Saturday, September 3, 2005

   I am so pissed off right now.
I am so sick and tired of hearing about this Hurricane Katrina bullshit right now. I know that that was mean and all but damn it to hell. The damn reporters need to stop fucking filming everything they see and put down the cameras and microphones and actually help these people. They're there and they aren't doing a damn thing about it. That makes me so fucking mad!!!!!! >_< I feel like beating the living shit out of each and every one of them. These people are dieing and all the reports care about is getting a better rating than the other news broadcasters... It makes me so mad!

*sigh* Sorry but I had to get that off my chest. I mean those people need help and all the reports care about is their ratings. It's just not right.

On other news, how have you been? I, myself have been doing just fine. It's been a little hectic but it finally calmed down around here which is very good. We didn't go to King's Dominion because of gas prices. It would cost $100+ to fill my mother's Tahoe. X_X That’s a lot of money; money that we don't have.

Anyways, I got behind the wheel of my dad's Grand Pre for the first time today. I have NEVER driven a car today. I didn't do too badly at all the first time or the second. I still have a problem with my braking and turning but other than that I did very well for my first time. ^_^ I'm proud of myself. My older brother won't even get behind the wheel. He's too scared. lol He's 17 and can't drive yet. lol Sorry to those who can't, I'm not making fun of you I swear it.

Anyways, that's all I have to say for now.















Song of the Day: Angels in Waiting by Tammy Cochran.
Lyrics-
We camped out on the livin' room floor
In our old sleepin' bags
By a make believe fire
In our tent made of covers
We'd talk for hours
My two brothers and me
Keepin' the faith
Racin' with destiny

Chorus

They were angels in waiting
Waiting for wings to fly from this world
Away from their pain
Treasuring time
'Til time came to leave
Leaving behind
Sweet memories
Angels in waiting
Angels in waiting for wings

2nd Verse

They always knew
They'd never grow old
Sometimes the body is weaker than the soul
In their darkest hour
I made a promise
That I will always keep
I'll give them life
I'll let them live through me

They were angels in waiting
Waiting for wings to fly from this world
Away from their pain
Treasuring time
'Til time came to leave
Leaving behind
Sweet memories
Angels in waiting
Angels in waiting for wings

They were angels in waiting
Waiting for wings to fly from this world
Away from their pain
Treasuring time
'Til time came to leave
Leaving behind
Sweet memories
Angels in waiting
Angels in waiting for wings

They Were Angels in waiting
Angels in Waiting for, me

Random Question of the Day: What are your thoughts or opinions on the deal with Hurricane Katrina?

Quote of the Day: “Life is like a box of chocolates you never know you’re going to get.”

:Pic of the day is dedicated to HieiFever01.




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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

   Hey everyone!
How are you all doing? Good I hope to hear but if not then I'm sorry. I trust that school has gone well for those who are back. It's been a good week for me.

I am now offically a 10th grader which is really awesome. I love it so much. I found my classes easily but it is kinda hard to get lost when there are gaint A's, B's, C's, and D's everywhere. lol I love my classes and see so many fimilar faces from last year. I semi love the school but we do have a small problem. Our school has shared counties in it. That means Harpers Ferry, Shepardstown, and Charlestown all share the same High School. Jefferson High School has an overcrowding by 2,100 when our school is meant for something around 900 or something like that.*sigh*

Anyways, enough rambling for now. I want to give you some pics and maybe a poem or two.









I'm the used Tragety
Look into my eyes
what do you see
a mistreated person
and her lifesize reality

Look at my lips
so delicate but amazed
like seeing a ghost
the trail is mislaid

Look at my hands
trembling with every breath
a horrid person
and her frequent threat

Look at my body
thriving with pain
the measurement of society
tempted to remain sain

Look at my heart
the misused part
breaking from you
is all I can do

Look at my soul
and breakaway free
because here in my life
I'm the used tragety -by Mistressxsork

Song of the Day: Take Me by Papa Roach.
Lyrics-
Take me and let me in,
dont break me and shut me out.
so take me and let me in
dont break me and shut me out.

I lit my pain on fire and I watched it all burn down.
now I'm dancing in the ashes and there is no one else around.
'cause I wanna be part of something,
this is just a story of a broken soul.

and as days go by my heart grows cold.
I can't seem to let this all pass me by.
so take me and let me in
don't break me and shut me out.

I'm burning in the heavens.
and i'm drowning in a hell.
my soul was in a coma and none of my friends can tell, that
I'm reaching out and getting nothing, this is just a story of a broken soul

and as days go by my heart grows cold.
I can't seem to let this all pass me by.
so take me and let me in
don't break me and shut me out.
so take me and let me in
don't break me and shut me out.
don't shut me out.

does anyone around me feel the same?
put your fist up and vent your pain! (4x)

and as days go by my heart grows cold.
I can't seem to let this all pass me by.
so take me and let me in
don't break me and shut me out.
so take me and let me in
don't break me and shut me out.

and as days go by my heart grows cold.
I can't seem to let this all pass me by.

take me dont break me

Random Question of the Day: What grade are you in?

Quote of the Day: "I hate you...." (this is my quote I say all the time...)

:Pic of the Day is dedicated to Gernev.
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Sunday, August 28, 2005

   Back!!!!!!!!
Hello everyone. How the hell are you. I'm doing excellent. For some reason or another. ^_^ Anyways, I hope you all had a good weekend. I have and I am now ready for the new year of school. I'll get to that later though.

Anyways, the anniversary party was a blast because I got to see my cousin who moved to NC. It was so good to see her. She's my look alike because I look just like her when she was little. Her boyfriend Bryan was nice to see as well. Kalop their son thought I was my cousin Virginia (his mother) and so I took him from Bryan until he was hungry... lol I gave him back when he started to cry. That's so just like me... lol Anyways, my aunt and uncle were so surprised I thought my Autnt went into shock.... -_- lol Anyways, the party was a blast. There were 5 small children there and each of them adorable... lol There was my cousins John-John, Cable, Kalop, and Jada; then there was a small boy named Bryan there as well. He was funny... and weird all in one.

Today though was busy as hell as well because we went shopping for school. I got some new outfits which are very nice indeed. I love them and they are really funky looking.... Shorta... But other than that I really don't care what people think of me. My friends on the other hand will be completely surprise because they all know I despise skirts but I now have four of them. lol I can't wait to see their faces.

Anyway, back to the school issue. I am starting the 10th grade (high school, of course) tomorrow. It will be fun. I feel like a real red-neck because I have a class in one of the ports (trailors) and trust me, our ports are exactly a good thing. They're old and worn out and get extremely cold or hot depending on the weather.... That brings me to my issue. Since I am starting school tomorrow I don't know how often I wil be able to update the site. So sorry if I don't update or get to your site.

Anyways, I hope you all have a great day and my best wishes to you. I'm in a good mood. Can't you tell? lol Anyways, to those who start school tomorrow, good luck. You my blessings, bye now.


You are best represented by the Scythe. Long
considered the weapon of choice by the grim
reaper and a number of other so-called 'evil'
entities, your weapon reflects your negative
views of many of life's aspects. Most people
would say that you are way out there and have a
twisted approach to living, but what do they
know?


What sort of Weapon best Represents your Personality? (anime pics!)
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Song of the Day: Before the Dawn
by Evanescence.
Lyrics-
Meet me after dark again and I'll hold you
I want nothing more than to see you there
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

If only night can hold you where I can see you, my love
Then let me never ever wake again
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

Somehow I know that we cant wake again from this dream
It's not real, but it's ours

Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

Random Question of the Day: Are you male for female?

Quote of the Day: "He who labors diligently need never despair; for all things are accomplished by diligence and labor. -Menander (342 BC - 292 BC)

:Pic of the Day is dedicated to Joshman.


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Friday, August 26, 2005

   It's late and I know it.
Sorry for the late post but I have been tired and lazy.... lol Soudns just like me.

Nothing special has happened lately. I did find a really great story that i have begone to read on AFF.Net but it is taking me a while to read it. Have been for two days now. lol Long story.

ATTENTION ALERT!!!!!!!!

I'm leaving really early tomorrow as you all may know(I hope) and will not be back until late. We have to attend to a surprise anninversary party for my aunt and uncle. It will be fun but we better be back before 12 am because of the Inuyasha movie that is comming on at that hour.... We better be back. lol

END OF ALERT!!!!!!!

Other than that there isn't anything to so so later.

An angel for you all....


The Simpsons staring in The Matrix!


Crystal Wings....


Awwww.... Look at Kyo. lol


Space angel... Person... thingy..


Death demon...


Gothic maid....


My Angel....


Soar Away.


Song of the Day: Youth Of The Nation by P.O.D.
Lyrics-
Last day of the rest of my life
I wish I would have known
Cause I didn't kiss my mama good-bye
I didnt tell her how that I loved her
How much I care
Or thank my pops for all the talks and all the wisdom he shared
Unaware I just did what I always do
Everyday the same routine before I skate off to school
But who knew this day wasnt like the rest
Instead of taking the test I took two to the chest
Call me blind but I didnt see it coming
Everybody was running but i couldnt hear nothing
Except Gunblast
It happened so fast
I didn't really know this kid though i sit by him in class
Maybe this kid was reaching out for love
Or maybe for a moment he forgot who he was
Or maybe this kid just wanted to be hugged
Whatever it was I know its because

We are we are, the youth of the nation
We are we are, youth of the nation
We are we are, the youth of the nation
We are we are, youth of the nation

Little Susie she was only twelve
She was given the world with every chance to excell
Hang with the boys and hear the stories they tell
She might act kind of proud with no respect for herself
She finds love in all the wrong places
The same situations just different faces
Changed up her pace since her daddy left her
Too bad he never told she deserved much better

Johnny boy always played the fool
He broke all the rules so you would think he was cool
He was never really one of the guys no matter how hard he tried
Often thought of suicide
Its kind of hard when you aint got no friends
He put his life to an end they might remember him then
You cross the line and theres no turning back
Told the world how he felt with the sound of a gat

We are we are, the youth of the nation
We are we are, youth of the nation
We are we are, the youth of the nation
We are we are, youth of the nation

Whos to blame for the life that tradgedies claim
No matter what you say it dont take away the pain that I feel inside
Im tired of all the lies
Don't nobody know why
Its the blind leading the blind

Guess thats the way the story goes
Will it never makes sense
Somebodys gotta know

Theres gotta be more to life then this
Theres gotta be more to everything I thought exists

We are we are, the youth of the nation
We are we are, youth of the nation

We are we are (we are we are), the youth of the nation
We are we are (we are we are), youth of the nation
We are we are, (we are we are) the youth of the nation
We are we are, (we are we are) youth of the nation
We are we are, (we are we are) the youth of the nation
We are we are, (we are we are)youth of the nation (youth of the nation)
We are, youth of the nation (x3)
We are

Random Question of the Day: How old are you?

Quote of the Day: "There are people who think that everything one does with a serious face is sensible. -Georg Christoph Lichtenberg (1742 - 1799)

:Pic of the Day is dedicated to Eris Dark.




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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

   Sup!
Hey everyone. How are you. Sorry I didn't get to anyone's site yesturday or update for that matter. Didn't mean to but I got caught up in what I was doing. I went outside since it was such a nice day and then I went swimming and then my neighbors came over and my parents were talking to them while I listened in on the conversation.... That's a lot of ands.... lol I promise to get to your sites today!

Also, I want to say sorry to ShadowsOfAngels personily because of my yaoi pics. If I offened you then I'm sorry. I'll try and keep my yaoi pics to a limit. ^-^ I'm just yoai and yuri friendly... I'm sorry once more.

Other than that, nothing has happened today. Well, nothing special that is. I do know that I will busy on the next three weekends. This weekend we have to go to an Anniversary surprise party for my Anut Pauline and Uncle Kevin. Next weekend we are leaving for Kings Dominion and the weekend after that is the Mountain Party. We are going to be very, very busy... *sigh* I also know that we are going to have a end of the year pool party as well. Don't know when yet because we have things to do but still....

Anyways, nothing much left to say so later.

Song of the Day: Clowns (Can You See Me Now?) by T.A.T.U.
Lyrics-
Can you see me now?
Can you see me now?
Can you see?

All this weeping in the air
Who can tell where it will fall?
Through floating forests in the air
'Cross the rolling open sea

Blow a kiss, I run through air
Leave the past, find nowhere
Floating forests in the air
Clowns all around you

Clowns that only let you know
Where you let your senses go
Clowns all around you
It's a cross I need to bear

All this black and cruel despair
This is an emergency
Don't you hide your eyes from me
Open them and see me now

Can you see me now?
Can you see?

Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see me now?

Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see me now?

Can you see me now?
Floating forests in the air
Clowns all around you
Can you see
Can you see
Can you see
Can you see me now?

See me here in the air
Not holding on to anywhere
But holding on so beware
I have secrets I won't share

See me here pushing you
If I then deny I do
Contemplate or wish away
If I ask you not to stay

Clowns that only let you know
Where you let your senses go
Clowns all around you
It's a cross I need to bear

All this black and cruel despair
This is an emergency
Don't you hide your eyes from me
Open them and see me now

Can you see me now?
Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see?

Can you see?
Can you see me now?

Clowns all around you
Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see me now?
Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see?

Can you see me now?

Random Question of the Day: Did you know..that the largest fish in the world is the mantaray?

Quote of the Day: "You can't choose the ways in which you'll be tested." -Robert J. Sawyer (1960 - )

:Pic of the Day is dedicated to Dooms Wrath.

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Monday, August 22, 2005

   Hi!
Well, there isn't anything to say about today. I'm updating and then will get to your sites hopefully. Afterwards I think I'll go swimming but other than that there isn't any new to talk about. Sorry if the post is boring. -__-

Here are some things for ya.

Desires of the Dead
Hand prints burn upon cave walls
hidden messages around castle halls
sounds of movement haunts all dreams
It is the dead, or so it seems

era's of secrets are renewed
a new cloud drifts over morning dews
boundless to which way it spreads
as long as the desires are read

long forgotten promises
never to be missed
the dead reclaims their glory
to rewrite their own story

To fulfill what the souls has wished
or to remain blind and later perish
To pass on letter of deals
for the promises you must seal

Only the shadows know the power
that stays inside the dying hour
For us to know is forbidden
To us we do what has been bidden -Noni R. Wang

Sexy Kakushi


Spider-Man and Vemon


Spiderman are becoming to Vemon


Marik


Future Raven


Night of Fire


WARNING: YAOI ALERT!!!







END OF YAOI ALERT!!!!!

Song of the Day: Feel Good Inc. by Gorillaz.
Lyrics-
Hahahahahahaha!

Feel good,sh-shake it, shake it(X8)

City's breaking down on a camel's back,
They just have to go 'cause they don't know wack,
So all you fill the streets it's appealing to see,
You wont get undercounted, 'cos damn ass free,
You've got a new horizon its ephemeral style,
A melancholy town where we never smile,
And all I wanna hear is the message beep,
My dreams, they've got to kissin, because I dont get sleep, no..

[Chorus]Windmill, Windmill for the land,
Turn forever hand in hand,
Take it all in on your stride,
It is ticking, falling down,
Love forever love is free,
Let's turn forever you and me,
Windmill, windmill for the land,
Is everybody in?

Laughing gas these hazmats, fast cats,
Lining them up-a like ass cracks,
Lay these ponies at the track,
Its my chocolate attack,
Shoot, I'm stepping in hotter this year,
Care bear reppin' it's harder this year,
Watch me as I gravitate
Hahahahahahaa.
Yo, we going to go ghost town,
This motown,
With yo sound, you in the blink,
You're in the place,
Going to bite the dust,
Cant fight with us,
With yo sound,
You kill the INC,
So dont stop, get it, get it,
Until you're cheddar header,
And watch the way I navigate,
Hahahahahhahahah!

[Chorus]

Don’t stop, get it, get it,
We are your captains in it,
(Feel good) Steady,
Watch me navigate,
Ahahahahahhaa,
(Feel good)X2

Sh-Shake it, shake it,
Feel good.(X4)

Ahahahahahahahahaha......

Random Question of the Day: If vegetarians eat vegetables, what do humanitarians eat? (Thanks Lordsesshoumaru!)

Quote of the Day: "Nurture your mind with great thoughts; to believe in the heroic makes heroes." -Benjamin Disraeli (1804 - 1881)

:Pic of the Day is dedicated to Forbidden Angel.



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Sunday, August 21, 2005

   Nothing Special....
Nothing happened today that was interesting... Back to the good old life. lol

Anyways, I found out that on the Labor Day weekend, my family is going to Kings Dominion. ^_^ Woohoo! I would take all of you but I can't... I sorry. My uncle, aunt, and cousin might come with us as well. That will be sweet. If my aunt and uncle can't make it then we are going to take my cousin Molly no matter what. I hope she has fun with us.

After that my family like to have blow out parties. So the Spences( my Uncle Kevin's family) likes to throw a Mountain Party every year. It's so much fun. The live way out there and are at the base of the montain so there are bears around. Alot of the family goes to the party and we all have a great time. We camp out in tents and stay up really, really late. ^_^ Roast marshmellows and hot dogs in a huge bond fire.... The kids also watch all of the adults act stupid because they're drunk. I mean it! By night fall all of the adults are drunk. It's so funny. I wanna bye a video camra so I can get it all on film. lol That would be cool.

Anyways, that's pretty much it for now. I'll see ya latter.

Song of the Day: Dear Diary by Pink.
Lyrics-
Dear, Dear Diary
I wanna tell my secrets
‘Cause you’re the only one
That I know willl keep them
Dear, Dear Diary
I wanna tell my secrets
I know you’ll keep them
This is what I’ve done

I’ve been a bad, bad girl
For so long
I don’t know how to change,
What went wrong
Daddy’s little girl
When he went away
What did it teach me? That love leaves, yeah yeah

Dear, Dear Diary
I wanna tell my secrets
‘Cause you’re the only one
That I know will keep them, yeah
Dear, Dear Diary
I wanna tell my secrets
I know you’ll keep them
So This is what I’ve done

I’ve been down every road you could go
I’ve made some bad choices, as you know
Seems I’ve got this whole world cradled in my hands
But it’s just like me not to understand, yeah

Dear, Dear Diary
I wanna tell my secrets
‘Cause you’re the only one
That I know willl keep them
Dear, Dear Diary
I wanna tell my secrets
I’ve been a bad, bad girl

I’ve learned my lessons, yeh
I turned myself around
I’ve got a guardian angel tattooed on my shoulder
She’s been watching over me.

Dear, Dear Diary
I wanna tell my secrets
‘Cause you’re the only one
That I know will keep them
Dear, Dear Diary
I wanna tell my secrets
'Cause your the only one
that I know you’ll keep them
This is what I’ve done

Dear, Dear Diary
I wanna tell my secrets
‘Cause you’re the only one
That I know will keep them
Dear, Dear Diary
I wanna tell my secrets
I’ve been a bad, bad girl

I've been a bad, bad girl

Random Question of the Day: Can you give me some random questions?

Quote of the Day: "The thing I hate about an argument is that it always interrupts a discussion." -G. K. Chesterton (1874 - 1936)

:Pic of the Day is dedicated to Disasterpiece.


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Saturday, August 20, 2005

   I'm back!!!!!!
Yes, you heard it right my friends. I am back and badder than ever.... Well, not really but who cares. lol I hope you all had a good week and I missed all of you. I had a really great time, although my father and I didn't get to know each other better.... Oh well.

Here's what we did:

Sunday: We made the trip down to NC. When we got there, we went straight to eat. We ate at some bar which had some pretty good food. Then we went back to the hotel and watched TV before going to bed... Not very eventful but fun.

Monday: My dad said good-bye and went to class while I went back to sleep. He came back at 12 and woke me up. We went out and did a little shopping to put food in the suite. After that we went back to the suite and watched some more TV. Dad left and went back to class at 1 something. I watched TV until 3 something. I pulled out my portalable(sp?) player and listen to some music while reading my Rebound manga. When he got back, we went out to eat somewhere and then went bowling... Pretty cool.

Tuesday: Once again dad left and came back at 12 and woke me up. We watched TV and then he once again left. We he got back we went out once more and afterwards went to shoot pool. I kicked his ass big time. lol

Wensday: Same events accord in the morning. We went out to eat. Went to Hooters... Yum!!!! lol My dad couldn't handle it. He said he woke up in at 3 in the morning with a real bad stomcah ache. lol Poor guy. After that we went to see the movie Skeleton Key. I must say awesome movie. Nothing like what I was expecting but nontheless very interesting. lol

Thursday: We went to eat at a Japanese place called Fujiyama. We sat at the grill but it was just my father and I there. Fujiyama is never busy... Anyways, the chef was amazing. His talent at such a young age is really cool. At his jokes were really funny. ^_^ I had a great time. After that, we went to shoot more pool then went back to the suite and watched The Pacisfer. That movie is outstanding. I love it!

Friday: We made the 5 hour and 45 minute ride back home. I would have updated yesturday but I was so tired. I went to bed at 7 yesturday.....

Today we went to a wedding that we really didn't want to go to. It was very beautfil and the party afterwards was fun. Didn't get until a while ago since it ended at 11. I had fun but man am I tired. lol

Anyways, that's all for today. Here are some pics for ya.









Song of the Day: Family Portrait by Pink.
Lyrics-
Uh, uh, some deep shit, uh, uh

Momma please stop cryin, I can't stand the sound
Your pain is painful and its tearin' me down
I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed
I told dad you didn't mean those nasty things you
said

You fight about money, bout me and my brother
And this I come home to, this is my shelter
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you'll see
I don't want love to destroy me like it has done
my family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave

Daddy please stop yellin, I can't stand the sound

Make mama stop cryin, cause I need you around
My mama she loves you, no matter what she says
its true
I know that she hurts you, but remember I love
you, too

I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away
Don't wanna go back to that place, but don't have
no choice, no way
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, well I've seen
I don't want love to destroy me like it did my
family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave

In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, let's act like it comes
naturally
I don't wanna have to split the holidays
I don't want two addresses
I don't want a step-brother anyways
And I don't want my mom to have to change her
last name

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do
anything)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
Let's play pretend act and like it comes so
naturally
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)

Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Turn around please
Remember that the night you left you took my
shining star?
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Don't leave us here alone

Mom will be nicer
I'll be so much better, I'll tell my brother
Oh, I won't spill the milk at dinner
I'll be so much better, I'll do everything right
I'll be your little girl forever
I'll go to sleep at night

Random Question of the Day: Did you miss me?

Quote of the Day: "An intellectual snob is someone who can listen to the William Tell Overture and not think of The Lone Ranger." -Dan Rather (1931 - )

:Pic of the Day!

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Saturday, August 13, 2005

   Parents are comming home!!!!!!!
Yep, my parents should be here in an hour or so. I'm glad to have them back here. It means my Uncle doesn't cook anymore! Woot! FYI He sucks at cooking. lol Most men do... No offense.

Anyways, A VERY, VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGE!!!!!!!!

I'm leaving tomorrow morning and won't be back until next Saturday. I'm going with my dad to North Carolina for the week. We're going to do that whole Father/Daughter bonding thing. I really don't mind the attempt but it will be hard and stressful, I know that.

See, when I was born my dad had to go back to Korea and was gone for quit awhile. When he came home though, I never knew who he was. From then on, he really has made an attempt to get to know me. So, I really think this will help us. Maybe....

END OF IMPORTANT MESSAGE!!!!!!!!!!

Now then... So you all know, I am in an excellant mood. My depression long since forgotten. *pats self on back* ^_^

Now then a poem for you... Enjoy!

Broken Wings
Help me mend my broken wings,
Help me fix this life,
Lord, help me fly,
And return to the sky,
Before my soul burns out and dies.

I'm incomplete,
And lost in denial,
I was testing myself,
This was only a trial.
I soared and i fell,
Now i'm broken down,
I can't conceal this open frown.

After failing so harshly,
I've lost that one power,
Time goes much slower,
Minutes pass more like hours.

I'm weak,
And unearthly,
I'm yearning to mend,
To fly and be free,
I'm calling out for help.
I don't know what i should do,
So i'm turning to you.

Won't somebody help me,
I can't get through this alone,
My wings are both broken,
They need to be sewn.
My heartbeat has suffered,
It can barely function anymore,
I need to get through this,
But i can't grasp the door.

My heartbeats are empty,
Hollow and cold,
Lonely and lost,
Nothing to behold.

Losing reality,
Lying here on the floor,
Nobody to be there,
I don't understand anymore.
I'm so surrounded,
And deathlyy afraid,
Yet nobody's here,
To watch this dramatic charade.

Suffacated by untruths,
Down here on earth,
I need my wings,
To escape, fly and soar.
I miss all the freeness,
And my soul being alive,
Without my wings,
I cannot survive. -ButterflyStar

I hope you like it. I know I do... That reminds me, I have to start writing poems again. lol I'm lazy and keep putting it off until the next day.

Some pics for you.

Heaven's Keeper.


Raesha..... That's what they called it.


Jungle Angel


Deity


Captured.... More Angels.


Ja Ne!

Song of the Day: Sleepless Dark Water by Sylvia Tosun.
Lyrics-
Before you speak what you can’t rehearse
Before the tide you can’t reverse
The pounding of your heart
The rhythm of the surf
A blessing you would curse if you only had the words

For the sleepless dark water
Has caught you in waves of longing and doubt
Before you’re strong enough to stop what you started here
You always know in the ending the waves will come

Before you choose uncertain days
A silver cloud a breath of haze
A fog upon the coast
A ghost of happiness
A sadness you would bless if you only could confess

To the sleepless dark water
That caught you in waves of longing and doubt
Before you’re strong enough to stop what you started here
You always know in the ending the waves will come

To steal the silence
To feel the wind upon your face
You make a promise
Before you can be saved

The sleepless dark water
Has caught you in waves of longing and doubt
Because you’re strong enough to stop what you started here
You’ll always know the ending
The waves will come
The waves will come apart…

Random Question of Day: Was it all apart of your plan? (don't ask)

Quote of the Day: "Isn't it interesting that the same people who laugh at science fiction listen to weather forecasts and economists?" -Kelvin Throop III

:Pic of the Day is dedicated to DemonsAngel.



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Friday, August 12, 2005

   Day 5
Well, i told you all yesturday that I was depressed and well I think I have sunk lower into it. My feelings are rising and I can't stop them. Normally I can push away any feeling I want but this one is so hard to forget. My memories are beginning to push to the surface and I hate it. It's scaring me, although I hate to admit it.

Yesturday night I was so depressed and the song I was listening to didn't help either. *sigh* This is never fair. My life is tragic and I know that many people's lives are but... I feel so alone. No one in this house cares for me. I feel so worthless. *sigh* I guess that's life for ya.

I refuse, though, to give up and let my sins win me over and make me do something stupid. I learned from all of you that it isn't worth trying to rid yourself of life but still.... I get through it. I know so. ^_^ I'm just happy as long as I have you guys and girls standing by me.

Today was once more nothing special. I got up late and that's about it. I watched some TV then talked to my mom for alittle while and now I'm updating. So fun....

Well here are some pics for you! If you don't like yoai or whatever then please skim down until you see ALL CAPATIOAL LETTERS!

I vote that this is really hot. Vegeta in the hot spring....


*faints*


Now this is what I'm talking about!


My prisoner! lol


Hot!!!!!!!!!


Inus and Youko!


Say awwwwww.... *awwwww*


So cute!


Love is love no matter what.


o____________O


YAOI PICS ARE NOW OVER!!!!!!!

Arch Angel.


Cute wittle chibis!


Incomplete.....


Angels....


That's all for now. Ja ne!

Song of the Day: My December by Linkin Park.
Lyrics:
This is my December,
This is my time of the year...
This is my December,
This is all so clear...

This is my December,
This is my snow covered home...
This is my December,
This is me alone...

And I
Just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed
And I
Take back all the things i said to make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed
And I
Take back all the things i said to you
And I'd..
Give it all away,
Just to have somewhere to go to...
Give it all away,
To have someone to come home to...

This is my December,
These are my snow covered trees...
This is me pretending,
This is all i need...

And I
Just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed
And I
Take back the things i said to make you feel that
And I
Just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed
And I
Take back all the things i said to you
And I'd..
Give it all away,
Just to have somewhere to go to...
Give it all away,
To have someone to come home to...

This is my December,
This is my time of the year...
This is my December,
This is all so clear...

Give it all away,
Just to have somewhere to go to...
Give it all away,
To have someone to come home to...
Give it all away,
Just to have somewhere to go to...
Give it all away,
To have someone to come home to...

Random Question of the Day: What is your dream?

Quote of the Day: "Everyone has talent. What is rare is the courage to follow the talent to the dark place where it leads."
-Erica Jong

:Pic of the Day is dedicated to Dead and Alone.

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