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December 24, 2007 ~ For 12/25
New layout~ How do you like it?I witnessed one of the worst weathers yesterday. I had an appointment with my mentor in the BCG mentoring program in Manhatten for the first time. I ran into so many more problems than I thought I would. It was freeeezing cold, it was unbelievable. And I got lost and had a hard time figuring out whether I was going the right way or not. I didn't know if I was going uptown or downtown, did I pass the stop, or what? Wow, it was practically like hell. Thank god I borrowed my friend's cell phone. She's a lifesaver, and my life depended on that cell phone then. Not only that, but I was more than half an hour late. Gosh, I really need to go out more.
Aside from that... I know I don't talk about my emotional issues often, but I think I'm starting to break down... Give me your support..?
Oh My God, My Emotional Issues (You DO NOT have to read this!)
The more I think about it, I think there is actually a guy I like... I don't think he's just a friend, he's a special friend. And he says I'm the same to him... But I'm starting to think that he's more than just a special friend to me. I think I really have feelings for him... But I know it's impossible for me and him to get together... For various reasons. And those reasons can't be changed. Not for a long time, anyway. Other reasons are because I don't think the same feelings will be returned... In fact, I doubt it. I doubt it so much, it hurts. That's why I haven't said anything to him for all this time. At times, I would sort of kid around, but at some times, he would say things like, "Are you serious?" or "Do you really mean that?", but I would just say, "I love you as a friend, calm down." To be honest, I think I'm good at lying... And I'm good at acting like I am. Some might disagree, but that's because I make it obvious that I'm lying to make a laugh out of it. And because I think that I'm "so good" at doing those two things, it makes me think that I'm... too good.
Some people think they can see right through me, because that's what a normal person would think, and apply the same to me, but it's not always true... And it fills me up with a bit of anger because no matter how many times I tell them that it's not true, they won't believe it. Maybe because it sounds too nice. Maybe I'm just too nice of a person. I know I'm being really straightforward about what kind of person I am, some of you might think that I'm so full of myself. But these are traits that I believe are really a part of me. Give me a trait, and I could tell you how much of it I am.
Now I'm starting to think I'm going on about this too much... This is probably pathetic of me, I know. But I guess this is actually something I can relieve myself of by telling others about it.
...What do you guys think about this situation?...
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