Sunday, March 19, 2006

   Bonjour... cava solitaire, et toi?
Hello everyone. How are you today? ^__^

I'm doing ok I think. I've been so very lonely lately. I moved from my hometown four years ago to my current residence. And my life has been a living hell since then.

I barely managed to make it through junior high. And it wasn't because of my grades. The people here are just so mean. Even the teachers turned their noses up at me. I'm not a wealthy person.. to say the least. But does that make me any less worthy of a friend? I used to be able to smile and say.. 'Of course not!'

But I began questioning that after a while of living here. And after three horrible years of being judged for my looks, and the size of my wallet, I couldn't do it anymore. With one fake friend and a whole school of hypocrites behind me, I moved on to High School with hopes that some of the kids had matured... and perhaps the teachers would be a little kinder.

Unfortunately my hopes were dashed away almost imediately. My first day I was threatened with detention for being late to class, and yelled at quite a bit.

*sigh*

And with no friends there to help me... and a whole class laughing at me, I almost broke down. It was so scary, and I didn't know what to do.

The only friend I have not on the internet...lives about and hour away from me, and she is constantly busy. So I usually end up being alone anyway. And I miss her so much all the time.. we grew up together and we were inseperable. Until my father had to move here because of his job.

Even after four years I'm still being shunned by everyone, and it hurts so much. No one gives me a chance at all... and I get so lonely.

A little while ago Neko-chan called me on the phone, and she and Aiai-chan and Ra-chan were spending the night together. They sounded like they were having so much fun together. My heart sunk quite a bit. Megan-chan and I were all each other had back then, so we never had friends to stay with. We've never had anything like that at all.

It's just been so long since I've had fun in real life. There were a few short times when I got to see Megan-chan, and that keeps me going, along with my friends here on MyOtaku. They'll probably never realize just how much they help me. Without you guys, I would have broken down a long time ago, thank you so much. I salute you all for dealing with me so long. ^_-


Talking to Neko-chan and the others made me realize exactly how lonely I really am. And how badly I really need a friend. T^T

Anyway I'm really sorry to make such a long post, but I really needed to tell someone before I went boom! 0____o

But I'll try to keep it to myself next time, I'm really sorry for bothering you all.

*bows*

And thank you all for giving me a chance, I really do appreciate it, more than you'll ever know.

P.S. Song has nothing to do with my mood... I just like this song and found a video. @__@

Crazy Town Lyrics

Crazy Town Music Video Codes

Music Video Codes by VideoCure.com

~Forever and Always~
~~~~TwilightFox~~~~