lately it has been not going good.
i'm still heartbroken, rumors, people hitting me, people yelling at me, me smoking but quiting, & etc.
wish i could go away from here.
sorry everyone but my internet is disconnected & sometimes i can get on at other peoples houses. last sunday my bf dumped me & i have been crying everyday. i'm heart broken & it hurts alot.
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Friday, October 19, 2007
hi!
sorry it took me so long! u see my mom disconnect our internet so i can't get back on that much unless i'm at my friend's house! sunday my bf boke up with me & on tuesday i find out that he slept with he's ex! so my week as been really bad!
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Monday, September 24, 2007
Maze
Life is like a maze. A
maze of pain and grief that
we can't contral which
way we go without help.
But whats the point of getting
help if you're just
going to turn it down?
its been nuts!
i ended up saying something
stupid 2 my bf, my friends r
going losing their mind, a
foster sis came back, she is
going 2 have a baby 2, babysitting,
shcool, ex spreading more rumors,
etc. its just going wacks here!
i wish something would happen
2 get all this staright!
well i wish u all have had
a good day!
Day by night,
night by day.
A curse to thee
who dwell in the dark.
Sun is weakness to
thee but dark is
power. No one
knows, no one sees.
Until thee feeds on
thier prey. A curse to
thee who dwells in
the night.
Why are we protected
from the world? So
many things we don't
know but many that we
were never to learn about
the things far out
of our reaches. Like
sand in our hands,
falling until there is very
little left. So, why
are we protected from
the world?
this is 1 of my poems...
i would like some opions please!
i ended up breaking up with my bf on
wednesday! then on thursday he avoid
me & that girl is really get on my last
nerve! 3 of my friends had 2 hold me
back from hiting her & another told me
2 hit her binder 2 get the angery out!
i hit 3 times so hard that my hand was
blood red! my mom is really put alot of
weight on me! she telling my 2 this &
that when she dosen't even know that i
cry myself 2 sleep, that i cut myself,
that i carry the weight of the world on
my shoulders, & more! but she dosen't even
care because when i told her that my x
tried 2 rap me, she just told me 2 avoid
him thats it! i can't take this, i want 2
die so bad! thats why this might be the
last time i write or talk 2 any of u
again because i going 2 kill myself 2
night if i can! so sorry! so later if
there is one!
today i'm really mad because this girl
has been going on about the same subject
that kills something and it has been
making me mad! then i took a knife and
cuted the inside of my hand! my x wouldn't
leave me alone and my bf and some wouldn't
give me a paper clip! so they held me
down, grabed me, and more! well my bf
ended up touching something that should
not be touched! then my old told me to
stop cutting myself! i'm so over this
life, i want to die!
hi!
i went 2 the movies today with my bf! he is really nice & i know that he won't hurt me because he kinda shy 2 tell the truth! people say that he is a idiot but once u get past that, he is really kind hearted! i luv him! well we went 2 see rush hour 3 & it was really funny! well hope u all have happy days
