Monday, March 5, 2007

I laughed...
92% of teens would be dead if Abercrombie & Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe. Put this on your site if you are the 8% who would be laughing.

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Today was a reeally good day ^_^
I don't know why, but I'm really happy today ^_^! Maybe it's 'cuz I wore my head different today and felt all bouncy when ppl noticed, or maybe it's 'cuz I know my ex isn't mad at me, or maybe it's just 'cuz I randomly found myself planning what my apartment will be like when I move out and what kind of BIG dog I'll have to keep me company... I dunno. I just got tired of feeling down ^_^!

I released 3 chapters of my Kingdom Hearts fanfiction this weekend and am currently working on the fourth, something I am very much proud of =D I haven't updated my Avatar fic in ages, but I doubt I will in hte future, and I made sure I wouldn't make the same mistake and write a discontinued Kingdom Hearts fanfic. I've been working on it for the better part of a year, if not more, and suddenly decided to just... get it out! It's really wonderful, the feeling, although only one person told me what they thought, and we're always messaging, so it kinda just sprung up... but that' okay! So long as ppl are reading it, I'm glad ^_^.

Gonna go now, I hope y'all are doing well, I really do.
Take care, ya hear?!

ja ne!
~Kyra
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Saturday, March 3, 2007

I liked this blog ^_^

You Are: 80% Dog, 20% Cat

You and dogs definitely have a lot in common. You're both goofy, happy, and content with the small things in life. However, you're definitely not as needy as the average dog. You need your down time occasionally.

Are You More Cat or Dog?

I loved that blog ^_^! It was cute. I'm a canine lover in too many ways to count, so any accusation of me being feline is pretty much unwelcome sorry.

Hate to run now. EMERGENCY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ja ne!
~Kyra
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Thursday, March 1, 2007

I dunno... it's kinda harder to smile today.
Actually, contrary to the title. it simply got harder as the day progressed... I felt just fine in the morning, but as the hours have passed and people passed me by, it's just kept getting harder and harder...

I feel like I want someone to tell me something. I feel like I need some kind of proof that there's a point in all this.
What's the use of meeting new people, bonding with new people, opening up all over again if I'm just gonna move again and nobody will bother to try and remember me? The real me?

I'm a complex person, but I long for simple things... I long to be loved, I long... to be loved. That's it. I want to be loved by somebody I love.

I guess that just might be my reason for trying at all... I miss love. It's hard for me to love after my heart's been broken so many times. Some people don't understand why it is that when I'm "with" someone (only been once that I know of, not counting Trevor, who I wasn't "with") I don't promise forever or say that I love them or say words of love or even make a forward move towards them unless I feel safe because... love's my weak point. And what everyone does when they find a weakpoint is immediately try to see if it can be broken easily through that point.

Well, here's a fact... attacking through love... it did break it. It broke me.

Aw, crap, here I went with my long post again... and Jomar's been pestering me about hanging out with ppl he considers emo and stuff, but whatever. The only reason he stopped calling me emo was because I let a little bit of anger slip out last time he did. Just a trickle, but it worked...

And now ppl are getting on my case about everything. Grr...

Okay, I'm just tired, lol. I think I'll be better tomorrow... No, I will!!

And I want to kidnap Zero and Kaname... *grins evilly* Vampires...

ja ne!
~Kyra
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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Well... I'm feeling good right now ^_^
So I finally did it. I broke up with my boyfriend-ish person, Alan, today. I swear, he has a stare that you can't tell what he's thinking! He just stared at me, and if I had allowed it, we could have just stood there for easily ten minutes without saying anything (because we've done it for close to five minutes... only reason we stopped was 'cuz some girl came and ran into us... quite literally, come to think of it...). I'm not sure what exactly broke the silence, but we're gonna stay friends... or so he said. That's what Trevor said, and I we don't talk anymore. As in the last words I said to him were the words I kinda set him straight with in the fact that we were friends and nothing more, and the last hting he siad to me was "It's alright" with a scowl on his face. Not that I haven't tried to talk to him!! I have, but he just walks away as if he just remembere something every time I try.

He acts like I got the short straw in the situation and trash-talks me when I'm not around, but when I am around, he practically runs away from me, and I know that he's scared I'm gonna get revenge on him for it.

'Cuz he's trying to get revenge on me for not feeling the same when he liked me.

*groan* I'm just 15... I don't long for childhood. Childhood's simply another phase, and I'm sure that if I were a child I'd long to be older and have more "important" things to worry about. I'm the kind of person who finds purpose in life's ups and downs, so I guess I couldn't return to childhood easily... lol, that makes me sound old.

I'm listening to the D-N-Angel Original Soundtrack I... I never thought I'd enjoy instrumentals so much until I heard this music. It's gorgeous! And the voices sound like they're instruments in themselves, meant to compliment the music rather than the other way around... It's beautiful. Some of the songs are eerie, but I like them ^_^ I need to get the other ones at the next convention I go to...!

BTW, I'm reading Vampire Knight scannings on Spectrum Nexus!! It's bloody awesome XD!!!!!! I love that manga!!

Best of wishes to my fellow Otakuites, Legends, and Seniors ^_^!

ja ne!
~Kyra

PS= FCAT is the Florida Comprehension Assessment Test! Sorry I forgot to mention that ^_^U!
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Tuesday, February 27, 2007

   ....FCAT should go to a deserted island...
So... FCAT was boring today as well.

Only it was math.

...Easy-ish... but boring, as usual. Then again, it's a good excuse to get away from my third period Journalism 1. With that eacher it's a lose-lose situation: if she doesn't like you, she's a dinosaur in an old woman's body, but if she does like you, she likes you so much that she sends forth her love in her utmost passion: Journalism. And lots of it. So much extra work...! She loves me too much, lol... but then again, she puts the "blame" on the fact that I'm a gifted student (as in the term, not an adjective) and that I require extra assignments.
...Okay... in elementary school, we'd just have a special class on Tuesdays at a nearby elementary school where we'd do special activities that unknowingly were testing you to the limit constantly. It was fun, being challenged and having fun at the same time ^_^.

But now, this is high school, and they're preparing us for the "real world" where there's all work and no play.

...I can't help wondering: what exactly is this "real world" they're always talking about? Is the "real world" a cruel place that the world becomes after you graduate or is it the fact that you'll be stuck in an office 'til the end of days?
I find the way ppl go about this "real world" talk preposterous. Seeing that there's good in the world as you grow older is just as hard as seeing it as all dark, so why are adults so aggravated that children see it as a wonderful place? Or that teenagers are always moody because of it?

Are they upset 'cuz they've forgotten what it is that we're here for and that children, still young and not that far from the point where they knew all truth before birth, are able to?

They call this "innocence" and maybe it is, but truth be told, some ppl are simply reversed when they grow up. Instead of seeing everything as good, they're so pessimistic and name the state of mind that is their life "the real world", where all is dark and all is evil and the only good is simply a sugar coat that will be washed away upon the next rainfall.

The world isn't evil. The world was born from something good and, just like us, as we grow older, it might be hard to grasp the essense from which we came, which is good, and also adapt to the new side of us that we acquired when we were born, which is an equal balance of bad.

And even then, only our emotions can tell us what side each action lies upon, whether it's good or bad.

The world's only as good and bad as you see it... Even when things are at their worst, there's always another way to look at them. This freshman drama, school, friends, work, love, all of it can be seen differently if you try, because the heart is always hoping and waiting to find the good it was born from, even if you don't know it.

So keep hope and don't deprive another of theirs. It may be in ignorance, but it may be all they have.

ja ne!
~Kyra
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Monday, February 26, 2007

   FCATs have to be the most boring tests ever...
700 hits guys!!! WOOT!! I love you guys XD!!!!! *hugs* *blows confetti*

Now onto my boring post, lols...

SAT's I'll take any day.

FCAT...? I'm still trying to figure out what's the stress. It was SO boring, so I'm starting to think that's what's wrong with it... We took the Reading Comprehension Section today, and it was strangely easy... just boring... or maybe that's just me ^_^U...?

Tomorrow we take the Math unit. I think that one might kill me, though...

But overall, today was a pretty good and uneventful day. I talked to Alan about what I heard on Friday, and of course he denied it, so I don't know... I'm gonna talk to him again tomorrow and see what happens.

I'm such an idiot when it comes to this stuff, lol... things end up better when I listen to my instincts, not my head or emotions. My instincts go closely with my heart, but between the two, I end up trusting my insincts more in this situation.

Ugh... I hate this drama and crap -_-...

Hold on... I don't think I posted about the crap...? Kry knows, but I'm not sure I posted it yet 0.0...!

Maybe tomorrow... sorry, guys!

ja ne!
~Kyra
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Saturday, February 24, 2007

I thought I'd be fine.
I thought I'd be fine, but I'm not.

I knew things would go wrong and they did.

I thought I knew what I was doing, but now that I do I just want it to end.

I'm tired.

I'm sad.

I'm hurt.

And I don't know what to do about it except let the emotions go.

I know that if I do, I won't let just those emotions out.

I know that if I do, it'll take forever to feel anything again.

I want to be happy.

I want to laugh.

I want to feel loved.

But for me... love always ends with my heart not coming back.

I miss love.

I miss "unconditional".

I miss dreaming something without flinching as if it were physical.

I know what to do.

But I didn't believe it would hurt like it does.

I'm tired.

I'm hurt.

I'm angry.

I'm unwilling to tire myself with these meaningless words.

I got myself into this.

I'll get myself out.

I always knew the truth, but now I have it in my hands.

I'm gonna use that truth.

I'm gonna end this stupid mess.

And I'm gonna win.

ja ne!
~Kyra
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Friday, February 23, 2007

   So... tired...
Okay... today was a good day.

Now that that's taken care of... I found out something today from a really good friend of mine, a friend I'll name D.A. I'm not gonna say exactly what happened yet, but... it's not the sweetest thing.

Chances are you'll all know by Monday.

Lemme see.... last night I stayed up working on a project on Romeo and Juliet. I love how the story was written, but it was hard for me to like Romeo and Juliet (the characters). I dunno... but I really enjoyed reading the play.

Tomorrow I might be able to hang out with Joe and Victoria ^_^. He's gonna call me later on to tell me when. I saw him during lunch today 'cuz the choir and chorus had a Musical Assessment thing going on and they were all getting ready to leave. When they were gonna leave, I gave him a hug and here's the conversation"

Me= I don't want you to leave! I don't see you anymore >:o!

Joe= What are you talking about? You see me all the time!

Me= No I don't! Not anymore!

Joe= Okay, fine. You pick any day, and I promise we'll hang out.

Me= Sweet!! You pick the day; my luck sucks.

Joe= *sighs at girl's indecision* Okay. How about Saturday? It'll be you... me... and Fujin (Victoria). I'll call her to make sure she can come, and then I'll call you, okay?

Me= *punches air* Yes!

So I might actually do something this weekend ^_^ I'm happy!
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.
.
And sleepy. I'm gonna take a nap.

How is everybody XD?!

ja ne!
~Kyra
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Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Taking a leaf out of your book, Kry; forgive me ^_^.
Two words:
First kiss.

ja ne
~Kyra
PS=...With the jerk I couldn't stand an hour before it happened.
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