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Friday, December 16, 2005

   I Think you Should Know
Where i lurk : Darkness Thinking alone
My Mood : . . . .

Well First off I was thinking about this a lot and i mean a lot. I know from my last two posts people wonder why Iv been sad. Well I will tell you. Please stop reading if you don't want to be sad.

This is something iv keep to my self for years. Not even Soi Fong or my parents knows this. Only Sara (Rukia_Azai) knew. You all know i am not young but i love anime. Thats why i am here. Im off the subject... Sorry. Four years ago i was in a relationship with a girl. We dated for a year and she got pregnat. I was happy very happy. Three months after i proprosed to her she accepted. Even more to celebrate. Five and a half months later we were told the baby was going to be a girl. Even more excited i got. Early in the six month there was a complication. I dont know what happned but my fiance lost our child. Saddness struck me and her. She cried cause she always wanted to have a baby and because i wanted to be in a family. Since she was unfit to leave the hospital I decided to get some things from the house for her. While i was away my fiance killed herself in the hospital. When i returned i was told what happened. I was not only shocked but frozen with fear and regret. I sat down by myself and cried. As i walked home alone i passed a park where i first meet my fiance. As i sat down on a swing i pulled out my kunai.(yes i have a real one) I cut my wrist just not to bear the pain of loseing the ones i love. By pure luck a police saw me in there already cut not even concous. He called an amblunce. I found out all this by reading the report he wrote. When i woke up i was surprized to be in the same hospital alive. They called Sara since they didnt know my family. She was beside me and helped me with what happened. Im pretty much ok most of the time. Except this month December 20 my daughter would have been Three years old. On that day i visit both graves and spend the whole day there alone. I know pain, sorrow and loneliness I have the scars to prove it. I am really sorry if i made you sad by reading this. Laterz....


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