Wednesday, September 6, 2006

   COoLEo
Hey there again. Well, I met some pretty nice people and I was more of "myself" towards others. I might not have made alot of people like me for who I am but they just have to accept that. I share a locker with a friend named Taylor and she hung a picture of a guy on it. My boyfriend was like, "oh I see how it is," but he was just kidding since he knows I'm not that into emo guys. (the pic was one of an emo guy) His best friend Paul sees me during passing period and stops by my locker. He told me, once I explained that the pic wasn't mine, to "rip the picture off and slap my friend in the face!" I laughed so freakin' hard!!! ^.^ Anyways, before that, I think a girl who hates me because I have the guy she wants (my bf and her used to date but she cheated and she used to be my friend) thought that Paul was talking to her but he was talking to me. IN YOUR FACE!!! Anyways, it sucks to have a locker next to the person you hate and such. >.<
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Tuesday, September 5, 2006

   Whatever...
Hey everybody. I just wanted to say that everything is going fine with my boyfriend. I'm sad to say that he's in my speech and debate class and he's really distracting (even when he's not bugging me.) I feel bad for letting my friends down for not going up there to make my speech. I was just nervous because Kyle was there (which is surprising because I'm always with him...sometimes alone...and we've done some crazy, insane things.) (hey no dirty thoughts ^.~) Anyways, I feel as if I let them down and I could tell that they were mad at me. I told my other friends about my dillema (spelling?) and they were surprised as well. "School is your life and your letting a boy stop you from your true potential??? You must really like this guy!!!" Yeah well I'll make it up to them and show EVERYONE in that class what I'm truly made of. Damn I know I could have done better and damn it. DAMN IT!!!
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Monday, September 4, 2006

   despair
Hah my first week of school sucked!!! I had problems with Kyle, seeing that we never saw much of each other and that some so called "friends" are saying that he could find someone hotter than me. Yeah I never cryed so hard in my life!!! Anyways, he told me that he loved me and that he wanted to be with me so we're trying to hold our relationship together. We agreed to lay low with saying "I love you" and I think it's because he doesn't...well hey, high school statistics. I have become a way more sarcastic person, never taking any bull from anybody. My birthday was on Thursday August 31, and I had sooo much fun. I was scared out of my pants when balloons hit me across the face!!! I recieved so much hugs that I got tired just wrapping my arms around people!!! Of course Kyle took me out to lunch and I had the best time with him...well, I'll just do the best I can in this relationship and hope that it all turns out well for the best of us. His best friend told him that he never looked as happy ever since he was with me. I feel flattered, but hey, that could just be deception...Hmmm...
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Monday, August 28, 2006

   Sadness...
The first day of school for me was killer. I had fun but overall I had the feeling of anxiety with me the whole time. It wouldn't leave me no matter how comfortable or happy I was!!! My boyfriend Kyle and I went out to lunch with one of our friends Eli and it was fun. When we went back to school, Kyle thought I wanted to see my friends and leave him (even though I did want to see my friends but I wouldn't have left him) but instead it was he who left me for his...I wonder if school will affect our relationship. Green, a girl who loves Kyle and won't leave him alone, is in my fourth period which is accounting...the class is boring and I just don't want to have a class with a girl who's trying to take him away from me. ( I know it sounds possesive but please! She took off her shirt trying to turn him on!!!) Anyways, I met some cool guys that I've chatted with and they seem alright and man...I just feel so sad right now. It's hard for me to even smile when I usually do every minute of the day. I'm not really sure why I'm sad but...I hope it goes away...T_T
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Sunday, August 27, 2006

   Long Live Summer...
My summer will officially be over tomorrow...NOOO!!! >.< School starts and I don't even know where my classes are located, my locker combo (currently sharing one), and who are in my classes. Yeah this sucks for me and the funny thing is I'm not freaking out like I would normally be. Hmmm, must be something I ate. Anyways just wanted to say that I'll be visiting and posting when I get the chance (which is often I hope) and that I'm going to miss you guys!!! If you want to talk, just add me on messenger because I know I'll be on there!!! (to check my mail of course and maybe chat for a little while.) ^.~
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Friday, August 25, 2006

   Life...
Hey there buddies. Sorry I haven't posted in so long and I hope you all are doing well. Summer vacation for me is coming to a close and it's so depressing. O.o' Anyways, I have been prepared for school but I don't have the motivation of being excited to be back (except seeing my friends of course.) Anyways, I hope this year will be a good school years for all of us. Haha at least homework will give me something to do! ^.~
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Saturday, August 19, 2006

   hopelessness...
I'm feeling super lazy and devious...and it's freakin' beautiful out today. I'm in the first stage of my cold and damn it!!! It sucks butt!!! (forgive my language.) I'm probably going to go hang out with my friends later on...if I'm not so damn lazy or tired (considering the projects I'm in.) Just being in school is tiring enough!!! >.< (even though school hasn't officially started yet.) What's even funnier is that considering how many classes I'm taking (zero and plus) and the activities I'm doing (conflict mediation, art, future nurses of america, key club, battle of the books, basketball, track, etc...) I'm going to have one hell of a year!!! I shouldn't be complaining when I brought this upon myself...but I think I might have gone over my limit. OHHHHHH buttermuffins!!! Son of a bird!!! Fudge monkies!!!
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   despair...
Today was a total bummer for me...well not totally. At my Conflict Mediation training, I wasn't hyper happy and held a sarcastic attitude the whole time from nine to four in the afternoon. I was suppose to go to my locker sign up but I couldn't afford to miss training so I made my friend go for me. Sadly enough I couldn't recieve a locker because I had to be there in person, which by the way is stupid because I provided a note explaining my situation with my teachers consent on it. Now I have to get one no where near my friends which just sucks!!! My boyfriend is away on football versing the other team at skyview and I miss him...today was a bummer for me...and I'm also in charge of the artiscs of the group and have to draw large scale pictures on the wall with help from others to paint it. I'm put with huge responcibilities and the stress is killing me!!! (sobs and runs towards the corner)...(still sobbing)
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

   Random...
Anyways it's just another day of random drabble for me. I have my Conflict Mediation training tomorrow and I don't know at what time. Also I had plans with several different group of friends to hang out at different places and such. Also my boyfriend wants to me visit him after his locker sign ups (he's a junior this year.) Yeah...I'M BEING TORN APART!!! I know...I'll just cower in the corner in the dark!!! ^.~
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

   Why???
Why, when it comes to the matters of the heart, are we humans to break apart? Trust, loyalty, faith, and love are basic values I have in relationships...but friendships are the first foundation in which we start out from. A friend of mine has had her heart broken by the same guy for four times. I can understand why she goes back to him and it's because she loves him. Yet he leads her on by saying he loves her and calling her every night. Just last night, another friend of mine, who's also friends with the guy, told me that he was tired of him because he keeps trying to take away another girl he likes. So, it turns out that he was just toying with my friend and really trying to get with another girl the whole time. She was heartbroken...and I'm sad to say that she must take the pain and just learn from this experience (for once.) He's not the right guy...
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