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Birthday
• 1989-12-18
Gender
• Female
Location
• West Virginia
Member Since
• 2005-02-05
Occupation
• Student
Real Name
• You Don't Need To Know

Personal

Achievements
• Who Gives A Shit?
Anime Fan Since
• 1993
Favorite Anime
• Yu Yu Hakusho, Yu-Gi-Oh, Beyblade, Gundam Seed, Gundam Wing/AC, Wolf's Rain, X/1999, Vampire Hunter D, Trigun, Saiyuki, Rurouni Kenshin, Inuyasha, Full Metal Alchemist, D N Angel, and Chobits.
Goals
• Nothing really
Hobbies
• Writing poems/stoires, playing the keyboard, singing.
Talents
• Look above!

myOtaku.com: TwistedNightmare

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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Ummm
I am running out of things to say! o_O Oh dear.... I need more education.... or at least something to say. Anyways, just thought you all wanted to know.
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Sunday, June 19, 2005

Thanks!
Thank you to those who commented on my last entry. I don't feel alone anymore. Thanks!
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Meaningless Life
Meaningless Life

Sometimes I wonder
Why I still live?
I try to ponder
What it be like to die.

I want to know why I still live,
Within this god forsaken world
That holds nothing more
Than sweet dieing memories
Of what I used to be.

This life means nothing to me
And not to those I live with
For I am no better
Than a slave in the Civil War.

I live to only serve my master;
This happens to be my mother
And my father
And my siblings.

No one cares if I live or die
Just as long as I don’t make a peep
And the floor will not be stained
With my unholy tainted blood.

I wonder why I just don’t reach
For that beautiful glimmering knife
That sits in the holder on the counter in the kitchen
Collecting that disgusting dust.

I don’t see how they could love
Such a mental creature such as myself, anyways.
I long for love
Yet, despise the loving.
I can not stand
The happiness that floats around the world
But misses the one who needs it the most.

This is how I feel
Most of the time out of the day.
Worthless and undeserving;
Witless and helpless,
Nothing more or nothing less,
This is how I feel
In this meaningless life.

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Friday, June 17, 2005

Seed Of Chucky
Just got done watching the movie and holy shit! I love the fucking movie! It roally kicked ass!
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Thank You!
I wanna say thanks to my friends for caring, it really makes me happy. ^_^ Thank you!
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

I'm pissed!
I hate my fucking father! All he ever does is either yell or hit me becuase everything my fault. I hate the bastard! I hope he dies soon. He told me he was sick of my additude but I never had an additude with him, he just thinjs that.
Like today he said that he found spilled soda on the door and he spoke to me about it as if I had done it. Then he had the never to roughly grab my chin and make me look into his eyes when he was yelling at me. I tired to be calm and say something but my anger took control and she came out causing a whole lot of mess. Then I got up and walked away, he followed me and yelled at me some more before I tried to slam the door on hid face. He opened it and grabbed the back of my bathing suit and yanked on it, causing it to rip and me to fall to the floor. My mother step in and saved me from the beating of my life. I thankful she's here. I am so thankful.
He said I can either go back on my medication or get the fuck out and I only have three days to decide. I seriously call that tough love. I going with the leaving part.
For me to be really happy is for lots and lots of money and a boat so I can sail as far away from here as I want and to an island where he'll never find me. That's sad, huh?

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Friday, June 10, 2005

This song represents a lot in me life.
Seems just like yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I’m barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me, is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside

Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you wont get to see the tears I’ve cried
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don’t cry on the outside anymore
Anymore

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you wont get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you wont get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

By: Kelly Clarkson
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Wednesday, June 8, 2005

Thank You!
Thanks for reviewing my site posts! It makes me so very happy! ^_^
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Friday, June 3, 2005

Expressionless
I never weep,
For weeping is a sign;
A sign that I am living.

I never break,
For breaking is a sign;
A sign that there is a soul
Living within this obscure body.

I never laugh,
For laughing is a sign;
A sign that proves I can feel.

I never gasp,
For gasping is a sign;
A sign that I can breathe.

I never love,
For love is a sign;
A sign that I survive.

I never live,
For living is a sign;
A sign that I am functioning.

I remain expressionless
For I will never see the light
At this darkened tunnel.

I remain cold
For I have grown accustom
To the world I am bound to.

I remain distant
For I do not want
My heart to break.

You must see,
In my world
No can neither
Feel nor live
But parish all the same.

Because to crack a smile,
Is to crack the mask.

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

Final Part
Life is life and nothing more;
For when we die, we die.
End of story. There is nothing more to this.
Life comes and then it goes and then there is nothing more.
There is nothing after life.
No God, no angels, no Heaven, no Hell;
Nothing.
Do you get it yet, child?

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