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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

poem -emotions too deep- this is an odd poem but of some what true....i think
Emotions too deep

I feel so empty
like this hole is getting
bigger, growing inside of me

why do I feel this depressed
like nothing going to lift this weight off my chest the
pain rushes faster with every breathe

I can't stop this eternal heartache
I just need a break
a break from life
a break to get my life back
and make it right

this shit is so intense
& yet all this pain that bothers me so much,
makes no sense

I'm my own bully
destroying myself mentally
until the only part left of my personality is self-insecurity

a friendship lost,
a self-esteem dropped
it ached with a passion
so secured it throbs

why can't I be happy
no one can understand me,
I might just need some therapy, home schooling, and some counseling
so I could find myself to stop this constant ache this pain
from driving me insane

The worst part is my
shame none to blame, but my self
I could have just let it go,
but it's broken loose now
now it's out a control

I reach for a hand that is not there
a guy to say let down your hair
to jump from my window into his arms
to not just anyone
but my truelove
that makes my heart feel lifted just float there above

I need to talk to someone
I've separated me from the world
now i'm lonesome
but I have too much pride
I don't wanna let people see me cry

life shouldn't be this way
not for anyone, not for me
just leave my pain
before I go insane
Let me be free
let this anxiety be gone from me

the solution must be somewhere
within myself maybe with some help
I can find it till then I should
try and put these sad thoughts behind and treat myself more kindly
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