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Saturday, August 20, 2005

   All alone in a place called "Home"
I was supposed to hang with a friend today. I feel so bad, cause I haven't called him. It's the last time we can meet before he starts studying an a town almost 10 swedish miles away. After that we problably won't see eachother that often. But I can't bring myself to pick up the phone. I don't want to do anything at all, it feels tough. All I want to do is run away to my boyfriend I haven't seen for a little more than a month. I feel trapped here at home. Trapped in a place I can't feel, I can't smile... When I'm with him, I can breathe, I can relax and just do whatever I want to do. Here I just want to hide... so many do's, so many dont's. But I haven't lost hope. My best buddy, who is now living far far away from me, is coming up here to visit next week. I miss her so much, I haven't seen her since she moved just after graduation. She's been like the other half of me and now she's far away. But she's coming here soon.

And soon... soon I'll move in with my boyfriend and then I never have to miss him again. I have to keep my hopes up. I can't let myself fall, but it's hard. I don't want to be alone. It would have been better if I was all alone someplace where I can miss the people I love by myself, but instead I'm in a place where I'm forced to fake a smile, forced to keep it all in. That makes me feel even more alone.

Stop isolating your heart
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