Saturday, May 12, 2007

*SIGH* WHY DO I EVE TRY!!!
ONLY 2 OR 3 PPL LOOKED AT MY POEMS....WAT DO THEY SUCK THAT BAD???? I MEAN COMEONE THEY CANT BE THAT BAD CAN THEY??? OR U JUST DONT LIKE ME??? OR NO ONE COMES TO MY SITE B/C REALLY NO ONE COMES TO ANY OF MY SITES!!! OH WELL IM GONNA QUIT TRYING NOW.....THAT INCLUDES QUIT TRYING TO LIVE...........
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Friday, May 11, 2007

do dodo do do....
im bored and ppl dont likez me....yes im talking alittlez weird cause im tired and bored and hot and that makes me act stupid most the time
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Tuesday, May 8, 2007

   AGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
U KNO IT DOESNT HELP IT JUST PISSES ME OFF AND MAKES ME FEEL WORSE WHEN PPL ASK IF I HAVE SEEN A COUNDLER OR SOMEONE OR WHEN THEY SUGGEST I SHOULD.......I HAVE MY BAD MOMENTS AND I LET THEM OUT IN POEMS OK...........ITS NOT LIKE IM EVER GONNA DO ANY OF IT ITS NOT LIKE IM GONNA GO CRAZY......MY POEMS R WAT KEEP ME FROM GOING CRAZY AND BREAKING DOWN......GEESH!!!!!
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Monday, May 7, 2007

ice and snow
crying tears of blood isnt me
slitting my wrists isnt who i want to be
thats not what i get into
it isnt how i get through

ice and snow and rain
is how i handle pain
i dont use a blade
every time ive caved

the cold seeps through my skin
and numbs me from within
i let it freeze my soul
as my tears run in a pool

the cold wind in my face
cuts through my pain like lace
the white snow at my feet
through my pain does seep

alone in ice and snow
as if anyone wull know
i dont let out my pain
by cutting through a vain

so i stand in the cold
doing somthing bold
left behind in a pond
but when im found, i am gone
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hope is falling
with every killing in the world
with every named called to a girl
hope falls further down
further than the ground
with every little bomb threat
with every evil, no regret
hope falls from the sky
with every little lie

with every evil in this place
the biggest or even just a trace
hopes falls with every sin
hope enters in
to this giant black abis
it enters into this
giant black hole
that is like a black pool
hope dissappears into this space
taken from us in just one trace
hope has fallen from our graps
with every inch of open clasp
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hard to resist
with all this pain in my heart
its so hard to resist
this feeling i have inside
i wish i didnt exist

i want to turn
in a neew direction
a direction where
i have no reflection

so hard to resist
when im in a rut
so i pick up a blade
and begin to cut
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Tuesday, May 1, 2007

THATS IT!!!!
im dead
yup i did it
not really but i wish i had
no one likes me
no one reads my posts
i guess they r just used to not coming to my site cause i didnt post anything for a while
or cause i dont go to their sites
oh well
it doesnt matter
im dead
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Monday, April 30, 2007

why guys like kissing
SAY THIS SLOWLY:


Jesus---------------I----------------REALIZE-------------------I
----------------------AM----------------------A------------------------SINNER
-----------------------I REPENT ------------------FROM-----------------MY------------------SINS----------------------
FORGIVE--------------------ME---------------------I---------------------
Love------------------------You---------------------and----
I---------------------Need----------------------You----------


Repost this within 5 minutes and make the title " why guys like kissing " and a miracle will happen tonite.

P.S. Do not ignore

*God works in mysterious ways
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Saturday, April 28, 2007

ok i just wanna do this
actually i am gonna do this
i am going to go in my room
i cant turn emo cause i dont like pain so cutting myself is out of the question
im gonna go into my room
and cry
then when im done crying
im gonna lay face down in my pillow
and cry some more
until from crying and being smothered all at once
i die

yes my life sux this bad right now
so far by one guy in less than two months
ive been called three names
twitchy-fatso-whale
its one thing when ppl who kno me
call me names
and r joking
or even not joking
but its another when ppl who dont kno me
call me names
or hate me for no reason
yes ppl who kno nothing about me
hate my guts
they kno nothing
and hate me
so tonite
im gonna go in my room
and cry
and cry
and then die
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opinions
God's opinion is the only one that matters.
I pay no mind to anyone else's.
They don't matter, only God's does.
Or so I say in my mind.
The truth is the words in my head.
Only dull the pain in my heart.
Left behind by others words.
The words in my head only subcide.
The pain left behind.
Save for another day.
The pain I feel inside.
Hides when I say these words.
"God's opinion and his alone.
Is the one that matters.
He loves me how I am now.
And he loves me for who I am."
The words of others make me cry.
No matter how hard I try.
To believe the words in my mind.
Of how I look in others minds.
They insult me and i try to hide.
Behind hollow words in my mind.
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