Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Wow
I didn't know my body was physically capable of doing that... lol, 2 in the morning.... tuesday, all of my friends are leaving for a week, it's gonna be fun, oh well.... I guess I'll have to hang out with erica and her dad and brett... bleh... I get this weird feeling that I might not even miss my friends when they are gone, but last time I didn't really think about it and when a friend was gone for a night I missed em... I have mentally prepared myself and I am now determined to keep myself occupied and keep my mind off of all of them... DDR, guitar hero... yeah...

I know how I want to spend my money, I am not trying to waste it but at 80 bucks per pay check every 2 weeks, it makes it virtually impossible to save up for college... I still got a list of things I want along side expenses... to get everything I want at the moment, it will cost me near a grand anyway...

My dad doesn't want my friends coming over anymore... I think it's ultra ghey.... haha... I have friends over like for maybe 2 hours per day or so.... that isn't so bad, he should be thankful I don't bring a friend home everyday for supper... and what the fuck you fuckin' faggot, don't say that about her... it's bullshit and you know it.... why can't you let my friends be and let them be who they are? why don't you just fuck off and die? Whatever...
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Sunday, May 6, 2007

Where are you now?
Where are you now? driving? at home? just suddenyl felt somehting weird... didn't make much sense... still doesn't.... thinking.... slot on my mind... even more on yours? maybe... who knows? god? yeah, he must, or do you hide from him aswell? it won't work y'know... no matter what it is that you are keeping from me, I won't force it out of you... I care about you and I will never do anything to put you in an uncomfortable position...

I saaw spiderman 3 last night, it was pretty good... worth the 10 bucks
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Saturday, May 5, 2007

Beheaded
Mommy doesn't have a head any more
Keep it underneath my bed on the floor
Well thats alright though, thats OK
She never really used her head anyway

Daddy called me a silly bore
Bet he won't say that any more
Cause the way his body is severed in two
His vocal cords are gonna be hard to use

Beheaded, watch you spurt like a garden hose
Beheaded, bloody mess all over my clothes

Watch my girlfriend come to the door
Chop off her head, she falls to the floor
Well watching my baby's jugular flow
Really makes my motor go

Wrap a towel round the bloody stump
Take my baby's body to the city dump
Then wipe the mess off the bloody axe
Scoope all the heads into my burlap sack

Beheaded, watch her squirt like a garden hose
Beheaded, bloody mess all over my clothes

All my collection, adorns my room on bamboo poles
Used to be a little, but a little got more and more
Now I'm craving yours

Night brings bad dreams, bad dreams with guillotines
Night brings bad dreams, bad dreams with guillotines

Off with her head
Off with her head
Off with her head
Off with her head
Off with her head
Off with her head

Find another victim for my machine
Put him in a home-made guillotine
And now the blade falls, gonna need a casket
Watch the head plop in a wicker basket

Leave the house at a quarter to four
Come back with sixteen or more
Cause the more I want, the more I see
I got a funny feeling coming over me

Beheaded, watch you squirt like a garden hose
Beheaded, bloody mess all over my clothes
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Trust issues
Don't we all have trust issues? whether it be with our friends... co-workers... collegues... even family? and worst of all with those we truely care about... I have never trusted a person further than I could throw em... I am now starting to put a little bit of trust into one person... I am scared... will it bite me in the ass? who knows? maybe it won't bite me in the ass but rather she will stab me in the back... I don't see a reason why she would though.... she said she puts a little more trust in me everyday.... and the least I can do is offer a little bit back... I am ready for the worst and braced for the worst offence of my life... but I trust her...
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Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Lewis's 2nd song...
I bit off your fucking babys head and had sex with it
It was having a fit and I came everywhere because it turned me on so fucking much
I went outside in the garden and rubbed my cock in some dog shit
It felt so fucking good, then I dug up my pet chinchilla and fucked it
Then I pissed all over my mum and she licked dog shit off my dick


Thank you lewis.... sorry guys, I will make up a new song in my own words for you guys later...
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Depressed
Been feeling a little down lately.... don't know why.... and not even lately.... it happened kind-of suddenyl, today in english class, I was sitting there and all of a sudden it hit me.... everyhting all at once, everything that is messed up, everyone that dislikes me for who I am and the few that do... just got me really down... Oh well...
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Tuesday, May 1, 2007

Yeah?
so? you think you are the only one who has to deal with other's problems? maybe you think that because you are the only one who finds it pointless... I like trying to help them.... don't say their problems become yours, because they don't, they stay their's as long as it's a problem. I don't know if you emant something else when you said it and I am thinking that maybe you did, but the way out came out sounded really bad. and I really don't think they were using this as an excuse to be out of class.... honestly, it was me who went to get them... well josh anyway... there was me, brett winona, josh, katelyn and Yuki... yuki and katelyn had valid reasons to be out of class... I know maybe me and brett had almost nothing to do with it, but I know taht having me and him around helped them get through it... katelyn stood there and held on to me for a few minutes, crying on my shoulder.... I seem to be good for that... I just hope Colin and David will be alright...
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Detention...
Almost over.... watch the clock tick... peek at you.... wait, look around the room... homework done.... nothing left..... just waiting.... kind of like purgatory.... only worse... ever so lame.... almost over...
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Monday, April 30, 2007

Sorry...
Don't read too much into my posts, I normally don't even believe half of what I say except for the moment that I am writing it, don't be mad at me, don't get pissed, don't be sad or upset. I want you to be happy and nothing else... I think that this is one prmoise that I can truely make... I will always love you and want only what is best for you and will make you happy even if I disagree with it at times... I'm sorry...
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Sunday, April 29, 2007

Why?
why am I like I am? I am so unattractive in everyway... why can't I be a good looking guy? without my acne and without 50 pounds I might be, but that isn't the case.... why can't I be good looking like kyle? why can't I be cool like greg? why can't I be wise like brandon? I am just loud.... I play drums and yell, I have no features that stand out like those guys, kind of gets me down sometimes... meh, I'm bitching a bit too much lately, eh? lol, well, cya guys later.
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