Wednesday, July 13, 2005

   Hey!
How is everything with everybody? I just got done with visiting everybody's site who updated and damn did it take a while. A hour at the most. I'm not complaining at all, just that I have a lot of friends. That's cool, ne?

A new poems for you all.

My hope is gone my hope is dead. you said it would come but it never did. you asked me one think i said fine, the next day it wasn't mine. all i ever hoped for was love from my dad, I'm to far away to hope for my mom. every time i ask, my hope always backfires and gives my brother more and more love. i always want to die because my hope has already beat me to it.

Sorry this one isn't in poem form but it isn't mine but I loved it so much. The credit for this poem goes to Tia.

You’re all I’ve got in this world
That’s left me all alone
One moment I had your hand
Guiding me through this life unknown.

I had you only for a while
And then you slipped away
My grip on you was so weak
And you didn’t want to stay

Where do I go from here?
I don’t know how to survive
I was so reliant on you
To keep me safe and alive

But there’s nothing and nobody
That can save me where I am at
For the direction in which I’m going
Is nowhere on the map

These cuts and these bruises
Never seem to heal
Before I gain another one
O, the treachery I conceal

However, the rest of the times this happened
Someone else better came along
You were as good as it gets,
That having someone else seems too wrong.

I whimper from my weakness
I shake from my lack of sleep
I’m dying, bleeding everywhere
You must have cut too deep

My stomach is in knots
It feels like I’m going to implode
I need you back at my side
To release some of this heavy load.

You were all that kept me here
As these tears will eventually drain
I must leave you like you left me
I have to escape this pain.

Like don't like. Tell me your thoughts on the poems. I really like Tia's and the other one is so beautiful. That or I lost my mind.... again.

Nohing more to say so I bid you a nice farewell.

Quote of the Day: "That all men are equal is a proposition which, at ordinary times, no sane individual has ever given his assent."
Aldous Huxley (1894 - 1963)


No pic of the day, but I give you two or tomorrow.
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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

   Nothing really going on.
Like it says, nothing really interesting has happened today. This is basically how it went: I got up, changed, brush teeth and hair, sat around watching T.V., rested for a little while, played Conker on Xbox as well as Halo 2, ate dinner, and now updating. Yep. Nothing interesting going on untill the weekend rolls around.

My mom found out on the internet, that there is going to be a Biker Weekend in Martinsburg here in West Virginia. My brother's friends (Zach & Robert) are suppose to go with me, my brothers and my uncle to Biker Weekend. I hope it was like Biker Week in Gettysburg. It's go to be awesome.

MOST IMPORTANT: WE NEED CONTESTANTS FOR THE SUMMER FUN CONTEST THAT DARK PHOENIX IS HOLDING. IF YOU WANT TO ENTER, NOW IS THE TIME. THE DEAD LINE FOR ENTERIES ARE APPROACHING QUICKLY. PLEASE, WE NEED MORE CONTESTANTS!!!! IF YOU WANT TO ENTER, CONTACT DARK PHOENIX OR CLICK THE SUMMER JUDGE FUN ICON IN MY PROFILE.

Sorry about that but it is true, we do need contestants.

Some new quizzes....


You are the Regretful Bride!


Which Bride are you? -With Anime Pics!-
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The Angel of Death! Calm ruler over the death.


What kind of Angel are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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Who is Your Animal or Mythical Guardian? by wolf specter
Name
Age
Favorite Color
Favorite Time of Day	DawnNoonDuskMidnight
Guardians Name	Lukamorta
Guardian
Special Abilities	Can control the weather
Element	Air
Feeling Toward You	Fond
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Pretty cool, ne? Well, there isn't anything more to tell so I'll give you the quote of the day now.

Quote of the Day: "America's greatest strength, and its greatest weakness, is our belief in second chances, our belief that we can always start over, that things can be made better."
-Anthony Walton



: Pic of the Day

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Monday, July 11, 2005

   Hey People!
Hey! How are things going. Look! I found out how to put in pictures!!! Yay! I also have an avatar. An Acomplishment. Somehting I haven't done in a while. Anyways, the poem I have been working on is done but I really don't think it's my best work. I like it but not my best, I can do better.

Broken Faith

I believed in you once
You were my idol;
My savoir,
But now all I can remember
Is how you turned you back on me
When I need you the most.

I once thought you were real
Something so great that you should have been a god.
Sometimes I wonder
Why you changed your ways
Over the long lonely days
Was it something that happened
To this dysfunctional family
That caused you to frown
And turn my world upside down.

I once saw you as my superhero
That would save me in days to come
To protect me from all the bad in the world
And to protect me as you’re young.
But now I see the truth
That everything you said was a lie
And it cause me to die
Not physically
But emotionally.

I used to trust you.
I wanted to be like you.
But you somehow messed up
For now you’re nothing but a pain
Someone who causes heartaches
And headaches
For now you’re so complicated
And every time I found out something
You go and cause more wonder and confusion.
Do you do this in spite of me?
Can’t you see
What you’re doing to me?

You caused confusion and hate
Lies and despise
Dispassion and unhappiness
Broken dreams and broken hope
But most of all
That you caused the most to me
Is now my every so evil
Broken faith.
Thank you daddy.
This what you did to me.

If you don't like it, let me know. I always like a good critism to let me know what I need to work on.

Still waiting to see what happens to Huricane Dennis. God, do I feel bad for people living in Florida. They just got over all the Huricanes last season and here they come again, to tear down the hard work that was put into rebuilding Florida. *sigh* Mother Nature can be cruel sometimes.


You are dead inside and don't experience sadness
that often


Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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Sadly this quiz has truth behind it. I feel so dead that I'd rather leave this world. I don't want to be here, and I hate it. I've so many times on what would happened if I ended it all, the pain and suffering; the darkness. Then I hear my pure side talk to me and snap me out of it. I'm gald she is a part of me and sometimes I want to just shoot her to make her shut up. I want nothing more than to be happy. Is it too much to ask, ne? I know suicide is for the weak but sometimes... I feel so worthless.

Quote of the day: "So long as little children are allowed to suffer, there is no true love in this world."
-Isodore Duncan



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Sunday, July 10, 2005

   Hi!
Hey everyone, how are you? Here's this survey that has been going around. If you want to answer it then go ahead but if you don't then don't. I really don't care what one you pick. I'm not going to make you do something you don't want to. Here's the survey:

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression [of me]?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
16. What song are you listening to right now?
17. Do you love me?

Now then, on to other things. I would like to show my graditude for cheza382 for helping me with my background. It is now fixed and should not turn white at all. She did a very nice job and I would like everything to thank her for her time. I know I do. THANKS CHEZA!!!!!!!!! ^_^

I hope all of you are enjoying your summer break so far. I am, sorta. I know that tomorrow is a perfect day to go swimming because over here, it's suppose to reach 100 degrees F and over. Yikes! That's hot but nothing I can't handle. I once went through Death Valley. Talk about hot. lol

Poor Florida is going to get nailed again by a new hurricane. Denis is a category 4 for those of you who don't know. That has got to suck. I am never going to Florida again, with the hurricanes and shark attacks, it's not safe at all. I hope the people make it and there aren't many death, or none at all. They just got done with the Tropical Storm that went through there now this. Damn!

THE QUESTIONS THAT NO-ONE ASKS, AND SOME THEY DO...
Created by natalieclaire and taken 1343 times on bzoink!
Do you ever lick glass?	No
Is your phone on the charger?	Yes
Is your phones battery running low?	No
What is your name?	Rayne
Age?	15
Sex?	Female
Do you like to party?	Yes
Is it cold over there?	Hell no! It's fucking steaming and it's night time!
Where do you live?	West Virginia
Do you smell bad or good?	.....I don't know, do I?
Have you taken out the garbage?	Yes
What is your favourite question?	Ummmm....... o_O Good question.
Would you ever prostitute yourself?	No
Have you ever been abused by a loved one?	Yes
This includes emotional abuse...	Yes
Do you love yyour family?	No
Why?	Those fuckers don't care about me. Their world revolves around them and only them. I was just born.
Do you have broadband?	Duh!
Capitals or lower case?	o_O What kind of question is that? Both
Whats the difference between a drug dealer and a prostitute	Ones dumb and the other is dumber..... I think..... I hope.
Have you ever fucked a prostitute?	.....Nope..... at least I hope not..... *freaks out*
Do you smoke like its going out of fashion?	No
Alcohol and drugs?	Sometime I take sips of alcohol but only when offered.
Are you thirsty?	..... Now that you mentioned it.... I am
Whats your grandfathers name?	Which one?
Whats your best friends name?	Amber
Do you have a penis?	If I am a female what do you fucking think?
would you like one?	No thanks
Are you a loser?	o_O I'm offended now by this quiz! The answer is no.
Why do you take these silly surveys anyway?	I have no idea.... X_X
YAY! QUESTION 31!	Umm okay
Do you use the tab button?	Yeppers
Do you type fast?	yes
Do you say whatever comes into your head?	Yes
Do you like the smell of lawn clippings?	WTF? No!
What is you fucking problem?	You fucking problem.... Dude, you forgot the r.
Are you a whingy little teenage fuck?	Asshole! Of course I'm not!
What would you buy with 3 dollars and 50 cents?	Some candy
Is it legal for you to drink?	No
Do you ever hold it when you need to urinate?	When I have to but no
Whats your stool like?	I don't have a stool and are you stocking me?
How are you?	About to kill you.
Why are you hitting me?	Because you ask stupid questions....
Why do I ask stupid questions?	I have no idea..... maybe you need a shrink.
Bounty, Mars or Smarties?	Smarties
Have you ever screamed out the wrong name while being fucked?	No
Whats your eye color?	Hazel
yes....	You suck!
describe your feet in three words.......	human flesh feet
Are we there yet?	I'M NOT FUCKING MOVING!!!!!!!!!!
How many of these surveys have you done anyway?	I don't know.... @_@
Favourite position( EXCLUDING DOGGIE, so predictable...)	X_X I'm a virgin and proud of it damn it!
Do you do this "......" all the time?	....... Yes
Are you a bit silly?	Am I?
Will you please pour me a drink?	No
Gotta light?	No
Where can we get on?.........	You can get on yourself in your ass, you fucker!
I dont want to drive too far.......	That's nice but don't tell me this.
Tell me about the last time you stayed in a motel...	It sucked.
When did you last have sex?	Never
Do you like the word "penetration"?	I guess
Nearly done, Whats your ideal poo?	O_O You have issues man.
Whats your msn so I can add you? (just kidding!)	I don't have msn anuways.
How often do you use the refresh button?	Yes
Will you please go out with me? I am such a desperate loser.....	Uh, no.
Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!

A new survey for you all with some pretty random and weird questions, ne. Hope you like it....

No new poems yet, but I'll get it up as soon as possible. For now you'll just have to wait it out.

Quote of the day: "All sanity depends on this: that it should be a delight to feel heat strike the skin, a delight to stand upright, knowing the bones are moving easily under the flesh." Quote by Doris Lessing.



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Saturday, July 9, 2005

   Poems, Quizs, and other things!
People have been asking about my posted poem from last night. Sadly it is a true story put into poem form. But it isn't about me. I wrote this for a friend who was raped by her grandfather. Sad, I know. The bastard is behind bars now. Godd thing, ne?

Now onto other things. I have a new poem I like to post but it isn't quite ready yet, so I'll post it another time. For now, this poem is called The Greatest Fall and it's by Brittany Francisco. It's about broken friendship, sorta.

Sitting by the phone
Waiting for you to call,
I might have set myself up
For what has to be the greatest fall.
If you let me down again
It will tear me all apart
I’ve set my hopes so high,
So please don’t break my heart.
This is so important to me
So please don’t make me cry,
If I told you it didn’t matter
That would be the biggest lie.
This could be the best day of my life
You could turn it to the worst
In your heart I might be last
But in mine you come in first.
So please don’t break my heart
For my heart cares just for you,
So please don’t let me down
I hope you follow through.
The phone has yet to ring
But I’m still waiting for your call,
I hope you didn’t set me up
For what has to be the greatest fall.

I like the poem, of course, otherwise I wouldn't have posted it, ne. I've had plenty of broken friendships so I'm used to this sort of thing.

A quote to go with this poem is: "Friendship make prosperity more shining and lessens adversity by dividing and sharing it." Quote is by Cicero (106 BC-43 BC).


You are a dark angel! You don't want to be an
angel, banished from the race of goddesses you
were forced to live as an angel, because you
abused your power. Now you are powerless,
except to help others, you are very lonely and
reflect a lot.


Which astounding angel are you? (awe-inspiring pics!)
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~*~Result nr 12~*~

src="http://live.quizilla.com/user_images/P/PainfulBliss/1117293414_Power_Breathe.JPG">
Your power is: The ability to breathe
under water

Explanation: When swimming, you don't
need to get up and take a new fresh breathe
since you take in the oxygen from the water.
This allows to stay in the water as much as
you'd like. In good purposes it can save
drowning victims. In evil purposes it can make
the person drag people down to the depth and
have them drowned. This helps you escape the
world, if even for a bit, since you have grown
to despise it so much.
You have been a beaten dreamer with aspirations
crushed. Now you try to control your hopes
because you don't want to get hurt again. You
feel there is no hope for you in the future and
has no real goals. But unlike the Controller of
Time you do still feel even if it's mostly
negative emotions. You have few friends, if
any, and feel you are unable to speak about
your troubles. And unlike the Transformer, you
don't feel happiness nowadays. All seems to be
filled despair whereever you go and you are
bitter becaue the world has failed you. It
didn't turn out the way you wanted it too and
you feel betrayed. It is also likely the
feeling of betrayal comes from past
relationships where you were left alone in the
end.
Negative aspects: Since you are highly
depressed and not letting out your emotions
properly there is a possibility for cutting, to
let the emotions out. Also, if the feeling of
despair grows to strong you might consider
taking your life.

What Power is Compatible With You?
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HASH(0x85c999c)


What type of Depression do you have? (MANY different outcomes)
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Some new poems that I took. I like the results I got with these. The one about depression is actually true. o_O No wonder I hate getting up. I have no motivation to get me out of bed. lol That or I just love sleeping. Either one works for me.

Today, I went to Gettysburg to go ghost hunting. I know some of you may not believe in ghost but I do and I also have proof that they exsit. I'm trying to change any opinions, just thought I'd tell you about my day.

At first we went shopping and looked around berfor the parade started. It's Biker Week in PA so all you saw were Harleys going in and out of Gettysburg. It was awesome. Some old man had a World Was 2 bike and boy was that a beauty. The parade could probably be heard two miles away it was so loud. All the bikes had exellant exhaust on it to make the noise. I love Harleys. Not only that, I saw a Chevy Chevelle and a Corvette Stingray. The year was probably somewhere between 1972-75. Good years.

After the parade we went driving around the battle field and when 9:30 came, we went ghost hunting. Didn't catch many on camra, I think the bikers scared them away. Anways, I had a wonderful time today.

So for now, I sat good-bye.

Quote of the day: "People who ask our advice almost never take it. Yet we should never refuse to give it, upon request, for it often helps us to see our own way more clearly."
-Brendan Francis


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Friday, July 8, 2005

   Raped
He will never know
How I truly feel
The feeling I get when I'm wit some boy
I feel fear terror hoping he won't do what you did
If you didn't know
I've tried and wanted to kill myself
I try to forget
Every night I take a Steaming Shower
Hoping to be CLENSED!!
The 1st time night you took my hopes dreams love and sense of secuirt
All of what a Lil Girl should feel
You came into my room
When Mommy went to bed
You got on top of me and told me to keep my mouth shut
You took my clothes off as I cried
You didn't care
Afterwards I felt like a Whore!
This happend many times for many years
Every time I felt even worse
I said No!!!!
Every time you kept going
Your weight on top of me
I could barley breath
I said Please Please stop but you just kept going
Tears ran down my face
As you rapped my skin
You took my trust
My childhood
And something that was NEVER for you to Take away from a 7 year old
This happend many times more
You raped me of my innocence
Cause of that I cry every night and cut myself when ever I see those
horrible nightmares of you sneakin into my bed and awaking me from my restless sleep
All I know how to deal is with a blade and hope someday
I will cut the wrong vein so I don't have to see those horrible images
But the worst part is I have to see you every day


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Hello people!
Hey people. How are you on this day. Good I hope. Anyways, I feel bad for England. Now they have to go shit that we've been through so many times I've lost count. I wish all those who lived luck and those who died a sorry that those assholes did that to them. Makes me angry and brings back memories of September 11, 2001. *sigh* I'll wish good things upon the victims.

I have a picture that I want to post but I have no idea how. If you know how to post pictures in your post please help me.

I love this song and I have been playing it non-stop for a while. It's by Alanis Morissette and is called You Oughta Know.

I want you to know that I´m happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I´m sure she´d make a really excellent mother
´Cause the love that you gave that we made
wasn´t able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you´d hold me
Until you died, ´till you die
But you´re still alive

Chorus:
And I´m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It´s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I´m not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her

´Cause the love that you gave that we made
wasn´t able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you´d hold me
Until you died, ´till you die
But you´re still alive

Repeat Chorus

´Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me
And I´m not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else´s back
I hope you feel it . . . well can you feel it

Repeat Chorus

I accidently deleted some of my old post because I was experimenting with a few things. o_O My bad! I didn't mean to! lol Oh well, no use complaining over spilt milk.

Eternal and victorious my strength flows
rich in blood the skin of my body glows
I seek life and extinguish the fire
the soul of the body burning with desire,
feeling the breath escaping from lips pure and fine
the last heartbeat stopping forever in time.

The carcass I then lay down to sleep
and watch secretly as families weep
I see tears falling from soulful eyes
watching with glee as they say their goodbyes,
many rivers red I have made flood
my pores I have steeped in innocent's blood.

Every dark night you will find me
I come into your homes dancing with glee,
the young the old I don't really care
the Spirit from your body I will tear,
you can never run, you can never hide
for all of you I will take in my stride.

War and famine the innocent's plight
disease and decay, Oh what a sight
Fight! I like to see you play that game
though in the end it remains the same,
your mortality fills me with power
as I pluck you like a little flower.

I am the footsteps walking behind you,
I am the knife that you feel go through,
I am the bullet that enters the brain,
I am the explosion that speaks my name,
I am the friend that you call Death,
see me as you draw your final breath

This goes so well to me that I had to post it. The poem is by Aaron. Very nice, ne? I liked because I am death. Everyone I let in and open up to die, I end up killing them. So, the nickname I gave myself was Death. T_T

"Death is more universal than life; everyone dies but not everyone lives." Quote by A. Sachs. Like this quote as well. I like anything of death, it's me you know.


the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
shoulder and wonder who is judging you...even
when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
confusing. You are constantly bored with life
and wish that something could spice it up. You
have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them.

Some fields you might consider going
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
philosopher, or forensic scientist. You need a
job where you can express yourself and your
views on life. Or you need a field where you
can judge others and predict what is going on
in others life. Either way... you have the
personality to get you a good job that will
support you throughout life.


What type of teenager are you?
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You are an ice princess. You are cold and
indifferent much of the time. You are
completely impossible to get close to, even
those who do never see the real you. You are
fearless and immeasurably strong - not much can
crack through your defences. Many people are
stunned by your absolute cruelty and inability
to feel anything. If something in your life
turns out wrongly you will kill whomever you
feel is responsible. If anyone can break
through your icy exterior, they are to be
feared because you will never display any
emotion in any situation. You cannot bear to be
bettered by anyone and this makes you
exceptionally determined. You abuse your royal
power using it to any advantage you can. After
all no one can pin the blame on a member of the
royal family now can they?


Which proud princess are you? (Dazzling pics and detailed results!)
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You are an induvidual. Email me and we could talk.
You are probably going to die by loneliness.


Death by Boredom. (With Images.)
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That's all for now, so I have to go. Wrote too much anyways. Lol, bye.
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Saturday, July 2, 2005

   Some Random Things!
I really have nothing say much about but I'll do my best to say something.

Rubber Duckie!

See that was something, I did my very best to say it too. Lol. I'm only kidding, I do have things for you guys to know.

My new poem that I'm writing will be up in a little while but to fill in the gap I asked this person if I could post their poem here. I was granted permission. This is their poem. The poem is by a girl named Becky.

She was living a broken life
She thought no one cared
She always wanted to be alone
All because of a love she once shared.

He broke her heart
He made her cry
He told her lies
All this made her want to die.

She swore to the razor
She would be its best friend
She couldn't get her mind off Him
All this turned out bad in the end.

He found her dead
He read the note
He couldn't believe it
In it is what she wrote:

"I loved you
With all my heart
But all you did
Was tear me apart.
Im sorry and i still love you
I just wish you could have seen
What you did to me
Now I'm dead and only fourteen.."

He started to cry
He wanted her to know
He still loved her too
So then he though it was time for him to go.

The police found him
laying next to her
cold and bloody
with a note on the floor

It read:

"I loved you too
with all my heart
I didn't know
I was tearing you apart.
I'm sorry and i still love you too
I just wish you could have seen
How much you meant to me
Now we are together
And always will be"

I think it is a very nice poem. I love all poems that are dark, sad, depressing, and deals with death or suicide for some odd reason. Does this make me a freak or something? o_O I know I am insane but a freak.... weird.

Took another quiz today! It seems all I ever do is take quizes lately. Lol. I'm just so darn bored.


Your element is Darkness. You are the truly evil
one with a black heart and no soul. People
avoid you since you cause so much trouble and
enjoy seeing others in pain. You would like
nothing more than to rule this earth and be
hailed by all. Everyone is annoying and stupid
anyway and are a waste of oxygen. You are
probably a cast-away from society and family
and have had a tough life where you learned to
live the hard way. Now you want revenge on your
pain and can no longer feel love nor care. You
do not wish to befriend anyone and you
certainly do not wish to be in love. As a
student of having learnt everything the hard
way, you tend to be manipulative when you want
something for yourself. In your head there is
only you that matters, and why shouldn't it? No
one cares about you so why should you? In
school you probably ditch classes and go
somewhere else instead of sitting in a
classroom. It is not that you are stupid,
because you're probably very smart, but
everyone annoy you. And having to sit in the
same room, breathing the same air as your
enemies is not desired by you. Rate and
message!


What is your element? [with pics + 7 outcomes + detailed answeres!]
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Also, this is very important. Dark Phoenix is having a contest for drawing. It's a summer theme type and I'm a judge. The problem is that there aren't any contestant for the contest. If you would like to participate in the contest, click the link in my profile that is labeled Summer Judge Fun! We need people to become contestants and the winners do get prizes. Please, please, please at least look at the rules and regulations.

I really have nothing else to say but Happy almost 4th of July. There setting off fireworks tonight and we appear to be getting a live band! My cousins boyfriend plays the electric guitar and my next door neighbor plays the bongo. Then another person down the street plays the acoustic guitar and I play the keyboard. Pretty cool, huh. I don't know if I should play tonight or not. Opinions please.

Anyways, I should get going. I'm typing to much. Lol, I just feel very typitive. My new word. Later!
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Friday, July 1, 2005

   Prayers of an Atheist
Dear God
Here's anther prayer
telling you again
How life is unfair

I'm another non-believer
I doubt you're even there
You never took away my pain
or wiped away my tears

Every prayer I ever sent
I never got a reply
I was never folded in angel's wings
When I started to cry

When life started getting tough
You were never there
Your people are suffering on Earth
And you don't even care

Where was my guardian angel
When I wanted to die?
How come when I prayed for help
I never got a reply

You gave me a broken soul,
And I can not believe
in someone who is supposed to
be by my side and never leave

Well, now I'll end this prayer
and I won't bother you again
Because I don't believe in you
Thanks for the pain, Amen


Your connection with darkness is through your hate.
It's burning from the inside and you feel it
strongly everyday. All kinds of things make you
hate; the governmate, teachers/the boss,
students in school/work, family etc. Well, you
feel like the world and everyone in it hates
you, so you hate it and everyone back. You
probaly don't like changes since nothing good
ever comes out of them. Though your hate is
big, you can still have a soft spot in your
heart for someone. You're not numb or anything,
your problem lies in that you feel too much.
Life is too damn complicated, isn't it?


What is your connection with darkness? (pics)
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I like the quiz, I think i am more than just that result because I saw the, all and I have to say I'm about three others as well.


You are the Spirit of Anger. You are every inch the
bad girl. Something happened to make you so
angry and you need to channel it out, if anyone
gets in your way, they're in for a big shock.
Friends are not essential for you, you don't
care whether they're there or not. But if you
do have friends they will be the most loyal for
it takes a lot to become your friend. You
attract people to you, so a partner is no
trouble but if they can't handle you then
they're out the window.


Which stunning spirit of emotion are you? NEW AND IMPROVED! (amazingly beautiful anime pics!)
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I have taken this quiz before but I don't remember if I posted it on my site, so i'll add it again.

Anyways, my cousins have been a hand full from the time they got here but they are little. I have the correct ages. Taylor is my girl cousin and she is 12. My other cousins are boys and they are Nate who is seven and Justin who is eight.

I hope you all have a good 4th of July.
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Thursday, June 30, 2005

   Element is Night!

You're Element is Night. You're a bit of a loner
loner who is very creative but never show your
work to anyone. You may smile a little but
sadness or loneliness surround you and other
can feel it when they're near you. You have a
dark or unusual beauty that makes you
mysterious and you probably have a lot of
secrets that you've never told anyone. You're
beauty is intriging and unorthidox but the real
thing that makes you special is your eyes.
Something in them makes them like Diamonds in
the Rough. (please forgive me if you cannot see
the pics. If you go to my userpage then you can
see your result picture at the bottom)


What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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