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• 1992-02-19
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• Wherever the winds take me; at the moment... Florida. Blast from the past, and hello homeplace I never thought I'd live in again.
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• 2005-09-27
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• Student, striving writer/artist, human fighting to survive, many things... but in the end, just a person with a different view on life soaring for the sky. Wings weren't made for walking...
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• Lately I've taken a liking to simply being called either Tigra or Kyra.... but some of y'all know my real name. If ya must know, PM me.
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• ...I dunno...I've gotten better at keepin' my temper? I'm Secretary of the Poetry Club? I've written stories that make my teachers' and friends eyes bug? Is this a trick question...?
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• ...I'm a fan now. Been so for a long time. ^_^ That's all that matters!
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• Fruits Basket, DNAngel, Naruto, Full Metal Alchemist, Shaman King, Inuyasha, Teen TItans (is that anime...?), One Piece, Bleach, Gundam Seed, Gundam Seed Destiny, Fushigi Yugi Genbu Kaiden, Vampire Knight (big favorite ^_^)...
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• To become a professional author and artist, to win at an art competition!!!!! To see the snow in real life again and build a monster snowman!!!!!!!! Oh, and see Adam again someday... Y'all don't know who I'm talking about ^_^U
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• Writing, drawing, playing catch with my friends, buggin' my friends, playin' video games, jogging/running, singing (A LOT lately)...
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• drawing, writing, gettin' on Tish's nerves, procrastinating, gettin' on Tish's nerves... and apparently I'm good at advice. That's a nice one ^_^
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Today was...
Hilo friends. How's all going for y'all?
Me? I must admit that I've seen better days... much better days. I'm in something of a situation right now... I have a feeling this will be a long post.
What do you do when the only way to keep from hurting someone you care about is by hurting yourself in the process? And you know that when you break and can't do it anymore, they'll only blame themselves? You stop it. You stop pretending and tell them the truth. For me... well, he didn't even give me a chance to explain.
So hardly any of my regular friends are talking to me anymore. Neither of them gave a hoot about me since I starting "going out" with him, all of them based my opinion and word in the matter on what he said. I didn't care 'cuz I knew they were gonna hate me in the end, one way or another. I'm used to ppl basing their opinions of me on immature assumptions; it's what high-schoolers do (or so I've figured out -_-).
Thus... they all think I dumped him, but here's a tiny detail: you have to be with someone in order to dump them. If anyone said we were together, it was either his or their assumptions and not within my will. He even said he didn't consider me his girlfriend, so how am I the villain for believing the same?
Even now, everyone's going by what he's saying in anger. I'd more than understand if they didn't know me and I was just some girl from some school that decided to make out with some guy at some party, but I'm not!! I was their friend too, I was a person without him, and I didn't go off with some guy or anything of the sort!!! I'm not like that! Didn't they know me enough to even consider that I don't live by what he says?!
*simmers down* I don't like feeling like this... it messes with my head. But there's nothing I can do about the situation; Mar's trying to convince him to talk to me (he's giving me the cold shoulder), but truthfully, if he talks to me, it'll be just trying to make me "realize" how wrong and evil I am. I'm none of those things he sees me as now. I'm trying to understand that he's hurt, but if he expects me to let him keep doing what he's doing to me (as in turning all my "friends" against me), then he can't expect me to behave rationally either, because I know I did nothing wrong. He'll never see that.
He'll never see that I'm relieved he's mad at me and not himself.
But this too shall pass... and those words have been what's kept me from crying and attacking somebody today.
ja ne!
~Kyra
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