Thursday, June 15, 2006

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Mood: Grieving
Listening to: Akira Yamaoka - You're Not Here
Reading: Nothing..
Watching: My life wash away with the high tide...

*sigh*

The phone rang at about.... six o' clock in the afternoon.. I didn't think much of it.. it was just the phone. My mother went out on the porch, and told me to watch after my sister...

Again... I didn't think much of it.

Until she came back in... and told me that the person who called was my grandmother.

My cousin had drowned in a pool about a mile away from our home. And it had just happened not an hour ago.

She was at a camp for the gifted at a local collage... and apparently no one was watching... and she had a seizure while swimming...

And somehow nobody reached her in time...

But they claim she was still breathing on the way to the hospital.

*shrug*

She was one of the 'gifted' kids in the family. The one that gets showered in gifts, and everyone adores.

So naturally... everyone in the family is grieving... even those who didn't know her... which is understandable but...

Hardly anyone in my family would grieve for me. I know of at least six.... that's about it. Which is more than some people can say... so I know that I am lucky for what I have.

Ugh... things like this just make you think... ya know?

I haven't even shed one tear for her...

This one grew up with her, and we were very good friends for so long...

And then our parents got in a fight, and they seperated us... for almost five years now. So I hadn't seen her in a long time.

*sigh*

I'm a bit shaky, but otherwise fine. I suppose it hasn't sunk in yet...

Then again.. for the next ten years everyone around me will talk about how 'wonderful' and 'brilliant' and 'gorgeous' and 'genius' she was.... just like they talked when she was alive.

So it won't be any different for me.

Ugh...

And this one cannot say half of the things she wishes to say, because she will affend some of her friends. So as usual... she will suck it up and move on to break down at a more convenient time.

Er... I am just so tired of being alone. I am ready to do anything to get someone to pay attention to me.

But enough ranting... I suppose I should go now. But first.... here's a mini comic me and Neko-chan made... when I was happier.

I drew most of the chibis... except Kurama. I think Neko-chan managed to draw like.. three or four frames, I was goin too fast for her. O_o

We were doodling on msn. It's like the yahoo art pad... hard to draw on.. so excuse the messiness... and it was a quick thing... we were playing it by ear.. no script. -_-;
AND we were using the mouse. O_o



Uh... here's what they are saying in case you can't read our messy handwriting..

Me: "Anybody in there?"

Neko-chan: "No... <.< >.>"

Me: "Oh..."

Neko-chan: "Nope..."

Me: *looks up and sees her tail* *yanks*

Neko-chan: *SPLAT*

Me: "..."

Neko-chan: "..."

Me: *blink*

Neko-chan: "..."

Me: "Hi!"

Neko-chan: "..."

Me: *smile*

Neko-chan: "..."

Me: *anger vein* "Wake..up!"

Neko-chan: "..."

Me: *pulls out an uber huge deadly looking malet out of nowhere* "WAKE UP!!!!"

Neko-chan: "..."

Me: *WHAM*

Neko-chan: X___X

Me: *glares at the pancake*

Kurama: "Hiei won't be happy..."

Me: *sweet smile* "Who?"

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O_o.... Ok I'm done now...

Ja!

~Ki-chan~