Sunday, September 24, 2006

Gotta run!
Hey y'all I'm hurrying to say thanks soooo much for your comments! Really apprecite them! I'll get back to y'all soon!
ja ne!
PS= Hope y'all's havin' a good weekend!
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Friday, September 22, 2006

   ............
In general, my family's not doing so good. I'm seeing how the situation will turn out between us like through a crystal glass, but as to where I'll be when this is all over, I'm not certain with what I think's going to happen. Eventually okaa-san's gonna confront otou-san for the refinancing (her half of the money after the divorce five years ago. They're never getting back together.). They'll hardly speak after that. He's gonna act like it doesn't affect the relationship he has with Luke and me, but it will, and I'll be able to see it in his eyes. I can see it now, even when I'm trying to be what he wants.

Okaa-san's been talking to me about moving back. We've "moved back" so many times, I don't even know if I'm going back or going to the end or where I started from! Lol, it's confusing. Overall, where we generally stand, it isn't working out, and making it work out doesn't seem like it's really worth fighting for. Poetry Club, lunch and Biology class are all I look forward to in the school day. Poetry Club's become my little consolation, you could say.

My counselor called me to her office today. She was really nice to me, and the purpose was cuz she said okaa-san was concerned. If she hadn't told me that, I'd have figured it out anyways, but I was happy. I had a nightmare this morning (I woke up normally but fell asleep again for 20 min.) where every1 disappeared. I was running thru the neighborhood with a girl named Lauren (I think) and every step we took, there were less and less ppl. Even a guy in my Journalism class showed up!

But that was just a dream that had me a bit shaky today. I'm feelin' better now, and don't think a longer post about my day is necessary ^_^U so...
ja ne!
PS=Y'all like ice cream?! I LOVE ICE CREAM!!!!
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Thursday, September 21, 2006

   It's.... THURSDAY!!!!
Maybe because I went to Poetry Club today is the reason I'm so happy. October weather's starting to set in now, and ppl are noticin'; everyone's all like, "It's getting colder now!" I was wearing this huge brown jacket in the orning and my bro's long-sleeved shirt today, and when I got to the busstop, I couldn't believe it was so cold! I know it could've been worse, but I'm susceptible to cold, a result of PR, lol.

Poetry Club was GREAT today! We were voting spokesperson; I got one vote, but I don't mind at all. The guy who won (I'll call him R-kun) seems like he'll do a great job. He's a funny guy, I'll tell ya that much.

It was weird today cuz a girl in Poetry Club, C-kun, said "y'all" at one point. Every1 started laughing, and I was in a slight confusion; is y'all such a weird thing to say? I say it all the time. I guess I'm just wondering if my vocab's whack lately ^_^U Another guy in the club came up to me today and said, "Give me a hug. I need a hug." I laughed and hugged him, but I was happy for another reason as well; I miss hugging friends, so it's nice when someone spreads their arms for a hug. I'm making no sense, am I?

Well, I'm procrastinating my homework!
ja ne!
PS=I'm gon' keep askin' ^_^: How are y'all?
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

   Alright, here goes
Today I got to school tardy, it was picture, day and I just remembered an assignment I'm supposed to do. Oh, well; it's English, so I'll finish it fast.

Well, ya, today was picture day; the last picture day was the day of "hurricane" Ernesto, so it was postponed 'til today for me. It wasn't THAT awful 9_9 Kidding, it was good.

Hey, I have a random question for y'all: has anyone ever told you that some character in a story/movie/series/manga/etc reminds them of you? T-chan told me a while back that the fire in Howl's Moving Castle (I haven't seen it yet, but I read some and I know it talks) reminds her of me cuz it shouted, "Yo! I'm dying over here!" or something. Sure, I say yo, but it's a more refined kinda yo... alright, I'm just confusing y'all. I just don't sound "gangsta" or whatever you wanna call it. Just like I say sweet and dude, but doesn't classify me as surfer or sk8er. Man, these names confuse me! Some1 explained what emo was to me the other day. She basically said that it was a sub of rocker but based on Fall-out Boy and Blink 182. o_0?! I was lost. I listen to those bands. A good bunch, 2.

Well, I've missed daO! My mom's discussing a plan (it's too early for me to talk about it openly yet) so I've been anxious, yet excited. It concerns the PR. I miss seeing ppl talking and laughing openly with each other and being able to walk to class with each other and all, so I could say I'd be happy if it went thru, but I want to finish what I've started here. With strong shoulkders and my chin held high. If tht makes any sense. I just wanna grow. And now I'm either whining or confusing ^_^U

How are all of you?! I wanna know, plz tell me in honesty!
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Monday, September 18, 2006

   Playing hooky... kinda... nah, I'm sick...
Hey y'all! I'm sick today, been so since Saturday, so that's why I'm here!
Pardon my absence this weekend, but I've been busy, sick, and my li'l bro has been setting up his own site here on daO. His name here is:
dark elf archer
He's on my friends list, so please visit him! (I whine sometimes about our fights, but please help him feel welcome!) Y'all are good ppl, I know y'all are, so... plz? Again? Lol
I hardly slept last nite cuz I stayed up cryin'. It was my littlest bro's b-day (he turned three ^_^) and I'd talked to A-chan for the first time in a while, so... I dunno; I felt homesick again. Cryin's somethin' I've gotten better at nowadays =_= I hate it, but it comes at least once every two weeks; but this week was a bit more. 3 times in six days. Woot *sarcastic*
however, today I will steadily get better, and be sick no more! Hopefully!

ja ne!
PS=How was y'all's weekends?

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Saturday, September 16, 2006

   Hilo...
Today's gonna be good!
My li'l bro just went on an outing with my dad and my aunt is coming with her son today; the thing is that last time the boy came, a deck of my bro's Yu-Gi-Oh! cards went missing. He's not gonna bring them out this time. Before he left, he asked for some money I owe him cuz he needed it urgently.
Me=^_^? Alright... *hands over twenty bucks*
Luke=It's cuz I need to get ya somethin' that's gonna have ya like this all day: *immitates some1 playing a game* And! It's special edition! *grins, knowing what I'm gonna say next*
Me=.............. Arg! Now I'm gonna keep wondering what it is! *moans, clutching head* It hurts...!
Luke= See ya later, onee-san!
Me= bye... *moans again*
We were laughing a lot.
ja ne!
PS= What's your favorite day of the week? Beside the weekend? (Me: Thursdays. I said why in my last post ^_^)
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Friday, September 15, 2006

   Yesterday's post was too long, lol...
Today was good! Abner is ignoring me if not being mean, but I'm not saying anything to him about it. He can either try to get past it and decided whether to accept my friendship, or he can keep on being immature. I don't like that word, especially since he's just upset, but that's how he's acting. The friendship may never come back; maybe all he ever wanted was something more.

Poetry club was yesterday and more ppl came! That's the upside, but the downside is that most ppl didn't show up again from last meeting, but oh well; every1 has lives beyond clubs and school. I'm running for spokesperson of our club. I'm running against two other girls, they've become good friends of mine, so there won't be any hard feelings.

I'm trying to get along better with my dad's unofficial wife, so she picked me up from the club yesterday and we went out to eat with her sister. Then we went ot DIsney Village to walk around and look around; I went into the Virgin CD store and went crazy! It was so BEAUTIFUL! So much music! I love music with a passion...

I bought Jesse McCartney's live Japan tour CD cuz it had all the songs I like he's made (I didn't know it had a DVD when I bought it! SWEET!) I'm not a groupie, but I like his music.

Don't wanna make the same mistake ysterday, so
ja ne!
PS=402 hits! WOOT!!!!!!
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

It's one of those days...
I've gotten tired of being overlooked as some quiet girl and weirdo, not to mentioin feeling homesick ever since moving here. Therefore, I made a promise to myself a while ago that I'd make the best of it. I WANT to be hapy, and sometimes I guess ya have to pretend you are a bit at first and be a tad obliviou to the hypocrites that talk about you behind your back.

But then I have days like today. I talked to T-chan last nite to hope and set things straight. I ended up apologizing, and really, I don't think my apologizing over and over on that call was entirely justified... her mom and my current problems are the whole cause of this. Her okaa-san doesn't like the kind of encouragement I give T-chan, and since I left, she's been trying to obliterate all means of me trying to be there for her. It's compex, and weird, so I just felt ten times worse when I hung up. I think that extra percentage was what I lifted off T-chan.

Abner asked me today if I could start going out with him. He said I make him happy. He'd asked me two seconds earlier why I'd looked so sad in fourth period, the only class we sit nexxt ot each other at. I told him I was having problems with one of my best friends and was homesick. I thought he'd understand for some reason, but I don't think he did. I'm not sure if he really thought that was the ideal moment to be asking me that.

When the bus left him at his stop, I felt my whole being sink a couple inches more at having turned down his offer. His face... his words... I felt what he felt cuz I went through something very similar.

Walking home, I started crying. I don't like crying, especially when today was gonna be a good day! It was Wacky Wednesday, lol. I was switching between having fun and then remembering. Now I'm here, and I'm tellin' you guys about my problems... again. Gomen. I'm just so happy I still have you guys there for me. Every comment I get, every pm, every update is another memory I'm so grateful to have.

Well, I'm done whining, something I reeeally don't lilke doing. A jean-like dress was part of my outfit today, and a guy on the bus that goes to the same stop at me said that in the morning it was dark and he'd thought I wasn't wearing pants. I turned red and burst out laughing, as did Joe, an Asian guy that also goes to my stop. I have fun with those guys.

ja ne!
PS=How's your day been? Be honest!
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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

   Decades Day
Today was decades day! It's Spirit Week, that's why. I went to school dressed up as a hippie! Woot! It was lotsa fun ^_^! I was one of the very few that did, but it was great; Shannon and I got our picture taken for the yearbook, and my
Journalism teacher took another picture! Many ppl bugged me, but I didn't mind. I'm used to being bugged like that about my expression and such, so it doesn't really make a difference if it has to do with my appearance.

Tomorrow's Wacky Wednesday; that oughta be fun. My day, overall, was very good. I was worried the whole time 'bout T-chan, but I was distracted, and our problem had to wait; it's a reeeally long story, and I don't hasve much time ^_^U

In English the other dya we had to write a certain journbal entry from a character in a story we'd all read. I decided to write about the red sweater, and the teacher loved it, lol. We graded 2 other ppl's papers on voice, and then the teacher gave a final one. I got 6 in all of them and the teacher said I have real talent ^_^ *glows with pride*

N-E-Ways, I gotta go now.
ja ne!
PS=Best subject in school? (Me=English. Literature. Math. I feel like such a nerd.)
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Monday, September 11, 2006

   Great day! Yay!
This had to have been one of the best Mondays I've had for a while (except Labor Day)! Nothing much really happened, but for some nerdy reason *scratches head* I'm so happy because I have homework I can actually do. Everything else I had to put off for one reason or the other, but I was finally able to look up the info I needed for my investigation on the school in Journalism. I had to find the answers to questions like "How many students are absent on a typical day at *HS?" and "What adults are on lunch Duty during your meal shift?" and all that stuff; the staff was reeeeally nice to me (I think cuz I stated I was in Journalism) and answered all my questions... it made me so happy!

Well, I just bgot back from food shopping at Albertsons, and I was shocked to find out that one of my classmates in the same Journalism class works there! I was all like "I didn't know you worked here!!" Lol, we're not necessarily friends, but it was funny. Mom kept saying he was cute and that he and his friends were showing off for me. I just laughed it off; I don't think he's thaaat cute! He's just kinda funny.

Well, I'm gonna go now, k guys?
ja ne!
PS=Favorite season? (Me-...I like autumn, but I think it rains during autumn over here. I love winter, but it's sooo flipping cold! Then there's summer... I think summer and autumn are my favorites. The beginning and end of school.)
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