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Name: Kitty.
Age: 18.
Birthday: January 30th.
Currently: Texas
Education: G.E.D.
Currently Reading: American Psycho
Email: [Link]
Myspace: [Link]
Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing.
Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes.
MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com
AIM: My Bloodydeath13 &
Tehvampirekitty
So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty.
Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below.
I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too.
Have a nice day. Peace.
Kitty
Rules
Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook.
Visit me and I will visit you.
Don't fuck with me.
Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do.
Post
Ok, I know I haven't posted in a while, but that is because latly I have been a little busy. Thank you all the people who commented on my story. Just so you know that is Chapters 1-3, if you care. Well I g2g. I will post again soon.
Name: Kitty.
Age: 18.
Birthday: January 30th.
Currently: Texas
Education: G.E.D.
Currently Reading: American Psycho
Email: [Link]
Myspace: [Link]
Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing.
Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes.
MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com
AIM: My Bloodydeath13 &
Tehvampirekitty
So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty.
Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below.
I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too.
Have a nice day. Peace.
Kitty
Rules
Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook.
Visit me and I will visit you.
Don't fuck with me.
Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do.
Post
Ok, I would like to thank all of you who commented yesterday, but I would like thank rabidminpin for reminding me about my story. I totally forgot about it. So I decide, since people like it, I will post chapters 1-3. I will only be posting those three, cuz I wrote this story in another language and that is all I have in English so far. So here it is.
*Warning ch.3 has a lot of cuss words. I didn't realize how much I put. And Ch. 3 was also written by my lil sis too. She help with the phone conversation. Just a warning*
Living in Revenge
Chapter 1
Why Us?
If you got one more shot, to fix what you have already done. Would you? Or would you turn and walk away? Don’t be like me and walk away from happiness.
‘Why?’ a young girl thought to herself in her cold & dark room. ‘I never had any happiness.’
“Helena are you in here, sis?” another girl asked peeking in. She had mid-back length jet black hair w/ crimson streaks in it & midnight blue eyes.
“Yeah,” I answered. “What’s up Icewind?” Icewind sat beside me. Now that we were closer, you could tell we were twins. This was because I had the same length hair that was jet black w/ silver streaks & empty black eyes.
“Dad did that shit again. He’s no good.” Icewind said.
“Hey at least Damien isn’t here.” I said “Sis come here you have a cut on your face.”
“I never really miss him.” Icewind said. “And I didn’t know I had a cut.”
“I miss Zander all the time. There all better.” I turned and stared out the window. ‘Why is the world so content when I’m dieing slowly.’ I thought while I stared blankly out. ‘What will happen if we die before we find the truth out? I wonder if they are still alive. If they even care, or worry about us. We can’t turn out like Zander. How I remember his spiked Blood red hair and his empty black eyes. How he would see us and smile his cheesy smile. But he is with the white-coats. They took him and I can’t be without him.’
“Damnit u bastards.” I Yelled and threw my fist against the window. “Why did y’all take him?”
Icewind sighed & stood. She walked over & placed a hand on my shoulder. “You can’t change what has happened sis. Yeah, sure they had no right to take him, but did they care? No, never have and never will.” I looked at her.
“You always were the stable one.” I told Icewind walking over & sinking onto my black sheeted & pillowed bed. “You take the medicine?”
“Only when I need to.” Icewind replied. I watched my twin.
‘So she doesn’t know.’ I thought. ‘He never told her that he injects the medication in her when she is sleeping.’ “Goodnight sis” I said. “See u tonight.’
“Alright.” Icewind replied. “Catch ya then. Besides, we’ve got a job tonight.”
“What do we gotta do?” I asked.
“Dunno sis. Tamashii said he’d tell us when we got there.” Icewind stopped on her way out. I hated Tamashii Kitsune.
“Damn I hate him!” I yelled
“He said it paid us each 25,000 dollars.”
“I still hate him.” I said stubbornly.
“I know sis, I know.” Icewind replied. She turned back toward the door. Then stopped. A man, our “father” stood in the doorway.
“Shut the fuck up!” Marcus, our father, yelled.
Icewind ran across the room by me. He was after us again. But maybe we would get away this time.
“Sis stay back: I will handle this.” I told my sister.
Icewind gave a nod. She watched as I approached Marcus. ‘Please don’t hurt her.’ She thought.
“Why don’t you leave us alone Marcus?” I said.
“You don’t talk to me like that!” He yelled while he knocked me to the floor.
‘Shit, sis get up. Please get up.’ Icewind begged.
“And u don’t hit me.” I said calmly.
“Don’t tell me what I can and cannot do.” He yelled while he punched me again, knocking me to the floor.
“Please stop hitting me. I don’t want to have to hit you back.” I pleaded.
“HA. I’m not scared of a 15 year old.” He said while laughing.
“Well maybe u should be.” I said in my normal voice.
“Is that a treat? ‘Cause I do not take threats.” He said while kicking me in the stomach, while I laid on the floor.
“Sorry but that’s it!” I yelled while I punched him. He hit the floor and got back up. It continued for a couple hours, but it ended very rudely.
“You little bitch.” Marcus yelled as he punched me in the face. But instead of getting up I just laid there. I was knocked out. And I was not going to get up anytime soon. “That is what you get bitch!”
“No!!! Helena!!!” Icewind yelled while running over to my side. “Please get up Helena!! Please get up!!”
“Get away from her Icewind now!” Marcus yelled.
“No!!!” Icewind yelled back will throwing a vase at him, knocking him unconscious.
She picked me up and carried me over to my bed and laid me down.
“Sleep tight sis. Sleep tight.” Icewind told me while she walked away.
Chapter 2
The Past Comes back
(4 hours later)
“My head hurts.” I mumbled as I woke up. “Icewind… Icewind where r u? FINE DON’T ANSWER ME!!”
“Sis be quiet.” Icewind said slightly irritated.
“Why?” I asked confused
“Because I don’t want dad coming back in here.” Icewind said with a hint of fear.
“Why are you so scared of him? He never has hit u that bad, and plus we could take him on.” I said bravely.
“Sis, don’t worry about it.” Icewind said.
“Helena, what time is it?” Icewind asked breaking the silence that filled the room.
“7pm. Why?” I said, looking down at my watch.
“Just wondering.” Icewind replied
“So…Icewind, um why does my head hurt?” I asked slightly confused.
“Dad knocked you unconscious when he punched you in the face.” Icewind said quietly, but I still heard her.
“Oh.” Was all I could say.
I looked out the window by my bed. ‘It looks so peaceful at night. I guess we will have to work in the rain.’ I thought. ‘Why am I so weak. I always have been able to protect Icewind, but I got knocked out cold. Am I turning weak? Why does everything have to be so confusing? Why can’t I just move on and leave Zander behind? Do I feel guilty that they took him? It’s not my fault that he got taken away, is it? God why me? Why do I have to be the strong one and not the emotional strong one? I wish I could just take it away, and act as if it never happened. But I know I never will. Cause I will always keep grudges and regrets, and I never will move on.’
“Sis, I’m going back to sleep. I’ll be up later. Night Icewind.” I said as I crawled back under my covers.
“Okay, Good night sis.” Icewind said as she also crawled under her covers.
~Helena’s Dream~
(It is a flash back, Just so u know)
*9 Years Ago*
“Come on you two.” Zander yelled, as we were running through the park, one morning. “Man y’all are slow.”
“Well don’t get mad at us. You are older, and plus we were Jogging.” Icewind said, in that know-it-all voice.
“I bet I could beat you, if we had a race Zander.” I said bravely.
“Bring it on. I could beat you in my sleep.” Zander said trying to act tough.
“Just don’t cry when you lose to a girl.” I said smiling.
“I won’t.” He said back.
“Ready………Set…………Go!!” Icewind yelled, as me and Zander took off.
“See you at the finish line Sis.” Zander said has he ran faster.
‘That is so sad. He thinks I’m really this slow. That’s sad.’ I thought as I sped up too.
“No I will see you at the finish line!” I yelled as I caught up.
By the end of the race, we were both breathing hard.
“Man your fast sis.” Zander said when he caught his breath.
“I know, but you’re not so bad either.” I said back.
We walked back to the house , with smiles on are face. We kept on goofing off, as the sun hit us on are lightly tan skin. We were completely happy, without a care in the world. As long as we had each other, we would always be happy. But of course when you are on top of the world, something always goes wrong.
As we walked in the house we didn’t see our mother or father. So we went up stairs to find them. As we were about to walk around the corner we heard talking.
“What do you want? We just can’t throw him out and have someone else take care of him.” Yuri “their mother” said.
“We are going to Yuri, if you like it or not.” Father said.
“You are not going to touch Zander at all! You can’t take him back again. He needs to die with the rest of them here.” Mother yelled back.
“Don’t tell me what to do. He doesn’t need the help as bad as you, but at least he won’t be crazy like you.” Father yelled as he walked back in their room.
When he walked out he had a suitcase.
“I’m leaving Yuri, and this time I’m not coming back.” Father yelled.
Tears grew in my eyes as I watch him grab his keys on the table outside their bedroom door.
‘No. don’t leave me dad. Don’t leave me here with her.’ I thought as tears started to flow out of my eyes for the first time in my life. ‘Take us with you.’
Zander pulled us into the bedroom we were outside of. I watched as he walked into the living room.
“No, don’t go dad. Don’t leave me. Please don’t go, please.” I said as I ran to him.
“I’m sorry Helena, but I can’t stay here. I can’t live this way. Baby don’t cry.” Father said to me as I cried into his chest as he held on to me.
“Why can’t you take us with you.” I managed to say while I cried.
“I can’t right now. Sorry baby.” He said as he put me back on the ground.
“Bye dad.” I mumbled as I watched him walk out the door.
(Next Day)
(Still Dream)
“Helena!!” Icewind yelled as my mother grabbed her by the arm. “Stop that hurts!” She said as she started to cry.
“Don’t touch her!!” I yelled as I picked up the vase that held Icewind’s roses and threw it at her.
“You little bitch! It’s your fault he left. It’s all yours.” Mother yelled at me.
I froze and mumbled “Is it really my fault?”
“Don’t listen to her Helena.” Icewind yelled to me.
“You little brat!” mother yelled as she threw her against the wall.
“Sis!” I yelled and that was all it took. “ You bitch.” I yelled as my hand started to glow black.
Icewind sat up, and noticed my hands. “Wow.” She said.
“Never, I mean NEVER, touch my sister again!” I yelled as I stood their.
“Sis, your hands are glowing.” Icewind told me.
“How the hell?” I said as I stared at me hands.
That’s when I saw other people standing at the doorway to our room.
“Where is Zander?” Guy 1 asked mother.
“He is in their.” She answered back. Pointing at his door.
“Come on guys.” Guy 1 said.
“Help! Helena! Icewind! Someone help! Marcus! Helena! Icewind! Somebody! Anybody! Help me! Help! Get them away from me!” Zander yelled as they pulled him out of the door.
“No!!! Zander!!” I yelled as I tried to get to him but guy 2 held me back.
“Sorry kid, but he is coming with us.” Guy 1 said.
“No! He is staying!” I yelled as I started to move around.
“Let me go! Don’t touch me! Helena! Icewind! Please Helena help!” Zander yelled as he still tried to get away.
“Don’t touch him!” I yelled at guy 2 and guy 3.
When they got him out, I slid down the walls and started to cry.
“Why Zander? Why?” I said over and over again.
“Well now there are only 2 more of you.” Mother said rudely.
(1 week later) (Still in dream)
As I walked in the front door alone, I thought of things I could do.
“Girls is that you?” mother said
“No! It is just me!” I said rudely.
“Good.” She said back.
“Huh?” I said confused
“You drove him away! You made him leave me! And if I die, you die with me!” she yelled as she chained me to a chair, with my forearms facing up.
“What are you doing?” I asked scared to death.
“Just helping the world out.” She said, as she pulled out a butcher knife. “Now no one will have to see me or you again. Anything you would like to say?”
“Yeah, You drove dad away not me. You are the crazy one. You made Zander go to that place. You need to die, because Everything is Your fault. NOT MINE. You are destroying everyone. And you will not take anyone else away from me again. IT IS ALL YOUR FAULT!!” I said/yelled at her.
“Why you little bitch!” she yelled at me as she sliced both my wrist and forearms. “You will never talk to me like that again.” She yelled.
My eyes closed and the world disappeared. I heard a shot fired from a 44 caliber gun. Then blank. I saw Zander’s Blood red hair and his emerald green eyes.
(Dream Over)
“No!” I yelled as I woke up. I started to cry for the first time in 9 months. “Zander. I need you.”
“Sis, are you okay?” Icewind asked.
“Icewind don’t bother right now.” I snapped at her.
“Ok. Well we need to get going.” She said a little afraid, considering I never snap at her.
“Fine.” I said.
Chapter 3
The Truth is Never Pretty
“Hello, Girls.” Tamashii said to us as we entered the park.
“Hello Tamashii.” Icewind said politely
“Hi Tamashii.” I said in a fake nice way.
“Helena you may love this job.” He said to me.
“Why would you say that?” I said in my normal emotionless tone.
“You’ll see. Now girls this is the map of the Ministry of madness Mental Intuition. I need you to get 2 people out.”
“No way.” I mumbled.
“Who do you need?” Icewind asked.
“There names are Tika and Tiko.”
“Are they agents?” Icewind said.
“Yes.” I said. “I hate them, but I will still go free them.”
“So get a move on it.” He told us.
20 minutes later
“Helena.” Icewind said.
“What?” I said still looking at the map.
“Why does this place sound familiar?” She asked
“You don’t remember?” I asked.
“No…” she replied
“It is where they took Zander.” I said, folding up the map. “And now we are going to free him.”
“Sis. I think your cell phone is ringing.” Icewind said as the song Thoughtless by Korn started to play.
Phone conversation
Damien: Hello Helena
Me: what the fuck do you want?
Damien: 2 million dollars, but that’s not why I called
Me: why the fuck did you fucking call then?
Damien: (Silence) I need a favor
Me: depends
Damien: I need you to get someone for me
Me: Who?
Damien: are you sure you wanna join?
Me: join?
Damien: the guy we are looking for can pay 2 million dollars.
Me: so what?
Damien: are you joining or not little brat?
Me: count me in mother fucker…..DON’T CALL ME LITTLE!!!!
Icewind (in background): must be Damien
Damien: ok we are looking for a guy named Tamashii. Tamashii Kitsune.
Me: HOLY FUCKING HELL!!!!!!!! OH MY FUCKING BITCH!!!! *continues to cuss*
(Icewind grabs phone)
I.W.: hi Damien. What are you calling for?
D: We want you and Helena to help us find a guy.
I.W.: Which guy?
D: His name is Tamashii. Tamashii Kitsune.
I.W.: Tamashii? Why do you want Tamashii?
D: Just cuz.
I.W.: just cuz what? What did he do?
D: give the phone to Helena. You nosy brat
I.W.: uhhh……*looks at Helena, jumping up and down* she can’t exactly talk. You just tell me.
D: Fine………he pays up to 2 million dollars, and can you tell Helena something?
I.W.: ………….umm…ok. What is it that you want her to know?
D: Tell her he also was in on taking Zander. He was the first guy.
I.W.: *gasp* HE WAS IN ON TAKING MY BROTHER?!?!?!?
Me: WHAT? I FUCKING TOLD YOU I HATED HIM!!!!!!! NOW I UNDERSTAND WHY!!!!!!!! HE IS A NO GOOD MOTHER FUCKING ASS- *Icewind covers Helena’s mouth from further cussing*
I.W.: Ok Damien. We know just where he’s at. Where do we meet you?
D: Put me on speaker.
I.W.: ok FINE…..geez *puts on speaker*
D: in our old house. The one we lived in before Zander was taken…….And HELENA!
Me: WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT!?!?!?!
I.W.: *mumbling quietly* she’s says ‘fuck’ way too god damn much……..
D: don’t, I mean DO NOT FUCKING KILL HIM!!!! They want him alive…
I.W.: Who the FUCK is they?????
D: PEOPLE!!!!!!
Me: WHAT FUCKING MORON WANTS HIM?!?!?!?! THE DAMN MOTHER FUCKERS!!!! I FUCKING HATE YOUR GUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!
I: yes, tell us or we won’t bring him to you. Who exactly wants him…*turns to Helena* and YOU say ‘fuck’ Way too god damn much…….
Me: Oh yeah?
I.W.: Yeah…..you fucking do.
Me: Well…….. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!!!!!!! *CONTUINES* FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK- *Icewind again covers her mouth*
I.W.: *sigh* You are so fucking immature……..
Me: * licks Icewind’s hand*
I.W.: EEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!
D: What the fuck? What’s going on?????
I.W.: She licked my hand!!!!!!!!! That’s what!!!!!!
Me: Wanna know a secret Damien?
D: Do I REALLY wanna know this?
I.W.: Uh-oh…..*whispers to Damien* say ‘no’….
D: Sure.
I.W.: *slaps hand to Forehead* I warned you….
Me: I love saying this story………*silence* FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FFFFFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!! HOW’S THAT FOR SAYING FUCK TOO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i.w.: *SIGH* are we gonna get Tamashii, or not?
Me: How the fuck *whispers* fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, Should I know?!?!
D: Do you like just saying the word fuck or actually doing it?
Me: I’M GOING TO NOT ANSWER THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i.w.: Don’t make her……….she’ll kick your ass real quick. You’ll be dead before you know it.
Me: …………………
D: …………………
I: …………………
Me: ……………awkward silence……………
D: why is it so fucking quiet?
I.W.: Because you’re an asshole
Me: I’M BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I: THNX FOR THE UPDATE, BUT YOU DON’T HAVE TO YELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
D: Well I’m going now. Talk to y’all some other time….and Helena, don’t forget…… DON’T KILL HIM!!
Me: Fine…
~click~
As we started walking I just realized why I hated him so much….
Flash Back
“Where is Zander?” Tamashii asked mother.
“He is in their.” She answered back. Pointing at his door.
“Come on guys.” Tamashii said.
“Help! Helena! Icewind! Someone help! Marcus! Helena! Icewind! Somebody! Anybody! Help me! Help! Get them away from me!” Zander yelled as they pulled him out of the door.
“No!!! Zander!!” I yelled as I tried to get to him but Tamashii held me back.
“Sorry kid, but he is coming with us.” Tamashii said.
“No! He is staying!” I yelled as I started to move around.
“Let me go! Don’t touch me! Helena! Icewind! Please Helena help!” Zander yelled as he still tried to get away.
“Don’t touch him!” I yelled at guy 2 and guy 3………..
~~~~~~~~Back in reality~~~~~~~~~
“SIS!!!!!!!!” Icewind yelled for the 5th time.
“What do you want!!!!!!!!!!!!!” I yelled back angry at the world. Icewind slightly whimpered….
“Ne-never mind” She said in scared shutter.
“Sis, we trusted him and he killed me……” I said less angry.
“What do you mean?” She asked confused.
“Tamashii, he took Zander…he took the only thing worth living for. He knew it was us. This is a trap. What if Zander is already dead? What will I fucking do? I can’t go on without him. What the fuck do I do?” I said/asked as I hit the ground crying.
“What will I do?” I whispered quietly to myself.
“He makes me so mad!” She yelled as she sat down beside me and wrapped her arms around me.
“Don’t touch me!” I yelled as I pushed her off of me. I jumped up and took off down the street.
‘Zander please be alive. I’m coming.’ I thought as I ran.
Name: Kitty.
Age: 18.
Birthday: January 30th.
Currently: Texas
Education: G.E.D.
Currently Reading: American Psycho
Email: [Link]
Myspace: [Link]
Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing.
Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes.
MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com
AIM: My Bloodydeath13 &
Tehvampirekitty
So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty.
Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below.
I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too.
Have a nice day. Peace.
Kitty
Rules
Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook.
Visit me and I will visit you.
Don't fuck with me.
Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do.
Post
I feel so worthless, like no one cares, or understands me. I feel dead inside. I just want to disappear. I don't wanna exist anymore, but I don't want to die. It is kinda complicated. I guess no one knows this, because I'm smiling on the outside, but dieing on the inside. I know I shouldn't think this way, but I wanna slit my wrist and watch the floor get covered in my blood. I'm so worthless, no one cares, and everyone wants me to die anyway. It would be better if I disappeared. I don't care anymore. I'm dead inside and the darkness has taken over.
Name: Kitty.
Age: 18.
Birthday: January 30th.
Currently: Texas
Education: G.E.D.
Currently Reading: American Psycho
Email: [Link]
Myspace: [Link]
Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing.
Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes.
MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com
AIM: My Bloodydeath13 &
Tehvampirekitty
So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty.
Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below.
I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too.
Have a nice day. Peace.
Kitty
Rules
Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook.
Visit me and I will visit you.
Don't fuck with me.
Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do.
Post
Ok, I read all the comments that y’all posted, and I almost freakin cried. There are a few things I have to say:
1. Thnx for all the people that care about me.
2. I can never hate any of you.
3. Thnx for staying my friend, even though I have way to much shit wrong with me.
4. If you comment, I will never be mean to you, cuz at least you are there for me and tell me the fucking truth.
5. I cuss to much.
6. My friend's brother is a jackass, but I will get to that later.
7. I think y’all give some good advice, but sometimes I wonder why you care about me.
8. I need to get a life.
9. I'm fucking bored out of my mind.
10. I would like to thank all these wonderful people:
Now about my friend's brother. I gave my bestfriend back his gun and told him I didn't need it, and his brother told me I should have shot myself. I yelled why the fuck should I have shot myself. He replied, cuz no one likes you and it would make all of us happy. My friend turn around I punched him in the stomach (that is why he is my bestfriend). I told my friend I could handle this on my own, and I beat the shit out of his brother. The cops even showed up and it took 15 of them to get me away from his brother. I was pissed. So I ended up staying the night in jail till my brother got me out. And this morning he was outside and I went outside to get the newspaper and he took off down the street. I think he is scared of me now. That is why my bestfriend's brother is a fucking jackass. Oh and 1 more thing.
Rabidminpin and Roiben and I won't hate y’all ever. Y’all are like my bestfriends in the world.
Name: Kitty.
Age: 18.
Birthday: January 30th.
Currently: Texas
Education: G.E.D.
Currently Reading: American Psycho
Email: [Link]
Myspace: [Link]
Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing.
Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes.
MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com
AIM: My Bloodydeath13 &
Tehvampirekitty
So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty.
Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below.
I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too.
Have a nice day. Peace.
Kitty
Rules
Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook.
Visit me and I will visit you.
Don't fuck with me.
Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do.
Post
Thank you all that commented on the last post. It really ment a lot. If you didn't read it, then please read it. I'm at my grandmother's house all freakin week and I'm freakin bored. Well I g2g. Bye.
Name: Kitty.
Age: 18.
Birthday: January 30th.
Currently: Texas
Education: G.E.D.
Currently Reading: American Psycho
Email: [Link]
Myspace: [Link]
Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing.
Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes.
MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com
AIM: My Bloodydeath13 &
Tehvampirekitty
So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty.
Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below.
I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too.
Have a nice day. Peace.
Kitty
Rules
Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook.
Visit me and I will visit you.
Don't fuck with me.
Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do.
Post
I have a question. If i handed you a gun and i was standing right in front of you, would you shoot me? I asked that cuz i really want to die right now. My bestfriend left his gun at my house so i could kill myslef if i wanted to, but then it would be painless. I want to die a painful death. So i think now i will go and destroy my arms with my razors. I'm sorry I let all of you down, but life is not short enough when everybody hates you. Here are a few poems.
I'm sorry,
For every lie,
Every heart break,
Every crush,
Everything I have done.
I'm sorry,
I was born,
I met you,
I ruined your life.
But if you life was so perfect,
Then why were you always there.
There is one thing I'm not sorry for,
And that is taking my own life.
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Sitting in a pool of blood,
And wishing to cut in deep.
I keep cutting,
And you keep screaming.
I start smileing,
While I'm Dieing.
I'm a freak,
And you love me.
You yell stop,
but I still cut.
The floor is covered,
and I fall down.
Sitting in a pool of blood,
And finally am free.
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I tried.
I tried to stay alive.
I tried to never give up.
I tried to be happy.
I tried to not let you down.
I tried to follow the rules.
But tonight I lost it.
I Gave up.
I didn't follow the rules.
I was depressed.
I let you down.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry,
I killed myself.
But I would do it again,
I would keep trying,
To end my life.
I'm sorry,
But I don't want to take it back.
I accidentally beat up some kid and almost got arrested.
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Name: Kitty.
Age: 18.
Birthday: January 30th.
Currently: Texas
Education: G.E.D.
Currently Reading: American Psycho
Email: [Link]
Myspace: [Link]
Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing.
Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes.
MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com
AIM: My Bloodydeath13 &
Tehvampirekitty
So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty.
Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below.
I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too.
Have a nice day. Peace.
Kitty
Rules
Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook.
Visit me and I will visit you.
Don't fuck with me.
Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do.
Post
Ok I was at the mall and this kid wouldn’t stop calling me an emo and shit. So I punched him in the stomach and he ran away. So I went back to talking to my friends and the kid came back with his older brother and friends. They started to yell at me for punching him, so I yelled back I barely hit him, but I will beat him up and his brother yelled back no you won’t. So I walked over to the kid and beat the shit out of him and yelled told you I would beat him up. Then later we saw my brother with his girlfriend. My friends dared me to go over and mess with his girlfriend and I did and she slapped me. The bitch slapped me. So I punched her in the face and busted her nose and gave her a black eye. My brother said he was going to kill me and chased me out of the mall. The only problem was he runs faster then me. So I got tackled to the ground and almost got the shit beaten of me, but a cop showed up and stopped him. Now I’m sitting at home with nothing to do and bored out of my mind. This is also how I know I have anger issues.
Name: Kitty.
Age: 18.
Birthday: January 30th.
Currently: Texas
Education: G.E.D.
Currently Reading: American Psycho
Email: [Link]
Myspace: [Link]
Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing.
Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes.
MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com
AIM: My Bloodydeath13 &
Tehvampirekitty
So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty.
Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below.
I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too.
Have a nice day. Peace.
Kitty
Rules
Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook.
Visit me and I will visit you.
Don't fuck with me.
Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do.
Post
I changed my site as you can see. I have also been eating, for those of you who care. I don't really have much to say. I offically have anger issues. Well i g2g I will update again soon. Bye.
Name: Kitty.
Age: 18.
Birthday: January 30th.
Currently: Texas
Education: G.E.D.
Currently Reading: American Psycho
Email: [Link]
Myspace: [Link]
Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing.
Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes.
MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com
AIM: My Bloodydeath13 &
Tehvampirekitty
So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty.
Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below.
I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too.
Have a nice day. Peace.
Kitty
Rules
Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook.
Visit me and I will visit you.
Don't fuck with me.
Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do.
Post
Ok...I stand corrected, about 15 people care. I'm not going to list everyone of them so. Thnx for all of you who care. I promise I'll try to not cut myself............or others.......but I understand it only turns out bad so. I ate like 5 meals yesterday. I was hungry. Anyways, if anyone wants to say something to me just comment. I will post again later. I'm kinda tired. Bye. Plus it is 12:30am bye.
..............................................Only 2 people care.........................
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Name: Kitty.
Age: 18.
Birthday: January 30th.
Currently: Texas
Education: G.E.D.
Currently Reading: American Psycho
Email: [Link]
Myspace: [Link]
Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing.
Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes.
MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com
AIM: My Bloodydeath13 &
Tehvampirekitty
So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty.
Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below.
I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too.
Have a nice day. Peace.
Kitty
Rules
Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook.
Visit me and I will visit you.
Don't fuck with me.
Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do.
Post
I guess not many people truly care about me. Well I guess how I thought actually was true. Thnx for all the people who commented. I guess that means only 2 people care. Wow, I guess if I die the world won't cry. Just 2 people. So all you people who care but didn't stop by, you can think these 2 people for making me not kill myself; DarkWolves Faith and darkwolfgirl. Well I have to go and eat something. When you don't eat for 5 days straight you tend to get hungry, but I'm being forced so. Bye. Btw: I think icewanderer may care, but I don't know.....
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my bad