Sunday, April 30, 2006

   Hello!
Hey everyone! How the hell are you? It's been a while since I lasted updated. Too long if you ask me.

I got over my depression and now I am as happy as can be. I think something was wrong that night but I can't remember what was buging me. It must have been my reoccuring nightmares. Oh well, I'm over it now and that's all that matters.

Nothing special has happened so far. We really haven't done much in the past few weeks. I know that last week, I went to New York. I don't know if I already mentioned that but that's the only thing we did for excitement.

Yesturday was my brother's prom. It started off really bad because nobody ate anything from the resturant that they went to. They said, "I couldn't read the freakin' menu." Well, it's not our problem that 0 out of 4 high school students couldn't read a menu. Lol It's funny if you think about it. It got better in the end though. Said they had a really good time. Oh yeah, I GOT TO RIDE IN THEIR FREAKING LIMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Score!

Also, I got to drive my mom's car. My MOM"S car! It's like a fucking miricale. I'm never allowed to drive her car. Yes!

Anyway, enough with my rambling. I'll see you guys later!

Song of the Day: Gomenasai (I'm Sorry) by T.A.T.U.
Lyrics-
What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was one of a kind,
A precious pearl

When I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn't alowed

Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
I know I let you down
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend like I do now

What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain

When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself

Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
I know I let you down
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend like I do now

What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away

Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now

Gomenasai
I let you down
Gomenasai
Gomenasai,
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

Quote of the Day: "Any fool can tell the truth, but it requires a man of some sense to know how to lie well." -Samuel Butler (1835 - 1902)

How I feel today:



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Sunday, April 9, 2006

   Fallen Into Depression
Sorry I haven't been updating lately. I've fallen into depression and I just fell hopeless at the moment. Life isn't going all that planned and my parents are making it any better. They don't even notice me. Anyway, sorry I haven't gotten to any sites in forever. I'm a terrible friend. Forgive me.

I wrote a poem to try and express myself but it didn't come out right. Well here it is...

Mirror Self

I stare at my self it the bathroom mirror
The person staring back at me is nothing more
Than a tarnished and tainted reflection
Of one’s past life.
This isn’t me
The girl in the mirror is nothing more than a fake;
A copy of something that never once was.
The girl staring back at me
Is not me in any way
Shape or form.


The girl that stares back at me
With undying lifeless eyes,
Is not me
For you see,
She does not feel.
Yet, the person staring back at me
Seems to look like me only dead.
Is that the true me?
Dead and lonely?
Forgotten?

No, this mirror only lies and plays trick with my mind
Because there is no why that she is me.
She seems so dead and broken
in-repairable to mother nature’s will.
She has my lips,
Soft; yet quick to snap at one is they get to close.
She has my ears
Sharp; yet unyielding to the cries of help in the darkness of the night.
She has my hair;
Unyielding; wild and un-ruling;
She has my body,
And she has my looks,
But the one thing that is missing
Is my eyes.

This person staring back at me,
So dead and lifeless,
Chills me to the bone
And draws me in deep.
I stare at her and she stares at me,
Watching me like a hawk.
She’s dead and broken,
Nothing like the real me,
So who is this girl
Staring back at me.

She seems so lost
So scared and broken.
I can’t help but feel
That she isn’t staring back at me
That she is staring into me.

This girl that is so fake,
The girl I see everyday,
She is nothing more than a hollow shell
Of her former self.
I don’t know who this girl is
Or why she is here,
All I know
Is that she is staring
Right back at me.

I’m not like that,
For you see,
I am as broken as can be.
I’m dying slowly
From the inside out.
I have no will to live
And I have no reason to fight.
I am a cold cruel person
And I live only to please myself.
So, This girl that is staring back at me,
Is nothing more.....

Wait, this girl that is staring at me;
Yes, it all makes sense.
This girl staring back at me
She is me.
She is my mirror self.

Yeah, that's basically it. Anyway, later.







Today I feel:

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Sunday, March 19, 2006

   JUST PICTURES AND OTHER THINGS!!!!!!!
GODDESSES-

Goddess of War and Wisdom:


Goddess of Agriculture:


Goddess of the Sky:


Supreme Goddess:


RANDOM GIRLS:

Breeze:


Anna:


Deep Blue:


Heart Brake:


QUIZZES!!!!!!


The Loner
THis guy has more adventures than you and your
boaring life will ever have. He is quick and
fast,so he wont wait long for you to make the
decision. Dont completely give yourself up..
but f you want adventure.....


Who is your dream guy (Awsome anime Pictures)(10 outcomes)
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You are a goth.Your dress, of course, is black.Good
for you.You make me proud.


What Is Your Ideal Dress? (Pics And Lots Of Results)
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You aren't a kiss. You have never been kissed and
don't know if you will. How tragic.


What is your kiss? (Girls only)
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You have a lonely, dark soul... You value time
alone, and dont get on with very many people.
You appreciate the factors of loneliness, but
sometimes there are a few people who are always
there for you, and never forget that. You tend
to be quiet, withdrawn, and sometimes a bit of
a dreamer. You have no fear of death itself,
and some people may call you a goth, but dont
worry about that. You love the night, and the
starry sky, and it cheers you up no end to be
lost in the celestial sphere of midnight sky.

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	erotic
Your hugs are...	friendly
Your eyes...	sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	exotic
Your smile is...	amazing
Your love is...	one of a kind
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Saturday, February 25, 2006

   I'm so fucking tired!
Hey everyone, how was your day? Good I hope. Anyway, My was incrediably long.....

See, we (my theatre department and I) went to a Regionals Competition at Berkly Springs High School this morning. My teacher, G, told us that we HAD to be at the school BY 5:30 in the morning.... the fucking morning. Gah! It's too damn early.

Well, somehow we all mamaged it... YAY! We got there before everybody else. So, we had to set up the displays from our school. The projects looked fantastic (sorry if my spelling is off... I'm just too damn tired to care at the moment)!

The main catorgories were:
Fantasy Make-up
Character Make-up
Special Effects Make-up
Noveist Publicity
Noveist Light Programming
Advanced Light Programming
Noveist Masks
Noviest Costume
Advanced Costume
Noviest Hand Pupetry
Noviest Marienets(sp?)
Noviest Set Props
Advanced Set Props
Noviest Set Design
45 minute long plays

That was basically it and nobody from the other schools really did anything besides their play. It was kinda sad, pathetic really.

Most of my friends won, woot woot! Our school won the play acts along with Martinsburg. Though, ours kicked their ass. HA!

Anyway, I was doing Publilcity. Everyone who looked at my poster absoulutly LOVED mine. My friends all told me how I was going to win.... I WON!!!!! I GOT 1ST PLACE!!!!!!!!! I am so proud of myself. I get to go to state on April 5, 6, 7, and 8. I can't wait. I plan to win that too! lol

Anyway, that was my day... Like I said, it was loooooooooooooooooong! lol I survived enough to write this. Anyway, see you later.

How I am feeling today:


:Pic of the Day is dedicated to ShadowsOfAngels.
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Sunday, February 19, 2006

   Hi Hi!
Hey everyone. How the hell are you? Its been a while since I last updated this site. *Sigh* I have got to get on the ball of things. lol I'm lazy right now so bear with me.

Anyway, how is everyone's weekend. Mine is kinda slow and a bit boring.

Firday: We didn't do much but run around and take my brothers here and there. What about me? My friends are to lazy to pick up the phone and call me so and I have nothing to do. Matthew went to his friend's house then to a dance and back to his friend's house.

Staurday: My brother, Josh, went to his friends house to spend the night. My younger brother and my adopted little brother, Joey, came back. Joey spent the night.

Today: I went driving for an hour and cirtized about my driving. I hate that! Anyway, after we came home I went to my room to work on homework. Now I am updating...... Eventful weekend, huh? NOT!!

Tomorrow: I have to vaccum and clean the bas boards.... Woo hoo..... lol

That's basically my weekend. I know it sucks but it always does. Anyway, I'll get to your sites now. Later!

PICS:

Hay Fever:


Sorrowful Beauty:


Sensai:


Dying Faith:


River Dance:


QUIZZES:


CIA- You are a CIA member, and cannot let yourself
be known, because othewise you would be put
into prision by your own goverment.


What is your secret identity? (anime pics-girls only)
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Life sucks and you know it. Nothing ever turns out
okay, nothing ever goes your way and while you
have to live this horrible life the gods are
laughing at you. The whole meaning with life,
according to you, is simply to die. But you
have not become this way just like that, you
have probably been decieved, betrayed and hurt
by people who meant alot to you in your past.
To you, life is not even bittersweet.


How do you see life?
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Courage- Your inner power is Courage! You
love being a complete dare devil. Bungee
jumping, sky diving, you name it, you just love
the adrenalin rush you get. You crave the
freedom you feel when you go about doing
anything thats simply just wild and wacky.
Youre the one who talks all your friends into
your latest crazy idea, and the one who jokes
around with them while youre waiting for your
immunisation needle to get their minds off it.
You known for being outgoing, and you always
stand up for your friends if someone is trying
to hurt them, physically, verbally, mentally,
it doesnt matter to you. But NO ONE messes with
your buddies. You are very loyal and
optimistic, and can cheer anyone up with your
(not always children friendly) jokes. You
constantly need new challenges in life, as you
get bored extremely easily. Teachers may find
you frustrating because you probably muck
around in class, but everyone else finds you
humorous and admire your daringness and self
confidence. You love attention, and parties are
right up your ally. You go girl! You cant wait
to get out in the world, and enjoy yourself to
the max. So get going!
Boy/Girl who will sweep you off your feet:
The fiery, happy go lucky guy/girl. Someone who
is always up for a challenge, and is the one
whos arm in arm with you when you announce your
next crazy endeavour, right along beside you in
convincing all your friends.
Your stone: Bloodstone
Your power: Valour. Your morals and
bravery are the things that will get you
everywhere in life. In the world needed a
warrior to protect, theyd turn to you.
Your element: Fire
A quote that applies to you: "Most of
the important things in the world have been
accomplished by people who have kept on trying
when there seemed to be no hope at all."


What's your inner power? (Girls only sorry. Beautiful anime pictures, lengthy results)
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Song of the Day: Goodbye For Now by P.O.D.
Lyrics-
I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel shine,
Through the dark times even when I lose my mind.
But it feels like no one in the world is listenin',
And I can't ever seem to make the right decisions.
I walk around in the same haze, I'm still caught in my same ways.
I'm losing time in these strange days,
But somehow I always know the right things to say.

I don't know what time it is,
Or who's the one to blame for this.
Do I believe what I can't see?
And how do you know which way the wind blows?
Cause I can feel it all around,
I'm lost between the sound.
And just when I think I know, there she goes.

Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.

I'm still smiling as the day goes by,
And how come nobody ever knows the reasons why?
Bury it deep, so far that you can't see.
If your like me, who wears a broken heart on your sleeve,
Pains and struggles that you know so well,
Either time don't, it can't, or it just won't tell.
I'm not the type to say I told you so,
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.

I don't know what time it is,
Or who's the one to blame for this.
Do I believe what I can't see?
And how do you know which way the wind blows?
Cause I can feel it all around,
I'm lost between the sound.
And just when I think I know, there she goes.

Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.

And you can sing until there's no song left (song left)
And I can scream until the world goes deaf (goes deaf)
For every other word left unsaid,
You should've took the time to read the signs
And see what it meant (what it meant)
In some ways everybody feels alone,
So if the burden is mine then I can carry my own (carry my own)
If joy really comes in the morning time,
then I'm gonna sit back and wait until the next sunrise.

Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.

Quote of the Day: "Risk! Risk anything! Care no more for the opinions of others, for those voices. Do the hardest thing on earth for you. Act for yourself. Face the truth." -Katherine Mansfield (1888 - 1923)

How I feel Today:


Pic of the Day is dedicated to Seto Kaiba Freak.
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Saturday, February 11, 2006

   IT'S SNOWING HERE
Yep, you heard it right. The weather man was right for once. lol It's snowing here and has bene all day. It isn't suppose to let up until tomorrow morning. Sounds alright me, I guess.

Anyway, my brothers friend came up this weekend. His name is Joey and he's like my mom's unadopted second son. lol He fits in with our family so well that it is like he is part of our family. My brother from another mother. -__- lol

I cut my finger yesturday with a knife by mistake. I was cutting Itlain Samlami(sp) and my finger slip and wa la. I cut myself. o_O It hurt to. *Sigh* I'm so clumsy.

Nothing really happening here. We're just sitting at him playing games and playing in the snow.

Anyway, I hope you all enjoy your weekend. See ya later.

Pictures:

Loveless:


Ghose In The Shell:


Mistress of the Water:


Dance with Leaves:


Alone:


Song of the Day: Confessions of a Broken Heart by Lindsay Lohan
Lyrics-
wait for the postman to bring me a letter
I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
Family in crisis that only grows older

Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am broken but I am hoping
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am crying, a part of me is dying and
These are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

I wear all your old clothes, the old polo sweater
I dream of another you the one who would never
never Leave me alone to pick up the pieces
A daddy to hold me, that’s what I needed

So why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don’t know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me
Cause these are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart
Of a broken heart

I love you, I love you
I love you,I,
I love you,
Daughter to father
Daughter to father
I dont know you
But I still want to
Daughter to father
Daughter to father
Tell me the truth
Did you ever love me
Did you ever love me
These are... the confessions of a broken heart

Ohhhh... yeah

And I waited for the postman to bring me a letter

[soft tears]

Quote of the Day: "Of those who say nothing, few are silent." -Thomas Neill

How I feel today:


Pic of the Day id dedicated to SesshTaisho.


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Friday, February 3, 2006

   Hey everyone!
How are you all? It's been awhile but I have been so busy with school and a project that I haven had the thime to truely update. *sigh* I hate school but then again who doesn't? lol

Anyway, nothing really interesting is going on over here. this is basically it:

Martinsburg High School went into lock down today but I have no idea why. I think it was about a gun or something like that. Who knows.

I have been sick 3 count 'em, 3 weeks now and it is starting to get really, really old really, really fast. My lungs and head are punding from constant harsh coughing. I hate coughing...

I recently had my printer that I go from Christmas finally hooked up to my computer. I was lazy so sue me.

I put two of my pictures on fanartcentral.com recently. I don't like how they showed but because I had to keep resizing it over and over again. *sigh* They look better in real life. If you want to check them out, my name for the site is MereDarkness. ^_^

Oh, I'm going to New York on my Spring Break for theatre. We get to see Phantim of the Opera and Rent.... whatever the hell that is. lol It's going to be so much fun. I'm rooming with my friend Staci. She's awesome and totally kicks ass (no really, she kicks my ass). lol

My brother got excepted to Collin's Collage out in Arizona and will be moving there in July. The thing is, he graduates in June and will only be home for a few weeks (2 at the most). YESSSS! lol

Well, that's really all there is. I hope my post wasn't too boring. Anyway, I'm going to go to your sites now, so later!

Song of the Day: Lady Marmalade (With Lil' Kim, Pink, Mya) by Christina Aguilera with Lil' Kim,Pink,Mya.
Lyrics-

Lil’ kim:
Where’s all mah soul sistas
Lemme hear ya’ll flow sistas

Mya:
Hey sista, go sista, soul sista, flow sista
Hey sista, go sista, soul sista, go sista

Mya:
He met Marmalade down in old Moulin Rouge
Struttin’ her stuff on the street
She said, “Hello, hey Jo, you wanna give it a go?” Oh! uh huh

Chorus:
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya dada (Hey hey hey)
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya here (here)
Mocha Chocalata ya ya (oh yea)
Creole lady Marmalade

Lil’ Kim:
What What, What what
Mya:
ooh oh

Voulez vous couchet avec moi ce soir
Voulez vous couchet avec moi

Lil’ Kim: yea yea yea yea

Pink: He sat in her boudoir while she freshened up
Boy drank all that Magnolia wine
oh her black satin sheets is where they start to freak
yeah

Chorus:
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya dada (da-da-da)
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya here (here ohooh yea yeah)
Mocha Choca lata ya ya (yea)
Creole lady Marmalade

Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir (ce soir, what what what)
Voulez vous coucher avec moi

Lil’ Kim:
yea yea uh
you come through with the money and the garter bats
I let him know we bout that cake straight up the gate uh
We independent women, some mistake us for whores
I'm sayin‘, why spend mine when I can spend yours
Disagree? Well that's you and I’m sorry
Im gon' keep playing these cats out like Atari
Wearin high heeled shoes gettin love from the dudes
4 bad ass chicks from the Moulin Rouge
hey sistas, soul sistas, betta get that dough sistas
We drink wine with diamonds in the glass
bottle case the meaning of expensive taste
if you wanna Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya
Mocha Chocalate what
Real Lady Marmalade
One more time C’mon now

Marmalade... Lady Marmalade... Marmalade...

Christina:
hey Hey Hey!
Touch of her skin feeling silky smooth
color of cafe aule alright
Made the savage beast inside roar until he cried,
More-more-more

Pink:
Now he's back home durin' 9 to 5

Mya:
Sleepin' the grey flannel life
Christina:
But when he turns off to sleep memories creep,
More-more-more

Chorus:
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya dada (da da oh yea)
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya here (ooh)
Mocha Choca lata ya ya (yea)
Creole lady Marmalade

Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir (ce soir)
Voulez vous coucher avec moi (all my sistas yeah)
Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir (ce soir)
Voulez vous coucher avec moi (C‘Mon! uh)


Missy:
Christina...(lady oh)
Pink... (Lady Marmalade)
Lil’ Kim...(hey Hey! uh uh uh uh...)
Mya...(Oh Oh oooo)
Rot wailer baby...(baby)
Moulin Rouge... (ooh da da da da )
Misdemeanor here...

Creole Lady Marmalade Yes-ah...

DON'T YOU EVEN ASK!!!!!!!!

Quote of the Day: "If something anticipated arrives too late it finds us numb, wrung out from waiting, and we feel - nothing at all. The best things arrive on time." -Dorothy Gilman,

How I Feel Today:



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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Quizzes, Poems, Pictures, and a Song!
I'll update for real sooner or later but until then here are some treats for you! YOU BETTER FUCKING LIKE THEM TO, DAMN IT!!

QUIZZES:


- What is Your Inner Angel -
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your fear lies in: making friends you are a loner
because you think people will push you away and
be mean to you.


where does your fear lie (anime pitures girls please)
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What personality do u have?
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sanity quiz(with anime pics)(updated)!
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POEMS:

Blood on the Wall by Bill Turner-

Unable to see my hand in front of my face
Edging my way along the wall
Mind racing, what am I doing in this place?
Slipping, taking a hard fall

A foot slipping across the floor
Glimmer of silver in someone's hand
Crack of light through the door
Stab of a knife, striking at my gland

Stripping off my leather coat
Wrapping it around my arm
Keep the blade away from my throat
Gather my wits before he causes harm

Realization, blood on the wall
Tripping over someone on the tile
Crashing into the stall
Cold, been dead a while

Another slash of the knife
Quickly moving away
Out for my life
Not going to die today

Swinging the belt, striking with the buckle
Catching him in the eye
Punching in the throat with my knuckle
Trying not to die

What in the hell am I doing here?
Dodging his knife
I only stopped for a beer
Fighting for my life

Belt becomes garrote
Life slipping from his soul
Giving all I got
His face...someone I sent to the hole


Not Another Breath by Kristen-

Blood drips from the knife
Stabbed deep into her back
Another blow from a fist
Face bruised blue & black

Fights to stand again
Kicked back to the ground
Tear drops start to fall
Silently with no sound

Slashes to her arm
Tear through the flesh
Strike to her stomach
Her screams suppressed

Knife torn from her back
Though the wound remains
Held close to her throat
Blood soon to be drained

Lying hopeless on the floor
Soon to meet her death
Battle against herself over
She'll take not another breath


PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!!

Playing With Fire:


Wolf of Silence:


Help Me:


Lost in Fear:


Brake Down:


Hot:


SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Numb by Linkin Park
Lyrics-
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be





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Friday, January 6, 2006

   STILL NEW THEME!!!!!
I'm working on fixing my background because the last two post I put up people weren't able to read any of it. Sorry about that!

Anyway, I am still searching for ideas for a new theme. Please send in all ideas and I will post them and have you vote on your favorite one.

The past week has been really, really exhausting because I haven't been able to sleep very well. I have mild insomnia. Some nights I'll get to sleep but can't stay asleep and other nights I can't get to sleep. It's very irritating because I have been so tired lately and I get really pissy about it too. I have no idea why I am doing this but it's really announying! -_-

I am going driving tomorrow with my out-of-school instuctor. She is a very nice lady and is very helpful. I'm looking forward to it.

Other than that there really isn't much going on this weekend. Sad to say that I will be extremely bored.... Like always! lol I really have to get a hobby.

Anyway, I know it isn't a great post but I have to go. See ya!

Song of the Day: Sleepless Dark Water by Sylvia Tosun.
Lyrics-
Before you speak what you can’t rehearse
Before the tide you can’t reverse
The pounding of your heart
The rhythm of the surf
A blessing you would curse if you only had the words

For the sleepless dark water
Has caught you in waves of longing and doubt
Before you’re strong enough to stop what you started here
You always know in the ending the waves will come

Before you choose uncertain days
A silver cloud a breath of haze
A fog upon the coast
A ghost of happiness
A sadness you would bless if you only could confess

To the sleepless dark water
That caught you in waves of longing and doubt
Before you’re strong enough to stop what you started here
You always know in the ending the waves will come

To steal the silence
To feel the wind upon your face
You make a promise
Before you can be saved

The sleepless dark water
Has caught you in waves of longing and doubt
Because you’re strong enough to stop what you started here
You’ll always know the ending
The waves will come
The waves will come apart…

Random Question of the Day: When do you start semster exams? (I start mine on the 17th of January!)

Quote of the Day: "Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen." -Albert Einstein (1879 - 1955)

How I am feeling today:


:Pic of the Day is dedicated to Sdragon.

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

   New Theme!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey everyone! Sorry if you couldn't read my post yesturday.... this morning.... whatever. My bg wasn't working so I had to go search for a new one to use for a little while. Though it did get me thinking....

NEW THEME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep, that's right. I need a new theme for the up comming '06 but the problem is I don't know what to do. So, I would like you guys to pick a new theme for me. I really don't care what it is. Afterwards, I will post the choices and have you vote on your favorite one. Simple enough, ne?

I hope you all give me some ideas!

Anyway, thanks for the belated B-day. You are so nice. ^_^

I have to go now but I will get to your sites! I swear it!

Song of the Day: When I'm Gone by Eminem.
Lyrics-
(Eminem Talking)
Yeah.... it's my life.... in my own words i guess....

(Verse 1)
Have you ever loved someone so much
You'd give an arm for
Not the expression
No, literally give an arm for
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armor
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm her
But what happens when karma
Turns right around to bite you
And everything you stand for turns on you despite you
What happens when you become the main source of her pain
"Daddy look what i made"
Dad's got to go catch a plane
"Daddy where's mommy?"
"I can't find mommy, where is she?"
"I don't know, go play, Hailey baby, your Daddy's busy"
"Daddy's writin' a song, the song ain't gon' write itself"
"I'll give you one underdog, and you got to swing by yourself"
Then turn right around in that song, and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother who's a splittin' image of her
That's Slim Shady
Yeah baby Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me
But tonight, Shady's rock-a-bye-baby, huh...

(Chorus)
And when I'm gone, just carry on
Don't mourn, rejoice
Everytime you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that, I'm lookin' down on you smilin'
And i didn't feel a thang
So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on
Don't mourn, rejoice
Everytime you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that, I'm lookin' down on you smilin'
And i didn't feel a thang
So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

(Verse 2)
I keep havin' this dream
I'm pushin' Hailey on the swings
She keeps screamin' she don't want me to sing
"You're makin' Mommy cry"
"Why? Why is Mommy cryin'?"
"Baby Daddy ain't leavin' no more"
"Daddy you're lyin'"
"You always say that, you always say this is the last time"
"But you ain't leavin' no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's pilin' boxes in front of the door
Tryin' to block it
"Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy, no stop it"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
Its got her picture
"This'll keep you safe, Daddy take it with ya"
I look up, it's just me standin' in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talkin'
Cause man I can hear 'em
They're sayin' you got one more chance to do right
And it's tonight
Now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em 'fore it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It turns to a stage
They're gone, and the spotlight is on
And I'm singin'

(Chorus)

(Verse 3)
Sixty thousand people
All jumpin' out their seat
The curtain closes
They throwin' roses at my feet
I take a bow
And thank you all for comin' out
They're screamin' so loud
I take one last look at the crowd
I glanced down
I don't believe what I'm seein'
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleedin'"
"But baby we're in Sweden"
"How did you get to Sweden?"
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'"
"You lied to me Dad, and now you made Mommy sad"
"And i bought you this coin, it says NUMBER ONE DAD"
"That's all i wanted, i just want to give you this coin"
"I get the point, fine, me and Mommy are goin'"
"But baby wait..."
"It's too late Dad, you made your choice"
"Now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
"That's what they want, they want you Marshall they keep"
"Screamin' your name, it's no wonder you can't go to sleep"
"Just take another pill, yeah i bet you you will"
"You rap about it"
"Yeah, Word, K-K-Keep It Real"
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closin' on me?
I turn around, find a gun on the ground
Cock it, put it to my brain
Scream "Die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes
The plane that i was supposed to be on crashes
And burns to ashes
That's when i wake up
Alarm clocks ringin'
There's birds singin'
It's spring and, Hailey's outside swingin'
I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her
Hailey just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to... say....

(Chorus)

Random Question of the Day: How are you?

Quote of the Day: "Have no fear of perfection - you'll never reach it." - Salvador Dali (1904 - 1989)

How I feel Today:


:Pic od the Day is dedicated to Sailor Otaku.

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