Wednesday, January 16, 2008

   bedder now!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

Better Now-Collective Soul
=D =D =D =D =D =D
dissapointed but light hearted, my sould floats in the endless abyss of the clouds, upon wings of fire my raging spirit beats on, adrenaline is my friend, pupming through my veins, it's one of the only things that save me from the darkness...

weird facts about your emotions and colors:

Blue Do you want to paint your room blue? If so, you´re in good company. Blue is the favorite color of both genders. Depending on the shade, blues relax, soothe, and make us feel more spiritual and centered. Blue is intuitively chosen for bedrooms for just this reason. It also improves productivity, so a good blue might be the right choice for a kids´ rooms where they will be studying.
Blue is also considered to be a clean color, so it works well in bathrooms and laundry areas. Blue seems to work less well in kitchens...maybe harkening back to our primitive instinct to avoid blue foods. When blues are used in connection with food, they can have the effect of suppressing appetite, which could be a good thing if you want to lose weight.

Red has the opposite effect of blue; it increases blood pressure and respiration rate. Red also makes people lose track of time and stimulates appetite. Red is a powerful color so it´s is generally best used as an accent. However, certain shades like orange-red and brown-red may be muted; they are cozy, comforting earth colors like terra cottas, brick, and cinnabar.
Using red makes a powerful statement, so red furniture and accessories should be clean and in good condition. Ratty red furniture is likely to look REALLY ratty...not just marginally ratty.

Yellow tends to cause more eye fatigue than any other color. It increases metabolism and upsets babies. People also tend to lose their temper more often in yellow rooms. Yellow often makes many people feel cheerful, energetic, and happy.
Buttery shades are easier to live with long term than bright, sunflower yellow. The range of yellows is vast and some lend themselves more readily to decorating schemes than others. Yellows also frequently prompt more opinionated feelings than other colors. People who like it, really like it and people who don´t, tend to dislike it intensely.

Green represents a vast range of natural colors and, for that reason, appeal to many. Like blue, greens tend to calm and relax; it´s a healing color.
For interior color schemes, olive and sage greens seem to be appealing because of their neutral character. Lighter shades of both are easy to live with for a long time. Both combine well with many colors. Dark greens are favored as traditional banker´s colors like burgundy, ruby, and sapphire blue. Yellow greens and muddy greens are relatively unpopular. Chartreuse is one of those colors that delivers a big punch, but gets tiring quickly; as such, it might be better to use it in small doses.

Orange is warm, welcoming, and vital. Melon, tangerine, and yellow-orange mango are bright, cheerful, and tend to improve appetite. Used in kitchens, breakfast nooks, and dining rooms, orange shades can be very comfortable.
Purple Historically, purple is the color of kings. It may arguably be the most opulent of colors, and often connotes mystery or spirituality. Purples run the range of the red-purple such as eggplant to the blue-purples of a summer sky at sunset. Saturated purple is a dense, dark color that can provide a potent punch of color with great impact. As a tint, purple tends to lavender and is one of the daintier colors favored by many young girls. In certain shades, it can become a subtle, but very flexible neutral.

Black Do you have a teen who wants to paint their room black? If you find yourself balking, you might be able to head them off at the pass by letting them know that black is a color that denotes submissiveness (i.e., the cleric´s black robes and submission to God). On the other hand, if you are like many, you find black to be timeless, classy, and sophisticated.
Dark colors generally make rooms seem much smaller than they are, so unless you enjoy cocooning, black might not be a great choice for background color especially on walls. Also, painting over black generally takes more than two coats of paint, which makes it a nuisance to cover later.
Still, the number of color combinations using black are huge, though some like orange and black tend to have holiday connotations that would be downright irritating year in and out. One current trend is mixing a neutral room with some pieces of black furniture. The effect can be very elegant, and provides a contemporary twist for a traditional room. Black used with a mix of white and brights often looks very modern.

Pink is an interesting color because it has the cultural associations of being feminine, but it goes farther than that. Research shows that pink rooms reduce angry behavior at least temporarily. Some attempts have been made to use pink in prisons to control aggressive prisoners.
Pink generally is a comfort color and is favored by many for its sweet, childlike appeal. It´s a good choice for a young child´s room; young girls often like pink and lavender combinations.

Grey tends to enhance creativity, which can make it a good color for offices and studios. Grey is also favored as an executive color. As a neutral, grey provides an unobtrusive background for an infinite number of color combinations.
Greys on walls are often very liveable for a long while, provide an flexible neutral background for furnishings, and can be extremely stylish. Greys can be buttoned down and traditional, modern and contemporary, or beach house friendly.

Brown is all about security, credibility, and reassurance. It also tends to be soothing and comfortable. Browns wear well and are good for rooms that get a lot of use like family rooms. Browns also work well with spicy or warm colors.
Like greys, browns span a broad range of neutrals and, depending on the shade, are appropriate for almost any room. Combined with unexpected colors like pale blue, fuschia, or chartreuse, browns can be exciting and sophisticated.
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Tuesday, January 15, 2008

my sacrifice

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

well guys.
i have something big to tell you.
today i made a big desicion.
i dumped ricky.
i've thought it over a thousand times.
loos sleep and everything.
and the other day, i finally made my decision.
today, i gave ricky the note.
i read it over and over, hoping it sounded good.
i wrote all my thoughts and feelings on that note.
"here i stand once again, dissapointed in love" ~beautiful mess-eclectic collective
and now you see why i wrote that post....

=HERE WITHOUT YOU=3 DOORS DOWN=
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

=====================================================

~FANFICTION~

"Hey Roy!" a black haired man with glasses called over the doorstep to his best friend's house. He was knocking on the wooden door hard. "Open up, Roy!!"
The younger man opened the door, a sort of groggy look on his face. He rubbed his eyes with the back of his pointer finger. "Hughes?"
"Hey! Roy!" Maes thumped his hand on Mustang's shoulder, "You look tired."
"It's 7:30 in the morning, Maes! It's my day off. Of course I-"
"It's your birthday Roy!" Hughes interrupted quickly, grinning at his friend. "Why wouldn't I be up to see you?"
Roy looked slightly surprised by this. "I forgot..."
"YOU FORGOT IT WAS YOUR OWN BIRTHDAY?!" the other man yelled. His glasses slipping dangerously down to the bridge of his nose as he flung his hands up in disbelief.
"I... I guess i did..." Mustang said a little heasitantly. He blinked, taking a breif second to soak in what just happened. "Come in" he said finally, opening the door wide and stepping inside. Without a second thought the older man waltzed in. Since Roy's house was like a second home, not counting the office of course, he made himself comfortable with making a pot of coffee.
"Hurry up and go get dressed, Roy" Hughes started for Mustang stood before him in his blue paw-print pajama pants and a white tank top, "I have a surprise for you!"
"Ok..." Roy said sleepily. He refused to argue, stumbling over his boots as he shuffled to his room to change. Maes had to stifle a laugh when he saw it happen from the corner of his eye.
Soon the two men were sitting at the little round table in the kitchen. Roy had just finished eating an apple and banana, taking a sip of his coffee.
"This is strong, Hughes."
"Trust me, buddy, you'll need it" the other replied.
"Great..." Mustang said, a touch of sarcasm to his tone. He stirred the creamy tan liquid in his cup. Maes just smiled.
Not long after they were in Hughes' car. The excited man drove like it was going out of style; in other words, really really fast. At some of the turns Roy clung to his seat just to keep from flying sideways.
"Oh, I can't wait Roy!" He said, taking another turn.
"For what, dare i ask?" Mustang questioned cautiously.
"For you two to come and play with Elicia! She's grown so much! I mean-" Roy sighed softly, listening to the usual antics about his friend's family. "You won't have and excuse not to visit more often!"
Roy pondered about what Maes just said. 'Two of you?'
"Let me ask you somthing" He continued his thoughts suddenly, interupting Hughes' refreshed rant of Elicia on her tricycle.
"Sure, buddy" Hughes answered, looking rather confused at the outburst.
"You didn't adopt a kid for me, did you?"
Maes burst out laughing, tears welling up in his green eyes. It was Roy's turn to look confused.
"I'm not telling you, but you could say it's along those lines." He paused, laughter still stinging at his throat. "Like i said before, you'll have no excuse not to visit now!" Roy looked worried, beside himself. What did his best friend mean?
After a few beats of silence, someone finally spoke.
"We're almost there, Roy..." Mustang felt his heart race, his stomach lurching with anticipation. He felt his whole body go cold and his hands started to shake slightly. His thoughts raced frantically through his head but all the while his facial expression remained the same old calm Colonel. Just then the car came to a hault.
"Here we are!" Hughes chimed happily. Roy looked out the window. He couldn't help but chuckle quietly at himself with relif and shame. Why did he over-react like that?
"That's just FullMetal's house, Maes..."
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Monday, January 14, 2008

   howdy ho!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

howdy ho
ya, that's right, i just called joo a ho!
oh, *sigh* i dunno.
i'm not holding up the happy act too well.
i think i may need some alone time.
no, scratch that, i need some friend time.
i'm probally not gunna get some with the way the cogs are turning.
well, this sleepy raunchy bug is gunna take a nap.
and then i'll work on some contest art and my fanfictions.
tell me, should i post the fanfictions here?

~Kajime
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Sunday, January 13, 2008

   beautiful mess-eclectic collective

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

well, my life seems similar to this song
except i'm not a man singing about a woman...
the bold parts pretty much cover it.
*small sigh*
i'm not even sure who's gunna read this anyway.
i don't understand why i even bothered typing it all out then...
so much for effort.
for the first time in my little, pathetic life,
i'm about ready to give up.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

this is my owe to the woman who stole more than a bleeding heart,
ripping game apart,
traped in the mental maze,
so here's a song that i sing,
move exactally how the beat say,
wanna thank you lady but d'say,
call me selfish when your needed, just so cleche,
i admit taking this for granted but now i've changed,
you leave me stranded,
some kinda love, oh yes,
just a beautiful mess.
since that tune and scent of perfume largely reminds me of you,
this pain is hard to get through,
going fast we're going nowhere,
i'm tired of proving i care,
it's neither here nor there,
expitations roaming the air,
i'm like what you want for me,
your reality pushed away,
with no chance to even salvage,
in other words are laced with madness,
some kinda love, oh yes,
just a beautiful mess.
i see and akward, uneasy, unknowing, out of mind, out of shape, and out of control,
let this be a lesson to those who choose to love, unconditional,
uncomfortable, unbelievable, unfortunate, unrealistic, and unfair,
is where it ends and here i stand once again, dissapointed in love
i lied, but then i tried,
i tried, i tried,
this beautiful mess!
it's a beautiful mess, a beautifull mess, a beautiful mess, a beautiful mess,
oh!
i'll try!
i'll try!
i'll try!
i'll try!
i'll try!
a beautiful mess, a beautiful mess, a beautiful mess, a beautiful mess,
a beautiful mess, (i'll try)
a beautiful mess, (i'll try)
a beautiful mess, (i'll try)
a beautiful mess, (i'll try)

~Kajime
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Saturday, January 12, 2008

   even a strong soul can cry

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

well,
last night i started reading a book i got from my cousin for christmas.
it's called chicken soup for the petlover's soul.
in the book it's all stories about people and their pets.
well, the first chapter of the book has stories about the trust and love between an owner and a pet.
every single one of those stories touched my heart somehow.
i'm only on the 15th or so page but every single story that i've read so far made me cry.
i cried so much that i felt like i was pouring my heart and soul out onto the floor.
i felt so alone but so moved at the same time.
i ended up crying all over my poor cat who was trying to sleep.
he licked my nose and gave me comfort.
and, when my sniffles went away, i started to write another fan fiction.
maybe i'll post it up later...
but now i feel like there's a void in my heart.
it's like a leaf that starts to burn from the middle, slowly working it's way out to the edge.
i hope it never gets to the edges....

and if your reading this and kicking yourself for not being here for me, don't.
i don't need sympathy or people to feel bad for me.
i just need to pull myself through.
i'll survive, i know i will.
so don't worry yourself with my problems.
live your life while you can; even if i'm not there.
that's what will make me happy.
so promise me you'll do that.

~Kajime
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Thursday, January 10, 2008

   feeling

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

well...
i feel like i did yesturday...
'cept worse.
part of it is that i watched the movie video to concrete angel.
and the next thing is my mom is thinking of moving away.
i wouldn't be able to go to school here anymore.
i'd live tamworth.
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Wednesday, January 9, 2008

   a dash of roy mustang

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

well, today i'm a bit like our favorite one-eyed colonel.
how? - i didn't ge the nickname for nothing, folks!
why? - because that's how i feel. period.
since when? - since always. if it's not on the outside, it's on the inside.
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Monday, January 7, 2008

   loud sound, wah!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

it's 11:45pm
i moke up because i was thirsty
so, i was laying in bed, debating weither to come down and get a drink or not.
then i heard a loud bang.
i sat for a few more minutes and my imagination ran wild.
i pictured some dude downstairs lurking around my house stealing my stuff.
and then i pictured myself tackling him by surprise, tripping him using a special manuver, and avter kicking him in the nuts; finally keeping him down.
and then i imagined what i'd say when i called 911
"hey, i have this strange dude in my house. i think he was trying to steal my stuff but i took him down. i'm trying to be quiet cause my parents are sleeping..."
~"you 'took him down'?"
"ya, i tripped him. i think he may be unconcience... but he was trying to steal my stuff!"
~"how'd he get in?"
"i forgot to lock the door before i went to bed, heh-heh."
~"what was he trying to steal?"
"hmm, i dunno. lemme look..."
~"..."
"RAH! HE TRIED TO STEAL MY WII! THE BASTARD!!"
~"calm down mam, please, the police are on the way"
"NOBODY STEALS MY WII AND GETS AWAY WITH IT BASTARD!!"
and then i got up to inspect the downstairs and make sure there was no low-life robber.
=3
i didn't catch anyone!
and my door's locked!
yus!
and on the plus side, i got a drink...
=D
oh turdmuffins, it's midnight!
well, i'm going to update your minds a little more while i'm here....

i finally found the link to roy's answering machine!
go me!!
and i gave dan some monehs to buy me a new wii game.
so now i have a 24-7 avatar the last airbender fanservice!
now i just need to get fma and bleach and stuffs and i'll be smoooooth sailin!
that's pretty much it...
worked on my manga a little,
wrote some of the information down.
ummm...
oh! a few days ago; me, dan, and my brother went to mcdonald's in gorham.
i was joking around and i was like "let's go in the playplace!!" so i ran over there and started to read the rules for the playplace.
next thing i know my brother's already in it jumping around like a monkey!
XD
i laughed so hard i peed myself.
oh sheet, the cat's meowing.
he's gunna wake someone up if i don't go tuck him in and go back to bed!!
shhhh, cat, shhhhh!!!
x3
*hugs all*
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Saturday, January 5, 2008

   art art art!!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

i posted up some art!
yay!
hopefully, it'll be put up by the admin's soon.
i can't wait!
my new scanner i gorgeous!!
*hugs it*

ohohoh!!
please visit my pocket emo, kitseuki!!
*hugs him*
Visit Kitsueki
oh, he's below too. ^^U
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Thursday, January 3, 2008

   iPod madness

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

i wasn't tagged but i need something to cheer me up...


RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 people.
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How are you feeling today?
Dirty Little Secret=The All-American Rejects
o_O oh my... well, "just another regret" fits right now x3

Will you get far in life?
Superman (It's Not Easy)=Five For Fighting
well, the song explains it all. i'll get there but it'll be hard.

How do your friends see you?
I'm Already There (Message From Home)=Lonestar
oh gawd... don't even go there... ;_;

Will you get married?
Boulevard Of Broken Dreams=GreenDay
"it's only me and i walk alone" well, looks like i'm screwd

What is your best friend's theme song?
That's Life=Shania Twain
wow, haven't hear this in a while.... well.... i dunno how this relates o_o

What is the story of your life?
How To Save A Life=The Fray
baaaaah T___T

What was high school like?
The Thrill Is Back=Alan Jackson
*laughs*

How can you get ahead in life?
Don't Know Why=Norah Jones
ummm... make that damned phone call?

What is the best thing about your friends?
Get The Party Started-Pink
WOO!! PARTAY!

What is in store for this weekend?
Stand=Rascall Flatts
life'll suck but i'll make it

To describe your grandparents?
Tonight I Wanna Cry=Keith Urban
the song i would use to describe my feelings when i think on my deseased pepere

How is your life going?
Where Would You Be=Martina McBride
hum... weird...

What song will they play at your funeral?
Falling Back To Me=Our Lady Peace
"i know your out there, somewhere out there"

How does the world see you?
Wake=Linkin Park
it's the song with no words. i'm undescribable.

Will you have a happy life?
Caroline=Brooks & Dunn
aparentally my boyfriends "wronged" me? o_O

What do your friends really think of you?
Headstrong=Trapt
*laughs* well their right!! bwahaha!!

Do people secretly lust after you?
TearDrops On My Guitar=Taylor Swift
nope, they break my heart instead.

How can I make myself happy?
Bad Day=Fuel
i guess i can't U_U oh well, i'll sing about it

What should you do with your life?
My Front Porch Looking In=Lonestar
be thankful

Will you ever have children?
Lil' Jack Slade-Dixie Chicks
no words again but it's upbeat...?

I TAG:
who ever wants to do it D= (not very creative right now)
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