Saturday, October 21, 2006

   Ilo...
Finally! It's Saturday!! *blows confetti* I'm so happy ^__^!! My teachers try to ruin our weekends with mucho homework, but I'm simply not doing two of the assignments... They're ridiculous!I DO have to read another book for Journalism (I'm really wondering if it was a good idea to take this class...) called "Reviewing the Arts". I DO NOT recommend it to anyone unless you want to know how to critique and how to review art. I'm gonna try and finish it this weekend: it's 178 pgs. long, and I've got about ten down... 168 to go! And when I'm done, I have to teach my class how to review/critique (basically, I become teacher for a bit). I was surprised when she asked me to do this, but she said it was cuz I'm a gifted student (that's an actual term, not an adjective). I wonder if I really shoulda told her the turth when she asked if I was...? I have six days 'til presentation day. I'm normally nervous before-hand, andif I'm in a group presentation I kinda freak, but I'm not gonna choke up this time... *slams fist* I will fight!! *looks around* -XX- I'm done...

On another stranger topic, my mom's looking into a psycologist to get me evaluated.... I was talking to her yesterday, and she brought up many things that imply I might have a condition. I was laughing/crying (I kinda snapped. Split personality, lols.) and she kept saying "You're laughing at me! I'm being serious!!" Crying/laughing? Maybe something is wrong with me o_0 lol....

Well, I'm gonna go; I think I'm gonna visit my dad later on, so!

ja ne!
~Kyra
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Friday, October 20, 2006

Well, what can I say?
Hm... Hey y'all... *keeps thinking*... I don't know what to say! Oh, wait! Lemme start with what's happened.

Wednesday... Not a good day. I was having an alright day, but every time I see him, I feel so sad. ...I know the reason. It hurts me not to see him smiling. I want him to be happy, but I know there isn't much I can do to help him. He looked so sad today when I ran into him in the hall(NOT literally, thank goodness)(today was the first time I saw him out of the P. Club), but I keep telling myself that at least he said hi. A lot of ppl I know either ignore or glare at me when I say hi! What's wrong with saying hi?! Lol, *shakes head* I can't get it, heh...

But yesterday I started writing a poem! A really good one! At least, I think it is ^_^U. It's stranger than mmy other ones in a way; I mean, my style's still there, but he'd been singing a song (rap/rock--I don't remember the name) and the beat got stuck in my head.

Thus... it is a song/poem!!
BTW, the only he I've talked about thus far in this post is the guy I like, 'kay? Just to avoid confusion.

Oh, oh!
Touche! Rueff, our spokesperson, said that to me yesterday! We were all discussing P. Club rules, and I seemed to make a point he liked, so he said that. I laughed for some reason ^_^ it was funny! And then Aries (also in P.Club--guy, just in case.) said "Cool beanz" and I cracked up! He kept saying it, and I kept laughing, lol. I have so much fun in P.Club.

And afterwards, a somewhat bizarre thing happened in me. We were watching some students acting a romantic scene and a girl taping them: it was a love scene, but a second later the girl's shot. A friend of mine was playing the sister that shot her, but she said she couldn't get it and asked me to try it. I did. I had been so long since I'd acted like a villian (even by myself when I'm acting chapters in my books), and... I loved it! My heart was racing! I'm SO going to get into one of the acting/drama classes we may have next year...
Well, gonna go before I bore you too much (too late for that ^_^U)

ja ne!
~Kyra
PS= I got my report card. A's. -.-U*sighs in relief* The raise in Honor's saved me my weekend... You guys get report cards yet?
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

   So yeah, today was Tuesday.
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Good day!!
It was soo hard to get up this morning... *walks in shaky line*... I stayed up watching LOST last night with my mom and li'l bro (dark elf archer) 'til midnight, and I slept like a rock (Might I mention rocks don't sleep?). But I'm glad I got up, cuz today was good.

In Biology, since we've finished our first nine-week period, the teacher gave us new seats. --_--I can't stand this one girl next to me... First thing she says when she sits down: "Dammit, it's too hard to cheat here!" I thought she was joking and almost laughed, but then she said something to try and start a fight cuz I didn't agree... I glared and she backed off. I'm not gonna study just so she can get a good grade! *breathes* I'm done...!

And in Algebra, we had to do this activity about a Tailor's myth and take measurements of the ppl in teams he put us in. I'm surprised the girls didn't say anything about the guys knowing their measurements; then again, they were flirting with those guys, so I guess they didn't mind, lol. There were two guys in the team, and since I was taking all the measurements, they kept making flirtish remarks and checking me out... I just pretended not to notice.

I had to take the wrist measurement, and G-san asked if I wanted to hold his hand or something. I just laughed and said "Not today," but what my face said was, "Forget it". It got to his inflated ego, Lol. The way those two were acting, I could tell they were with the side of the class that sees me as some kind of mathematical genius from another planet. At least they didn't confuse me for an alien, and one asked me if I was puertorican or something. I told him puertorican/colombian (truth) and he made a funny face. Can't blame him; there's a rift between puertoricans and colombians (it has to do with the way each one acts in the general view).

Well, anime club's tomorrow, so I gotta go!

ja ne!
~Kyra
PS=Y'all doin' good?
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Monday, October 16, 2006

Today was a good day to get right to the point. It was a Monday, so I was tired, but now I've reached a conclusion: I must go to sleep at ten o'clock in order to wake up in the morning. *nods head in thought* Yup... Perfect Solution...

Well, I haven't been doing much. I've gotten some things for the drawing I'm doing for an art contest comin' up, but it's kinda hard, cuz I wanna do it in color. I'm using some tecniques shown in ElvesAteMyRamen's Devianart site, but the rest is just me... They're nice, bbut something always gets messed up! *smacks self on forehead*

Well, I can't post loong. I hope y'all are A-okay!

ja ne!
~Kyra
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Friday, October 13, 2006

13...
Okay,I said I wouldn't be coming on for a while, but forget that, lol. It's Friday the thirteenth! My mom woke me up a cpl minutes ago to help her with computer difficulties (which is actually pretty cool!) and now I doubt I'll be able to sleep again.

I had a dream last night; I'd gone to the PR, but I'm not sure if it was on vacation or what. Everyone was there except for some ppl (you were there, Nicky!) and we went on this roadtrip. It was crazy cuz most of the time the roads were sinking and stuff, so we either drove really slowly or really fast. However, it was also a creepy dream... A guy there looked like someone I met in Colombia (he kept saying he was practically in love, but I knew better; he was just using me or looking for something I'm not willing to offer at the age of fourteen, ESPECIALLY to someone I only knew two days...hn...). I was freaking out, not knowing if it was him or not asnd all; now I laugh, cuz he looked nothing like him, and that guy would never leave Colombia...

Well, I'm trying to avoid long posts! However, there's a song I really like: "Anybody" by Jesse McCartney. I know hardly any of you listen to that guy (I'm the only one of my friends that does AT ALL), but it's a sad/bittersweet song, and I feel I can relate. It's about giving everything for the one you love and being left despite it all to be put really short.

Hope you all have a good Friday the thirteenth XD!

ja ne!
~Bianca
PS=BTW, I bid y'all good luck. Just in case! And I'm glad you guys liked the poem I posted yesterday ^_^!
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Thursday, October 12, 2006

I'm... kinda sad.
I'm gon' be honest, y'all... I've been feeling so sad, and the present and what I'm working at in my school is all that makes it better, yet it's also what puts me down sometimes...

Today was the anime club, and lemme tell you, I had sooo much fun! We had a quick-draw contest, so we victims had to draw something in 8 min to see who could do the best for smoe m&m's. I drew and elf, but only her head came out ^_^U However, the v-president (judge) put it second place!!! The first-place guy was in something of a league in his own; that guy drew fast and great! Our styles were completely different tho, let me tell you that much. The v-president gave my drawing back and told me to finish it or else she'd smite me,lol! I finished it while we were watching Something+Guu and Full Metal Panic. Those were hysterical! When she saw my finished drawing, BTW, she looked like she would pass out! I was happy.

And afterwards, since my dad would take a while to pick me up, I started talking to one of my guy friends there (he's an officer in the poetry club) and I got his picture XD! I was taking pics of all my friends, but that had to be the coolest! I'd post it up, but I have something against posting up pics of ppl I know, and I'm worried I'd freak him out if I asked for permission. Cuz, well... I like him. I mentioned one guy before, but I also said in another of my posts that that was something else; I don't even talk to him, and I know I'll only get hurt (I think he has a girl) not to mention that I don't really think I can deal with confessing to him, especially if I'd rather just wait it out. Hopefully, it'll pass.

But I like this guy... he reminds me of the person I liked in PR, but that person's majorly the reason I'm sad. I think I need some time to live where I am, with the ppl I'm with, and stop waiting to go back to what I had before. I hoped I could still remain a part of my life in PR, but... it's a depressing story as to why I'm sticking to "Que sera sera", and it's around twelve thirty AM, so I'm gonna go...

I'm taking a break from theO, gomen nasai. I won't be gone a month or anything; a week or so at most.

ja ne.
~Tigra
PS= I'll leave you with a poem. Kry asked for one, so here's a poem I wrote a week or so ago. Please comment and/or rate from 1-10 honestly ^_^U It's not that good, still needs a do-over, but yeah... See y'all in a while.

Mirage:

The dust has settled
And tears aren't left to cry.
Your words have no more effect on me:
I know they're all lies.

All you are is a mirage:
A beauty beyond imagine.
Every time I reach for you,
You disappear
And I despair.
But now it's crystal clear
That even the mere notion that I could ever touch you
What mistake in itself
For who can touch an illusion?

Beauty’s an illusion to the eye
As love’s an emotion to the heart.
Eyes search for the beautiful
As the heart seeks its missing part.


But unlike the heart,
Beauty cannot speak.
Beauty is never concerned.
Beauty doesn't weep.
And none can deny beauty it's one truest nature:
It's shallow as a drying puddle.
It can only run skin deep.

These are my own words:
Don't I deem them as true?
Then what do I do?
I can't help but still miss you!
Was there something beneath your mask
Only my heart could perceive?
Is that what I long for?
Your lips smiling at me?

But I can't deny my emotions.
I’m afraid to give you another chance.
I’m terrified to trust the words.
I’m worried I’ll believe life is run by love
And to truly live
Is what I truly lack.
I’ll succumb to your promises
And I’ll fall into your game.
You’ll hypnotize me again
Like you did back then.

And now I must bring this to an end:
I loved you since I met you,
And even before.
I cannot deny this,
But the hurts can't be ignored.
So until you can show
What my heart swears it knows,
I’m going to fight:
Fight to let you go.

~Bianca
(This is my property and none others. No copying or distributing is permitted without my clear consent.)

ja ne.
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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

   I had a good day today. We looked at the pond water in Biology class again, but I think yesterday's was more exciting. Patrick, one of my Biology partners, kept bugging me and mimicking me every time I got hyped up or said something like Awesome! or That's so cute!! *eyeroll* *mutters* He's such a guy...

Well, I'm gonna leave a shorter post today. I'm worried cuz my friend Jomar (Joe for short) is depressed. When I asked him if he was sleepy on the bus (he had his head against the chair in front of us) he said he was depressed, but wouldn't tell me why, and I get the feeling he might've been crying... I'm worried. If he wants to talk to me, I'll listen, but if he wants to keep it to himself, I'll respect that... I just hope he's alright.

And right now I'm kinda upset... I'm just not gonna visit so many sites. I know two of my friendds can't come back here, but I mean, come on! When you visit someone daily, is it normal for them NEVER to come around? I dunno; I think I'm overreacting cuz my head hurts again... I get the feeling I'm catching something...

ja ne!
*disappears in shadow*
~Bianca
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Monday, October 9, 2006

Cool...




What Personality Do You Have?


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   Can't believe I stayed up...
Man, I gotta tell ya--I musta stayed up visiting like over ten sites last night, then I hardly had time to finish my projects, and nobody visited... TT-TT.

But if y'all were busy or somethin', it's okay; I'm not gonna hate you. I just get kinda sad ^_^U.

Well, I don't have school after Wednesday, so it's a short week, woot! I can't wait... I'm not entirely sure about whether I'm glad to be back in school or not. I mean, I'm making friends, but whenever I'm alone (a lot, believe me) I always get this pang of sadness. I didn't think it was possible for someone to be sad EVERY SINGLE DAY, but I guess I was wrong, lol. I understand better now. However, I don't like this feeling, so I keep trying; I'm not gonna give up. If I give up, how am I gonna find anyone to hang out with and how will I feel if I die tomorrow? I'd rather die trying, literally, lol!

I'm gonna go now. Hope y'all had good weekends. And good Mondays.

ja ne!
~Bianca
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Sunday, October 8, 2006

What Naruto Character Are You?


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Sasuke...? Hmm...
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