Thursday, January 3, 2008

*heavy sigh*

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

a lot of stuff had been bugging me.
it all buzzes through my mind,
day-in,
day-out.
i'm loosing sleep because of it and when i finally get some sleep i dream about it.
i wake up in the morning only to find that i've been thinking the whole night,
just to find that it weighs on my mind even more the next day.
like ricky yesturday.
he was kinda agressive at studyhall.
my friends say he can be annoying and stupid.
but besides his dumb reasoning, agressiveness, and annoying tactics nobody can see why i love him.
nobody but me.
he was agressive during studyhall but during lunh he showed his soft side.
he was talking about how his cat had two kittens on christmas eve, and how all the other times that cat had got pregnant her babies all died, accept these two.
and i know he didn't know it but i could tell he was sad for that poor cat.
and he continued to tell us about how the mother cat put her little kitties on his bed.
he didn't want to hurt them in his sleep or move them because they were sleeping.
so he gave up his bed to the two little kittens.
and kuro.
your always saying how people judge you because of the way you look and because steve's your brother.
i saw past that.
i saw the kind and gental person you are!
how come nobody sees that!
nobody sees the good in other people!
they judge them by looks or what emotions they show on the outside!!
but nobody sees the real person!!!
why!?
it's screaming in my ears; a great, loud sound!
but to everyone else there's silence...
am i the only one who can tell?!
i don't understand society!
i'm very angry with people and how they don't understand....
nobody seems to understand...
nobody can understand
NOBODY CAN UNDERSTAND ME!!!
WHYwhywhywhywhy....why can't they understand....

=BLEED IT OUT=

~Kajime, the cold and broken hearted fool
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Wednesday, January 2, 2008

   zodiacs

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

~Gemini~
Your element: Air
Your ruling planets: Mercury
Symbol: The Twins
Your stone: Aquamarine
Life Pursuit: To explore a little bit of everything.
Vibration: Intense mental energy
Gemini's Secret Desire: To be ahead of the crowd
Description:
In ancient Greek mythology, Gemini's ruler - Mercury, was the light-footed messenger of the gods who darted back and forth across the heavens delivering news - which might explain why those born under the sign of the 'Twins' are always on the move; thirsty for knowledge and new experiences. Terminally curious and sometimes even mischievous, Geminis are multi-faceted souls who enjoy knowing a little bit of everything but generally not too much about one particular subject. It's just that variety is the spice of their lives!
In Astrology, Geminis have also gained the reputation of being the incessant talkers of the zodiac. Those Twins that don't have the 'gift of the gab' are usually talented writers or have a special interest in foreign languages. In love, they look for a partner who can keep up with them mentally and physically! And, to quote Oscar Wilde, "there's one thing worse than people talking about you, that's people not talking about you." Whether Geminis like it or not, people are usually "talking about them". Together with Scorpio and Virgos, they are a sign that is often discussed, dissected and sometimes even put down by the other signs of the zodiac. Sometimes this is a subtle form of jealousy by others, because Geminis do lead very unique and unusual lives. The Gemini personality can appear mysterious or detached to others and therefore they are often misunderstood and unappreciated for the talents they offer to the world at large.
Another reason Geminis evoke so much interest is many born under this sign are multi-dimensionally talented. In money matters, some Geminis are very adept and quick at making it...and spending it too. Many Geminis are involved in international financial wheeling and dealing. They love the adventure and game playing involved in out-thinking other people. Gemini's can be very haphazard about their financial affairs too, with many of them ending up in divorce courts mainly because their partners have become tired of living on the edge of a financial precipice.
If you were born on the first or last day of a Sun sign, in astrological terms you were born on a cusp. If that's the case, you will probably benefit from reading your own Sun sign and the Sun sign that ends or begins right before or after your date of birth. For example, if your birth date is 22 December, your Sun sign is Capricorn, but you probably have some Sagittarian traits as well

~Deer~
Earth Influence- The Flowering time
Influencing Wind- The East wind
Totem- Eagle
Direction- The South East Winds
Element- Air with Fire
Elemental- Butterfly (air) Clan
Function- To Observe
Birth & Animal Totem- Deer
Plant Totem- Mullein
Stone Totem- Agate
Polarity- Totem Owl
Affinity Color- Orange
Musical Vibration- E Natural
Personality- Quick, Alert, Talkative, Congenial, Moody
Feelings- Sensitive but superficial
Intention- Versatility
Nature- Lively
Positive Traits- Friendly, witty and intellectual
Negative Traits- Inconsistent, Restless, Lazy & Despondent
Sex Drive- Titillating
Compatibility's- Crows and Otters
Conscious Aim- To bring together
Subconscious Desire- Mastery of the mind
Life Path- Coordination
Spiritual Alchemy- Yang Predominates
Should Cultivate- Concentration, persistence, sympathy
Should Avoid- Moodiness, inconsistency and superficiality
This Native American animal symbol is the muse of the zodiac. The Deer is inspiring lively and quick-witted. With a tailor-made humor, the Deer has a tendency to get a laugh out of anyone. Excellent ability for vocalizing, the Deer is a consummate conversationalist. This combined with his/her natural intelligence make the Deer a must-have guest at dinner parties. Always aware of his/her surroundings, and even more aware of his/her appearance, the Deer can be a bit self-involved. However, the Deer's narcissism is overlooked because of his/her congeniality and affability. In a supportive environment the Deer's natural liveliness and sparkly personality radiate even more. He/she is an inspiring force in any nurturing relationship. Left to his/her own devices the Deer can be selfish, moody, impatient, lazy, and two-faced.

~Monkey~
No task is too great for the clever Monkeys. They master most anything. They have extremely charming manners that draw others. Monkeys solve difficult problems with ease.They are quick-witted,innovative, and they have total and intense belief in themselves. No one delights in their own accomplishments like the Monkeys. Enjoying themselves immensely, they try anything at least once! Monkeys are intellectual and their memory is phenomenal. They recall the smallest details of everything they have seen,read, and heard. They must depend on that memory since they have an otherwise untidy mind. Monkeys are wizards with money. They are original, shrewd, and when they need to, they can fool anyone.There are a hundred and one fantastic schemes they want to try, and you can bet they make some of them work. Even when they take you in, it is hard to be angry with them, or begrudge them anything. They don't care what opinions others have of them. They know they are lucky, and they also know they have the ability to change things when convenience calls. Monkeys are virtually unsinkable! When the odds are stacked against them, Monkeys know when to quit. Their timing is superb, and they will wait to try another time. If you try to trick Monkeys, they will probably catch you. They never make a move without a plan. They are great strategists. They can spot an opportunity in any form. They never miss a trick!
Monkeys are hard workers once they have a piece of the action. The bigger the piece, the better they do. Monkeys like to travel, and they want to do it first class.They need a certain amount of excitement in their lives.
Since Monkeys get what they want without too much trouble, they may not care about all their conquests. They lose interest quickly and must learn to finish what they start and take care of what they have. People always flock around Monkeys,but Monkeys don't trust very much. They know a select group of friends that they choose carefully. Money is a must for Monkeys, and they usually have it, or will be in the process of getting it.They know nothing is permanent. They improve and try to do better, and often amaze even themselves. Monkeys like facts and they hateto waste time. Always remember, Monkeys don't care if you approve of them or not, and if not careful, you will be eating right out of their hands! They are the ultimate diplomats and slip in and out of difficulties with ease.
Monkeys must be careful in romance, although clear-sighted, they are very critical and lose interest in anyone they can't consider their peer.They are vain and egotistical,but even that is to their advantage.
Monkeys are always out in front!

but i doubt anyone will read this load of crap...
T-T
most of the time nobody does...
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Tuesday, January 1, 2008

   manga?

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

well guys, last night i was up till about 12:30 in the morning designing a one of my new characters.
at the time, i was kinda emo and all thinking about the csi episode and such so i made him with what i was thinking.
when i was almost done making my beautiful boy, arashi, i started to think further.
could i make a manga?
so, now, that's my new task!
i'm going to try and make a story with some new characters in it.
so far, i have part of a plot...i don't know how to start it.
the part of the plot that i know so far is arashi's past and that i want him to be a general in the dog millitary training and preparing other dogs for war.
i know i want the main character to be my little pup, akaji.
so i would need to figure out how and why akaji is being drafted for war.
another thing that i wanted to get too...
i need some help with character ideas, so if you want a character in the manga
*wink* *wink* *nudge* *nudge*
as a wrap up of this post:
1) i'm making a manga =D
2) any ideas for the plot?
3) characters please!

Name: Akaji
Meaning: Red Ink
Breed: Siberian Husky/Wolf
Gender: Female
Personality: Fiesty, Loyal, Loud, and Hyper. Maybe that's why she was sent out to doggy boot camp; they couldn't control this little prankster!
Colors: A red-brown with black on her back, cream mixed with white on her underbelly. Her eyes are firey orange.
Accessories: around her neck is a light chaing holding a oval-shaped orange jewel. On her right front paw is a red wristband, symbolizing that she's listed under Arashi's platoon.
Description: I dunno yet... XD

Name: Arashi
Meaning: Storm
Breed: Akita Inu/Kai Ken
Gender: Male
Personality: Strict, Stern, and is almost always Angry. Most dogs say he's mean and it is a punishment to be in his platoon. But under his scruffy blue fur he is kind-hearted and loving.
Colors: A dark navy blue- grey mix with a light blue-grey underbelly. Two black spots hover over his eyes. Starting at the back of his head, ending 3/4 of the way down his tail, there are black tora-ge (stripes) in the shape of upside-down V's. He has peircing green eyes.
Accessories: Around his neck a light chain holds a blood red-oval shaped-jewel. On his right frot leg a matching red wristband lays and just below that there's a lick of rope; nobody knows the reason that the rope holds.
Description: A general in the Inuguntai (dog army) he is responsable for trainning and teaching the young dogs of the way of war. His past in unknown to the young group of dogs he is training, but they later find out. He has sworn to never let his comrades (or traniees) die.

p.s: OMGOMGOMGOMG!!! DAN FINALLY SET UP MY SCANNER!!!
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   YAY!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

HAPPY 2008!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
HAPPY EVERYTHING!!!
THAT MEANS TWO MORE YEARS TILL I GET OUTTA HIGH SCHOOL!!!!
YYYYAAAAYYYYY!!!!!
*hugs all*
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Monday, December 31, 2007

   it's a secret

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

*creaps forward slowly*
....
i smell like pomogranet and blackberries!!
BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
*runs off*

//**later that day**\\

T_T
i ish so lonley....
nobody's on....
ehhhh....
*walks away to draw emo things and listen to linkin park*
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Wednesday, December 26, 2007

   woot!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

christmas was fun, but it was long and exausting for me.
i got some really good stuff like:
naruto manga 1-4, fma calander, little diomond earrings, itunes cards, jeans, belts, a sweatshirt, a wolf book, 8 or more drawing books w/ pencils, a dry erase board w/ markers and eraser, pj's, soap, perfume, and lotion, festive earrings, purses, gum, lots of it, and a chocolate santa ^^
my brother got a wii and we're going to share it!
dan's pretty mad about the wii and my diomond earrings though, and i don't know why...
anyway, we went to conway at 3 to see blob's ultrasound in 3D.
we have it on dvd ^^ it's fun to watch because he never stops moving, the little bugger!
we went to miccy d's for dinner.
there were to guys sitting at a booth a little ways away from us and i got up to go get ketchup.
i got it and came back and 5 min's later they left.
dan looks at me and goes "if you every bring a guy into our house that doesn't have his pants on then i'll kill him"
and i looked at him like 'where'd that come from?'
then my mom said the two guys were checking me out as i walked by.
i was like: O_O" what?
lol, ya.
and when we got home and opened our present's from dad, i couldn't get my diomond earring in my ears.
my peircing holes were to small...
so my mom forced them in (oww)
so i'm not taking those out for a while...
that's pretty much it.
*hugs all* ttyl!
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

  
"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!





by baranandue @ deviantart

ZUKO'S X-MAS LIST:



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Monday, December 24, 2007

   ohla!!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

it's almost 6 and we're going to uncle richard's for a party!
it'll be pretty awsome!!
and then tomarrow everyone's coming over here.
it'll be halarious!
last year me, my brother, and two of my uncles had an air-zooka fight.
so i bet it'll be even better this year!
well, happy holidays ya'll!
~With Love
Kajime
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Saturday, December 22, 2007

   merry christmas!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

hiya ya'll!!
merry christmas or hanuka or quanza or whatever
//hates political correct-ness\\
today i had a christmas party at work.
it was pretty fun.
we decorated gingerbred men, ate food, went sleeding, faked snowbording, ran around the park (i work at an amusment park btw), took pictures and stuff.
i won a free hat and got some reindeer antlers with bells on em
x3
i luff those things.
i got home later and then my parents went out.
their home now.
gah! there making me got o bed!
nnnnoooeeesss!!!
don't doooo iiiitttt!!!
;_;

~Kajime
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Wednesday, December 19, 2007

   rough day

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

i'm at the anime club christmas party.
i wish i could enjoy it as much as everyone else...
i'm just not having a good afternoon.
chorus class destroyed me.
i'll get over it though.

i'll update this more later.

ok, update.
i'm just gunna come on out and tell you this.
i'm sad.
why?
well,yesturday an anynomus person said something to me about singing.
they said that they couldn't sing with me because my voice was too low and that they couldn't hear me but they hardly ever sing in chorus on top of that they never talk when we're alowed to.
so, today, i sat next to someone else and that person sang and talked and laughed.
it was bad enough the first comment had broken my heart but now this?
so i didn't talk to anyone all of chorus except for a nod or a shrug.
after that the bell rang and we had the club party today.
i put my folder away and waited for that person.
they caught up to me, so i started to walk.
i made it out the doorway and stoped to wait for them and they totally ignored me and walked off.
disappointed and even more broken hearted, i shuffled to my locker alone untill i ran into leo.
and then, after the party, we were packing up.
that person left without saying goodbye to me or anything.
nobody but leo (who i told i was all set. thanks you leo) offered to stay and wait to make sure i got home safely.
as i was standing outside in the cold all by myself, i sang a song.
i sang it with all the broken peices of my heart and in the strongest voice i had.
and it was then when i realised that the anynamus person hadn't talked to me all day accept for a weak 'hello' that morning.
and even that didn't help.
i was so close to crying; nobody will even know.
and if you actually bothered to read this; thanks.

~Kajime
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