Thursday, May 17, 2007

5/17- My heart will go on
It's show time!

Song- Everything burns by Ben Moody feat. Anstacia Listening to- Be my escape by Relient K Mood- Depressed Thought of the day- (There isn't much of one) Just watch where you walk because you'll never know when you will hurt yourself because you ruin into something... like a boom box by your bed. Okay I know I haven't been updating lately, but yeah nothing happens with my life. Like would you all want to read 'I ran into a wall today'? (Not that I did) I don't think you would unless you are insane to some odd measure that I can comprehend. HAHA! Let's see, I got an MP3 player a couple days ago. That makes me really happy! Or at least happy enough to smile at dumb jokes from my friends today, but that will be later mentioned. But for the last couple days I have been getting songs off my CDs to put on my player because well I can't download anything from itunes until my mom gets me a card to do so. So far I have 119 songs and I have only gone through half of my cds in my cd case number one, haha! Um... yesterday I was talking on the phone with ichigo and we had dumb things to say. We lost each other three time, two of the times she accidently hung up on me and I think one time my mom's cell phone went out on us. But we had fun talking to each other yesterday. But that is most of the time we talk on the phone. We are a couple of idiots on the phone, or together for that matter. And we were talking about our new themes. on the 23rd we will have a month on our disney themes. Well I told her that I have been addicted to a certain non-yaoi couple for a long time and she told that she was addicted to a non yaoi couple from that show too, just a different couple. So last night we decided to do our themes together, but she decided that she was going to do a new theme today, which is not going to upset me. I know her password I can make her theme match mine... not that I would. I am not that mean to her. Well after I got off the phone with her I got off my bed and I guess I swung my foot a little too far, but when I got up and started to walk I kicked my cd player... boom box cd player and I I made it move a good five inches, and I screwed up my toe pretty badly. it is all bruised now and it still hurts when i put too much pressure on it now. Not to mention i can't move it with out a crap load of pain surging through me, but I will live, its not like anyone can do much about it also. Well here is my reason as to why I am feeling depressed. i was up and i was talking to my brother and he had said something and responded and he told said that I need to stop acting like I am better than him. I go, i'm not acting. I point out what he has put my mom through this whole year and he starts to cry, and my mom got mad at me. And I said, and what about me? You never care what I think anymore. You have let him and my sister have all these things that they shouldn't be getting because they are both failing and we aren't sure if either one of them would pass this year. I tell her I work so hard for everything I get. And when i bring home an A I don't get much out of her anymore. yeah sure I get more A's and it is expected of me. but I am not a born genius, I work for thise good grades. And when one of them bring home a low B they get a party basically. I told her how I passed my choir exam with a 105% and she was like 'oh.' I was crying through most of this. And before I started saying this, she had mentioned Kings island passes and she said she was getting one for my brother and she had just recently said that she wasn't going to get my brother one because of him messing up so much. I don't know why I just felt so depressed this morning and I got a little better when I got to school, but now that I am home i just kind of feel like crap because I am not happy, which is abnormal for me. I am sorry for ranting about this. i don't think anyone here really cares how I feel, but I guess I feel a little better now. Oh yeah i was wondering, has anyone heard of a song called Iside by Sanity? I just heard of it because it was on my MP3 player when I bought it and now I am in love with the song. Pictures: Song:

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