and will be very happy.


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You are a secretive princess. You were born into a

gilded cage. You hated the rules and

restrictions about walking daintily, eating

neatly and always having to look good.
You hated the cameras always flashing in your face

and therefore you hide your true self, behind

plain clothes. But your beauty is still

stunning. Due to the way you continually hide

yourself from the life of rules, you are a

natural rebel. Independence is your strongest

point - you may care for others, and even

depend on them...but when it comes right down

to it, the only one you need is yourself. You

have a strong sense of who and what you are,

no one can control your heart or mind, or

even really influence your thinking. You have

a very serious mind - never acting immature

and harbouring a superior disgust of those

who do.


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you are the purest of heart! will you be my frend?

heehee ^^ . you care about others and want to

make everyone happy. you are a kind and

loving person to be with, and can be found at

a hospital caring for your sick grandmother,

or at a animal shelter. your sign is the sign

of hope (like me!) and you bring evryone hope

and happiness wherever you go! remember: u

ARE LOvEd!!
^^


Are you pure of heart?(for boys and girls) ^#^
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you are somewhat a bookworm, but you love peace and

tranquility! you are kind, and have a large

imagination. you probrably have few frends,

but they are very close to you, and love you

for who you are. you are truly lucky.


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Your word is silent.. You've a few good friends and

your loyal to them. You aren't sad but you

don't like to talk that much.


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What does your anime character look like? Girls Only! (Tons of pics!) by Shira_Hoshi
Name:
Age:
Fave Color:	BlueBlackRedGreenYellowGreyWhiteOrangePurpleOther
Birthdate:
Your Character:
What you Desire:	Love
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Age:
Fave Color:	BlueBlackRedGreenYellowGreyWhiteOrangePurpleOther
Birthdate:
Your Character:
What you Desire:	Power
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You kill with magic.
You are very skilled with magic, but have poor

fighting skills. But it doesn't really matter

anyway since it can be as powerful as other

weapons. You are probably missunderstood by

people and have some pain inside you. You are

not the kind of person to start a fight, but

if you are provocted you respond. You

probably don't have that many friends either

though you might want some. According to you

life is a lonely journey and you try not to

care to much. Most people who are witches or

anything similar is thought to be evil and

want to see all people suffer. That however

is not true. You don't feel that much joy

seeing others in pain. You are probably

peaceful and quiet when left alone.

Main weapon: Potions and spells
Quote: "A man can be destroyed but

not defeated" -Ernest Hemingway
Facial expression: Blank eyes


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You need adventures.
Real life has been very boring for you and you

can't help but dream away. Nothing is

exciting or fascinating in your life and

can't understand why it all is so dull. You

like having fun, but are probably not a

bouncing person because of that. There is a

probability that you either like to

read/watch fantasy or similar genres, or have

a creative side that lets you release your

fantasy world.


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Your power is: The ability to fly

Explanation: This powers speaks pretty

much for itself. Though you don't need wings

for this power,you can fly anyway. Some

people may consider it as telekinesis since

they can also fly, but you can't make

material things move like they can. This

ability could be a relaxing activity when you

want to get away from everyday troubles. Also

it is good when sneaking upon an enemy since

it makes no sound. When going over to the

"dark side" the power could be used

to harrass and break into building through

windows etc.
You are quite similar to this power since you

like to have your head in the clouds.

Supernatural things amuse while ordinary life

does not. If your daydreaming has gotten a

little too far you might be zooned out all

the time, even when you are having a

conversation. Your desires and/or goals tend

to be unrealistic even if you know those

would probably never happen. Travelling is

something you would be interested in doing

since seeing exotic scenery fits with your

fantasies of escaping your plain life. You

can also have some creative ability (writer,

playing an instrumen etc) that interests you.
Negative aspects: The whole reason you

may be escaping life could be fear of being

let down by it. So if that would come to

happen, and an important dream had been

crushed you could get depressed.

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"Awake, yet never truly alive, I seek

valuation beyond reality"

Life is unfullfilling for you, and you aren't very

fond of it. What you like is your own

imaginative world, which can be your

daydreams, stories you write or anything

similar. You always prefer that before the

actual life. To people you come off as quite

lonesome, and you may wish you had more

friends, but you are more of a hoper than

someone who takes action. That is how you

remain lonely. Or maybe you just don't find

anyone who you can relate to. Inside you feel

empty, like you are missing something

important that you can't quite put a finger

on what it is. Somehow you wish to be swept

away from the normality and led into

something extraordinary. This has yet to

happen, and you keep on feeling dissapointed

with the little that life has to offer. At

least you continue to express yourself

through art/writing/poems/daydreaming.


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You are dead inside and don't experience sadness

that often


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Your connection with darkness is through your

depression. Hated, sad and often feeling

lonely, there is only a few that appreciate

the real you. You tend to keep to yourself

and away from the world since you don't want

to be hurt and betrayed again. Music gives

you the understanding you need to get

through, it's your "therapy". Or

you express yourself through art or writing.

Chances are you're also an anti-social

person, who only likes being with close

friends, if even that. The world has finally

showed it's true face for you and you wish

life wasn't this miserable to live through.

Maybe you'll find happiness in the future,

but right now you're just hiding away from

the world. Who needs people anyway?


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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and

often try to figure out the meaning of life,

why we are all here etc. You may not be so

social, and often think twice before acting

but those thoughts you have in your mind

never stop flowing in. Sometimes you can be

so concentrated you forget about other things

that you have to do. Don't change, this world

needs deep people.


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Your element is Water. You have a calm aura around

you and are in tune with the world around.

You observe it but rarely interfere. Because

of your shy and timid nature you will not

have so many friends in your life. But then

again, large crowds aren't your thing anyway.

You are comfortable on your own and are

reserved to others who you don't know or know

very little of. You know everyone out there

does not want to be your friend, and knowing

that is good. However, people who don't know

you that well thinks that you are cold and

distant since you don't want to talk to

them. Although you mean no harm, you can't

always be perfectly understood in the world.

No one can. Life in general are you quite

serene with even if there are some things you

don't like. Your love-life is not so full of

boys/girls, but if you flirted more with the

ones you were interested in I'm sure

something would happen. The hobbies you

choose are calmer ones, you are no party

person that likes to drink and make-out with

three or more guys/girls in one night.

Reading a book or swimming is more your

thing.


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Your wise quote is: "Love is life.

And if you miss love, you miss life" by

Leo Buscaglia.
Yes, love is indeed what you desire in your

life. If you have it or not is another

matter, but it is in your eyes the most

important feeling. You tend to be a romantic

dreamer and want you and your love to have

that kind of perfect love that you hear about

in fairytales. However that can be hard to

find, but it doesn't mean you are going to

stop looking.


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Life is all about balance. Darkness can't be

without light, and light can't be without

darkness. You see everything through

different angeles to gain perspective over

situations. You act rather rational and

people can find you stiff and/or emotionless

due to this. Life is not really that good to

you, yet it's not so bad. Like everything

else, you need to balance it in order to find

peace.


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Well, that's all for today!!! Hope everyone has had a great week!!!!

~Angelic Alchemist~

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Thursday, March 9, 2006

   A quick post from school
Hi everyone!!! How are you? I'm doing better. I think my cold is finally gone!!!! Yay!!!!

Well, I really don't have a lot to say since I'm posting from school. Oh, I had my band concert last night. It went okay. I wish I could've played a little better though.

Well, I won't be able to post any quizzes or anything until I get home because I'm typing this from the Career Center at my High School. Lol!

Well, I'll tell you all about my day when I get home, and maybe I'll even post a story that I wrote for creative writing.....even if it is nine pages long.....lol!!!^^'

Later!!!
~Angelic Alchemist~
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Sunday, March 5, 2006

   SUCESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just a quick post to say I've finally found the perfect wallpaper.

~Angelic Alchemist~
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Saturday, February 25, 2006

   'Ello Moto.....
Don't know where that title came from.....

Anyway, how is everyone...I'm doing much better. Most of last weeks problems seem to have fixed themselves.... so I'm in much better shape mentally than last week. Can't say the same for physically though...I think I still have my chest cold because I'm still coughing up junk.....

But anyway, how are you guys all doing? I know I don't update much, but I'm on more than you think....if y'all want to pm me or something, go right on ahead. I don't mind at all. In fact, I love getting pm's, so everyone pm me!!!!!!

Well, other than that... can't really think of much to say...so I'm going to post a few quizzies, and maybe a music video or two and then be on my way. So here you are!!!


Guardian of Light.

You are always happy, and you have an aura of light

around you. Your other job is a guardian

angel

Power:force field
Home:heavan
Fav. Color: sky blue
Name: Skye
What else you rule: stars, moon, sun,and goodness.


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You are all-knowing!


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You have a dead and lonely love. You stopped loving

people once you noticed how they were just

toying with your heart. Now you live a sad

and lonely life, with no loved one. But you

know that maybe someday, you'll find the

right person. A person who won't break your

herat agian. But you ar so afriad of getting

hurt that you don't want to take the chance.

What you fear, is rejection, I know, cause I

fear it too. Just look to the sky and never

stop dreaming, someday, he'll come for you...

^^


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Well, that's all!!! Later!!!!

~Angelic Alchemist~
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Thursday, February 16, 2006

   And it just keeps getting worse......
......I feel stupid......

......I feel like I can't help.......

......I want to cry until I can't anymore.......

......And yet I keep going.......

Sorry....Had to get that out...stuff just keeps happening....and it doesn't seem like it's getting any better.....

Pretty much the only question I can really ask myself right now is "Why me?"

I want to know why god is putting me through this. I know he loves me, but does he know how much it hurts to go through this....the torment it's causing me.....

I haven't told my parents this, but I'm constantly sick to my stomach from worrying, and I haven't been sleep very well, and I can no longer concentrate. I'm also very close to have another nervous breakdown like the one I almost had on yesterday, and I just want it all to end. I don't want to keep thinking what if this and what if that! I can't take much more!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry you had to listen to this.....I can't help it though....life is really starting to suck....

TheWolfDemonMizu
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