Tuesday, December 18, 2007

   Totally out of it.........
Sorry I couldn't get around to commenting you guys yesterday. I was actually Christmas shopping with my parents at the mall. It was fun. But I will get around to everyone today before my game tonight.

I was totally out of it today guys. I felt kinda depressed for no reason at all, and I don't get depressed often. I don't know what was wrong with me. In Western Civ I exploded though. I felt so bad. I yelled at this kid Craig and when Jared asked me what was wrong I told him to fuck off. I don't know what was wrong with me. Then we were panning for our skit (presenting maybe Friday) and I felt tears coming down my face while Bowman was giving a lecture and one of the kids in my class was looking at me weird and so I just took my sleeve and dried my tears and ignored the kid the rest of the block. I'm so out of it... So don't mind small random notes in my post today.

Okay. Well, I have a game tonight, very excited. We play Hollis-Brookline, but I think they have some good stats.... So I don't know if we can beat them. We have fucking freshman swinging onto our team now which fucking pisses me off. I don't have a problem with them, like they're good, but it's our team, not theirs, and they're basically running it. X_X I hate it!

I kinda wanna curl up in a ball right now. Under some covers. With soft, clasical music on. And I hate clasical, unless it's Christmasy. Which it insn't. *sighs* I need a day off.

Vation starts Saturday. Friday is our last day until the 3rd of January. I need to think up some New Year's resolutions soon. Or at least decide on some of the ones I have been thinking of.

I got a Christmas card today from the little boy I support in India. He's such a nice kid! He always says nice things and he always says he prays for me and my family. I feel really bad because I haven't been going to church in awhile and that's usually when I send my prayers out to him. I need to start going again. But he always draws me a picture and writes nice things. At Christmas my dad sends an extra $10 to him and we usually send him presents but we couldn't afford it this year. Next year I'll send him something really special! ^_^ I love him a lot. He's like a pen-pal brother to me. His name is Sebastian. He has a sister, brother, and parents. I have quite a few pictures of him. And trust me if I had a scanner that worked, I would show you what he looks like. Very cute kid. He's in like.... 7th grade. He's the thought that helps me finish eating my meals at night, because he doesn't have everything I have, so it helps me appreciate the things I do have, and how much I love them and everything.

Sorry about that random rant. Now I'm crying again. *sighs* I'm so not here right now X_X This is my conscience. No joke. I can see the screen, and I know what I'm writing... But it isn't ME. You know what I mean? *sighs* perhaps not. Nevermind, I'm going crazy. That's the only explanation.

Maybe I should go lay down before my game and rest. I need it so I can concertrate tonight. I haven't scored for 2 games. It's a home game again. So I wanna be able to do my best for my fellow distract citizen. *smiles* I'll comment you all first. Then I shall lay down. Wish me luck on my game! I'll have our results posted tomorrow ^_^

Song- Newport Living (Cute Is What We Aim For)
Time- 3:23pm
Mood- Depressed
Snapple Cap- Bamboo makes up 99% of a panda's diet.
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