Monday, September 10, 2007

"Life's too short to live without you, where you are is where I want to be..."
Yo Otaku!!

Been eternity, I know. I've missed theO, and am currently on a school computer. A LOT has happened since the last time I updated, but I don't really wanna go into detail, so here's my excuse:

A. There was a lot of stuff going on with my boyfriend over the summer, both good and bad, so I was too occupied with getting my head straight to update. Sorry excuse, but yeah...

B. I've moved (again) back to PR and we're working on a long-distance relationship (so far, so good). Might last, might not, but I need somebody to talk to, and... yeah.

C. I've transfered into my old school, and I've been having trouble. It's starting to get better now, but it's like... I was in advanced classes in Freedom High (school I went to last year), and now all the classes I'm taking that are supposed to be hard leave me snoozing in class (I swear, I'm gonna get busted one of these days...).

D. ... Y'all should be expecting this one, but... *cringes* I don't have internet. Same excuse I have for all my disappearances, but hey! I always come back, right? Sonner or later, even if it's mostly later, lol.

Well, I'm gonna get back to all your signings and comments now. If anyone gets bored, y'all can e-mail me at Tigra463@aol.com, just so y'know.

But yeah. Today was really good; I finally got the designs for the Rinoa costume I'm gonna wear to Mega-Con in March, and I'm working on getting the fabric so I have something to do. I'm also working on the design for another costume, this one an original character, and I have the same problem for both: Where in the entire planet of EARTH can I find shoes like Rinoa's?! It's gonna be hard, but I REALLY hope I don't have to resort to the internet (I don't trust it for purchases ^_^U).

I'm also really happy 'cuz I'm working on a story I thought up on a whim, and it's getting deeper and deeper and I'm really proud ^_^. Can't wait to finish!!

Well, I'm gonna leave y'all so I can visit.

Mucho amor mi gente!

Ja ne!
~Kyra
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Tuesday, June 12, 2007

   Figured I Should Post...
Sorry I haven't been on lately; I constantly log in, but I haven't really been in the mood to post lately... sorry ^_^U.

I've had my best friend Amber (from the pic--scroll down if you want to know what I'm talking about) for the past five days from PR, so I hardly had time to post about it. It was really great... she's in Disney now with her aunt, and I'm really glad that she's spending time with her dad too, but I guess I just got so used to having her around, y'know? Geez, can't help but feel that the house is so quiet, so lonely...

o_O Geez, that sounded really depressing! Lol, but nah, things are pretty good. Yesterday marked four weeks since Joe and I have been together so that made me really happy. He came over and spent the afternoon with all of us-- it was the last day Amber would be here, so he wanted to say goodbye.

For about three days there I was feeling REALLY down... it's kinda stupid, so I'm not sure I want to rant about it here. I was just kinda annoyed with Joe 'cuz of the way he was acting, so I stopped calling him; not talking to him got me even more down, but even so I was too damn stubborn to call him; eventually he called and for the first time in a while asked how I was. I was waiting for him to ask so I could effing tell him just HOW PI**ED I was-- but then it didn't matter. I dunno, I've just been having mood swings like crazy lately and it's not really anybody's fault, haha. But everytime I'd see Amber I'd immediately cheer up... now I'm lonely.

Sheesh, I really shouldn't post when I'm tired, lol.

How is everyone?

Ja ne!
~Kyra
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Monday, June 4, 2007

   I'm Sleepeh...
Yesterday was fun ^_^ Joe came over and we watched a Jeff Dunham DVD, which was hilarious...

I'm sleepeh T-T...

And I'm officially moving... Not sure what to think of it. I'm going back to PR, so I should be happy that I'm gonna be with my old friends again, but... why do I feel like I'm gonna cry and my heart's gonna choke me to death with the tears that refuse to spill? It's hard for me to speak because my throat's constantly in a knot and I almost started crying when Amber (my best friend) called... she says she's sad that I'm sad, but excited that we'll be able to be close again ^_^ Geez, I love that ganguro... and she's naturally a ganguro!

Well, ot keep this post from becoming too somber and all that, I'm gonna say thatI am excited to see my friends again and will put two of my favorite pics ^_^.

(Edit: These pics have been deleted for disfiguring my site ^_^ Sorry for any inconveniences!)


OMG I have to go. Something just happened as I was writing this post and my heart's gonna come out of my chest.

~Kyra
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Sunday, June 3, 2007

Your Power Element is Water

Your power colors: blue and aqua Your energy: deep Your season: winter Like the ocean, you evoke deep feelings and passion. You have an emotional, sensitive, and spiritual soul. A bit mysterious, you tend to be quiet when you are working out a problem. You need your alone time, so that you can think and dream.

What's Your Power Element?

.... I guess Joe was right, lol. He's gonna come over in a little bit, but Mom's iffish (yes, iffish, I made up the word) about him being in the house, so I'm gonna end up dragging him around the neighborhood, lol, and I don't think my li'l bro will have to chaperone ^_^. I don't get upset with him having to chaperone... I know a lot of ppl who need chaperones my age get all upset, "It's not like I'm five years old!!!" and all that, but for some reason, after the first time pulling my brother along, it didn't bother me. It just shows Mom cares and is worried, not that she doesn't trust me. And also, she just told me she'll only make me bring him if we're going ot the movies.

Now THAT I understand fully, lol, paying $7 for a movie you're not gonna see.... I don't see sense in that, haha, we actually watch the movie we paid for! (nobodoy believes me ^_^U)

Well, today's sunny. I prefer rainy days, but seeing as I'm gonna be walking around, I guess the sun is better. It's not that hot either! Wow, today's a pretty good day. I'm happy; I was really in need of a day like this =]!!

Mucho love y'all!
Ja ne!
~Kyra
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Saturday, June 2, 2007

I prefer rain when it pours...
It's windy, people! I sat out there in front of the lake behind my house for a couple of hours and finished reading a book, A Great And Terrible Beauty, and I must say that it was a very good read. Especially because I was reading it with all that wind... I love the wind. Joe says I'm water, but I disagree and say I'm wind. He says wind and water are very much alike, only water is beautiful and graceful with a fierce temper, and while wind is constant and has similar bipolarness, it has no form and, therefore, cannot be beautiful.
I disagree in some ways: freedom's not always purely gorgeous. It has its price, as does hope. Hope doesn't always bring good things, and having hope dimmed along with hearts broken is the price to pay when you hope for anything. As for the wind's freedom, wind cannot be gazed upon or admired for its beauty, but rather for what it does and the fact that it's everywhere and sees everything in ways that nothing else can.

I guess being water would be the safer choice, but is there really such thing as a safe choice? Everything can go wrong at any time, and there's always the threat of everything just... falling apart. So why do we even try? Why do we even live if we're just gonna die?

Because everything is hoping. Even if things seem hopeless, so long as we're alive, there's always the chance that things will get better. We just gotta hope and fight.

I dunno, I find it hard to see things as one-sided and Ihave no idea whatsoever why I wrote this ^_^.

Best of Wishes,
~Kyra
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Thursday, May 31, 2007

   Clapping Hands, Jangling Keys...
Hey Otaku!

Just got back from my trip to PR yesterday morning; got hit hard with serious jetlag, went to sleep at seven in the morning once I got home and woke up at three in the afternoon, then went straight back to sleep, lol... it'd be so much easier to simply adjust to a nocturnal schedule! Just watch, when I'm living on my own, I'm gonna end up getting a nightly part-time job and night classes for college, then I'll sleep most of the day.

I just recently discovered that I sleep with my eyes open 0_0 I'll go to sleep with them closed, and then just slip back into my body with them open. It freaks my family out and they don't like sharing rooms with me for that simple reason. Lmao, I thought they were joking when they said I was a weird sleeper! I sleep-talk too, so that doesn't help with the general opinion that I'm a weird person to sleep with-- even my own mom gets creeped out, and I don't even talk that much anymore!

Haha...Well, lemme see, what else... Joe and I have officialy been together now for two and a half weeks (how did we get so far...? lol), he's being really great and I'm really happy with him, but now that I might be moving, I'm not sure what'll happen. Oh well, que sera, sera, right?

I got the "Minutes to Midnight" album by Linkin Park the other day; it's awesome XD I LOVE IT!! It's really good!

Well, gonna go and try to visit y'all, okay ^_^?

Ja ne!
~Kyra
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Sunday, May 20, 2007

   First time I use this emi-con, lol...
So I shall conclude that I am in love.
Funny... it comes more naturally than any other feeling, like it's natural to feel so happy, worried, relieved and in love with him. Interesting...

We're going to the movies in a little while with my brother (he's chaperoning); Joe's gonna spoil him, lol... yeah, his name is Joe. He knows my brother as dough-boy and my brother knows him as Shadow. Seeing as they have nicknames for each other already, I'm desperately hoping they can get along in real life (they spoke through the internet), and it seems Joe is hoping the same thing (only he seems more confident that they will). And my dad wants to chop his legs off because he's a guy. I'm trying to figure out what his reaction would be if Joe was a woman. Maybe he'd calm down a bit, I'm thinking it's 'cuz of the testosterone, the fact that he is physically able to get me pregnant, and that he was a player when he was our age and therefore sees me, his only daughter, as the source of bad karma. That makes sense I guess; whenever he's messing around with other women, he can never get too far 'cuz I either pop into his mind or pop up quite physically to give him the look that tells him, "I know what you're doing, you know it's wrong, and you have no idea just how much this is affecting my opinion of you and all men."

Lol, well I gotta go. I love you all dearly and wish y'all the best for today and always...

Ja ne!
~Kyra
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Friday, May 18, 2007

Wow... I don't think I've felt like this before. Ever.
Wow... I feel so happy. I feel so happy and, for once, I don't fear the future. I no longer have to hide how I feel for him. He no longer has to be vague and obscure about how he feels for me. He's mine, my idiot, my Edward (Twilight), my hope, and nothing anybody says can change or make me feel strange about it. I've never felt so happy to say that!

What is this feeling? This peace, this happiness, this completedness I feel when I see him that I've never felt before? Someone, tell me a word to describe my inability to hate him, my inability to keep a smile from my face whenever I see him, my inability to hold back the tears when he's in pain and my inability to remove him from my thoughts...

What is this feeling?
What's the word I'm looking for...?

~Kyra
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Wednesday, May 9, 2007

   Today was good!
Today was a pretty good day! A friend of mine was really sad in hte morning 'cuz her ex-boyfriend (who doesn't even go to our school) suddenly showed up on campus after not talking to her for two months. I didn't really understand the situation, but she was up and about soon after, so that was good.

We're disecting a pig fetus in my Biology class this week. We started Monday and I swear that after two days of dealing with one of my Biology partners, I'm gonna go insane! He got all upset last week and, because of it, I can't disect the frog; that had me annoyed enough. But while I'm disecting with my friend, Mar, he's all hanging over my shoulder and telling me what to do.

Lemme make this clear: I am quite claustrophobic. It's not like I freak if I'm in a small hallway or anything and I love hiding in boxes (o.0), but when there's any noise at all, I start hyperventilating and break out in a cold sweat, not to mention I can hardly think straight. So having this guy looming over me, saying stuff that would get on my nerves even if he shouted them across a football field, along with the dizzying smell of the pig= me in the state you want to see me in. Maybe it's just the pressure, but I swear that if he doesn't quit pestering me while I'm working I'm gonna blow up...

And I don't want that; I'm a generally happy and hopeful person ^_^ It takes a lot to anger me (although I am annoyed easily, lol).

well, Ima go--I got nothing else to say, haha. Love you all dearly and I'm gonna tyr and visit y'all, okay?

Ja ne!
~Kyra
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Sunday, May 6, 2007

Sorry I disappeared, y'all...
Friends. Projects. Homework. Family. High School.

Tose are my only explanations for not being on in ages, guys. Sorry. It's not on purpose, I swear.

So, how is everyone? Are y'all good? I couldn't get the new site up-- well, it was up for a couple of days, but I deleted it 'cuz it kept glitching and stuff.

Last night was a friend of mine's (Kat) quinceañera!! It's like a sweet sixteen, but in Hispanic tradition it's the 15th birthday instead (she's half Colombian--like me!). I don't think I've danced so much before in my life! I'm normally very self-conscious 'cuz I can't dance for my life, but 'cuz it was Kat's night and I was with my friends, I couldn't resist ^_^! And it was actually kinda interesting... apparently Kat's cousin said he thoguht I was cute or something and she told me, but I'd said something similar to Carey (one of my best friends--we were together the whole time), so they spent almost every living moment afterwards to try and get us to dance together. I'd have been just fine without dancing with him, but I just felt all warm inside with how they were going to all this trouble and didn't complain with how they kept pushing me into him and stuff (lol). Eventually he asked me to dance, and we did--I only stepped on his shoes twice and he only stepped on my toes once! That means it wasn't a compete failure, even if I sucked XD!! It was fun, lol. The first time I was asked to dance with a guy and complied (all the other times it was for dirty dancing XP) now that I think of it! ...Cool.

Well, I gotta go now. I'm gonna try and visit, but I've got osmeprojects, so yeah...

Ja ne!
~Kyra
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