Monday, September 3, 2007

	411 Name: Kitty. Age: 18. Birthday: January 30th. Currently: Texas Education: G.E.D. Currently Reading: American Psycho Email: [Link] Myspace: [Link] Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing. Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes. MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com AIM: My Bloodydeath13 & Tehvampirekitty Links Backroom Guestbook Add Message Portfolio King Char-Char [Charles] Randy Music Currently Playing: Ein Lied By: Rammstein Credits Aethereality.net Index Stock.com Hybrid-Genesis.com			Intro February 16th 2008 So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty. Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below. I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too. Have a nice day. Peace. Kitty Rules Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook. Visit me and I will visit you. Don't fuck with me. Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do. Post Day: Who gives a shit Time: I don't give a shit Mood: Dying as we speak [literally] Listening to: A fucking song Ok so this will contain two post in one. The one I typed earlier and then the one I am typing now. EARLIER!!!! Yesterday while I was cleaning my room I went to pick something up and I saw something from the corner of my eye. When I looked up to see what it was I saw my mother. [My mother is dead in case you didn't know.] I saw her hanging in the corner covered in blood all over again. I am getting really sick of seeing this. This is why I don't sleep that much anymore. Its scaring how my hallucinations seem so really. I almost had a fucking heart attack from that. The blood on the floor. Dripping from him cut flesh. Its scary to see that. I'm getting to paranoid. I feel like something is watching me. I know I'm crazy. I don't need you to tell me I am.I just don't feel safe. I feel like something is wrong here. POST FOR NOW!!!!!! Ok so yeah if you read above, you know some of how my mom died. I'm not giving you full details, because you can't handle them. So yeah. Stevo is dropping me as a friend. It hurts too. I didn't want to lose him too. I have lost so many. I know I should try to hang in there for Randy, but I just don't think I can do it anymore. I just need to talk to him, but I can't. I'm getting tired of crying. Of longing to hear him talk to me. Of wanting to hear him say I love you. I miss him and its hurting. I need him more than anything. I haven't been eating that much. I had a big breakfast today and that is all. Yesterday I didn't really have anything. I sleep all day or not at all. I cry all day. I fake happiness all day. I think about just ending it and saying sorry. Everyone is leaving me. No one is caring anymore. And I don't want to lose Randy too. My fear is getting so bad about that. SO is my Suicidalness and Homicidalness. I'm wanting to kill people and kill myself. I don't know what to do anymore. I miss him so much. The pain is getting worse and worse. I don't know if I can take this anymore. I really don't know if I can. I could and would never leave him. I love him too much to do that. I just don't want him to leave me. I'm gunna go. I'm getting a headache from crying so much. Peace. Kitty Designed by Aethereality.net

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