Birthday • 1992-12-21 Gender •
Female Location • were i was born in the pits of hell Member Since • 2005-04-26 Occupation • Student Real Name • Shelbz
Personal
Achievements • uh im a mess up at everything Anime Fan Since • 5th grade Favorite Anime • All anime Goals • to be a model Hobbies • drawing, hanning out with freinds oh ya reading too and Snowbording ,how could i forget dancing i love it Talents • i love archery and im pritty good at it and im prety good at singing and righting poems and songs
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ok srry
ok srry for the post below srry if im scareing u ppl dont worry im not ganna kill my self *but my dad might* hes all pissed at me lol loser but ya he was ganna do somethin to me but i ran into meh room and i have a litte wall in front of my door and what u do is u put ur feet on the wall and ur back on the door and push with ur feet what hes at the door thats whay he dosent like me in that room cuz he cant get me hehe god im ganna go insane here im so bored and no one wants to talk to me so sad but i have 1 friend 1 thats 1 ppl but hes kewlz so its ok but still....ok theres nothin to do and im just sitten here listing to Just Like You by 3 days grace. so ya Comments (0) |
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why do you all love me when i cant do one thing right-poem more like how i feel its not all that good
why
why do you love me like you say you do when all i can do is mess things up thats all i am is a screw up any way my family is screwed up and im an iccident too so why do poeple tell me thay love me when all i do is screw things up why why why,why am i like this i dont mean to be a pest ill even say i dont have a happy golden chest of every thing just nothing cuz thats all i am is nothing the only one who nows what im going through is my boy friend and hes always been there even when we parted but hes the only one that keeps me from suicide he tells me he loves me but i want to know why why why why ,why cant i do one thing right i dont even feel like i make pople happy i know i dont name one person that i make happy ,thats right there is no one i even think my boy friend is unhappy and if he is i want to know so i can fix one thing the only thing good in my life is him and if i make him sad ,i would like to die right know if so if i cant make him happy ill be more or likely to do some thing i really dont want to but if hes happy then why do i feel like hes not as happy as he looks i want to know do i make you happy if so i feel like i can atleast do one thing right i feel like crying cuz im dieing on the insaid cuz i want to know "do i make you happy" please tell me i want to know i can do one thing right all i want to do is make poeple smile it makes me feel so much better thats why i used to cover my smile cuz i felt like there was nothing to smile about but now i have the one thats ill keep safe in my heart its you jason and if you ever get tired of me always acting dumb every day then tell me and ill just smile and say "ok if thats what makes you happy" i was so sad the second time you left me i wanted to just end it but i couldent see how selfish i am i cant even die cuz i want to live but ill always know im dieing on the insaid from those words you said but im over it now and when you asked me out again i first thought no cuz i dont want to get hurt again but then i thought of all the fun we had in the sun and rain so i said yes and i cant be more happy but some thing keeps telling me that your slowly sliping away and its killing me my heart says your not but my mind says why would you do this again is it just so you can get hurt even more but i block it out cuz i wont belive it its all a lie i keep saying to my self each and every nite its all a lie i now it is and if he dosent find happyness with me ill gladly help him find her the one for him i feel like hes just doing it so i wont kill my self buteven if he chooses to leave me again i just cant sit there crying on the outside whail im dieing in the in, but why am i worring bout this im sure he loves me and there is no buts to it im happy for what i have ^_^ and i couldent love him more ^_^ well thats all for now bye bye and good nite *hugs every one* Comments (10) |
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Tuesday, April 4, 2006
i hate this
i hate spring break cuz 1 i always get a fever but this time it was really bad cuz it was first 103.7 then a hour later it was 102.2 and a half a hour it was 102.4 then again it was 101.8 and know im feeling a bit better but its still 101.3 and it sux 2 i cant see meh friends witch is even worse so this really sux and im really bored so if u know my phone number call me plz im so bored im not supost be on but who cares and my dad is all pissed cuz i cant do any thing cuz if i get up i will probly fall i had to lean up against the wall to get in the com. room and it really sux Comments (3) |
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i hate this