Friday, February 29, 2008

   oh snap

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

i slept over cc's yesturday.
we had a lot of fun.
talking about random stuff....
like: did you hear that?!
lol
and i do belive snap, crackle, and pop are named after drugs.
but i'm not really sure...
yup
ummm...
my cat and i were playing and he bit my hand and it bleeded.
XD
it hurts right now.
but it's parcally my fault because i was being kinda rough with him first and i got him wound up so i probally deserved it
and i know he didn't mean to hurt me
i love my cat!!
>;D
i need to come on here more often, huh?
well, time for the song of the day!

.:GoNe FoReVeR:.
Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years I
Still can't believe you're gone
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While these walls surround me with the story of our life

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all night
Get drunk and fuck and fight
Until the morning comes I'll
Forget about our life

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever

And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
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Friday, February 22, 2008

   I'MMA DRAAAAGEN!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

OMG!
OMG!!
OMG!!!
OMG!!!!
CLICK EET!!!!!
CLICK EEET NNNOOOWWW!!!!!!
DDDDOOOO EEETTT!!!!!!!
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Thursday, February 21, 2008

   Poems, Songs, and Hardcore Emo

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

today was interesting.
school was long and boring i hated it the people there beside my friends aggrivate me
at home the ambulence came to pick up the guy next door in no hurry though they had their lights off anf were walking
my dad called and was talking to me about sugarland he said when we go out to see him and carissa we might go to their concert because their arriving there the same day as us WOOT
i'm in a really poemy mood right and if you wanna read some of my poems go here
i have a bunch of songs stuck in my head i can't even begin to explain what they are bacuse there's too many of them yup
ummm i dunno why i'm typing in this format so i woldn't even bother asking
that's it for now
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Wednesday, February 20, 2008

   hehehe

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

XDDDD
yea, i'm nuts.
but, ummm, ya.
kieru is my new female cheetah-cat fursona.
i'm crazy about her right now.
i'll probally use her when i'm feeling catty
so if the name at the bottom says kieru then you know why!
yus!
umm...
i'm not sure...
i need to rp or write a story or something gorey and discusting; I NEED EMO!
XDDDDD
weird thing to say but yah.....
oh!
i need to edit leo's story while i have time too!
yusyusyus!!
i can't wait!
GIMME MORE STORIES PEOPLE!
lol
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Sunday, February 17, 2008

   weeee!!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

i feel much better from yesturday night.
thanks to everyone for comforting me like that.
hell knows i needed it.
and thank you kitty for the gift! ^^
i'm wearing it right now.
i'll post more of my story later.
i'll be ending fairly soon.
i'll probally put it together and post if on DA too.
so if you missed any of it, look there for the whole thing.
ummmm....
i dunno.
i'll be getting art things done.
tamari's request is top-o-the-list right now.
watch for that too.
ummmm.....
ya.
that's it.
Love Song-Sarah Barneilles
good song.
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Saturday, February 16, 2008

   a Day for the Fallen

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

first the thing with mom's car(below)
then i was watching the kill point and it reminded me of something...
now it's 7pm.
there was a rollover infront of a rest stop in a nearby town.
one concience and breathing, one unconcience, and one with their head embedded in a snowbank.
all three died.
they declared them dead as soon as they got there.
i can't eat dinner.
i lost my appitite.
i almost threw up.
i feel like i'm gunna cry.
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*heart attack*

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

OMG!
HOLY SHIT!
i went to go move my mom's car up because she had to bring my brother to a party.
so i'm sitting in the car singing a song i like and i realised the steering wheel was in a funky possision.
so i stoped the car and opened the door to look out but i couldn't see.
i stepped out and the car started to drive away!
i ran a few feet, still holding the open door, and jumped in and hit the breaks.
omfg!
i'm surprised i didn't keel over from a heart attack or a stroke or something!
i don't even understand why it started off like that!
omg!
i was sooo scared!
i swear to god that i will never get out of the car unless it's in park again!
NEVER!
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Friday, February 15, 2008

   V-Day

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

I walked with Roy down the road. We were both on our way to a Valentines party; surprisingly, at the same place. Our Valentines live at the same apartment, their room mates. Reaching the bottom of the hill, leaving our own house, we fell silent. Both of us had gifts in out hands and a light snow frosted the frozen ground as our footsteps fell in sync. The snow was so white. It was so pure. It reminded me of a blinding light. Something good. Warm.
"You look worried" Roy's voice cut through my thoughts.
"Huh? No!" I answered. Roy laughed.
"What's wrong, Kajime?"
"I'm scared I don't look good..." I muttered.
"Why would you think that?"
"Look at me! I got a hole in my jeans!" I indicated by lifting up my leg in mid-walk. He laughed again.
"Don't worry about it. I bet FullMetal's wearing his casual clothes too. Maybe he's wearing those leather pants you like so much." Roy smirked that cocky little smirk he always made. I blushed a little, chuckling. I won't deny that I don't like those pants but I won't admit that I like them aloud.
"You'll be fine." Roy said, knowing that he got her thinking.
"I hope so!" I laughed. The snow flurried around us in a frenzy to get to nowhere. We continued laughing the whole way; gifts tucked tightly in our arms.
It wasn't long before we got there. Roy took the gifts for me so I could knock on the door. With one brisk, hard rap of my knuckles on the door, Ed was in the window. He hopened the door, Tamari running up behind him. Ed looked slightly shocked. So was I. He was handsome in a black tuxedo, a ruby red undershirt and a matching tie. Tamari was in a beautiful blue and flowing dress that matched her bandana. I glared at Roy. He was in his usual attire of his blue military uniform. I was in faded baby blue jeans that had a hole in one knee, a black tank top, and a baggy red sweatshirt. If it wasn't bad enough that I wore my normal stuff it was the fast the I looked more hick than ever! Roy didn't look back at me but remained his composure. 'Damn you' I hidded at him in my thoughts. Next thing I know I was wrapped up in Ed's arms.
"Hey"
I blushed, smiling, consumed by the hug. "Sorry"
"For what?" He looked at me questioningly; almost daring me to tell him why.
"I look like a hick" I said heasitantly.
He grinned, hugging me agian. I was thuroughly confused.
"I don't care" He said softly. I grinned, hugging him back.
"Well that's good, I don't feel so stupid now!" I laughed, so did he. Next to us, Tamari was hugging to Roy.
"You look absolutely handsome" I continued with a huge smile. He blushed.
"Thanks"
"Let's go inside" Tamari suggested, intervening.
"Let's" Roy balanced all the presents in his hands. He stepped through the door after Tamari had gone in. I took Ed's hand.
"It's kinda chilly out here anyways." He grinned.
"Yea" And with that we walked in together. By then Roy had put down the gifts on the counter. He organized them quickly.
"Here." He handed Tamari her gifts from him. Tamari's eyes lit up. I quickly grabbed up the ones I got for Ed. I offered them to him meekly.
"These are yours..." He reached out to take them and I added a quick "careful"
"Thanks" he looked at me. Oh my god. Those eyes...
"Well, you going to open them?" Roy said to Tamari.
"Yes but I need to get your gifts!" She said, darting off. Roy followed her with a chuckle, not running though.
"That's right, I have something for you too." Ed smiled.
"You do?" I was optimistic. Together we walked into the living room. The lights were dimmed all romntic-like. There were candles around the room that needed to be lit-a small flick of my wrist took care of that- and there was a bottle of wine on the bar along with some snacks. 'Holy s**t' I thought. Ed held out a bundle of presents to me. I took them, sitting on the couch, opening them. In Tamari's room I heard a squeak of hapyness. They were opening their gifts. Ed sat on the coush next to me. We both smiled at each other, gingerly ripping through the wrapping. Roy had given Tamari some bandanas and a few trinkets of jewelry. Tamari had gotten Roy a heart-shaped eyepatch and some other things. They both came out of the bedroom wearing their new stuff. Ed and I laughed.
"Nice eye, Roy" I sneered.
"It fits you" Ed said in a caustic voice. Tamari glared at them
"K-" Roy raised his eyebrows, interupting.
"Really? Why thank you, I think I look quite dashing." He grinned. That defeated the cause of picking on him. Ed finished opening his gifts. I made him some small figurienes with my own hands. One of my self and one of him. The third was the two of us kissing and the stand had a plate stating 'Don't Let Go Of This Moment In Time' on the botto is said 'Kajime and Ed Forever' in a heart, and 'lyrics by Bryan Adams & Sarah McLachlan, Don't Let Go'. He blushed, looking at it. Oh he's so cute when he blushes... There were some other small things I got him too. He got me beautiful jewelry, flowers, and some candy. I hugged him tight. In the background Roy and Tamari inspected the mini statues... The rest of the night was just a whilwind of fun...
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*mouth full of chicken fingers*
muffshnuffgah!
*swallow*
HAHA!
a side story.
it's a day late and a dollar short but better late than never, right?
Happy Valentine's Day/Singles Awareness Day!!!
=D
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Dont Let Go-Bryan Adams & Sarah McLachlan
I can't believe this moment's come
It's so incredible that we're alone
There's so much to be said and done
It's impossible not to be overcome
Will you forgive me if I feel this way
Cuz we've just met - tell me that's OK
So take this feeling 'n make it grow
Never let it - never let it go
(Don't let go of the things you believe in)
You give me something that I can believe in
(Don't let go of this moment in time)
Go of this moment in time
(Don't let go of things that you're feeling)
I can't explain the things that I'm feeling
(No don't let go )
No, I won't let go
Now would you mind if I bared my soul
If I came right out and said you're beautiful
Cuz there's something here I can't explain
I feel I'm diving into driving rain
You get my senses running wild
I can't resist your sweet, sweet smile
So take this feeling 'n make it grow
Never let it - never let it go
(Don't let go of the things you believe in)
You give me something that I can believe in
(Don't let go of this moment in time)
Go of this moment in time
(Don't let go of things that you're feeling)
I can't explain the things that I'm feeling
(No don't let go )
No, I won't let go
I've been waiting all my life
To make this moment feel so right
The feel of you just fills the night
So c'mon - just hold on tight
(Don't let go of the things you believe in)
You give me something that I can believe in
(Don't let go of this moment in time)
Go of this moment in time
(Don't let go of things that you're feeling)
I can't explain the things that I'm feeling
(No don't let go )
No, I won't let go
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Tuesday, February 12, 2008

   hmm, new day?

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

well, it's 5am.
my day's already been interesting and it just barely started.
so far my kitty got sick and threw up.
he puked on one of the blankets on by bed, cause he couldn't get off fast enough, and on my floor trying to get out the door.
he was so ashamed of himself as he watched me pick it up.
he would watch but he won't go in my room just yet.
i feel bad because i really didn't mind picking it up.
i mean, it's just some catfood that's digested and a few more blankets for the wash.
it's not that a big deal.
and that cat's like a kid to me so picking up his vomit is the last thing i'd freak out about.
he's feeling ok now, he hasn't puked anywhere else so *shrug*
oh well.
i had a weird dream too.
it had ed, al, hughes, and roy in it.
and something about a card, the ace of dimonds.
it was on the table next to the map.
the dream dictionary reads: To see the ace in the deck of cards, suggests ambiguity in your life. You need some clarity.
the tarot says: Increas in possesions, victory, new beginning after a clash of ordeal
and in my deam, i was going to die.
everyone knew it; they sensed it.
it was like a battle or something.
and they had to use me to save the captured troops.
and i had a low percentage of living.
it made everyone sad but i somehow stayed strong though it.
i had woke up just seconds before the battle.
thanks ammy for puking cats!!
XD
but when i woke up, i had this song stuck in my head:
Killing Me Softly-Fugees
i wonder what i means...
what do you think?
kuro is supposed to come over today and sleep over!
i'm very excited for that!
i can't wait!
*high fives kuro*
so far (i hope) i'm not as mad as yesturday.
stuff just...
pissed me off.
yus.
but i've calmed down and hopefully today is better.
well, i gotta go do my internet homework so i don't have to do it later.
toodles.
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Monday, February 11, 2008

   RAGE!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

RAGE
Running from the voices
Always seem to be falling
Going overboard
Engulfed now it's too late
RAGE

OMG!
PEOPLE PISS ME OFF!
GAAAAAAAH!!
*smashes head on desk*
one of these day's i'm gunna fucking kill someone!
i'm surprised i haven't already!
AHHH!!
*smashes head again*

=The Hallow; Kubome
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