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• 1989-12-18
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Location
• West Virginia
Member Since
• 2005-02-05
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• Student
Real Name
• You Don't Need To Know

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Anime Fan Since
• 1993
Favorite Anime
• Yu Yu Hakusho, Yu-Gi-Oh, Beyblade, Gundam Seed, Gundam Wing/AC, Wolf's Rain, X/1999, Vampire Hunter D, Trigun, Saiyuki, Rurouni Kenshin, Inuyasha, Full Metal Alchemist, D N Angel, and Chobits.
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• Nothing really
Hobbies
• Writing poems/stoires, playing the keyboard, singing.
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myOtaku.com: TwistedNightmare

Sunday, April 9, 2006

Fallen Into Depression
Sorry I haven't been updating lately. I've fallen into depression and I just fell hopeless at the moment. Life isn't going all that planned and my parents are making it any better. They don't even notice me. Anyway, sorry I haven't gotten to any sites in forever. I'm a terrible friend. Forgive me.

I wrote a poem to try and express myself but it didn't come out right. Well here it is...

Mirror Self

I stare at my self it the bathroom mirror
The person staring back at me is nothing more
Than a tarnished and tainted reflection
Of one’s past life.
This isn’t me
The girl in the mirror is nothing more than a fake;
A copy of something that never once was.
The girl staring back at me
Is not me in any way
Shape or form.

The girl that stares back at me
With undying lifeless eyes,
Is not me
For you see,
She does not feel.
Yet, the person staring back at me
Seems to look like me only dead.
Is that the true me?
Dead and lonely?
Forgotten?

No, this mirror only lies and plays trick with my mind
Because there is no why that she is me.
She seems so dead and broken
in-repairable to mother nature’s will.
She has my lips,
Soft; yet quick to snap at one is they get to close.
She has my ears
Sharp; yet unyielding to the cries of help in the darkness of the night.
She has my hair;
Unyielding; wild and un-ruling;
She has my body,
And she has my looks,
But the one thing that is missing
Is my eyes.

This person staring back at me,
So dead and lifeless,
Chills me to the bone
And draws me in deep.
I stare at her and she stares at me,
Watching me like a hawk.
She’s dead and broken,
Nothing like the real me,
So who is this girl
Staring back at me.

She seems so lost
So scared and broken.
I can’t help but feel
That she isn’t staring back at me
That she is staring into me.

This girl that is so fake,
The girl I see everyday,
She is nothing more than a hollow shell
Of her former self.
I don’t know who this girl is
Or why she is here,
All I know
Is that she is staring
Right back at me.

I’m not like that,
For you see,
I am as broken as can be.
I’m dying slowly
From the inside out.
I have no will to live
And I have no reason to fight.
I am a cold cruel person
And I live only to please myself.
So, This girl that is staring back at me,
Is nothing more.....

Wait, this girl that is staring at me;
Yes, it all makes sense.
This girl staring back at me
She is me.
She is my mirror self.

Yeah, that's basically it. Anyway, later.

Today I feel:

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